Chapter 16: I'm a Ghost
Although the scandal has disappeared, the impact is still there, especially Wu Anruo's kiss, which is even more sensational news about Chu University, and the spectators who don't know the truth on the Internet are just that, the rumors of Chu University's school are the most deadly. Pen @ fun @ pavilion wWw. biqUgE。 info
Whether it is me or Sanxin, I have experienced Ruan Lingyu's dying sentence: Human words are terrifying.
More precisely, three hearts.
There are only three hearts.
Low emotional intelligence is not without benefits, at least at the time, I really didn't take any rumors to heart. No matter how important things are said by unimportant people, it is all gossip to me, but how can I ignore the three hearts that are born sensitive.
I couldn't have imagined how much psychological pressure she was under, but what I didn't understand was that the heaviest one actually came from me.
Nearly a year and a half ago, there were a lot of rumors about me and Sanxin, and those were good, and even played a role in fueling the flames and confirming the relationship between the two of us, so at the beginning of the scandal about Wu Anruo, many people didn't believe it, but as the rumors fermented, things gradually went off the right track.
In many cases, it doesn't matter what the truth is, it's the truth that people want to get that matters.
The literati are light, and the beauties are jealous.
Later, the rumors have made the final positioning of me and Sanxin: half-hearted scum, green tea that snatches people's boyfriends.
The rumors in the school are one thing, and the other is Wu Anruo's loyal brainless fan, when the scandal has the greatest impact, even I can receive the most cordial greetings from those people every day, not to mention the three hearts.
If Wu Anruo keeps his promise, the news will be silent, and the attacks of those brainless fans have not stopped, until half a month later, everything has calmed down, and the relationship between me and Sanxin for half a month is simply four words: not salty and not light.
The relationship between us seems to never go back to the past, and the two group activities we participated in together rarely spoke, but to me, it was nothing.
What is love?
Gradually, I began to think about this question, more precisely, this is also a question that I have been thinking about for half a month, but I have never been able to get an answer.
What is Love?
Lu Yu once said that when you look at someone, and someone happens to look at you, they look at each other, but the two of them teleport away, but when you look at her again, you find that she also happens to turn her head to look at you, which means that the two of you have each other in your hearts.
Chen Zhiang's idiot defined a friend, and he was right.
Now it's Lu Yu's turn to define love, I don't know if this argument is true or not, but I hope it's true, because although my relationship with Sanxin is not as close as before, every time I go to class or class group activities, this is the true portrayal of me and Sanxin.
The only thing that makes me confused and uncomfortable is that in addition to anticipation, there is a trace of resentment in the eyes of the three hearts, and in the resentment, there is even fear.
Damn it!
I have realized the lack of my IQ from Sanxin, and I have realized that compared to ordinary people, I am indeed a little weird, but God knows how I can read Sanxin's complex and difficult eyes.
I wasn't ready to wait, take the initiative, and then take the initiative to restore the relationship, but Sanxin's eyes made me retreat.
To be more precise, my mind was in turmoil and a mess.
The three-hearted eyes that read it are nothing, and what's worse is that I obviously understand it, but I don't know what to do, and because of all kinds of events, I am trapped in it, and I don't even ask Lu Yu, Chen Zhiang, and even Su Mu's idiot with developed limbs.
In this darkness of its own, I groped for it, but in the end there was no good solution, not even a fly in a glass bottle, at least it could see the light, but I was like a blind man looking for the light, there was no way out, no hope.
A 38th line was drawn between us, and the sensitive Sanxin silently suffered the pressure from all directions, while I was trapped in the puzzle I had set up and had no way out.
When we meet on weekdays, we only have a few words of greeting, and we are no longer the kind of people who talk about everything.
As I said, this is a war between the two of us, and when Sanxin is in a better mood and a smile on his face, a fool like me actually thinks that this is a war between us, and the winner or loser of this battle is who can't help but break the deadlock first.
But what I don't really understand is that from beginning to end, this is my battle alone, and I never know it.
The reason why I set this standard, in fact, is also the reason for Pan Deng, during this time he and Sanxin are very close, even eating together occasionally, rumors still exist, but this time I am out, and the replacement is Pan Deng.
I was holding a breath in my heart, angry with Panden, and even more angry, but I didn't realize that in fact, I was the most angry with myself.
Due to the poor design of the drainage system, as well as the topography and population, it has always been a common practice for Jiangcheng to rise in summer, and this year was uneventful, except for some particularly low-lying areas that suffered from flooding, but I was deeply impressed by this summer.
About three weeks later, Chen Zhiang and Su Mu and I were in the cinema, and the movie was about to end in ten minutes, which was also the climax of the whole movie. ”
She had said so many things before, and I could not remember them all, but I nodded knowingly, but suddenly realized that she was not there, and said that I remembered.
After a long time, I realized that what Sanxin had said and wanted me to remember was: "A thousand gold and one promise, one heart." If I like someone, it is single-minded, for a lifetime, no matter how good other people are, I can't see them and don't want to see them, but if this person doesn't like me, or has failed me, then any man is the same in my eyes. ”
The voice on the phone was soft, but also full of exhaustion: "I worked part-time for eight hours today, and I was very tired. When I walked back, suddenly a girl from Chu University pointed at me behind my back, saying that I was a junior. As I was walking, I suddenly fell again. Before I could stand up, another strange call came in and scolded me for being a bitch, saying I was shameless. I told myself that wherever I looked, I was going to go in and sit down and take a break. Then I saw a bar called ROSE. Now I'm drunk......"
The phone stopped abruptly, and when I called again, it was turned off.
I instinctively worried, but I didn't panic, because I and Sanxin's mobile phone installed a GPS positioning software, even if Sanxin's mobile phone is turned off, as long as the battery is charged, Sanxin can still be found.
I immediately got up and left, leaving as fast as I could, the rain was pouring down, and the traffic jam was serious, and I couldn't care about it at this time, now Sanxin is no longer in the ROSE bar, but a nearby hotel called Xingshi.
I panicked, for fear that something would happen to my three hearts, and I ran wildly through the streets in the pouring rain.
It turned out that it wasn't just my dad who could do miracles, I could too, and I only took 12 minutes to cover a distance of three kilometers, a speed I had never imagined before.
At that moment, I thought I was the knight who slayed the dragon to rescue the princess, but when I came to Room 307 of the Walker Hotel according to the positioning of the three hearts, and heard a happy whisper, my body trembled to the ground, and my heart was like a knife.
I don't know who else is inside, but I can only be sure that there must be three hearts inside.
I slowly and gently pushed the door open, without turning on the light, and the bright light in the corridor was so dazzling that it suddenly woke up the two people in the room.
"Who's out there?" The man's angry roar came, and it was Panden.
Does it matter who the is out there? What matters is who inside!
I was wrong.
I thought I would only be angry, not angry, and even if I were, I would never be the same as when I was eight years old, but at this moment, although I was standing in the light, I was like a ghost compared to the two people in the dark.
The feeling of my heart being cut like a knife made my face hideous, my muscles bulged, and my whole body exuded a violent, gloomy atmosphere—I was a ghost.