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On the forest path, Xing Jinwen helped Li Dong to sit by the small lake.

Watch the leaves look beautiful in the faint moonlight, and watch the leaves slowly rip off......

"How's it going, are you comfortable?" Xing Jinwen asked with concern.

Li Dong drank a little too much today, and he fell asleep when he was in the car just now.

The cool breeze blew, Li Dong felt a lot more sober, and looked at Xing Jinwen, who was a little bird beside him, and felt a lot more comforted in his heart.

However, he was worried that the smell of alcohol on his body would smoke her, and although he wanted to hold her, he didn't do too much.

"Much better." Li Dong nodded.

"Can you tell me about you? It's about you leaving home and not competing professionally. Xing Jinwen asked softly.

In the past few days, it can be said that Xing Jinwen's perception of Li Dong has been completely subverted, she knows that he plays very well, but she never thought that he would stand on the highest glory in the basketball field.

Just, why didn't he keep going.

It can be seen that Wang Hao, Liang Guangxin, Zhao Zehao, and Xiao Cong all have a love for basketball that ordinary people can't understand and understand, and they must have laughed and shed tears countless times on the basketball court.

Li Dong remained silent.

Xing Jinwen didn't ask much, just sat next to her and quietly accompanied her.

The lake is quiet and you can hear the sound of the water slowly being removed.

"I've been away from home for two years......" Gradually, Li Dong's voice broke the silence, he looked at the lake and said, "That should be when I was just a freshman in high school......

"In the past two years, I haven't called home once. They don't know if I'm alive or dead, or where I am...

"In those two years, I was immersed in basketball, and I only had that game in my eyes, and I didn't care about my family's feelings at all......"

"I don't know why I became so insensitive, I don't know why I only have a computer in my eyes, I don't even want to communicate with others, I just want to use a keyboard and mouse to surpass and overcome."

"After losing that game, I was a lot more sober and all of a sudden I realized that I had nothing left. At that time, I didn't want to go anywhere, I just wanted to go home. ”

When he said this, Li Dong stopped.

There was a feeling that was really hard to describe in words, and he clearly remembered that after getting off the plane, he felt as if he was dead, without any blood flow and heart beating.

He admits that he himself has become completely addicted to basketball.

Only through continuous victory and continuous transcendence can we satisfy our own heart, which is actually not fillable at all.

However, once you fail, it feels like the whole world is falling apart.

At that time, he regarded games as a belief and a spiritual pillar...... Bordering on a state of madness.

A few nights before the Swiss event, Yang Lei, her mother, who had not been in touch for two years, called.

Li Dong didn't know where she found her contact information in Switzerland, and this call made him really cry.

He thought that he could support his life without family and affection, and he could face everything alone.

But when he said the last sentence to his mother Yang Lei, he felt that the emotions that he had suppressed for two years were rushing out like a flood, and all the things in his mind were the appearance of his mother Yang Lei, all the appearance of his father, and the delicate of Yu Yu.

After being away from home for two years, but getting along with them for more than ten years, can this blood-dissolved feeling be completely dissipated and wiped out like that?

Mother Yang Lei's story made Li Dong's brain immersed in the electronic world completely sober.

A person who has only a love and madness for basketball and no other feelings is a walking corpse living in a virtual world.

"During that time, I couldn't sleep, and I had hallucinations of playing ball in my head."

When a person lives in the unreal, it is very, very scary.

"When I had a free medical check-up abroad, my spirit was abnormal...... Even, sometimes when I look at Zhao Zehao and Wang Hao, I will have a very strange feeling. Li Dong said bitterly.

"How so??" Xing Jinwen looked at Li Dong in surprise.

"Addiction, it's as simple as that, just like a lot of young students will be addicted to a game. I sank into a deep, deep pit in the spiritual world that I had dug for myself, and I could never climb out again. ”

"So, you chose to go home?"

"And what about you now?"

"It's not much right now."

Basketball is also like a kind of poison, which will be silkworm ** god.

At that time, Li Dong was still very young and very young, and he had not formed a correct basketball concept at all, with his extraordinary and super talent, he completely fell into it, relying on continuous wins and continuous wins to satisfy his meaningless heart.

"That'...... Will you lose that game in Switzerland because you want to go home? Xing Jinwen asked.

Li Dong shook his head and said, "I'm fighting with all my might, that person is really powerful." After losing, I left without telling them because I didn't want them to know that my spiritual world was a little indistinguishable between reality and virtuality, and I didn't want to tell them that if I continued to fight, I would only become a madman. ”

"When I got home, I found out that my dad was sick, and his liver disease was very serious, and it was in the past two years that he appeared." Li Dong smiled miserably and said, "You're angry with me...... Originally, his liver was not good. He always had great expectations for me, the first time I got a perfect score in elementary school, the first time I won a trophy in the junior high school Olympiad, and I was admitted to high school with excellent grades. He urged me every day and asked me how I was studying every day...

From Li Dong's description, Xing Jinwen can imagine the hope and sustenance of a father for his son......

From this, we can understand how sad and angry a father would be when Li Dong ran away from home for basketball.

"Forget it, forget it, don't talk about it......" Li Dong shook his head, and the wine also woke up a lot.

He didn't want to say too much.

He is not like Zhao Zehao, Wang Hao, Liang Guangxin, and Xiao Cong, who do not have too many fetters and concerns, and he does not have the kind of deep guilt that a conscientious father brings them after the fatherly love is like a mountain but the grace will take revenge.

Therefore, after losing that game, he told the man Swiss that he would not touch T again, and at the same time, when his father Li Zhong forgave him, Li Dong also promised this father that he would not touch professional basketball again.

Because even Li Dong himself knows that if he touches professional basketball, he is a madman who will sink into the virtual world......

He needs this family, and even more so, a normal life to get himself out of the virtual shadow.

"Then when you can control yourself, will you fight again?" Xing Jinwen asked.

Li Dong shook his head.

Even if you can control the spiritual world and be able to separate the virtual and the real well, it is likely that you will be holding a sharp knife and stabbing directly into the liver of your father Li Zhong, which is no different from murdering your father.

I can't be so willful anymore, thinking about how hard he works every day, the pain when he is in the hospital bed.

Really, Li Dong, who had already done something wrong, couldn't hurt him anymore.

Now he just wants to follow what Li Zhong said, finish college smoothly, find a stable job, and slowly take over the burden of the family from his mother Yang Lei and father Li Zhong.

"They'll help me with what I'm not done, and that's okay." Li Dong smiled slightly.

"Well, I just think you're so talented, it's a shame not to join the profession." Xing Jinwen said.

"It's a little bit, but just like that, I'm going to train with them and help them step into a higher realm." Li Dong said.

"Well, too." Xing Jinwen nodded.

"Hehe, will you dislike me, a person who used to have nervous problems?" Li Dong said jokingly.

"Then I can't blame you, it's still so young, there will always be some situations, today's children are not all kinds of rebellion, suicide, and loneliness, although you are immersed in basketball and can't extricate yourself, but you have won a supreme glory with the honor of our country, this is actually really amazing, I didn't know you were so powerful." Xing Jinwen said.

"Hey, that's good." Li Dong laughed.

After chatting with Xing Jinwen for a while, Li Dong was also in a much more relaxed mood.

In fact, Li Dong only talked to Liang Guangxin about the mental depression, and the second person to tell was Xing Jinwen.

Li Dong was very relieved that they were all able to understand themselves.

Although this kind of sinking should have been slowly healed with the integration into life, considering the family, Li Dong planned to stop playing CUBA.