Personally, I prefer to believe in the 'God of Joy'. After all, humans have feelings of reverence for anger.

[If what the 'God of Joy' said is true, then on the night of the 10th, the 'I' that Lianwen was tracking may be some kind of incarnation of the 'God of Anger'. Exists to deceive the romance. 】

Dare to deceive Lianwen, as soon as I thought of this, I clenched my fists fiercely, wanting to hit something hard.

"No, you may have been deceived. That world is not a world of destruction—"

How do I explain this? Obviously, I am out of the situation.

"I'm sorry, I made you bear it before."

"What?"

"You have also been cursed, in order to prevent me from losing control of my emotions, go to the 'Shadow World' instead of me to release my emotions, the 'Shadow World' must be terrible."

I don't know what she's talking about, until she disappears, she doesn't have the so-called emotional out-of-control, and there is no situation where I release my emotions on her behalf.

"The Shadow World is not a world of destruction, and it's not bad at all, except for no one, everything is exactly the same here."

“…… That's impossible. ”

"It's true, you didn't cause all this, you were deceived."

I must prove to him that as long as I can reach the Shadow World with her now, everything she knows will be broken.

"Wait a minute."

I tried to walk in with her, but she stopped me.

"Don't ...... Touch me now. ”

She made a defensive stance, her eyes darkened, and the 'black light' on her body became more and more dazzling.

The black smoke around the 'black light' became more and more intense, forming an encirclement, as if it was about to swallow Lianwen.

What can I do.

I wanted to do something.

I did want to do something, or I wouldn't be here.

I also knew what I had to do, a long time ago.

I have never changed, as in "the past and the present". Seven years ago, when I first met Lianwen, I have retained my original feeling until now. It was a vague, inexplicable feeling that pushed me to protect her, a feeling that forced me to break my own rules again and again, to speculate about her feelings, to intervene in her heart, to interfere with her actions. It's not like me, but it's me.

I don't want to let my actions become 'above board', 'in the limelight', or even profiting from it. I just want to blend in with the crowd and enjoy the society. I just want to have her by my side during this process. This is my selfishness, and for the sake of this selfishness, I have to care about her thoughts.

But in the face of more serious things, I am willing to give up this selfishness, even without her company, I hope she can smile and integrate into this world. I also struggled with this, and even didn't dare to do it because I was timid and afraid.

The first time I saw her, I was attracted by her starry eyes, and in order not to dim them, and in order to continue their light, I needed to create darkness and let darkness stimulate the birth of light.

Even now, I didn't think I would have to do it.

["Auntie died. ”】

I say these five words calmly, which may be the direct cause of the current situation.

"You see. Yes, it's been so long. ”

Lianwen tugged at the corners of her mouth stiffly.

"I've been to your house. The picture of my aunt on the desk is missing. ”

When I was on Dongyang Road, I felt that Lianwen's expression was wrong, and the last time she showed this expression was when she learned that her aunt was hospitalized. So I went to her house that night, and I thought her desk was emptyer than ever, and when I thought about it, I realized that there was a lack of picture frames, and she had always put a picture of the mother and son on the desk. And the desk at that time. There is nothing but textbooks, novels, photo albums, notebooks.

Puzzled, I went to the hospital on the morning of the 10th, the day after Lianwen disappeared, and inquired about the situation as an aunt's friend, confirming this speculation.

"Really? You're trespassing on a private house. ”

She laughed playfully, with an indescribable bitterness in her laughter.

She didn't tell me the news. Not only that, but she still went to school as usual, came to my house to cook as usual, and played with me as usual. It's like it didn't happen.

She's always been that kind of person.

Bury everything inside.

Bear everything on your own weak shoulders.

"It's weird. It's obviously a very sad thing. I couldn't cry. ”

Her voice trembled slightly, and her tone was full of self-reproach.

"I don't feel bad. Instead, I felt angry. ”】

“……”

This must be the effect of the 'God of Anger', deliberately directing Lianwen's emotions towards anger. When I think of this, my anger doesn't come to a point.

"I felt that I was so useless, I couldn't do anything, not only could I not save my biological mother, but I couldn't even make her happy. - Eh, Qinghe, do you know? Every time my mother sees me, she is not as happy as seeing you. I'm very jealous of you. ”

Her wry smile made me feel very distressed.

