Chapter Thirty-Eight, Initiation
I saw it in a dream
It's like seeing memories that can't be touched through the tiny circuits that flow with blood
These are her memories
At least not mine
This is someone else's story
Never recalled, the past
Never tried to recall, distant
I can't even recall the old memories that I can't recall
The memory of a young girl who was sacrificed to the throne of a hero
In the end, it was not understood, the story of a certain girl
Too late
It is now impossible to change the heavy shackles of the contract that has become a foregone conclusion
That guy, didn't want anything
If I had to say it, it would be that he is not a patient person by nature
Can't bear to have people crying around
Can't bear to be around someone who is hurting
Can't bear to have dying people around you
If there is a reason, that's all
That's why that guy wants to help everyone he can meet
Obviously just a fragile girl
How clumsy it was, even onlookers were worried
But in the end, it really did, and every time it changed the fate of many people
Even if you are conservative, this is definitely harder than happiness
Clumsy battles are not in vain
The more damage she takes, the more deaths she faces, and the more people she saves
However, there is a loophole here
Although it is said that everyone can be seen
But people can never see themselves
So that's how it ends
The most important "self" for her cannot be saved in the end
I don't understand why this is the case
No, it's quite the opposite
Why it didn't happen like this is still incredible
It was a serious disaster
Many people are dead, and many are about to die
The guy knelt on a hill of corpses and clutched a head, crying
It must have been someone of great importance, tears streaming down his cheeks like blood
"Make a contract. I entrust you with everything that will happen after I die. And this reward, I will accept it now. ”
The pain of loss made her decision
That's right, it's a contract with something as unknown as the "world".
Sacrifice one's body to save sentient beings
Heroes, thus born
And so it ended
There is no follow-up
Even if he is called a hero, nothing changes in what the guy does
Originally, her purpose was not to be a hero
It's just that this process requires the power of the hero no matter what
However, the end came so quickly
A brilliant rescuer is just a nuisance to those other than the rescued
She understands her limits, with the vastness of the world
Accept what can be saved and what can't be saved
Because of this, she wants to at least make the people she sees happy
That's just hypocrisy
There are many people who disparage it as a narrow value like this
Despite this, the figure who is silently chasing the ideal should be able to puff up his chest
Her ending
As the covenant says, there is nothing to be given back at the end of life
I finally got to that place
She has had people who seem to be partners, and she has also had people who seem to be lovers
And after losing all this, she was driven to the end of the ideals she was pursuing
There is no destination left
Despite all the accusations, she continued to fight
Knowing the fate of his death, but at the cost of death, he wanted to achieve the "miracle" that was still in his hands, and finally reached the sword hill
On the rusty mound of steel, where there was no opponent, her battle was over
Still alone
Even so, as long as you can save the people in front of you, there is nothing to regret
The fellow smiled contentedly, and let go of his sword like a mountain falling
"Far ...... Far ......"
In a blur, it was as if I heard someone shouting something
The brain is running very slowly. I always felt that the voice was erratic and I couldn't hear it clearly
"Hey...... Tosaka ...... Wake up Tosaka ......"
Finally, the drowsy mind was put into operation, and the voice gradually became clearer
It was like calling my name
"Tosaka, wake up. Tosaka. ”
When I woke up, I found myself lying on my desk, and the teacher on the podium looked at me with concern
"Tosaka? Are you okay? Is it because you are not feeling well? If you really can't hold on, let's go to the health room and take a break. ”
"I'm against it!!"
Standing up with amazing momentum is the famous stupid girl Makiji Kaede in the class
"Why was I asked to stand when I was sleeping, but Tosaka had this attitude! Teacher eccentricity!! ”
"What kind of stupid words, a serious child like Tosaka wouldn't sleep in class because he was lazy like you, is there any other explanation than being unwell? Sit down, or stand out. ”
Hehe, this is the privilege of a good student, Makiji-san. You stupid person won't understand
Glancing at Makiji with contempt, I stepped out of the classroom
"Goo! Tosaka, you guy! Don't stop me, teacher! That guy definitely took me for a fool! ”
"Makiji!"
There was a stupid roar behind him
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Just now, it was ......
I reminisced as I walked to the health room
Due to the psychic connection between the Master and the Servant, they sometimes see each other's memories while sleeping
This is similar to the process of re-experiencing someone else's life, and although there is no physical discomfort, there will be mental fatigue, so it is better to go to the health room to take a rest
But......
Is that a memory of Red Saber just now?
It's completely different from the legendary Mordred
It should be said that the difference is too great
It is the story of a young girl who sacrifices her life for the sake of life, and it is a far cry from the story of a rebellious knight who overthrows her father's dynasty. The difference between a heroic epic and a romance novel
So why......
Memories are not faked. What I saw must have been what Red Saber had experienced
Could it be ......
"Far, far, far!"
Someone rushing from the other side of the hallway interrupted my thoughts
He gasped for breath, looking very anxious, and probably escaped from the classroom under the pretext of being unwell
"What's wrong, Emiya-san." I asked
"You look very red, do you need me to take you to the infirmary?"
"At this time, you don't pretend to be a good girl! Something is wrong!! ”
"It's rude to pretend to be something, so? What happened? "I still don't think it's a big deal, but since Shirou is so anxious, I'm a little more serious
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Then, when the situation has not gotten worse, he finally catches the two fools Saber in the school court and successfully quells the incident
Well, the general situation is basically understood
Shirou and I lectured to them on a rooftop that was rarely crowded
"So, they all said that there was no danger in the school—"
"No, the enchantment that covers the entire school has proven that at least one Master is lurking here. It's a transgression, but—"
Heavily armoured, Saber stuck his sword in the ground and fell to one knee, "That's the only thing I won't back down, Master." If you still want us to go back, I'll resist even with a spell. ”
Well, Shirou's side is probably like this, so I'm here
"Gollum Gurgle—" → alcoholic Heroic Spirit from Valhalla
"I said."
"Gurgling Purr-grunt--" → the drunken Heroic Spirit who drank even more fiercely
"I said."
"Vomit!" → alcoholic spirits who drink until they vomit
"Hey."
"Gurgling gurgling grunt—" → didn't remember long at all, and opened a jar of drunken spirits that continued to be filled
"Command with a spell—"
"Yo! Rin! What a coincidence! ”
Ahh It's to the limit
A bruise appeared on my forehead, and I grabbed her by the placket
"It's a big deal!! What the hell are you doing!! ”
"It was her hand that made the first move!"
"Eh, really? Sorry, I'm sorry, I made a mistake————"
"I just spit on her."
"Isn't that still your fault?!!"
"Really, even the enemy will give me restraint————"
I stopped
Keep an eye on the Servant in front of you
Mordred and King Arthur were enemies, and rightly so
But
"Huh, huh? Rin? What's wrong? ”
"Hey, Red Saber. Are you really Mordred? ”
I asked seriously
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“Rider。”
"Yes, I'm here, Master."
"Activate the enchantment."
“…… Yes, sir. ”