Text/Cai Badou【@厨子蔡八斗】

1.

The big exam in the third year of high school is full of tension and pressure for everyone, and for Xiang Siwei, it is even more of a kind of nervousness. And every time I saw that person again, I fled in a hurry with various excuses as if to avoid the plague.

Every time she walked out of the classroom with a loose schoolbag after school and watched the students in the hallway bury their heads in the incandescent light, she hesitated again, although that was good, but she did it, is it really okay?

It is really difficult to choose such a precious opportunity to collide with the most important one in life.

The big exam with a headache, the school scene is quite spectacular, the hand is clenched with the pen, the brain is formatted with the blank on the answer sheet, and the heart is tied with a dead knot that will be scattered as soon as she pulls it, as long as the hand is gently pulled, she can climb to the sky in one step, but the thread will burn like a fuse......

Syllable!

The sound of a pen falling to the ground is especially abrupt in the classroom.

The fingertips are white and cold, and it seems that winter has not gone yet.

In the blink of an eye, the big exam was over, and the students were relieved.

Christmas Day, which is also the day of graduation, others hold greeting cards in their hands, she holds her graduation certificate in her hand, standing on the magnificent stage, enjoying flowers and applause. Everything seemed so fake, as well as the curvature of the corners of her mouth and the certificate in her hand. It's like waking up from a dream, and being scolded and baptized by the whole world.

Xiang Siwei seemed to see the young man in the sea of people, the most important thing in her life. And now, she's going to lose.

On Christmas night, the campus is decorated with warm decorations, with a huge Christmas tree in the center of the campus decorated with colorful lights, glass windows covered with various Santa Claus, and green hanging decorations on the door. The unprecedented freedom of high school seemed to burst on this night, and the alumni were basking in the joyous atmosphere of Christmas while saying goodbye sadly.

The never-ending cycle from the first year of high school to the third year of high school begins, some people rejoice, and some people are sad.

The best friends got together all night, reconciled, broke up, settled the accounts, waved goodbye......

2.

At midnight on Christmas Day, Xiang Siwei never believed that Santa Claus would come across the ocean.

It's enough to have a surprise, don't be too greedy.

With a smile on the corner of her mouth, she wandered aimlessly around the empty campus, teaching buildings, office buildings, laboratory buildings, playgrounds, ...... It seems that I want to go through the ownership of this place for three years, so that I won't have too many regrets after leaving.

"Yawn—" Xiang Wei couldn't help but sneeze, and her small body slumped under the Christmas tree piled high with colorful gift boxes, her body covered in a thin and baggy school uniform.

The night, it seems, is colder.

The tiredness of sleepiness swept over in the middle of the night, and the eyelids became heavier and heavier, and just as Xiang Swee was sleepy and half-asleep, a burst of warmth hit, and a ball of warmth fell on the tip of her nose, which was frozen red, as if someone was blowing.

Xiang Siwei suddenly opened his eyes, and in front of him was a handsome young man's enlarged face, and he suddenly fell asleep, "Ah! She subconsciously screamed and retreated, her mouth suddenly covered by a hand, and behind her was a huge Christmas tree with no way out, "Shhhhh The young man put his hand to his lips and motioned for her to silence: "Sviy, it's me!" Aren't you afraid of waking up other students so loudly? This is a dormitory. ”

It's clear when you look closely.

"And...... Being seen by other students in the middle of the night when the two of us are here is not what you want, right? Feng Chi smiled slyly, his eyebrows and eyes were crooked, and his pupils were sparkling in the moonlight.

He still hasn't changed, the same underbeating. Xiang Wei tugged at the corners of her mouth, but from the day she made her decision, she didn't seem to be able to change back.

Her shoulders were a little heavy, and Xiang Siwei found that she was wearing a long windbreaker, and when she raised her eyes, Feng Chi was only wearing a thin T-shirt on her upper body, and her face blushed to the base of her neck in an instant, she twitched the corners of her eyes, her face turned blue, and her eyes moved away in a panic: "Big ...... ...... in the middle of the night Why are you still here? ”

"I want to ask you. Whoever called someone's grades suddenly improved by leaps and bounds, and I was squeezed out of the rankings. The young man's clear voice deliberately raised the volume mixed with a hint of playfulness, he took a breath and sat down beside Xiang Siwei, turned his head and asked, "It's you, you're still depressed after being admitted, who bullied you?" ”

Xiang Siwei's heart trembled even more when she heard this, wasn't Feng Chi pointing at her in a roundabout way...... Even she couldn't forgive herself.

A university called Alica in San Francisco, USA, is the dream of all high school juniors, and if you step into that university, then you will have one foot into a successful society. Which of the senior high school students did not grab that rare opportunity to fight for their heads?

Xiang Swei's family lacked everything, except for money, and applied a typical sugar-coated cannonball, and his grades easily topped the list in the material eyes of the school. As a result, it also squeezed out Feng Chi's top list by relying on his strength.

Of course, the inside story is unknown to no one except the school and Xiangjia.

Still, infinite guilt never seems to recede. Every time I saw Feng Chi, I was even more like a ghost, and even had the urge to say it.

Feng Chi and Xiang Siwei can be said to be childhood sweethearts, from childhood to college, school, middle school, high school and high school, they have miraculously not separated, one is uninhibited, used to the days of bullying bad students together, used to self-study every night, sitting in the empty classroom far away, deriving an inexplicable atmosphere, accustomed to snuggling with each other, as if time has verified the legendary fate, but like a bosom friend, he has never mentioned the beautiful and dazzling word "love". It all went on uneventfully, without waves, as quiet as if it were before a storm.

Xiang Siwei could never have imagined that this storm was created by herself.

When faced with a choice between her studies and her indispensable love, she loses to the former.

She couldn't bear the fact that the precious opportunity she could get her hands on was fleeting, but she couldn't accept that twelve long years had come to an end on this night.

But what's the solution? Life is like this from beginning to end, everything is two-sided, there is something to give, there is always something like an hourglass in things, you gain a lot, and at the same time you lose a lot. Or the undercurrent is surging or helpless.

"Wei ...... Svie? Feng Chi's voice shook her senses, and she found that she was actually immersed in a tangle and couldn't let go for a long time.

Feng Chi ...... "It's better to just say it, tell everything, including your heart for him." Say it all, and you will have nothing to hide, and you will be relieved.

"I ......" and why care about the consequences? You're leaving him tomorrow, and all the bad is over. You will be greeted by the majestic school gates and supreme honor of Alica.

Leave...... Xiang Siwei's eyes suddenly focused, and two black words suddenly popped into her mind, and she seemed to understand something while breaking free from the hypnosis of the demons. Suddenly, his eyes were red, tears burst out of his eyes, and he fell into Feng Chi's arms and cried unscrupulously, saying something inarticulately. The boy looked at a loss, and he couldn't imagine how Sviy was so negative all of a sudden, as if all the backlog of three years of high school had exploded like a flood at this moment. He also hugged her gently, the girl's tears soaked his shoulders, "Cry, cry, cry......"

Si Wei's inaudible words never ended, and in the end, Feng Chi only heard three words clearly:

"I'm sorry"

A look of loss flashed in the boy's eyes, then faded as the night faded.

It's late on Christmas Eve, the children didn't wait for Santa Claus, and the two didn't wait for a lifetime of vows.