Today, one of my high school classmates suddenly told me that she was going to do an internship and asked me where my internship was.

At that time, I was confused, isn't there still a class to attend in the second semester of my junior year?

After chatting, I found out that they started their internship in the second semester of their junior year, and my major was an internship in the first semester of their senior year.

And as you know, now that I have graduated from college, I can hardly find any good jobs, so the graduate school entrance examination is certain.

My family is also more ...... I'm not that rich, and my parents pay for college, but I have to earn my own living expenses.

I used to rely on that movie to learn the system, and now I rely on that infinite live broadcast that is being serialized.

When the classmate asked me before, I was coding words, and my mood instantly became chaotic, and I couldn't code it at all, and finally I didn't have the heart to check the typos of a chapter in the manuscript, so I uploaded it in a hurry.

Just a few days ago, I was thinking about continuing to write this book.

Chatting with that classmate today, I suddenly realized, or rather, I suddenly want to realize that I don't have time!

I'm already in the second semester of my junior year, and I'm going to intern in the second half of the year, and I'm going to take the graduate school entrance examination, but I'm not ready for anything, what should I take to intern, what to take to graduate school?

Of course, even if I pass the graduate school entrance examination, I can't get ahead, and I can only find a job with a monthly salary of several thousand.

Maybe if I keep writing novels, I'll make more money after the same amount of time, but who knows for sure the future?

Maybe even if I insist on writing novels, five years later, I will still earn 1,000 yuan a month by relying on 600 full attendance, how dare I imagine such a scene!

I didn't dare to think about it before, and I didn't want to think about it, but after talking to that classmate today, I realized that I had reached the point where I had to think about it.

Really, for several hours, my heart was heavy, I couldn't go down the code, and I didn't even turn on my phone.

I didn't think about anything, because the fear had completely filled it, and it even spread straight out.

For more than 20 years, this is the first time I have felt this way, the feeling of depression as if I couldn't breathe, the sense of fear that I can't explain why.

Even a few hours ago, I didn't want to play with my phone, watch videos, and gather information for writing a novel......

But what's the deal with the sudden sense of fear?

Why should I be afraid?

Now I'm not a kid, even if my grades are poor, even if I can't pass the exam, my parents won't scold me and beat me, but why should I be afraid?

What the am I afraid of?

So, really, really sorry, guys, abandon the book, I won't change the book.

The reason is so simple and ridiculous, I don't even dare to write, it's just a novel, I don't dare to continue writing, heh......

Of course, the book of Infinite Live will continue to be written, after all, I rely on it for my daily meals now.

If you are reading two books at the same time, please continue to support me!