Chapter 68: I'm Still Me
"Well, no. I don't want them to be unhappy. Hearing her grandmother's inquiry, little Lori was silent for a moment, then shook her head, not intending to disturb her friends.
"That's right, but even if you don't say goodbye, you'll be unhappy to know that you're leaving them." Noticing her granddaughter's silence just now, grandma's eyes flashed with a hint of distress, and then she comfortingly touched Little Lori's head and opened her mouth to persuade.
"I know, but I can't see it either." Understood what grandma meant, and a bright smile bloomed on little Lori's face. But she didn't change her decision.
"Alright, let's go back then. I'll make noodles for you tonight. Noticing the smile on her granddaughter's face, which clearly did not intend to change her mind, the grandmother sighed lightly and said with a smile.
I thought about it so much at a young age, and I didn't know if it was a good thing or a bad thing. If she could, in fact, grandma still hopes that her granddaughter can grow up happily like an ordinary child. But...... Alas.
"Noodles? Are you sure? I want poached eggs, the kind that will come out, and I want two. Hearing her grandmother say that she would make noodles at night, little Lori's eyes shone brightly, and her face also showed a strong sense of anticipation.
"Okay, good, two poached eggs that will flow out. What a gluttonous cat. Seeing the anticipation on her granddaughter's face, Grandma's face also showed a kind smile. In order to make her granddaughter happy, the only thing she can do now is this.
"Hey, hey, hey." I didn't mind accepting my grandmother's evaluation of the little gluttonous cat.,Little Lori took grandma's right index finger and walked towards the outside of the kindergarten together.。 When she was about to leave the kindergarten, little Lori finally couldn't help but look back.
has been in kindergarten for several years, and Xiaoyun and Yingying are still in class. This place, I will always remember, all the time, absolutely will never forget. We'll always be good friends, right?
With a hint of sadness, a hint of nostalgia, and a hint of determination. The backs of an old and a young man left the kindergarten and gradually disappeared at the end of the street.
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"I'm ...... Crying? It's strange why I dream like that. ”
Around four o'clock in the morning, when the sky was still dark, Ning Shuangshuang had already woken up from his sleep. Feeling the faint moisture on his face, Ning Shuangshuang reached out and touched his face, but what he got in his hand was a water stain.
Wiping his face and wiping all the water stains on his face, Ning Shuangshuang looked at the ceiling above his head in the dark, but his mind was still echoing the scenes he dreamed of just now, which were memories that 'didn't belong to her'.
She can only use memory to describe last night's dream, because that dream is so real, so real that even if she has been awake for a while now, Ning Shuangshuang still remembers the scene in the dream.
Moreover, the people who appeared in the dream, Ning Shuangshuang also knew them. Grandma, herself, and Duanmuyun and Hua Yingying, who just met yesterday. Could it be that they are really their acquaintances?
If the dream just now really belonged to Ning Shuangshuang's memory, Ning Shuangshuang would have to completely overturn her own initial guess. Perhaps, she is not a time-traveler at all, or rather, she is not at all what she thinks she is, she only crossed into this world a month ago.
"Ha, at a time like this, I suddenly showed me such a memory, and that feeling, that behavior, and that kind of character. It's exactly like myself. With a light sigh, Ning Shuangshuang rolled over and got out of bed, put on the slippers next to the bed and walked towards the windowsill of the bedroom.
With a squeak, the outward-opening window, which was very rare in this era, was pushed open by Ning Shuang in both directions, and a cool morning breeze blew in from outside the window, making Ning Shuangshuang habitually shrink his neck, even if it was the unfinished summer of October, it was still a little cold in the early morning.
"There are so many stars." Picking up the coat hanging on the chair and draping it on himself, Ning Shuangshuang looked up at the sky outside the window. In the early hours of the morning, the stars in the sky were particularly shining, twinkling and covering the entire sky.
Since gasoline and diesel vehicles have been completely replaced by new energy vehicles, the earth's environment is gradually improving, and the environmental protection association has been strongly supported by the alliance, and now the earth is definitely one of the best planets in the whole galaxy.
Unlike the modified Moon and Mars, the Earth itself is a planet suitable for human survival, and with intentional protection, the Earth's environment is indeed much better than that of the Moon and Mars. Although the level of technology is also affected by environmental factors, it cannot be compared with the two neighboring planets.
"I'm really stupid, whether I'm the original Ning Shuangshuang or not, I'm still me." Quietly looking at the sky above his head, after looking at it for a long time, when the sky began to gradually glow, Ning Shuangshuang suddenly laughed, amused by his cranky thoughts just now.
The dream last night gave Ning Shuangshuang a very real experience, and also made her clearly understand the original Ning Shuangshuang. And this understanding made her realize that the original Ning Shuangshuang was exactly the same as the current Ning Shuangshuang in terms of habits and personality.
This made Ning Shuangshuang begin to wonder if the original Ning Shuangshuang was originally himself. I didn't cross over a month ago at all, but I crossed over much earlier.
Because young children's brains can't withstand the memories of adults, they will gradually grow from a blank state like ordinary children?
However, although there is no memory, the habits and personality of the original decades have still been maintained, and this will lead to the problem that his personality and habits are exactly the same as the original Ning Shuangshuang.
And now I will suddenly lose the memory of Ning Shuangshuang's growth for more than ten years, is it because the memory that I couldn't bear is enough to bear, so I have restored the memory of the original era, but because of the conflict of memory, the memory of this era has disappeared?
If that's the case, then last night's dream is a memory left by me when I lived in this era, probably because I was stimulated in some way, or maybe it was also time to recover and began to recover gradually?
It is very likely that if this is the case, maybe for a long time in the future, Ning Shuangshuang will have dreams as real as yesterday. Perhaps, the memories that originally belonged to this era will gradually be recalled by themselves.
In fact, Ning Shuangshuang really guessed correctly, because in the next few days, she did dream every day, and each time the dream was different, but all of them were the memories of Ning Shuangshuang's growth for more than ten years.
As for the appearance of this memory dream, in the end, it was Ning Shuangshuang of the traverser who began to accept the memory of Ning Shuangshuang in this world. Or Ning Shuangshuang, who was originally a baby, began to gradually recover his memory, probably no one can know. At least Ning Shuangshuang himself can't be completely sure.
However, I don't know what the reason is, and I don't know what kind of state I am in, which has no effect on Ning Shuangshuang.
Because, she clearly knows that she is still herself, and she has always been here. That's enough, her personality and habits are all Ning Shuangshuang, whether it is Ning Shuangshuang in the past or Ning Shuangshuang now, she is still this Ning Shuangshuang.