Text/【@虾虾虾虾】

To you, my dearest,

When did you decide to write a letter to you?

It's not that it's far away, it's just that some things can't be said in person. Or, there's no way to say it to your face, there's no way to let you know.

Along the way, I have experienced more and more things, but I have less and less things to talk about.

Now that I'm about to become an adult, I don't dare to say how much I know, but at least I have some of my own opinions, but unfortunately no one shares them. It's not that no one wants to listen, but somehow they feel that "it will bother others" or "that it doesn't feel like it's going to be that good".

The latter reason is also a bit ridiculous to think about, after all, it is better to pour out your feelings in the face of strangers.

Speaking of which, you. I don't know if it's a stranger or the closest person, I know that I won't be in the same world with you in the future, but I want to share everything with you.

When I first met you, the city was still in the middle of summer, but the sweltering weather was about to start school, which inevitably added to the boredom. Only when you sit in the classroom with your long sleeves and your head bowed silently, I feel curious to talk, but I never thought that you would become such an inseparable existence in the future.

It's really easy to forget the past, for example, when I recall the first meeting now, and I only remember your fluffy hair and the look of your defensiveness for some reason.

However, when it comes to the beginning of acquaintance, it was only a month later.

It's also very simple to say, the school sports day, standing together to watch the 4×100-meter relay, but I pulled you and a few classmates to bet on who would win. And then it was so inexplicably ripe.

Later, after getting along for a long time, I heard a lot of people say that you are not good, but I am a preconceived person, and I think that you are not bad, until I heard a friend who has a deep friendship talk about you.

What I'm hearing is that you think I'm not a good friend, and you think I'm annoying.

At that time, my classmates thought that I was a "good person", which was a difficult concept to define, and I was said to be good, perhaps because I was more sensitive and could understand the feelings of others. However, you are a very different type, and sometimes when you see me reluctantly accepting other people's requests, you simply come over and pull me away and tell them "she doesn't have time".

So in addition to gratitude, I also envy you. I've always thought too much, and although I can understand others, I'm nowhere near as chic as you.

Anyway, I struggled to the end and chose not to believe the rumors, but the coolness of people's hearts lies in the fact that once you have doubted someone, you can't trust him wholeheartedly. I can't dispel this doubt, I just try not to show it as much as possible.

It's not that I haven't thought about asking you face to face, but I always feel that in the word question, people prefer the "quality" with prejudice rather than the "question" with real doubts, so I gave up. Later, I suddenly received a call from you in the middle of the night, I greeted you a few times but you didn't answer, so I fell silent until I heard you sobbing on the other end of the phone.

Then you started crying so hard that I didn't dare to ask what was going on, and then you calmed down, told me you were okay, and hung up.

I sat down at my desk, putting down the phone and not knowing what to do.

By the time I realized my choice, we weren't in the same classroom.

Before the start of my junior year of high school, I decided to go abroad to study abroad, not because of my grades, but because I was more or less influenced by you, I chose this path that made me happy.

In the last exam before leaving, I took the sixth grade exam, which is one of the few times I can do better than you, but I can't be happy at all.

Most of the friendships I've built take time to build up, and "leaving school" scared me because I'm not sure we're past that stage. So much so that later he was very uncompetitive and hypocritically hid in the bed and cried.

Finally, at the end, we went to see the small era together. At that time, I was leaving school in less than a month, and I secretly skipped the night to watch the premiere on my own study, laughing and laughing at the movie theater until I couldn't laugh anymore.

This is a movie that no matter what the outside world comments, it also has a supreme status in our hearts, just because this set of novels has accompanied us through most of our youth.

and the other set is Dean's "Western Decision". You have mentioned it more than once, you feel that you are the West Decision, and no matter how much your heart is surging, you can only return to the flat. I said no, you are like Gu Li in your childhood. The cold-faced and warm-hearted one.

As for me, I never felt like a character in the book, until I saw a passage you wrote to me, saying that I was very similar to Lin Xiao, although my life was ordinary, but my luck was very good.

You wrote this passage in my notebook, and it was not a lot of words, and it really made me want to cry.

You started writing, and it always felt unreal when you said that I was leaving, but I felt at a loss as time approached day by day.

I thought that this gift would continue like this, but it came to an abrupt end after a while. This was followed by page after page of torn off, and in the end I saw only one sentence, congratulations on your escape from the system.

I thought about writing something to you before leaving, and I thought about writing a lot to you, but in the end, I couldn't beat your few words.

At that time, I felt that nothing mattered, and I was determined to forgive you for all your mistakes, if they really existed. At the same time, he also decided to forgive himself for being pretentious and willful.

To this day, you are doing exercises in the classroom of your third year of high school, and I am preparing for all kinds of tests. Even though the space is separated, I can put my mind at ease.

Because no matter what, it's enough to make sure that we still trust each other.

Sometimes I still think about the future, it's not that I haven't thought about it seriously, maybe in different countries, you and I have our own families, with a new circle of friends, maybe this connection between us will really fade away.

But it doesn't matter whatever.

Now that I have chosen to continue to believe, even if there is no intersection in the future, I will still sincerely hope that you will have a better life.

At the end of the world, only hope for Jun'an.

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