Chapter Thirty-Eight, Initiation

I saw it in a dream

It's like seeing memories that can't be touched through the tiny circuits that flow with blood

These are her memories

At least not mine

This is someone else's story

Never recalled, the past

Never tried to recall, distant

I can't even recall the old memories that I can't recall

The memory of a young girl who was sacrificed to the throne of a hero

In the end, it was not understood, the story of a certain girl

Too late

It is now impossible to change the heavy shackles of the contract that has become a foregone conclusion

That guy, didn't want anything

If I had to say it, it would be that he is not a patient person by nature

Can't bear to have people crying around

Can't bear to be around someone who is hurting

Can't bear to have dying people around you

If there is a reason, that's all

That's why that guy wants to help everyone he can meet

Obviously just a fragile girl

How clumsy it was, even onlookers were worried

But in the end, it really did, and every time it changed the fate of many people

Even if you are conservative, this is definitely harder than happiness

Clumsy battles are not in vain

The more damage she takes, the more deaths she faces, and the more people she saves

However, there is a loophole here

Although it is said that everyone can be seen

But people can never see themselves

So that's how it ends

The most important "self" for her cannot be saved in the end

I don't understand why this is the case

No, it's quite the opposite

Why it didn't happen like this is still incredible

It was a serious disaster

Many people are dead, and many are about to die

The guy knelt on a hill of corpses and clutched a head, crying

It must have been someone of great importance, tears streaming down his cheeks like blood

"Make a contract. I entrust you with everything that will happen after I die. And this reward, I will accept it now. ”

The pain of loss made her decision

That's right, it's a contract with something as unknown as the "world".

Sacrifice one's body to save sentient beings

Heroes, thus born

And so it ended

There is no follow-up

Even if he is called a hero, nothing changes in what the guy does

Originally, her purpose was not to be a hero

It's just that this process requires the power of the hero no matter what

However, the end came so quickly

A brilliant rescuer is just a nuisance to those other than the rescued

She understands her limits, with the vastness of the world

Accept what can be saved and what can't be saved

Because of this, she wants to at least make the people she sees happy

That's just hypocrisy

There are many people who disparage it as a narrow value like this

Despite this, the figure who is silently chasing the ideal should be able to puff up his chest

Her ending

As the covenant says, there is nothing to be given back at the end of life

I finally got to that place

She has had people who seem to be partners, and she has also had people who seem to be lovers

And after losing all this, she was driven to the end of the ideals she was pursuing

There is no destination left

Despite all the accusations, she continued to fight

Knowing the fate of his death, but at the cost of death, he wanted to achieve the "miracle" that was still in his hands, and finally reached the sword hill

On the rusty mound of steel, where there was no opponent, her battle was over

Still alone

Even so, as long as you can save the people in front of you, there is nothing to regret

The fellow smiled contentedly, and let go of his sword like a mountain falling

"Far ...... Far ......"

In a blur, it was as if I heard someone shouting something

The brain is running very slowly. I always felt that the voice was erratic and I couldn't hear it clearly

"Hey...... Tosaka ...... Wake up Tosaka ......"

Finally, the drowsy mind was put into operation, and the voice gradually became clearer

It was like calling my name

"Tosaka, wake up. Tosaka. ”

When I woke up, I found myself lying on my desk, and the teacher on the podium looked at me with concern

"Tosaka? Are you okay? Is it because you are not feeling well? If you really can't hold on, let's go to the health room and take a break. ”

"I'm against it!!"

Standing up with amazing momentum is the famous stupid girl Makiji Kaede in the class

"Why was I asked to stand when I was sleeping, but Tosaka had this attitude! Teacher eccentricity!! ”

"What kind of stupid words, a serious child like Tosaka wouldn't sleep in class because he was lazy like you, is there any other explanation than being unwell? Sit down, or stand out. ”

Hehe, this is the privilege of a good student, Makiji-san. You stupid person won't understand

Glancing at Makiji with contempt, I stepped out of the classroom

"Goo! Tosaka, you guy! Don't stop me, teacher! That guy definitely took me for a fool! ”

"Makiji!"

There was a stupid roar behind him

Just now, it was ......

I reminisced as I walked to the health room

Due to the psychic connection between the Master and the Servant, they sometimes see each other's memories while sleeping

This is similar to the process of re-experiencing someone else's life, and although there is no physical discomfort, there will be mental fatigue, so it is better to go to the health room to take a rest

But......

Is that a memory of Red Saber just now?

It's completely different from the legendary Mordred

It should be said that the difference is too great

It is the story of a young girl who sacrifices her life for the sake of life, and it is a far cry from the story of a rebellious knight who overthrows her father's dynasty. The difference between a heroic epic and a romance novel

So why......

Memories are not faked. What I saw must have been what Red Saber had experienced

Could it be ......

"Far, far, far!"

Someone rushing from the other side of the hallway interrupted my thoughts

He gasped for breath, looking very anxious, and probably escaped from the classroom under the pretext of being unwell

"What's wrong, Emiya-san." I asked

"You look very red, do you need me to take you to the infirmary?"

"At this time, you don't pretend to be a good girl! Something is wrong!! ”

"It's rude to pretend to be something, so? What happened? "I still don't think it's a big deal, but since Shirou is so anxious, I'm a little more serious

Then, when the situation has not gotten worse, he finally catches the two fools Saber in the school court and successfully quells the incident

Well, the general situation is basically understood

Shirou and I lectured to them on a rooftop that was rarely crowded

"So, they all said that there was no danger in the school—"

"No, the enchantment that covers the entire school has proven that at least one Master is lurking here. It's a transgression, but—"

Heavily armoured, Saber stuck his sword in the ground and fell to one knee, "That's the only thing I won't back down, Master." If you still want us to go back, I'll resist even with a spell. ”

Well, Shirou's side is probably like this, so I'm here

"Gollum Gurgle—" → alcoholic Heroic Spirit from Valhalla

"I said."

"Gurgling Purr-grunt--" → the drunken Heroic Spirit who drank even more fiercely

"I said."

"Vomit!" → alcoholic spirits who drink until they vomit

"Hey."

"Gurgling gurgling grunt—" → didn't remember long at all, and opened a jar of drunken spirits that continued to be filled

"Command with a spell—"

"Yo! Rin! What a coincidence! ”

Ahh It's to the limit

A bruise appeared on my forehead, and I grabbed her by the placket

"It's a big deal!! What the hell are you doing!! ”

"It was her hand that made the first move!"

"Eh, really? Sorry, I'm sorry, I made a mistake————"

"I just spit on her."

"Isn't that still your fault?!!"

"Really, even the enemy will give me restraint————"

I stopped

Keep an eye on the Servant in front of you

Mordred and King Arthur were enemies, and rightly so

But

"Huh, huh? Rin? What's wrong? ”

"Hey, Red Saber. Are you really Mordred? ”

I asked seriously

“Rider。”

"Yes, I'm here, Master."

"Activate the enchantment."

“…… Yes, sir. ”