"Don't make such a joke ......"

The boy looked at me, but didn't reach for the soldier's gun, which he didn't know what model. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 ｉｎｆｏ

I tried to pat my head with my hand, looking at the strange environment around me, trying to pretend that I knew everything.

He also neatly picked up the soldier's gun in his hand.

"Who are you?"

I spat out a few words so coldly, without any other words, and I didn't want to say anything superfluous, as if I had lost so much that even I had begun to lose myself.

"Terrorists, as he says......"

The boy didn't say anything more to me, just stretched out his white palm.

"Gun ......"

I handed the pistol into his hands.

looked at him coldly......

"What's next?"

The boy looked at me, indifferently pulled out the magazine, and found that there was not a single bullet in the spring.

"It's a shame to know that there are bullets in this situation......"

I lifted the soldier's gun, which I don't know what type of gun it was, and took out a kettle from the soldier's side, neither looking at him nor answering his questions, but putting the kettle in my mouth.

"Goodo......"

He took a sip and handed the jug to the boy.

The boy didn't politely take the kettle directly, and then took a sip.

"I don't know ......"

I just said silently from the bottom of my mouth.

I don't know when the moonlight has begun to gradually replace the bright sun, and the gunshots in the distance seem to be more and more rare, and the black canopy has begun to darken the world unconsciously. The fear that flowed from the bottom of my heart, like the dew that slowly dripped in the cold night, finally dissipated on the earth, forgetting what I had done, and forgetting where I had been, everything seemed to be in a dream, even if I was looking forward to tomorrow, but the cold transparency had been tamed by the world at some point.

"Smoke?"

The gray-haired teenager took out a box of cigarettes from his clothes and said to me.

I shook my head......

"It's unreal to just anesthetize yourself with this kind of thing......"

The boy didn't say anything, just silently put the cigarette in his pocket.

I don't want to say anything else, I just walk slowly on the road with such gentle steps.

"Is it really okay to take me to your place like this?"

"Actually, it doesn't matter to you......"

The boy looked at me, but said so.

"Yes, it is impossible for humans to rebel against fate......"

I looked at my right hand, but I said something like this.

The boy's footsteps paused for a moment, but finally did not stop, and the blackened white rubber cloth shoes rustled on the black asphalt road.

The night seemed to emit a colder sound, and the street lamp stayed there, without luster, and even fell weakly to the ground. There was not a shred of human gloss in the streets, and even the sound of gunfire from nowhere.

"You know what? If you don't work hard now, there will be something you regret in the future! ”

"People are graded, what kind of work do you do when you take the college exam, what kind of work do you do when you take the college exam, and what kind of work do you do when you take the technical secondary school exam!"

"You don't know now, but you will understand in the future......"

"So you don't identify with such a world?"

The boy walked in front, only listening to the thin body speak slowly in the dark night.

"It's not so much disagreeing as rejecting......"

I put my hand behind my back, as if I didn't want to see it.

"Don't you regret it......"

I looked at the boy and took my hand out again.

"You can't regret it...... Once he chooses something, he has to pay for his own choice, and after that, even if he knows that his actions have paid the price. ”

The boy walked forward quietly.

"I used to tell my mother about something like this......"

"What?"

A faint stream of air from the throat drifted through the air.

"I once said that it would take me about 100,000 from birth to adulthood...... If the world is made up of information, then what is the composition of human beings? One day, my mother told me that it would cost hundreds of thousands of dollars to raise me so big...... But I can't do anything......"

"Ridiculous, isn't it...... No matter how much I add it, it's just me who is worth it. ”

"So...... What did you do......"

The boy looked at me and just asked.

"I killed her......"

My words were cold, and what was hidden in my eyes......

"Did you kill it with your own hands......

The young man's eyes were slightly fascinated, but he looked ahead and said so.

"Does it make a difference?"

I looked ahead, but my sloppy gaze didn't seem to look ahead.

The boy walked ahead, his gray-black hair shaking.

"Once people move forward for something, they will inadvertently hurt something, and of course, when they begin to desire something, their sins will gradually become heavy, and such a longing for deep desire can really reach that slim tomorrow?"

"But as soon as he began to stop, he had to face the past, because he wanted to get rid of everything, so he never hesitated, and became as sharp as the wind, as cold as steel, as deep as the abyss, as unshaken as the earth, and became free of weakness and defect in both body and spirit."

Because he wanted to resist, he embarked on a strange path that did not belong to him at all. And on this road, all you can do is ...... forward."

My words paused.

"It's not human......

