Chapter Ninety-Eight: White Fang's Father's Love (2)
"But I really didn't expect you, like me, to die so early······" After listening to Kakashi's past story, Shuo Mao sighed. He was only thirty-five years old when he was forced to commit suicide, but he didn't expect that Kakashi was not even twenty years old when he died in battle, and he had experienced so much sorrow and separation, and almost no lucky and happy thing happened.
Could it be that my suicide affected Kakashi's luck? Shuo Mao sighed inwardly, feeling guilty in the face of Kakashi, who was full of sorrow. Perhaps, in the first place, I should have been tougher instead of choosing to compromise. However, it's useless to say these things now, time can't be reversed, life can't be repeated, who said that he only knew how to kill the enemy at the beginning, and was full of beautiful fantasies about the top management of Konoha?
Shuo Mao's heart turned back and forth, his thoughts were like a tide, and finally turned into a sigh. Forget it, you don't need to regret the choices you made. The only consolation is that after so much grief, Kakashi's heart is even more resilient, and it's time to obtain the mystical inheritance of the Hagi Sword Technique, which is what I, as a father, should do!
"Father, I've always wanted to ask you." Seeing that Shuo Mao was lost in thought, Kakashi hesitated slightly, and finally asked, "Why did the heroic father, known as Konoha White Fang, ignore the important rules of the village and interrupt his mission in order to save his companions?" Otherwise, my father would not have attracted criticism, and he would have been forced to go to a dead end, I am very unwilling! ”
Kakashi's tone was flat, and he remembered that thunderstorm night when he was a child. He pushed open Shuo Mao's room and found his father curled up and silently dead, and the unwilling grief passed from toe to tiptoe. At that time, he clenched his fists so tightly and stood by his father's corpse all night until he was exhausted.
How many years have passed, and Kakashi's heart knot has been untied a lot, but the unwillingness to lose his father's love and honor has been engraved in his heart for a long time. Because Shuo Mao died in disgrace, he did not have a decent funeral after his death, and he was not even able to enter the mourning garden.
Even if Shuo Mao caused losses to the village, didn't Shuo Mao also make a great contribution to the village? Counting up, the merits still outweigh the faults. But in the handling of the White Fang suicide incident, the top management of Konoha did not make any statement and let it go. Shuomao's past merits are selectively forgotten.
Man, that's it, even if you do ninety-nine bad things and finally do one good thing, people are happy that the prodigal son has finally turned back; However, if you do ninety-nine good things, and at the last time you make a mistake and do a bad thing, and people criticize you with words and words, how can you learn badly?
When he was alive, Kakashi would definitely not tell anyone about these thoughts, not even Akai. Now, he thinks that he is dead, and he has seen Shuo Mao's soul again, and finally opens his heart and expresses his unwillingness.
"Really? Looks like you're having a hard time! Shuo Mao raised his head and said with a wry smile. Unwilling, yes, no one will be willing to suffer such a situation! Kakashi, it wasn't my intention to make you suffer so much, my intention was to allow you to grow up smoothly.
There were some things that Shuo Mao had hidden in his heart, and he didn't want to say too clearly to Kakashi. In a short time together, Shuo Mao has somewhat figured out Kakashi's character, and he may be a little unwilling in his heart, but Kakashi's love for Konoha deep down is undoubted. Tell Kakashi all the truth, how he will get along with his companions when he returns to the village, and maybe, in turn, he will suffer disaster.
Kakashi, still too young, how can he handle those two old immortals in Konoha? At the beginning, the task assigned to Shuomao by Tuan Zang and Ape Fei was a dead end. The reinforcements that had been promised were nowhere to be found, and what was even more strange was that Yunyin Village seemed to have received the news a long time ago and was waiting to ambush him Konoha White Fang.
Left or right, is that a dilemma? Task, or companion, is this more of a problem? Shuo Mao couldn't be clearer that this was a dead end, and no matter what he chose, he would be ruined.
Choose the mission, ignore the lives of his companions, and when he returns to the village, he will definitely be saddled with cold-blooded infamy, and who else will accept him. Choose a companion, abandon the task, and the result? The responsibility for the defeat in the battle was all on his head, and he couldn't say clearly, and no one would discuss the question of why Konoha didn't send reinforcements.
The strength and reputation of Konoha White Fang far surpassed that of the Hokage family, and the high-level Konoha finally destroyed the Great Wall with a little trick for the sake of Konoha stability. After Shuo Mao's death, the battle between Konoha and Yunyin Village continued for many years, and he did not take any advantage. Whose fault is this, Konoha's official history textbook is clearly written.
Shuo Mao's soul is pinned on Kakashi's spiritual sense, and the bystanders are clear, and they can be regarded as recognizing the sinister intentions of the Konoha higher-ups. Since Tuan Zang and Sarufei took power, they have always pulled one faction and fought another, and as long as there are forces in Konoha Village that have grown too fast, they will try their best to suppress them. The Uchiha clan is only afraid of the fate of the Buqimu clan.
Konoha, what's going on? Shuo Mao thought bitterly, there are so many genius ninjas in Konoha, why did they fall one after another after growing up, and the few young strong people who are still alive would rather wander around than live in the village.
"Kakashi, do you love the village?" Shuo Mao asked abruptly.
Kakashi was stunned, do I love the village? His eyes were a little confused, and he remembered Obito, Lin, and his companions in the village, and said, "I should love the village, because there are many companions in the village, they are all flesh and blood, affectionate and loving, and I love them, and I love the village." ”
Shuo Mao smiled with relief and said, "Kakashi, you love your companions, and you should be able to understand my choice. The village is too abstract and illusory, and even if there is love in the heart, this love must be implemented in concrete people and things. It is the friendship of the companions and companions of the village that will make people feel a sense of belonging to the village. Originally, I chose to save the lives of my companions, but if God had given me a chance to do it all over again, I think I would have made the same choice. ”
Although my saved companion came forward to accuse me, I knew that he was also involuntarily. These words in Shuo Mao's heart are clear only to him. How could a dignified generation of strong people in the ninja world commit suicide because they couldn't bear the accusations, can't they choose to fade out of Konoha and live in seclusion from now on? What really made Shuo Mao have to commit suicide was that Gen issued an ultimatum, whether to keep the big or the small, he had no choice.
Shuo Mao had no choice.
"But father, no matter what the outcome is, my father has done his best, and now I can finally understand my father, you are now my pride!" These words, after Obito and Rin's deaths, Kakashi has been brewing and imagining.
Understand, but if you know the shadow behind you, how else can you understand? There are some things that are better to know than to know. Shuo Mao smiled bitterly in his heart, accepted Kakashi's understanding, and said softly, "Thank you! ”
"Father······
"It's great to talk to you, thank you for forgiving me." Sakumo stopped Kakashi who wanted to continue talking, "That way I'll be able to go on my way with peace of mind, but before I get on my way, I have to give you a gift, it's a late father's love!" ”
Shuo Mao stood up and stared at Kakashi, smiling with relief, "Kakashi, it seems that today is still your birthday, but you have caught up with a good time!" ”
"Birthday? I forgot! Kakashi was surprised, how many children of parents who died early would care about their birthdays.
"But I can't forget it! Because ······" Shuo Mao hesitated for a moment, thinking to himself, because your mother had a difficult birth, and your birthday is also your mother's death day, how can I forget! But this matter, Sakumo could not mention it to Kakashi, he looked at Kakashi lovingly, and said, "Because······ I'm your father! ”