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In the dimly lit room, the curtains were all closed.

This has always been the norm in this room.

It's just that this time I lit a dim pearl lamp that emitted a faint soft light under the shroud of the lampshade.

The small lamp at the head of the bed can only illuminate things within one meter of the bed, and you can't see anything if you are a little farther away.

This is mainly used to illuminate Xia Xin's blue nose and swollen face next to the bed.

Most of the time, the more you say don't hit somewhere, the more people want to hit somewhere.

Especially angry women......

Xia Xin didn't know how many times he had been hit on his face, fists, palms, kneading, pinching, and buttoning the plate, resulting in no intact place on his face now.

Luo Shuixian sat next to Xia Xin, carefully examining Xia Xin's face, which was his masterpiece.

She said with some emotion, "After venting,...... Sure enough, it was much easier. ”

"Please don't use me as a punching bag."

"But I feel that there is still some resentment accumulating, but there is no motivation to fight."

“…… Please, what more motivation do you want? ”

"Otherwise, you deliberately scolded me a few words, so that I wanted to hit you."

"You're funny in the head."

These words made Luo Shuixian stunned, and said with some emotion, "Maybe, it's really funny." ”

And then he stopped talking.

Xia Xin turned his head to look at Luo Shuixian who was speechless beside him, his low little face was full of loss and sadness, and in his beautiful eyes, there was endless sorrow.

Xia Xin didn't know how to comfort her.

After a long time, Luo Shuixian asked faintly, "You say, mother, does she know, and what does she think?" ”

“……”

Xia Xin paused and didn't speak.

Because the facts are obvious, even the archbishop was present at the time to say the facts.

It's just that Luo Shuixian actually didn't believe it, took the initiative to avoid the facts, and asked again.

I guess even she can't believe it in her heart.

Without waiting for Xia Xin to answer, Luo Shuixian had already spoken, "She knows...... Isn't she, has she considered my feelings? ”

Xia Xin didn't know whether to defile, slander, attack, or fall into the trap against Elizabeth at this time, he hesitated for a while, and decided to say it truthfully.

"Here, we have to explain a misunderstanding."

"You also know that your mother's attitude towards sex is very different from yours, and she also has a lot of husbands, in all aspects, ...... Be more open, she'......"

Before Xia Xin finished speaking, Luo Shuixian had already pounced on him angrily, grabbed his collar, glared at him and said angrily, "Is this an open matter, is this an open matter?" Did you see the look in the eyes of the archbishop at that time, did you hear what he said, did you see the eyes of those other people looking at me, was this open, did they not know what they wanted to do? “

“……”

Xia Xin lowered his gaze, looked at Luo Shuixian's little hand that was clutching his neckline tightly, but was trembling slightly, and replied calmly, "For her, this is an open matter, a small effort, you can get a permanent assistant in the political arena in the future, why not?" ”

"From her point of view, this is a small pay, a big return, a high return, standing in her point of view, naturally I also think that this is for you, it is also a small pay and a big return, and it will be of great benefit to your future rule, from her point of view......"

Luo Shuixian was furious and grabbed Xia Xin's neckline, and shouted loudly, "From her point of view, from her point of view, from her point of view, whose husband are you, have been standing in her point of view......"

Xia Xin still replied calmly, "...... Of course, your husband, I'm just, to tell you, your mother doesn't think it's a big deal, and she thinks you'll resist at most, but sooner or later she'll understand what's in it and will eventually agree. ”

"Promise to accept it, I will kill myself a long time ago."

"No, she thinks that you know the general situation and will accept it, and when the time comes, it will be useless to do anything else, it is better to make good use of the benefits obtained, this is what she thinks, I can understand."

Xia Xin's recent transformation of thinking allowed her to stand in the same perspective as Elizabeth and see the same problems.

So, he understands!

"If you want to say that she is particularly harmful to you, I don't think so, but you want to say that she is especially considerate of you, which is also no, she should think that you may suffer a little grievance, but it will be of great help to your future rule, you will always understand, white her."

"It's like, you've been bullied by other kids at school, you've got a little knee injury, a little bit of skin, maybe a little blood, but you're strong, you're going to endure it, that's what she thinks."

"How...... Patience is possible. ”

When Luo Shuixian said this, his small mouth was flattened, his eyes were red again, and tears continued to slide down the corners of his eyes, and pearl-like tears fell into Xia Xin's neckline, bringing a hot feeling.

