21. Falling apart

Su Ran took the child on the train back to Shanghai, and the child would already babble and occasionally pop out the words 'mom' and 'dad'. She looked at the child's red little face, smiled innocently, and couldn't help but hug her into her arms, and the child's chubby little hands gently rubbed on her face. She couldn't help but look out the car window, she didn't know what she was going back to greet this time, she knew that she didn't give Zhou Yang the perfect life she wanted, but she worked hard.

When she arrived at the station, she didn't let Zhou Yang pick her up, and took a taxi directly to the gate of the community, and the doorman saw her and greeted her familiarly. She carried the child upstairs, remembering that today was Sunday, and Zhou Yang should be at home if he didn't go out. She went to her door, took the key and opened it. When I opened the door, I saw Zhou Yang hugging a woman watching TV in the living room, like a husband and wife for many years. She held the baby in her arms and froze in place. Zhou Yang saw her enter the door, hurriedly stood up to pick up the child, and said embarrassedly: "I didn't expect you to come back suddenly today, why didn't you call me to pick you up!" ”

Su Ran said expressionlessly: "It's also convenient to take a taxi by yourself." Would you like to introduce this lady who is close to you? ”

Xiao Lele was also a little uncomfortable, stood up and said, "Hello, I'm Xiao Lele, Zhou Yang's college classmate. ”

Zhou Yang explained incoherently, Su Ran's brain was buzzing, and he couldn't hear what he was saying

Xiao Lele looked at the embarrassing situation of several people, she picked up her bag and hurried away after saying goodbye.

Su Ran and Zhou Yang were both sitting quietly in the living room, no one spoke first, the child walked around on the sofa, and there was only the sound of the child babbling in the room. After a while, Su Ran said, "What do you think, let's talk about it!" ”

Zhou Yang said: "She is my ex-girlfriend and college classmate. Not long after you went back to the town some time ago, she heard my phone call from another classmate, and we met, and we usually had dinner together when we had nothing to do. ”

Su Ran regained his composure and said, "How far have you got, what do you think, it's a great irony to bring a woman to the house." But no man will bring it to the house no matter how he pretends outside, I think we have come to an end completely. I can't help but think of a sentence, 'The more traditional a man is, once the floodgates of desire are opened, he will be out of control and will never go back.'" 'I don't think it's the first time for you, what kind of results do you want?' ”

Zhou Yang was silent for a while and said, "You give me some time, I'll break off with her." He looked at Zhou Mu beside him, hugged her over and kissed her on the cheek.

Su Ran said calmly: "Divorce, why bother to defend a city that is about to collapse, I hope you can be happier with anyone than me for the rest of your life, you yourself understand, you have changed." ”

Zhou Yang didn't beg hard like Zhuoer this time, he found that he had also overturned his perception of feelings and marriage, and lived with Su Ran, her rational thinking, independent personality, and respectful way of getting along with each other, he thought everything was good before. Now that so many things have happened, he suddenly feels that his wife should not be like Su Ran, it should be Zhuo'er's warm fragrant nephrite, or Xiao Lele's empathy. He shook what he had been holding onto, but he saw that his daughter Zhou Mu wanted to keep the family again.

Zhou Yang said: "Don't leave, there is Zhou Mu, divorce is not good for children." ”

A pale smile appeared on Su Ran's face, and she said: "We don't have to engage in formalism, the children of single parents can also be educated well, we don't have to let some objective reasons continue the marriage that has been lingering, separation, maybe it will be a new life for you." ”

Zhou Yang was silent for a while, and said, "Let's all think about it again, can you take a look?" ”

Su Ran said: "I won't turn back on what I decided, Zhou Yang, don't force me, and don't force yourself." I hope Xiao Lele is the last one for you. ”

Zhou Yang told his parents the news, but his father did not speak and gave the phone to his mother. He said: "Mom, Su Ran and I are going to divorce, and she brought it up." I've had an affair, more than once. ”

On the phone, her mother reproached and said: "How can you be like this, marriage is not child's play, and there are children." I have taught you since I was a child, how can you do such a bastard thing, what do you think, you loved Su Ran so much at the beginning, and you have become like this in just a few years, son, I am very disappointed in you, very disappointed. ”

Zhou Yang said: "Mom, I admit that I am not right about this matter, but Su Ran and I have been in a platonic relationship for the past few years, I can't talk about these things, I thought I could stick to it, but I still failed." ”

Zhou's mother said: "These are not reasons for you to cheat, if you feel that each other is not suitable, you can end a marriage and then start another relationship, instead of jumping around several women, this is not what a well-bred man should do." ”

Zhou Yang was speechless, didn't know what to say, and fell into silence.

Zhou's mother on the other end of the phone said: "If you can keep it, try to keep it, we thought that Su Ran was too strong and your temperament was weak." But you like it, we respect your opinion, but Su Ran has postpartum depression after giving birth, and you have to tolerate her even if she is unreasonable, but you are with a woman at this time, and no one can accept it. She is a strong person, can she forgive you for seeing your creation, the key is that I think you also seem to have acquiesced in the divorce. ”

Zhou Yang hung up the phone.

