It's a bit cold on the streets of Huangpu at half past nine in December, and if the weather forecast is accurate, the temperature should be around 6 degrees now. But Xie Jiaming's heart was even lower than this temperature, and slowly frost began to condense on it, so cold that even his movements began to become stiff and slow.

Ji Lan didn't stop from beginning to end, slowly with his hands behind his back, the posture of a girl's step, step by step, but Xie Jiaming felt that he couldn't keep up with the rhythm. Just like Ji Lan dragging Xie Jiaming forward, the two of them passed by the side of countless pedestrians and walked for a while.

Xie Jiaming finally thought of what to say, and he should still try to change the atmosphere in a joking tone, he said haha: "Hey, why is the magnetic field wrong all of a sudden, it was all fine before." ”

Ji Lan shook his head: "It's not all of a sudden. She said, "I know you've been thinking a lot about it for the past few months, and I've hesitated too, have you ever noticed that every time you want to go any further, I've instinctively avoided it?" ”

"But we still had a lot of fun chatting, and I could tell you liked it when we went dark together."

"Let's sit down and talk." Ji Lan found a bench on the side of the street.

Xie Jiaming wanted to wipe the chair first, no matter what, he still had to have a demeanor, but unfortunately he found that he didn't have a tissue or handkerchief on his body, anything that could be wiped.

Ji Lan has it, there is nothing in the girl's bag, she took out a tissue and wiped it for Xie Jiaming by the way: "Sit down." ”

"Hmm...... Thank you. ”

It's actually quite powerless.

The two sat down side by side and officially entered the atmosphere of the meeting and consultation.

Ji Lan's sitting posture was very upright, showing her good tutor: "Jiaming, I mean, I think we can be good friends, I hesitated, but I also feel that I should make it clear to you." ”

"Why......"

"Listen to me first, and I'll tell you what I think...... I had a lot of fun playing games with you, and I don't deny or hide that. I used to play games very rarely, when I went to school, it was just at home and school, and when I was in college, except for my roommates who went out to play with me, I usually went to the library to read books and go to the classroom for self-study, which was a bit monotonous and boring. ”

"That kind of life is a habit, I don't like it, but in fact, there is nothing else to do, bars, KTV or something, and I'm not very good at socializing. You have taken me to a very interesting corner of life, and now I also like to play games, which makes life a little more flavorful, and I am really happy when I play with you. ”

"But playing games together and living together are two different things."

"Playing games is fun, that's the spice of life but it's not life after all, as a girl, if it's looking for the other half of life, we want to rely more."

"Jiaming, I hesitated before, I was thinking that I was happy to play games with you, does it mean that we will be happy to live together. Things in life are much more complicated than games, and they take so much longer than a game, and you can teleport to save me when someone is chasing me, but what about life. ”

"It's okay." Xie Jiaming said.

Ji Lan shook his head: "Look at you, you boys are so emotional, you blurt out anything, you can, you are willing, you will work hard...... It's all based on the passion of the moment, but have you really thought about how to do it? ”

It's like Yin Tianqiu said to Liu Piaopiao that he wanted to raise her, and blurted out...... If you hadn't met Cuckoo, the ending of the story wouldn't have been comic at all......"

"It's different, Yin Tianqiu has been working hard, before he met Liu Piaopiao, he was that kind of person. Even if he hadn't met Du Juan, I think he would have met Du Peony, Du Narcissus. ”

Ji Lan continued: "I was thinking before, if we get married, the future lifestyle is to go to work and get off work, and then come home to play games together, or we can also go to fun places together, but only play...... Is it possible for us to form a normal and stable family now? ”

Xie Jiaming frowned and said, "Why now, that's for the future." ”

Ji Lan said: "Yes, it's the future, how should we judge the future, shouldn't it be judged now, you will say that you can work hard, from now on, but we are both 26 years old, and when we girls reach this age, we begin to have a sense of crisis, and it may be earlier." ”

"Girls tend to mature earlier than boys, and they look at boys of the same age, sometimes like they are looking at children, and there are a lot of ......."