"How is that possible...... Patience, it's because of her, it's because I used to watch her follow ...... With, other men...... As a result, I have a deep psychological shadow, I have always been afraid of men, I think men are dirty, ugly, terrible, disgusting, at first, just shaking hands, I can be disgusted when I am touched, I can't eat, and I have to wash my hands for half an hour. ”

"I saw a psychiatrist for a long time, and it took me a long time to train to barely overcome a little psychological barrier, do you know how scared I was at that time, how scared I was?"

Luo Shuixian said this, crying out loud.

I don't know if it's because of the fear or grievance I remembered again.

Xia Xin is gentle after all, he can't see girls crying the most, and seeing others heartbroken makes him uncomfortable, especially when a beautiful girl is crying, it makes people feel even more pitiful.

Xia Xin asked softly, "Then are you afraid of me?" ”

Luo Shuixian sobbed a few times, then shook his head gently.

Then Xia Xin stretched out his hand, hugged her, patted her on the back and said, "I'm sorry, I should have come out earlier." ”

"I was really scared, but I had to be strong, I had to be strong in front of outsiders, but, but~~~"

Luo Shuixian sobbed so quietly and said softly, "What is really desperate is my mother's attitude, whenever I want to trust her, I will always be hurt deeper, I am really stupid, I know that I shouldn't have any expectations for her, but I ...... again and again Woo, woo~~~"

In the darkness, Xia Xin patted Luo Shuixian's shoulder like this, listening to her lonely and helpless crying.

People are like this sometimes, even if they intellectually know that the other person will not take into account your feelings at all, even if intellectually they know that their trust will not be anything in return, but they will still trust, expect, and expect again and again, and then be betrayed.

There is no disappointment without expectations!

When you have expectations and trust, and then the pain of being betrayed, is the most desperate, and it is expectation after expectation, betrayal again and again......

Luo Shuixian grabbed Xia Xin's collar with both hands, and cried for a long time in front of Xia Xin.

Xia Xin thought about it, but still reached out and turned off the faint little light next to him.

Because he felt that Luo Shuixian definitely didn't want to be seen as embarrassed now, this was his little gentleness.

Xia Xin didn't know how long Luo Shuixian had been crying, but in the dark, he could still hear Luo Shuixian's slight sobbing.

It wasn't until a long time later that Luo Shuixian suddenly said slightly, "It's the last time!" ”

"Huh?"

Xia Xin didn't quite understand what she meant.

Luo Shuixian calmed down with some irrefutable strength, "This is the last time, there will be no next chance to be betrayed." ”

“……”

Luo Shuixian's words were full of determination.

Without expectations, without trust, there will be no more betrayal.

This is also the true meaning that Xia Xin realized in his despair.

As long as you don't bet your emotions on others, you won't be betrayed by others.

As long as no one trusts others, as long as there is no hub of contact between everyone, and they do not trust each other, there is no problem of betrayal of each other, then no one's heart will be hurt, and no one will be hurt in a world.

It's just, that kind of life...... It's so pathetic!

After Luo Shuixian finished speaking, in the darkness, he raised Ling Jingjing's starry sky-like beautiful eyes and looked at Xia Xin.

With a bit of seriousness and a bit of coldness, he asked, "Xia Xin, one day, will you betray me too?" ”

“……”

Xia Xin didn't know how to answer.

"Will you too?"

"Of course not!"

Xia Xin hesitated, but still replied with certainty, "I will never betray you." ”

He sensed that Luo Shuixian was now emotionally unstable, lonely, helpless, and betrayed by those closest to him, and then he began to distrust anyone.

This mood is very sad!

"Don't worry, there's no way I'll betray you."

"Hmm~~~"

Luo Shuixian responded with a little well-behaved, and easily believed Xia Xin's statement.

She gently stretched out her dexterous arm to wrap around Xia Xin's neck, then pillowed her head in Xia Xin's arms, leaned on Xia Xin's body with a lazy body, and murmured as if in a dream, "Forever...... Don't betray me. (First published by Black Rock Network)

"No!"

This time, Xia Xin answered quickly.

Luo Shuixian nodded lightly with satisfaction.

Then there was no sound.

Xia Xin didn't dare to move at all, for fear of waking her up.

His heart was full of pity, but he always felt that he had forgotten something important......

……

……

And the base of the revolutionary army on the other side.

A small leader came to Yarman, who was standing on the balcony, and said, "Boss, it's late at night, let's be early." ”

"Ah, it's okay, I'll wait for a call, and he said he'll get back to me soon."

"Boss, what do you think...... Is it possible that the other person has forgotten about you? Slept on your own? ”

“…… Probably not, such an important thing. ”

"But it's 3 a.m., you've been here for 5 hours, are you sure he'll be able to reply 'soon'?"

“……”