"You have no reason to be upset, because you are autumn, hesitate. You have no reason to be arrogant, for you are spring, tilt your head. Autumn colors are not as beautiful as spring, and spring is not stronger than autumn colors. ”

Let me lie on the hospital bed, chanting slowly. This is one of his favorite little poems when he was in middle school.

Think about how high-spirited and reprimanded Fang Yu when I recited this little poem. But now? He is a typical wasted person.

High paraplegia - this term is so unfamiliar to the mind of my predecessor. And now, when he really experienced it all, it was too late.

The total dislocation of the cervical vertebrae compresses the nerves, and in addition to the head and facial features, the body and limbs below the neck are not only unable to move, but also completely unconscious. Eating, drinking, and sleeping all depend on the service of others, and even suicide has become a dream.

Let me swim and even feel that I am not as good as a vegetative person. At the very least, those vegetative people are unconscious and don't need to face the tears in the corners of their loved ones' eyes. And what about yourself? In addition to suffering from physical ailments, there is also suffering from the heart.

In the past, I always swore that people should live vigorously and live with taste. But what about me now? All the rhetoric and all the good memories have become a thing of the past.

Before middle school, Ren Wuyou has always been a good student with excellent character and learning. He was obsessed, especially fond of poetry, and always dreamed of growing up to be a poet who became famous throughout the country.

After entering middle school, due to the poor science course, Ren You's academic performance plummeted, and even his interest in reading completely disappeared. Due to all kinds of unsatisfactory things, Ren You dropped out of high school and went home before graduating. Young and frivolous, he ignored his family's opposition and became a gangster on the streets.

In the days of being a gangster, let me swim was also smooth sailing for a while. In the world in his own city, he can be regarded as a small character with a head and a face. He also has his own alternative life pursuits and dreams - either to be a hegemon who dominates the party and calls for wind and rain, or to be a rich party and a local tyrant who spends a lot of money.

However, later, because of a woman named Wang Xiaoqin, Ren You's life changed.

For Ren Youyou, who thinks he is a talent and suave, since he was in junior high school, there have been many girls around him. After wandering the streets, there are countless women. But it was this Wang Xiaoqin, who had an extremely charming face and a devilish and attractive figure, that made Ren Xiaoyu completely obsessed with it and couldn't extricate himself

Three years ago, it was because of this Wang Xiaoqin that Ren Wuyou and four hardcore brothers had a fight with thirteen gangsters from another gang. In the end, the other party smashed a brick, so that I was paralyzed and paralyzed.

"Men are cheap." This is a famous sentence that Wang Xiaoqin said casually after I swam to Wang Xiaoqin to confess his true feelings.

Later, after I swam around the palace of Hades and picked up half of my life, I found out that what this cheap woman said was really reasonable, at least he felt that he was quite cheap. If he hadn't made a mistake, how could he be stupid enough to risk fighting for a woman who was a water-based poplar and used herself as a pawn, and even regretted it for the rest of his life?

Wang Xiaoqin is the most beautiful woman I have ever known, but she is not the best for him. The way this woman makes a man cheap is rhetoric!

Once, Ren You was stupid enough to believe that Wang Xiaoqin would love him for the rest of his life, stupid enough to listen to the lines of the mountain alliance and sea oath that were more disgusting than in the bubble drama, and even stupid enough to forgive this woman for stepping on a few boats.

That is, because Ren You was too stupid, when Wang Xiaoqin cried to him that he was being bullied, Ren You rushed up without hesitation with a wine bottle.

The result? The stupid and cheap man let me wander and cripple, but Wang Xiaoqin, a cheap woman, ran away with other men.

I can't forget the terrifying scene when I woke up for the first time after I was injured.

It was dark all around, and I couldn't see anything if I swam around. To be precise, he couldn't open his eyes at all, and he couldn't even feel where his eyes were.

At that time, the first thought that came to my mind was, don't I have eyes? Am I blind? Oh, my God! He immediately reached out to touch it, but to his dismay, he soon realized that he didn't even have a hand. Or rather, he couldn't feel where his hand was.

Next, let me swim is a wave of vertigo......

When Ren Wuyou came to his senses again, he felt better. At least he could try to find out what was wrong with him. Slowly, Ren You found that he didn't feel that he had limbs at all, and he didn't feel that he had a body directly. No skin, no muscles, no bones, nothing, what's wrong with you?

