Little Luna's sudden death was an incomparably heavy blow to Fan Bizhuang, and he was extremely remorseful, he always thought that if he hadn't met Pablo's father and daughter, and hadn't invited them to come to the town to watch his game, then such a tragedy would not have happened.

Pablo and his daughter won't be in a car accident, little Luna won't leave, and Pablo won't have only one leg left, and he won't disappear abruptly...... Everything is going to be different.

Unfortunately, there are no ifs in this world.

And most importantly, all the players and coaches of Villarreal have talked to Fan Bizhuang more than once, giving him comfort and encouragement, but there has been no change in the slightest about Fan Bizhuang's state. Everyone didn't think that this car accident tragedy was Fan Bizhuang's responsibility, it was just an accident, after all, no one could predict natural and man-made disasters.

But it is obvious that Fan Bizhuang is drilling the tip of the horns by himself, but he is immersed in the world of self-blame and can't extricate himself.

No one can help him in this regard - Fan Bizhuang does not need the help of others, he rejects all the comforts of his friends and just wanders in his own world.

This is a very dangerous sign, if Fan Bizhuang is allowed to develop like this, maybe in the end, it will either be schizophrenia, or suffer from depression, and in the end, let alone return to the field, re-show the high level that a European golden boy should have, and even his football career will come to an end, and even more seriously, maybe his life will be threatened.

There are many people in the world who die by suicide because of depression, and there are many examples of this on the football field. Everyone is worried that maybe one morning, when they open the newspaper, they will find a similar news report - "So-and-so player swallowed a large amount of sleeping pills at night!" ", or "So-and-so player committed suicide by lying on the rails in the early hours of the morning!" ”。

Riquelme was also very worried about this, he had also talked to Fan Bizhuang between training, let's call it a conversation, if he was just talking alone, Fan Bizhuang listened with blank eyes, it would be counted.

But the result was just useless work, after he spoke almost dry, Fan Bizhuang just left without looking back, and the next day, it was still indifferent and silent.

Riquelme didn't think that his arrival this time would achieve any gratifying results, but he still came, anyway, Fan Bizhuang is his friend, he watched Fan Bizhuang step by step to today, watching him from a little rookie who didn't know anything, to become the hottest star in world football today, he felt that even if he wanted to leave, but before leaving, he should still talk to the other party.

He couldn't control what the outcome was, but he just wanted to have fewer regrets.

Riquelme found a small stool, sat down beside Fan Bizhuang, and looked at him straight like that, and I don't know how long it was, Riquelme felt that he could not be silent like this any longer, so he finally spoke up.

'Next season, there's a good chance we'll have to play in the UEFA Cup.'

This was Riquelme's opening remark, but Fan Bizhuang remained unmoved, so he shook his head and smiled, and continued, "Actually, it's not bad. Many years ago, we couldn't even play in the UEFA Cup. ”

"By the way, this year's top scorer in the Champions League, it has to be you. However, the league's top scorer may be a bit hanging. You've scored 32 goals, but Barcelona's Leo has scored 32 goals. Messi is very close, he has already scored 30 goals, and with one last game left, maybe he will score again and catch up. ”

Fan Bizhuang's league goals are stagnant in the top scorer charts, but Rao's 32 league goals also seem to be an astronomical number, which discourages most of the best goalscorers. is praised by the media as one of the "La Liga double pride". Messi, after moving forward this season, the number of goals has risen like a rocket, especially at the end of the season, it has ushered in a big explosion, scoring almost every game, so far, he is the second player in the league this season to push the number of goals to 30 - needless to say, the first is naturally Fan Bizhuang.

Messi is the closest player to Van Bizhuang's 32 league goals, and with the courage of the opponent's goal, there is no small hope of continuing to score in the final game, of course, if he wants to completely surpass Van Bizhuang, unless the opponent can score a hat-trick in the final round. That's not easy to do.

Riquelme has no prejudice against Messi, after all, Messi is also Argentine, and he is happy to see his junior play so well.

He just has an opinion about Barcelona, and that's exactly what he knows, Van Bizhuang, who has a similar experience to him, is also not interested in Barcelona.

In the past, whenever I had to play against Barcelona in the team, the two most excited people were Riquelme and Van Bizhuang.

Van Bizhuang will always say before the game that he will definitely score or that he will beat Barcelona to the head.

Riquelme said this to arouse Fan Bizhuang's emotions, but he was obviously disappointed, Fan Bizhuang still did not react at all, as if Messi scored 30 goals, or scored 300 goals, and snatched the top spot from his scorer list, as if it had nothing to do with him.