In the past few days, he and Su Ran have almost zero communication. In a room, they don't talk to each other, they don't see each other, and the only link that can connect them is the children.

Xiao Lele also knew that he had never called, and sometimes he would send a text message to say something innocuous about it. She was extremely happy to reunite with Zhou Yang this time, she had experienced marriage, and now she understands how important it is to find someone who loves each other, and she is still her young and young lover, she has reined in her edge, no longer willful, and has become extremely gentle and understanding. This is how a woman enters a dead loop, her own marriage is destroyed by other women and dissolved, and she enters someone else's marriage again.

When Su Ran told her parents that she was going to divorce, her parents were heartbroken. The mother cried and said: "Xiao Ran, why, you have become like this in just a few years, how good Zhou Yang is this child, Wenwen is weak and soft-spoken." I can't get by. ”

Su Ran said on the phone: "I have a bad temperament, I'm too withdrawn, I can't get along with others, and it's not interesting to be tied together, Mom, don't be sad with your father, you can live well after divorce." Su Ran said a lot of comforting words to her mother, and did not mention Zhou Yang's derailment at all. She didn't feel that he shouldn't spoil the image he had created with his parents. After all, Zhou Yang once loved her as if she were her life, and she didn't want to say anything to him or accuse him with words.

A month later, Zhou Yang agreed to the divorce, and now it is time to discuss the ownership of the children and the house. Zhou Yang said: "It is impossible to cash out the house so quickly now, and it is not a small amount. I don't really want to sell it, give me the child, I'll let my parents take it, you have too much burden with the child, and you will have to start a family in the future. When the house is appraised, I will give you half of the money, if it is not enough, I will send money to your card every month in the future, do you think it is okay? ”

After Su Ran heard what he said, he felt a chill in his heart, the husband and wife really had no love at this level, they just divided the money and broke up. When he said that you would have to marry in the future, she couldn't believe that he was the man with white fingers and warm eyes. Su Ran said: "I want a child, I can also provide a good living environment for my child by myself, as for the division of property, as long as I give me the money I gave to buy a house and my parents 200,000 yuan, the premise is that my daughter must follow me, she needs her mother." Pay child support regularly every month, you are Zhou Mu's father, this is your obligation. Don't tell me those high-sounding truths, Zhou Yang, you used to be too good to me, I miss the former Zhou Yang. So I don't want to tear my face, if you're going to fight with me for a child, then we'll have to see you in court. ”

Because of the dispute over the child's problem, and Zhou Yang can't give Su Ran the money now, the money has been spent when he buys the house. The divorce has been dragging on, Su Ran thought about what should be done, taking care of the children at home every day is out of touch with society, it will take at least two years for the child to go to kindergarten, the previous real estate company can't go back, that job comes back so late every day, even if you find an aunt to take care of the child, it's not a matter every day. Li Li came up with the idea to let her rent a counter in a shopping mall and sell branded pajamas or men's clothing. The shopping mall is short, and it is not too late to go back every day, which can not only take care of the children, but also make some progress. You can hire someone to look after the store without delaying anything.

Zhou Yang's parents saw that the divorce had become a foregone conclusion, and his parents were kind people. Zhou's mother said: "You hurt Su Ran, and if you want to take the child away, how painful it is for a woman." Do it yourself."

The divorce dragged on, Xiao Lele couldn't wait, she was pregnant, her belly was revealed, she looked for Zhou Yang for a showdown, and said: "I will give Su Ran's money, and the child in my belly is getting bigger and bigger, what should I do?" ”

Zhou Yang stroked her stomach and nodded.

Zhou Yang gave up custody of the child, the two went to the Civil Affairs Bureau, and Su Ran hugged her daughter. The person from the Civil Affairs Bureau said: "You are parents, how can you not think about it for the sake of your children!" ”

Su Ran said: "We have already thought about it. As Su Ran spoke, her daughter kept waving her little hand beside her, shouting: Mom, Mom, I'm hungry. Su Ran took out a bottle of warm milk and biscuits from her bag and handed them to her daughter.

Zhou Yang looked at his daughter, his eyes were a little moist, and said, "Su Ran, I'm sorry for you." ”

Su Ran didn't speak.

When he came out of the Civil Affairs Bureau, Zhou Mu was already asleep, lying on Su Ran's shoulder. Zhou Yang said: "Su Ran, you're tired, I'll hug you for a while." ”

Su Ran said: "It's okay, I can hold it." ”

Zhou Yang said: "I'll drive you!" ”

On the eve of the divorce, Su Ran had already rented a two-bedroom house.

Su Ran said, "No, I'll just take a taxi." ”

Su Ran hugged the child and called a taxi without looking back.

Zhou Yang stood in place and cried, and many people walked by him and looked back at him.