"Childish place, isn't it?" Xie Jiaming said that he was a little weak.

The so-called naivety, he admits it, perhaps the most naïve thing is not like the emotions written on his face at this time, or like the promise just now blurted out, but he didn't really, think about how his life should be. Of course, occasionally his mind touches that boundary, but he soon retreats, because he himself doesn't know how to change it and become what he should be happy in the eyes of others. More often than not, he will be a little self-paralyzed and think that he will be content to be carefree in this life, to be able to eat and wear and play his favorite games.

But that's the state of one person's life, and the state of two people, three people, and one family will not be like that.

Ji Lan didn't answer Xie Jiaming's rhetorical question, she said: "Jiaming, I'm not a woman who worships money, at least I don't think so, and I hope you don't look at me like that." ”

"I didn't...... No, it won't. ”

"I never thought about how rich I was going to live, how rich I was to marry. Wearing a brand-name brand or not is a luxury item, and I occasionally pass by a brand-name store and catch a glimpse or two, and I may be a little envious, but I don't think about buying it. I can't feel it if I'm a luxury car, I don't understand cars, and I listen to what they say, who can use it in the life of 100 kilometers of acceleration, it's nothing more than a matter of face. ”

"I never fantasize about living like that. But it doesn't mean that we can't have the pursuit of quality of life, more or less we should have. ”

"I get paid for my own work, which is not very high, but it is enough for my usual expenses. The family conditions are not enough to be more than enough, and I also live at home with no expenses for food and clothing, and I can save some money to make some life plans. I don't want to get married in the future, and when I am tired from working overtime on weekends, I want to hire a part-time worker and think about it, and I see a beautiful dress on the side of the street, which is not a famous brand but also costs a few hundred yuan, and I have to hesitate at that time. ”

"I'm not happy at work, I don't want to go to work, I plan to take a break for a while, I have to ask for leave in advance, interview first, find my next home, and think about taking a maximum of 15 days off, otherwise I can get my salary in the third month. Suddenly I wanted to travel on a whim, and I wanted to see a place I wanted to see, but not often, maybe once or twice a year, but I always thought about it, and I didn't make it in my last life. ”

"In the future, I will go to the suburbs with friends and couples to barbecue or something, and the grill ingredients should be put in the trunk of the taxi. If you get married and have a baby, you can't squeeze the bus or subway to the hospital for a prenatal checkup...... Jiaming, what do you think? ”

Xie Jiaming completely dimmed.

"It's not an overly demanding...... he said.

He knew that with Ji Lan's family conditions and her own income, she could live as she described. And his own family, from a small county town, although he is not a phoenix man, his parents have their own retirement salaries, and they don't need to rely on him, but they can't give him any help. The best plan he had ever made before was that if the two of them worked hard together and could save 50,000 yuan a year, they would be able to pay a down payment for a small apartment in about three to five years away from the city center.

But why does he ask the other party to work hard with him, this is not a bloody story of a couple who obviously love each other but end up separating for practical reasons, this is not a matter of love that can overcome reality...... The script is different at all. Not to mention loving him, Ji Lan may not like himself, at most he has some good feelings, he himself doesn't know what shining points in him are worthy of being liked by others.

Honesty, kindness, no bad habits, no bothering and not playing around, aren't these basic requirements? Why doesn't Ji Lan like a person who also has these qualities and has better objective conditions.

Girls don't have to like him like this...... Dick silk, as long as you don't like yourself, you dislike the poor and love the rich, you are at fault, you should be blamed, it shouldn't be like this.

Xie Jiaming was very disappointed, and even felt ...... Fail.

is not only for Ji Lan and this relationship that has no hope, but his twenty-six years of life.

He has never been cheeky, and he can't grit his teeth and promise that he will work hard and will definitely bring her the life she wants to live, he can't say it. He himself knows that if he can have that attitude and ability, why is it that after graduating for four years, his career is almost the same, and he is at most an experienced ...... in the company Employees at the bottom.

