After the first game, it is already the beginning of November, autumn may be the most beautiful season of the four seasons, in this harvest season, many people begin to harvest their own fruits, farmers harvest their own hard crops, businessmen harvest their own investment projects, students harvest their own academic results, lovers harvest their own brewing love.

Of course, there are also people who have no gain, such as Li Xin, the victory in the first game also belongs to his teammates, he only got some playing time in the second half, and his performance is not outstanding, it is unrealistic to just rely on Zhou Junyi's words to achieve the goal of catching up with Han Chongyu, so the next game is still a cold bench. And the results of the midterm exam are as dangerous as a hair hanging from a thousand pounds. Because of the beginning of the season, his father was busy discussing the basketball team with Tian Jianzhong and Mr. Zhao, the director of physical education and research, and was often not at home, Zhou Junyi seemed to be far away, and Li Xin returned to the loneliness of staying alone in the empty house, and Li Xin was not in a good mood during the harvest season.

Idle at home, Li Xin flipped through some old sports magazines, and when she flipped through one of them, three photos slipped out, which were the three photos that she stumbled upon when she was rummaging through the cabinets last time, and aroused the infinite longing of the teenager.

Li Xin thought hard, hoping to be able to remember the memory of his mother in the past, even if it was the slightest, what he needed most at this time was probably love, since he was a child, he saw that other children were led by their parents to go out to play, but he was only one person who stayed at home in a daze, until now, he continues to taste this mood called loneliness. The words became fewer, and in the end he hardly knew how to communicate with others, so he firmly sealed all his joys, sorrows, and sorrows, and became a person who was difficult to approach in the eyes of others.

Li Xin knocked on her skull fiercely, but she couldn't remember any memories of her mother, as if it had never happened, the memory was like a blank piece of paper, and it was a piece of paper that originally had beautiful pictures that was forcibly erased into a blank paper; Pictures disappear with eraser crumbs, memories fade with time, and teenagers hate to be more afraid of this blankness.

Finally, Li Xin gave up his memories and lay quietly on the bed, without memories, all he could do was to be in a daze, quietly watching the dark ceiling of the home to extend the only memories to fill the gap in his heart.

Li Xin thought of her mother, and then thought of Xiaoxue, the only one of her mother's posthumous photos on her mother's face did indeed have Xiaoxue's shadow, maybe because of this, Li Xin had a special feeling of closeness to Xiaoxue, hazy and ambiguous, and she didn't know what kind of emotion it was, is this love? Li Xin asked himself, but he couldn't tell himself the answer.

And in fact, in the first chance encounter with Xiaoxue, the boy had this feeling in his heart, and in retrospect, so many things happened one after another after meeting Xiaoxue: the top student who was drawn during the make-up class happened to be Xiaoxue, and Xiaoxue's house was Xiaoxue who turned over to him from the corridor, and the first contact distance was so close, and then he and Xiaoxue almost thought of looking at the photo to recognize each other again, Xiaoxue threw herself into her arms and shed tears, cheering for herself on the side of the field, the chance encounter with Xiaoxue in the video store, and the trip to Zhouzhuang, I only had a conversation with Xiaoxue under the starry sky, and I took a photo with Xiaoxue side by side in a fast food restaurant. Everything Li Xin secretly felt as if there was an arrangement, maybe this is what people call fate.

From time to time, Xiaoxue will come to the teenager's thoughts, for no reason, except for basketball and his mother, the teenager thinks most about his childhood sweetheart, relying on trivial memories supplemented by subjective imagination to make up for it, so as to spell out the beautiful scene of childhood. The young man savored the only precious memory left of this fruitful fruit, and his thoughts couldn't help but ripple because of it.

"What is she doing now? Watching TV with Mom and Dad? Or are you reading a book, will you think of me? ”

"Does he have a good feeling for me? How has she lived all these years? ”

"What does she like? Why did I never ask her? ”

What did she do with that hug? Is it just a childhood sweetheart recognizing? ”

The boy was immersed in a wonderful reverie and unconsciously fell asleep.

The next day, I came to school and announced the midterm exam results of several courses, and Li Xin smashed two exams in addition to the number of languages, and was in a terrible mood. At noon, when it was time for lunch, he saw another thing that made his bad mood worse: Li Xin, who was behind the long queue to buy food, accidentally glanced forward and actually caught a glimpse of Xiaoxue and Zhuo Yifan talking and laughing in the long queue to buy food, and after buying the meal, Zhuo Yifan took the initiative to help Xiaoxue get the food, and went to a secluded corner to sit down together and continue to talk and laugh, so unhappy.