The boy looked back at me, as if with a mocking expression, and said so in his mouth.

I didn't look him in the eye, I just said with a smile on my face.

"yes...... This is not human...... It's just a brute with human skin......"

His eyes looked at me, but they seemed to dim.

A cold voice came out of his voice, which seemed to be still childish.

It seems to be reminiscing about something......

"Such a sinful dream......"

I didn't speak, the wind blew on my hair, and the shaking strands of hair began to fly.

"But isn't that why we need to move on?"

His words were so cold.

"Interested in hearing my story?"

It seems difficult to understand at first in such a wind.

"Hmm......" the boy nodded faintly.

I looked at the cracked stone under my feet, but I couldn't feel it when I stepped on it.

"I don't know if I was a good obedient boy in the eyes of others, but when that day, when the world I began to come to realize was in conflict with the world I imagined, I began to think that the so-called obedience was not synonymous with humiliation."

"Compared to people my age, I was already in an opposition party in junior high school. I've always been proud of that, and I've learned to kill in the middle of the night when kids of school age are still struggling with exams. As the instructor said, we are here to improve. At that time, although my grades were always declining, although I began to alienate myself from the people around me. But at that time, I always believed that my path was to work for more people to have a fair future. ”

"But gradually, I don't know what is changing, according to the rules of the organization, I can't reveal anything about the organization until death, which I have done well, no matter what people around me ask me about what happened, I have never mentioned such a thing, but as time goes by, as I get older, I gradually begin to understand that we people are just some cannon fodder for the organization...... I'm not reconciled...... We fight for everyone's fairness, and why do we ourselves use consumables for others? Isn't this party fighting for social justice? ”

"Yes and no...... As I went on several missions, I gradually realized that this was not so much a political party as a security team fighting for a certain interest group, and would do whatever it took to suppress the other party...... What a mockery...... Is that all that is all the progress to be made? But stupidly, I made the decision not to leave here, but to fight against this organization, and at that time, I was trusted because I was here at a very young age. ”

"They don't pay attention to me who seems to have the idea of a child, but at that time, every time I was partnering with others, I would always inadvertently reveal the inside story of the organization, and when people questioned the organization, I began to describe to them the form of a real society, yes, the bureaucracy monopolized this society, and as civilians we could only compete to be their lackeys, they exploited us, enslaved us, and used money to make me feel that the world was reasonable. But is the road ahead really bleak? No...... All this is caused by their incompetence, and when we think back to our history, when we liberated the slaves, the ancestors of the so-called liberated race slaves were still barbaric on the continent, and they didn't even eat pickles......"

"yes...... We have made progress at the expense of a few, who are willing to make a decision with the rotten social relationship, even though they know that the end will be tragic. yes, even if the final outcome is a split of five horses? Isn't that the highest honor for a scholar? And if you look at today's officials, which of them has the courage to confront the whole society? Yes, they are afraid! But it is precisely because of their fear that people today are miserable, and because of their unbravery, we will suffer for the rest of our lives! It's like one or two...... Yes, they have already betrayed themselves in front of money, they forgot the oath from which they began to study. ”

"I will not die like this, in the past three years, how many life and death tests we have passed, I will not forget, what did I embark on this path...... Since that day, I have been constantly telling people around me...... The effect was obvious, I found so many people in a time I could barely have imagined. ”

"However, even with such a large number of people, it is still too small in the face of the whole society...... At that time, we hadn't betrayed the organization, there were so many of us, and how could so many people resist this world, at that time, it was the first germination of that thing...... Develop the brain to the limit, at the expense of all feelings, and use the remaining nerves to control every cell in the body. I'll never be the night I talked to that person and couldn't understand why we would let something like this happen. And the unscrupulous mentality, as if such a thing is normal. ”

"I went further and further down the dark road, but at that time, I didn't realize it, until one day, I heard the news of my mother, she was admitted to the hospital, and the funny thing is that I could see her every day, but why didn't I find out, but until I found out, I'm afraid there was nothing...... What was I thinking about in my mother's dying days......"

"I don't know...... However, I don't know why I've always been strong, but those days, it seems to be reflective, maybe, maybe it was my last conscience discovery, although I have always disliked my mother, always speaking those unassertive words in my ears, mocking me who seems to not know the height of the sky, but it still seems to have touched me. ”

"During that time, I seemed to be the only one in that world, the moment when I went to school seriously and started listening to the lecture seriously, of course, I didn't know what they were talking about, but those classmates who seemed to be very harmonious said some words that seemed to be very harmonious, and those days did not end until my mother died."