Looking at Fan Bizhuang, who was silently looking at the sky, Riquelme suddenly felt a little unsure of how to continue. Before he came, he thought of a lot of words, some comforting, some encouraging, some using the club as a shield to motivate him to cheer up, and some to show that his teammates needed him...... But at this moment, Riquelme really didn't know what to say more, he suddenly felt that these reasons, these comforts, were actually nonsense, and if it was useful, Fan Bizhuang would have already screamed and returned to his former state of high spirits.

After a long time, Riquelme sighed leisurely.

"You like this are really disappointing, and you're desperate enough."

Riquelme gave up persuasion and comfort, and he spoke very bluntly about his truest feelings. Then he stood up and prepared to leave. Because he feels that it is useless for him to stay here any longer, Fan Bizhuang is a person with a strong subjective consciousness, what he decides, others can't persuade him, just like now, the reason why he is decadent is not because of the voice of the outside world, but because he is willing to sink into it.

You can never wake up someone who is pretending to be asleep!

And Fan Bizhuang is now the one who pretends to be asleep with his eyes open!

Maybe in his heart, only pretending to be asleep, only hypnosis, and only forcing himself into a state of numbness can make his heart a little calmer.

"You know, Fan, I'm leaving after the last league game."

"In the future, you will only see me again when you go to South America. If you can wake up and want to go to South America. ”

Riquelme stood by the courtyard gate, he looked at the young man sitting in the courtyard, sighed again, and turned to leave.

It's just that what stunned him was that the moment he turned around, the familiar voice sounded abruptly, although dull and hoarse, but he knew that the owner of this voice was Fan Bizhuang.

"I'm sorry, Roman."

"I originally wanted to give you a parting gift, but now it seems that I can't do it."

Riquelme turned around in surprise and saw Fan Bizhuang looking at him, the young man's face was still indifferent, as if the words just now did not come from his mouth.

"You don't have to apologize, and you don't have to feel guilty. Not doing it this time doesn't mean it won't be possible in the future. I will remember the promise you made to me, as long as you get back on your feet and pick yourself up again, one day, you will get that trophy. I'll keep waiting, waiting for you to bring the trophy to me, and I'll accept this belated gift with a smile! ”

Riquelme said urgently, he used such words to "inspire" the other party, he hoped that this stubborn teenager could regain his glory because he had a goal.

He saw only Fan Bizhuang's pained eyes.

"Later? I...... Will there be a future? ”

"I want to calm myself down, I want to try very hard to behave like before, but ......" Fan Bizhuang's low voice was like crying, depressed and low, "my heart can't be still, whenever I want to run, whenever I want to catch the ball, whenever I want to do the next move, I will see the smiling face of little Luna in front of my eyes, I will always think of her, she smiled and opened her arms to me, she smiled and pecked me lightly, she was like the cutest little angel...... But now that everything is gone, little Luna is gone...... Do you know? I always think of images like this, the chaotic scene of a car accident, little Luna covered in blood, and Pablo's cries for help...... Although I didn't see the scene of the crash with my own eyes, it didn't prevent it from coming up in my head...... I...... I can't be still, I'm ...... I really can't...... The city is like a cage, a cage that always reminds me of those painful images...... Roman, I think I'm like this, I'm already useless, completely wasted......"

The low cry finally turned into a hug and a cry, looking at Fan Bizhuang who was crying like a child in front of him, Riquelme stood in place and was speechless for a long time.

He never thought that Fan Bizhuang's psychological state would be so bad, seeing him return to the team, and the usual training, everyone thought that Fan Bizhuang's situation was improving, but the fact is that everything is suppressed in the bottom of the young man's heart, maybe there is no sign of an outbreak now, but if it accumulates over time, the guilt and anxiety will only accumulate more and deeper, once it completely breaks out, then ......

Riquelme did not dare to think about the consequences.

In the dark night, in the empty suburbs, everything seemed so quiet, only the low sound of insects, and the sobbing of young men under the majestic wind.

"Let's leave. Fan! ”

"Get out of here!"

"Go to a new place and start over."

"Maybe in a new place, you will forget the city, forget the good things that have been here, and all the bad things......"

"You'll have new friends, you'll have a fresh start. When everything is calm, a new chapter will be opened in your life, believe in yourself, and you will have a new life. I'm sure little Luna wants to see you smile too. ”

In the quiet of the night, Riquelme's voice sounded faintly.

Fan Bizhuang stopped crying, he raised his head and looked fixedly at the man in front of him, who was also a teacher and a friend.

The two of them looked at each other calmly and complexly, as if they had forgotten the passage of time and forgotten everything......