19. Children
Su Ran was meeting a customer when she received Zhou Yang's call, and Zhou Yang was in a hurry to ask her to come over quickly. She settled the customer and drove to Zhuoer's house at the address Zhou Yang said.
When Su Ran arrived at the door, he heard the sound of falling things and crying in the house. The door opened as soon as it was pushed, and the ground was a mess. Zhuoer cried hoarsely and tried her best to go to the window, and Zhou Yang hugged her waist from behind. looked at Su Ran for help, and Su Ran looked at the messy scene and Zhou Yang who was at a loss. She shouted, "Drow!" Drow glanced back at her, his eyes red and swollen from crying, and the eyeshadow on his face was washed off by tears. She was stunned for a moment and looked at Su Ran, and suddenly stopped crying. She said with a crying voice: "Why are you here, Su Ran, you are really a husband and wife!" ”
Su Ran said: "Zhuoer, why are you bothering, you are so embarrassed by yourself, now that the three of us are here, we can talk openly and honestly, you have to know how to feel sorry for yourself." ”
Su Ran walked over and pulled her through the window, and Zhuoer sat on the sofa with her obediently. Then he said, "Zhou Yang, you also sit down." Zhou Yang sat next to Su Ran. I feel that I have no place to be ashamed, and I can't wait to find a crack in the ground to get into, and I have to let my wife clean up the mess with the bitter fruits I planted. There was nothing he could do, and Drow had been drinking and smashing things all afternoon. Afraid of jumping off the window, he dragged her back, and she rushed over again. He really had nothing to do, so he had to call Su Ran.
Su Ran pondered for a while, and then said: "Zhuoer, making trouble is not a way to solve a problem, death, but a way to escape from a problem." You're so young and so beautiful. Why choose such an extreme way? The key is what you want, I want Zhou Yang to marry you, if he and you are really happy, I am willing to fulfill you. ”
Zhou Yang was about to speak, but Su Ran stopped him and said, "Don't say it yet, let Zhuoer say it." ”
Drow woke up from this trouble, her voice crying for too long and a little hoarse. She said: "I always make my life so bad again and again, and history is also strikingly similar, Su Ran, it is normal for you and me to scuffle together and beat me hard, but you can talk to me so calmly, I admire you." She paused for a moment,
said: After this trouble, I want to ask Zhou Yang one last time, you ask yourself, have you ever loved me? Is there a little bit you want to be with me? ”
Zhou Yang looked at Su Ran, and then at Zhuoer, he said: "I love Su Ran, I just want to live with her, I am obsessed with this time, I made a mistake, Zhuoer, I admit it, I like you, just stay in liking." Even if Su Ran is no longer with me, I will not marry you. As hurtful as it is, I have to say it. ”
After hearing this, Drow felt that there were no more tears, she said: "You guys go, I'm fine, I asked for it, I won't want to die, life is so beautiful, gorgeous clothes, early morning sunshine, beautiful scenery." I'm greedy for all things Red Dust. ”
Su Ran said: "Zhou Yang, you go back, I'll accompany her here." ”
Zhuoer said: "I want to be alone, Su Ran, you don't have to accompany me, I won't commit suicide." Zhou Yang, leave the key for me when you leave. ”
Before Su Ran went downstairs, he patted Zhuo'er on the shoulder and whispered, "Love yourself more and be kind to yourself." ”
When Zhou Yang and Su Ran went downstairs, Zhou Yang wanted to hold her hand but she broke free. The two drove back home in their respective cars. After entering the door, Zhou Yang looked at Su Ran guiltily and said softly, "Wife, I'm sorry." It will never be like this again. ”
Su Ran said: "Zhou Yang, this incident is a sudden and an inevitability, I have also thought about it repeatedly, let's divorce." In the future, everyone will be fine, and you will still be the warmest man I have ever met. I'm a gender misalignment, I just knew you, and I told you everything. I don't blame her at all when I see Drow in this situation, but I feel very sorry for her when I see her grief-stricken, do you understand? I can't change that. I don't want you to spend the rest of your life like this. ”
Zhou Yang was caught off guard by the words and broke out in a cold sweat, he walked over and hugged Su Ran and said, "Wife, don't be like this, I won't leave, I won't leave even if I die, I love you." You don't want to leave me. That thing doesn't matter, it really doesn't matter. You are here, my heart is stable, you are not by my side, my heart is floating. ”
Su Ran sighed, okay, let's all think about it, let's rest early, I'll call Zhuoer tomorrow to see how she is doing, I may have to go to see her in the next few days.
This time, Zhou Yang came out of this matter, and Su Ran was also thinking about the meaning of the existence of this marriage. She was thinking that if she had married Song Hao, then Song Hao should have hated her at this moment. His temperament is so fierce. And Zhou Yang's temperament is warm and soft, she thought about waiting for Zhou Yang to figure out the two and make a conclusion.
Su Ran called Zhuoer the next day, Zhuoer said that in the hospital, Su Ran arrived at the hospital after handing over the work at hand, Zhuoer was waiting in line, she had no makeup, her face was facing the sky, and she looked a little haggard. Su Ran walked over and sat next to her. Zhuo Er squeezed out a little wry smile and said, "Su Ran, why are you here?" ”
Su Ran said: "Come and accompany you, do you want to be hospitalized?" ”
"No, it's short, there's no need to be hospitalized," said Drow. Su Ran, why are you so good to me, shouldn't you hate me? ”
Su Ran said: "It's just that a person is very lonely, and women are always guilty of this matter, thinking that they should accompany you." ”
The waiting time was very long, and Zhuoer lightly told Su Ran about his loveless childhood and the events of these years. Su Ran grabbed her hand after hearing this. Whispered: "Be kind to yourself in the future, don't trust no one else, no one is worthy of you to destroy yourself." ”
After coming out of the hospital, Su Ran drove Zhuoer back, and by the way, he bought a lot of nutritional products and carried them up. I would come to see her every once in a while. Zhuoer completely broke off with Zhou Yang, Su Ran was so good to herself, and Zhou Yang was so affectionate to herself, she didn't want to waste time on her.