"I know." Xie Jiaming was uncomfortable and ashamed, and there was a trace of calmness in his complicated emotions. One of his personal philosophies of life is about powerlessness. Once he understands that something has happened and the result will not change with his subjective will, and decides that he is powerless, he will force himself to tell himself that it is useless to blame himself and never forget, and the only thing he can do is to choose.

His only option now is to accept it, while maintaining his decency and making the last bit of a good impression on the other party.

"If it were me, I probably wouldn't want to be with me."

Ji Lan looked up at the night sky, the clouds were dense, and she couldn't see any starlight, she said: "I'm happy to know you this year, but sometimes I feel anxious for you, Jia Ming, I think you have lived alone for too long or may not be able to adapt to the life of two people, and I feel a little sorry for you to be in such a state that has been floating, the game can be played for a lifetime, but it will not be the whole of life, you should have more time to come out and get in touch with real life more." Girls like to be down-to-earth, so as to bring them a sense of security. ”

"yes, I know."

"You should let them see the positive side of you."

"I'll think about ......"

"I don't think everybody has to have a certain level of income, because everyone has different material requirements, but more is always not bad. I don't think you are an incompetent person, you are smart, sensitive, active in thinking, and have wild ideas, maybe it's just that your current job is not so suitable for you, you can't use your talents, and you yourself lack passion. I can see that you are a little depressed and have no talents, and many times you can only devote yourself to the game and forget the boredom in life. ”

Xie Jiaming looked up at Ji Lan, because he found that Ji Lan knew himself better than he thought, and her words obviously refused to add comfort, but made him like her more. What a good girl, when he saw that many people on the Internet were rejected, the other party used meaningless excuses such as "you are actually a good person" to pretend to encourage.

Ji Lan is sincere, she has tried to understand herself, and she can also find the right place to encourage herself.

He was even more uncomfortable.

"Haven't you been making game mods, I've seen your stuff in FG's Innovation Works, in the special areas of Survival, Origin of Everything and Getaway, and I downloaded and installed it."

"I know, you told me."

"Helped you contribute a download."

"Thank you then."

"Since last year, hasn't the paid download MOD function been opened on FG, can you make money?"

"More or less a little, but not much, the person I know who earns the most in the circle is more than 10,000 yuan, 12,000, his MOD is really powerful, it's been more than a year, and this is still the most one."

"What about you?"

"My level is not as high as others, I made three paid ones, adding up to more than 600 yuan......"

"That's useless."

"It's a little better than before, it used to be downloaded for free, and I didn't even say thank you, and I wouldn't choose to make this thing if I really wanted to make money. The herring fish does this mainly to show their support for mod developers, and our users will be more attentive, probably because they have spent money, they will be very serious about giving more opinions, chatting and chatting and becoming friends. ”

"That's right, it's all done in my spare time, and if you can make money, even if it's small, it means it's useful. At least others can't do it, isn't that what makes you better than others? ”

"I actually...... I think so too. ”

"Haha......"

The atmosphere finally eased a bit.

Ji Lan said with a smile: "My family has arranged a few blind dates for me. ”

"Huh?"

"Ah what, ah, it's normal, at the age of 26, my family is also starting to get anxious, if it's okay, if you get along for another year or two, you'll be 28 years old, and if you don't get married, you'll be pointed at by others."

"Yes...... So what are you going to do......"

"I agreed, tomorrow Saturday, I will officially start my blind date career, I didn't expect me to come to this point."

"On your terms, you shouldn't go on a blind date."

"There's no way, the social circle is too small, and there is no other way to know the opposite sex except for the introduction of the family, otherwise it's a colleague of the company......"

"Hey, there's a lot of people in the company who like you."

"I know, but I don't feel like I can't help it."

"Then you made a successful blind date...... Will you start to deal with the object officially? ”

"Maybe, let's go and see it first, we have to look at the people first."

"Then if you get there, can I still talk to you?"

"That's up to you."

Ji Lan didn't mean to see whether Xie Jiaming was willing or not, but whether he could distinguish the attitude of getting along.

"I see."

"And what's next for you?"

"I've got to go back and think about it, think about what I'm good at."

"That's it."