Could it be that he is dead? Most likely, he did die. When the brick of the other gangster slammed on the door of Ren You's head, he himself was indeed dead.

Is that what it feels like to be dead? No sound, no light, no people or something else? So where are you? Heaven? Hell? Or is it in the Yama Temple? It doesn't seem to be! This is beyond the perception of any wanderer, there is nothing but darkness here.

So what is it now? Is it a ghost? Or a ghost? But as far as I know, ghosts and ghosts seem to be able to move. Why can't I move? If you don't have any limbs at your disposal, are you still a ghost?

Oh, my God! Why should I be in this situation? Let Me Swim's consciousness blur again.......

In this way, the consciousness of Ren You is sometimes awake and sometimes blurred. He had always been in this dark place, and every waking up was torture for him. If this is death, then death is terrible.

Later, I heard my mother say that letting me travel is also a great blessing. At first, the doctors almost pronounced him dead, but this guy miraculously came back to life.

After lying in bed like a vegetative person for half a year, Ren You later became conscious, able to see, speak, and swallow. In other words, the current Ren You is a paralyzed person who can only lie in bed to eat and talk, and can do nothing else.

"What is my ideal?" Lying on the hospital bed, I asked myself. He doesn't know the answer! No one could answer him, only a bleak white of the ceiling.

"My life is over. To be exact, after that group fight three years ago, my life was over. Completely ruined by that devilish impulse, under that brick. ”

When I thought of that unbearable moment, Ren You's heart ached. It's such a burden to be alive.

In the past three years, Ren You has begged my mother and wants to euthanasia. But seeing the big tears rolling down his mother's old cheeks, he couldn't say anything about the rest of the words.

"What's the use of me living?"

The same question, countless times a day, Ren You has been asking myself for three years. He couldn't find an answer, perhaps...... There is no answer at all.

Life has turned into a miserable white in the torment, just like the walls in this hospital, or the mother's premature temples. Boil, let me swim and even have some hope that these parts on my body will break down early, which will be a relief for everyone.

In the past three years, although he has been breathing, he has saved a life that has little meaning at all. But it has become a huge burden for this family that is not wealthy.

When I was five years old, my father died of cancer. It was my mother who worked hard to pull her three brothers to grow up and raise them. In the past ten years, the suffering and tiredness of my mother is unimaginable to ordinary people.

Seeing that her three sons have grown up, her mother could have been content and retired. But because of Ren You's accident, not only did he destroy himself, but also almost ruined the entire family.

Let me travel every day and lament that I am a very unfortunate person, but I live in a very happy family. has a charitable mother and two good brothers who love him.

The eldest brother is a teacher at a vocational school. Although he is taciturn on weekdays, he is a good hand at teaching, and he has reached the level of associate professor in his early thirties. It should be said that it is smooth sailing at work and has a great future.

The second brother is a successful businessman. Running a mid-range decoration company, although it is not a daily money, it is definitely a rising star in the mall.

Originally, the three brothers were called "Ren's Three Heroes" by neighbors and friends, and they praised them as rich and noble people in the future. However, everything was ruined by the ruthless accident, and was dragged down by the accidental injury of Ren You.

In the past few years, because of the treatment of Ren You, the family's savings have long been spent. Fortunately, with the support of my two older brothers, I was able to get good treatment and not die early.

In order to treat Ren You for treatment, the eldest brother Ren Wu Fei gave up an excellent development opportunity to go to a remote place for temporary work and exercise, and the marriage date was delayed again and again. In order to treat him, the second brother sold the well-run decoration company to our bank, and broke up with his girlfriend who had been talking for five years.

Hey, it's all for this uncompetitive let me swim!

Arguably. If it weren't for the burden of letting me swim, his two elder brothers would have a very bright future and a very happy life. Every time I think of this, I feel extremely annoyed.

Ren Youyou, who was lamenting his life, suddenly heard a slight conversation outside the ward. Now, although Ren Xiaoyu is lying in bed 24 hours a day, he can't move. Gradually, however, his senses became extraordinarily acute.

"Mom! Don't worry about it, the little brother has become like this, how bad can it be? Outside the door, the voice of the second brother let me go.

"Mom, what the second brother said makes sense, you just let the little brother try, succeed, and there is no loss if it doesn't work, I think the little brother is in a very bad spirit for a while, and if it goes on like this, I'm afraid that something will happen to him." This time, it was the eldest brother who spoke, let me fly.