Seeing this sudden scene, Li Xin's heart seemed to have been suddenly hit by a stick, very fragile, and easily broken. Li Xin has always doubted the relationship between Xiaoxue and Zhuo Yifan, and always felt that it was not as simple as ordinary friends between them, Xiaoxue always seemed to have special care for Zhuo Yifan in the basketball team, Zhuo would encourage him to get back up when he was depressed, and when he was not on the court, he almost cheered for Zhuo Yifan alone, always thinking that it was actually just a coincidence, of course, it was a conclusion after overcoming many suspicions and doubts.

Li Xin was at a loss in the queue for a long time, until someone pushed him and realized that he was still cooking.

I spent a difficult afternoon in all kinds of imagination, speculation, loss, and dazed mood, and returned home.

He didn't know how to deal with this situation, he had no way of knowing why he was in this mood, he couldn't even be sure if he was Ai Xiaoxue, but his heart was inexplicably uncomfortable, uncomfortable and uneasy.

And in the next week, three more days saw the same situation, and for Li Xin, his nerves almost collapsed.

How to deal with such a problem on his own, he has no experience in this area, he has almost no self-care and judgment in other aspects except basketball, he cannot make his own decisions whether to move forward or backward, he does not know what action he should take and when to avoid further development, and he has no way of knowing what is going on in the minds of others.

All he can do is to shut himself up deeply, not seeing anyone, not thinking about anything, not revealing any words or feelings, all but in his heart.

He told himself that maybe time would dilute the feeling, but he had no way of knowing how long it would be.

can't understand the cause of anything, can't predict the development of anything, all he can do is escape, in the eyes of ordinary people, this is an incredible thing, but for the teenager, this is him, a child who has been introverted and almost autistic since childhood, and no one has ever really understood him, just like he has never really understood others, no one has ever walked into his world in the seventeen years of his life, and no one even remembers his birthday, In a hurry, the flowering season has come to the rainy season.

During this week, Li Xin was in a trance, with no motivation for training and no energy in class.

He also refuses to talk to anyone, and his mood is extremely low.

"Stop, stop...... Li Xin, what are you doing, Zhuo Yifan's position is so good, you have to go out, you come down, Huangze Temple, go up for him. Li Xiaolong was extremely dissatisfied with his son's performance. The boy lowered his head, unwilling to see anyone, and returned to the sidelines with a dejected expression.

Li Xiaolong beckoned his son to sit beside him, although he was unwilling, Li Xin obeyed the coach's order.

"Did something happen in the past two days, you feel as if you have no soul!" My father was still watching the training on the field.

"I didn't ...... Nothing! The boy replied hesitantly, his voice so low that it was barely audible.

"You're my son, I don't know what kind of character you've been since you were a child? You're the kind of person who holds things in your stomach and doesn't want to tell anyone. ”

"Do you still blame me? Still reluctant to talk to me? Li Xiaolong had asked Li Xin in as kind and concerned tone as possible, which was very different from the image he had shouted on the court.

The "......" boy began to confront all the problems he was unwilling to face with silence again.

"Okay, you don't want to talk here, let's talk in a place where there are fewer people." Although his voice was still low, it was obvious from his tone that his father seemed to be a little angry.

"Xiao Tian, I'll leave the training here to you first, and I'll go out with Li Xin for a while!" After speaking, Li Xiaolong grabbed Li Xin's arm and walked out of the gymnasium.

The students had gone to study at night, so the playground outside the gymnasium was so quiet that only the father and son were left, and the lights of the gymnasium leaked out and shone on the two men's bodies, pulling two narrow shadows, a situation that is usually tense and even frightening in the movie.

"Okay, there's no one here, let's talk about what the hell is going on these days!" Li Xiaolong had already lowered his voice as much as he could.

"......" the boy remained silent.

was silent for a long time, but finally my father couldn't help it, and scolded loudly: "What kind of attitude do you have, do you like your character?" Did You Know? Your character will definitely hurt you, and you don't want to discuss anything with others, so you hold it in your stomach, are you very comfortable? Yes? Li Xiaolong's roar was like thunder, so much so that the players in the gymnasium stopped training after hearing it to see what was going on.

The boy raised his head, which had been low, and finally exploded: "What about you? Why do you want me to tell you about me, why do you never tell me? If I want to tell you what is in my heart, should you open your heart first! How do you make me trust you, how depressed I am, you know? ”

"The one I hate the most is you!" The young man wiped his tears and ran away again, and between the tightly locked eyebrows, he could read that the young man had grievances, complaints, and resentment in his heart. He didn't want to stay here, where he broke his heart again and again.

The owner of the only place where he could live has also left, so is he sleeping alone on the streets?