It's my fault, something I didn't fix in elementary school.

"No matter how much I worried about my mother, she was getting more and more depressed every day. I don't know what I've done wrong, I've really tried my best, is it because I didn't achieve my dreams? ”

……

["Is it because of that accident——? As soon as I thought of this, I realized that there was black smoke swirling around me, and a disgusting voice inside kept telling me: Yes, yes, yes. ”】

She widened her eyes with rage, grabbed her hair with both hands, and said bitterly.

"I'm sorry."

I bowed my head deeply and uttered these three words, I had never felt so sad to apologize before.

"No, it's not your fault. Do you know why I don't want to tell you these things? ”

Hearing her say this, I raised my head, and a bad feeling came over me.

"If I tell you, you'll think it's your fault. Then take the initiative to help me take it. You're always like this, a good old man who is cold on the outside and hot on the inside. [-It's the same for everyone.] ”】

"That's not right."

"It meant to be. [What is your affection for me? ”】

She shook her head desperately and uttered the words in an almost shouting tone.

It's easy to respond to her feelings, but it can be a hindrance. Holding me back has completely broken our relationship.

The current situation is to repeat the mistakes of the past, repeating the farce of the spring outing in the sixth grade of primary school.

"My feelings for you are complicated."

I calmly replied that now was not the time to be in a hurry.

["It's not complicated, your feelings for me are guilty. ”】

She let out a long sigh of relief and tried to calm herself.

"You're so nice to me, just because you're guilty about that bombing. You don't really have any other thoughts about me, you didn't have it in the first place, and in the end it's just my own self-performance. ”】

She smiled wryly and told me about my crimes.

It's my fault, it's my fault that I rarely express my emotions.

"No matter how hard I try, you don't have feelings for me. Like my mother, no matter how hard I try, it is difficult to change my sincerity. - Eh, Qinghe. Am I really that useless? ”

Her tears were already rolling in her eyes, this was the second time I had seen her tears so far, she had always been an optimist, and no one had ever been able to feel her heart.

[I can clearly feel it, but I am a sinner who is unwilling to interfere with others and chooses to stand by and watch. 】

"Even if I take a bath with you and bite your ear while you're asleep, don't you feel it?"

That's not right, that's excessive. Is there still a place she cares about? It's like a bolt from the blue.

"I think what you think is exactly the opposite of what I think."

In the face of silence, I squeezed out this sentence.

All I can do is break down our relationship once again, let it be shattered completely, even if there are no tools, even if it will break the head, and let everything start again, but whether this time I will be able to build a new edifice is still unknown. I'm mentally prepared for failure.

The love essay that always imposes anger on herself and makes herself bear is definitely not what she should be. I know I'm thinking about it in a very ego way, but it's really what I think.

If anger is inevitable, let him pass it on to me.

["The origin of the group is because of my feelings for you. ”】

Hearing me say this, Lianwen showed a puzzled expression.

I picked it up in my backpack and took out a magazine from it, which was very special, a five-year-old magazine. The cover reads "Manga Weekly", which is something that Qiao Mu lent me. There are not only serialized "Evil Dragons", but also many romance comics and fantasy comics.

I opened the magazine in front of Lianwen, who was very puzzled by my actions.

"This comic was something I read in the sixth grade of elementary school, and there was a love comic called "Love and Romance" serialized here, and there was a scene in it that stood out to me."

I said slowly.

["The hero saves the heroine in an explosion crisis, and the heroine falls in love with him because of it. ”】

……

["At that time, I was touched and naively thought that this method would work. ”】

I faced the love essay and mustered up the courage to say it.

["So I decided to cause an explosion and protect you in the explosion, so that you like me because of it, so that I have a chance to confess to you."] ”】

Looking at the love essay that couldn't be bridged, I almost forced myself to say this sentence.

["So, that explosion was not an accident, it was deliberately caused by me and Qiao Mu. ”】

Lianwen froze in place, not knowing how to react.

["The packaging of the light-emitting tube says that this chemical agent is easy to explode at high temperatures, and it is precisely because we see this that we feel that we can use it to scare you. ”】

I tried to make my narrative logical.

"Liar, right...... You must be lying to me. You're always ......."

It was a long time before she took a few steps back and said in a trembling voice.