On the way back, Su Ran thought to himself, and he was hostile to Zhuoer at first. On the side of the couch she will not be allowed to sleep soundly. In the end, it depends on her desperate struggle for this relationship and Zhou Yang's determination. She began to pity this woman again, whether she comforted Drow or accompanied Drow to the hospital. The original starting point was to clean up the aftermath for Zhou Yang, and this situation Zhou Yang must not appear again. Later, after listening to Zhuoer talk about her life experience, Su Ran felt that she was very pitiful and helpless from the bottom of her heart, this is a person who lacks love, and every time she wants to grab a life-saving straw, she still doesn't catch it and drowns. Coming out of the hospital, Su Ran looked at Zhuoer from behind, very weak, wearing a pair of flat shoes, looking a lot shorter, and his back was like a child.
After more than a month, Zhuoer sent a text message to Su Ran: Su Ran, I have moved, it will be better for me to change the environment, I will work hard in the future, and I will no longer be emotional.
Since then, Zhou Yang has also uninstalled the game. I rarely go out to drink with friends after work, and at most I play ball in the gym and keep fit. Su Ran is still busy in the company. When I went back, I saw that Zhou Yang rarely went out to play at night now. She said: "Zhou Yang, you can sit and chat with your friends if you have nothing to do, I come back so late every day." ”
Zhou Yang hugged her and said, "It's enough for me to have you, and I won't entertain others, as long as you are by my side, it's enough." Wife, we want a baby, right? Mom and Dad have been urging me on the phone! ”
Su Ran said: "My work will be put on hold when I have a child, but let's go with the flow." ”
Zhou Yang and Su Ran had a married life half a year after the Zhuoer incident. He was extremely gentle, and Su Ran did not cater to it, nor did he resist. After all, after so many years, she has feelings for him.
When Su Ran found out that she was pregnant, she was very distressed. Can't balance work and family, when she told Zhou Yang that she was pregnant, Zhou Yang was happy to pick her up like a child, life completely revolved around Su Ran, every day at noon, she went home to make soup and sent it to Su Ran's company, and repeatedly told Su Ran to reduce her workload and make a lot of phone calls a day. Zhou Yang told the parents of both sides the news of Su Ran's pregnancy, and they (she) were also overjoyed.
Su Ran received a call from her mother, and Su Ran's mother said: Girl, don't be so strong, nothing is better than having a son and a half daughter, you are about to be in your thirties, and now it's too late to have a child, you must take care of your body well!
Zhou Yang's parents also repeatedly told them to ask for warmth in all kinds of hush, ready to hug their grandson in the future.
Su Ran was ready to have this child under the desperate desire of both parents. In the company, she reduced her workload and pushed away all socializing. When the child was a month old, she took maternity leave, and now that the competition is so fierce, after she took the leave, the position of store manager was quickly replaced by someone else. She thought, in life, there are gains and losses. Lost mulberry elm, gained the east.
Su Ran gave birth to a daughter, who was very beautiful, like Zhou Yang. Zhou Yang hugged his daughter, looked and looked, and then looked at Su Ran on the bed, crying with joy. He said silently: "Wife, you have worked hard, you have suffered." Give me such a beautiful little angel. Su Ran felt that the tearing pain made her heart palpitate now, and she thought to herself, never have children again. The father-in-law and mother-in-law wrapped a big red envelope for Su Ran, and Su Ran's parents also came from the small town, and the two old people met and greeted each other cordially.
Su Ran was used to the kind of life before, and he was busy working every day, like being beaten with chicken blood. Now that she has a child in her life, her position is gone, her mother-in-law and father-in-law stay to take care of her confinement, she is used to being clean, and now the house is full of footsteps, the sound of talking, and the cry of the child all day long. She began to think about the difference between Shao Yajun and the matter of Zhuoer and Zhou Yang. These things are amplified and replayed in my mind again and again. She couldn't eat, her spirits were not good, and she didn't even have milk. She doesn't make noise or noise, she just doesn't talk to anyone, Zhou Yang talks to her, and she doesn't pay attention. Zhou Yang's parents said to Zhou Yang in private: "Su Ran, this is a sign of postpartum depression, why don't we wait a few months to bring the child back to my hometown?" Zhou Yang watched Su Ran feel haggard day by day, and he was helpless.
Zhou Yang said: "You have to listen to Su Ran's opinion, if she doesn't let it, forget it." ”
Zhou Yang sat on the side of Su Ran's bed and asked: Wife, are you too tired to take care of the child, either let your mother hug you at night, or she will always cry and affect your rest, or let your parents take it back when you are older, what do you think?
Su Ran's eyes widened and said: I brought the child I gave birth to, but it was too noisy in the house every day, there was sound everywhere, and my head was buzzing all day, it was too noisy.
Zhou Yang said: "What do you want, don't you want your parents to be here!" He or she is a doctor and can take care of you and your child. ”
Su Ran stayed in tears and said: Zhou Yang, I want to go, I want to take the child back to the town, I don't want to be in Shanghai anymore, I am very anxious, very bored, and I don't know what's wrong.
Zhou Yang wiped her tears and said, "Okay, don't be sad. If you want to go back, I'll accompany you back, and I'll find a job over there and take care of you. ”
Su Ran cried and said, "Zhou Yang, there is no us, only me, only me, do you understand, I want to be alone, only me and my daughter." ”