"Auntie, I also know about this."

I pulled out another item from my bag, a notebook that looked so old that its original blue color had almost disappeared.

"You should remember this."

"Mommy's ...... Notebook? ”

"When I was a child, when I went to your store, I often saw my aunt taking this kind of notebook to keep accounts, and this is one of them, which she handed over to me by herself."

"Why ......"

"When I was in elementary school, I didn't have much pocket money. Can't afford that many 'high-tech' light-emitting tubes. So I had to go to your grocery store and ask my aunt for credit, which was the credit record at that time. ”

"But that doesn't mean ...... either"

"What is recorded above, on April 8th, Qiao Mu and I paid for on credit in the grocery store - six light-emitting tubes."

……

["And a bag of quicklime"]

I pointed to the contents of the notebook and conveyed this message to Lianwen.

"My sixth-grade science class said that lime can release heat violently when exposed to water, so we wanted to use this method at the time. First, sprinkle lime on the lamp and put it inside the stone god, and when you water it, it causes heat release and makes it explode. ”

"Of course, we didn't expect the explosion to be so powerful that it would cause—"

"That's it."

Lianwen interrupted me

"I see...... You ......"

It's actually because of this kind of thing that the dream is shattered, and no one can stand it.

"You're amazing."

She looked at the sky and said with a sigh:

"It's a mistake to know you. ”】

I put my hands in my pockets, and what I was about to say was completely over.

"But, fortunately, it's you. ”】

Her cheeks were slightly red, her two thin lips were gently raised, and under her long eyelashes, a pair of crystal glass balls seemed to reflect the entire starry sky, encompassing everything into her world.

Suddenly, the 'black light' and black mist slowly detached from her, forming a strangely shaped entity behind her.

“…… Let's go, and we'll talk about the rest later. ”

This should be the product of the concretization of the emotions of the love text. Without saying a word, I stepped forward and grabbed Lianwen's wrist.

The black mist formed the beast's head, and its eyes glowed a terrifying red light.

There is no black light on Lianwen's body, instead of a pink fluorescent, just looking at it gives me a sweet feeling, maybe it's my illusion.

I picked up the tram and rode it as fast as I could, holding Lianwen with my left hand and letting her sit in the back seat.

The black mist forms a beast of prey, which looks like a wolf and a lion, a terrifying creature that does not exist in the world.

The beast roared, and the surrounding space was immediately swept into endless darkness.

I twisted the throttle all the way down, and we shot out like an arrow from a string, like an arrow from the string.

"Where are we going?"

Lianwen put her arms around my waist, and because the wind was too loud, she leaned her lips close to my ear and asked softly.

This action made me tremble.

"I ...... Probably mentally knowing. ”

This thing is a product of the 'God of Wrath', and he must find a place where he can't interfere.

To say where that place is.

I remembered that Lily of the Valley once said that when she came to this world, the first thing she saw was a person staring at the yellow curtain, and then ran all the way down to the road.

I think it should be China's 'Jade Emperor', and running all the way down the mountain should be going down.

The only thing I know of that meets this condition is the temple on M-shaped mountain, where I first met Koshibun.

If that is the gateway to the world's switch, then the products of the 'God of Wrath' should not be able to interfere there.

I skillfully drove the tram through the streets at top speed. But now I'm not alone.

Surprisingly, I ran all the way down the road and didn't see any pedestrians. Where the hell did the people of Chisugi City go?

Theoretically, this should be 'the world'.

I remembered what the 'God of Joy' said, and the 'God of Rage' probably wouldn't have exerted special abilities on Kofumi alone. If you want to conquer a world with 'anger', there should be others who need it.

The 'black light' is so conspicuous that other people with special abilities should also notice it. But now there is no movement. Could it be that they are not in Qianshan City? Quite possibly, after all, the world is so big.

I didn't have time to think about it that much, so I drove along Central Avenue and headed east.

It's the shortest path – it's too bad.

I suddenly remembered that the G-750 bridge on the east side of Sendo Avenue was under construction, and I had to make a detour to Tiancheonji Road.

From the rearview mirror, you can see the approaching beast. The longer it drags on, the worse it will be for us.

What to do?

……

Thinking about it, I was already driving to the intersection of Tiandi Road.

I slowed down and made a little time for myself to make a final decision.