"She died because there were no medical bills...... I didn't have anything to do about it, I didn't have any selfish intentions, but I don't know why I was still crying at that time, I dropped out of school and started running around society, as my mother said before she died...... However, at that time, why did I, a bastard, think that my mother would die as soon as I invented this thing? Isn't that providential? It's God asking me to change the world. ”

"Yes, during this time, I seem to be working part-time, in fact, I have injected that thing, although it seems that I am an ordinary person, but in fact, only I know that I have begun to forget what is going on with this thing...... Because it's an experimental product, there is no detailed coding, and even the introduction of many programs is based on things from online games. ”

"Its principle is crazy and simple, directly with the original gene chain and the program opposite, the hard disk fluid is actually not fundamentally different from the brain fluid, the only difference is that the coding is different, and the principle of docking with each other is very simple, that is, through the relay completely becomes the liquid attached to the brain program, of course, such a memory is not a direct memory, just like a baby before the age of three You can quickly teach him a lot of knowledge, but when he grows to a certain age, he will forget, this is not that he forgets, It's that the liquid that was originally used for memory is hidden, which doesn't mean that it has disappeared, yes, it has always existed, some children are born to speak, some children can predict the future, and even have abilities, but these potentials will disappear when he reaches a certain age, this is just the appearance, in fact, it has always existed and never disappeared, just because too many feelings make the things that originally had disappear, and the way to make it have again is to eliminate feelings. ”

"And how difficult it is to destroy such a thing as feelings, but it is understandable that once you have such power, just one person has the power to face the group of numbers that generate the base, and I had that power at that time, and I succeeded, but in fact, it was just the opening of another door......"

"The revolution began...... With the day of my mother's death, the organization was eradicated by the government because of excessive expansion interests, the scene was really bizarre, and I had already taken people to another northern city, at that time, the country was fighting with another country in the south for life and death, and the north had natural allies but did not have too much defense, of course, the actual reason is that the north does not belong to the central army sequence, and the army independence is relatively high, so the strong central army does not care about him, but for the surrounding countries, This is undoubtedly a fragrant bait, and the enemy in the south will not fail to understand, so he directly asks the allies to land and attack from the north......"

"It seems that this is extremely dangerous, but this is my chance to rise, the northern army, which was not strong in combat, was almost quickly defeated by the neighboring countries, a large number of refugees appeared from it, and a more dangerous plague spread from it, and the number of people who died every day can be counted in tens of thousands, this is not just us, gradually someone finally began to complain about the government, why there are so many wars, but the powerless thing is that the central army can not withdraw from the stalemate southern battlefield, after all, compared to the rich south, This part of the north really can't be anything......"

"The war is still going on, I didn't rush to revolt, but began to screen the source of troops in each city, people's lives are more difficult, I didn't even put rumors, but these things don't need to be placed at all, because they have already left in some people with hearts, the days of war are still lengthening, the north is different from the south, here is not so much a stalemate war as a tug-of-war, and such a war actually hurts people more, I still haven't appeared, but the so-called rebel army has begun to grow everywhere, they block resources, and the social order is close to collapse......"

"Here, people's lives are not guaranteed, they can't go out safely, and even looting will appear on the street without control, and I am doing the last period of recuperation resources, starting to gather troops from several cities, arranging a whole sequence of battle bases, at this time, the soldiers who often wander even began to take the initiative to ask for battle, but I still didn't worry, the streets were desolate everywhere, the dead bodies on the ground no one restrained, and the rebels began to act recklessly for some survival resources in the non-stop laughter, Women can sell their bodies for a little bit of food, the war is raging, the northern army is not stupid, he also chose to take the initiative, directly across the sea to attack the mainland of the neighboring country. ”

"The repeated wars, which seem to be shelled all year round, the food has become so precious, the fighting of the rebels and the rebels seems to be more threatening to the safety of the inhabitants than those of the regular army, and the survival is so difficult that the whole world has become devastated, and the people seem to have finally begun to despair...... No one will come to save them. ”

"Except for us! When I confirmed the last 1,600 tons of oil reserves with a calm disregard for human life, I finally began to face up to the fact that the revolution had risen from an unknown place, and almost instantly began to respond to all corners, and the declaration of war to all warring countries with the clarion call to stop the war was echoed not only at home, but also in the whole North, which seemed to have no national borders...... The number of people who sign up for the army every day is almost more than the total number of the entire army, and in this hopeless world, appearing in front of everyone as a savior is like a divine soldier descending from heaven. ”

"The whole North, including some parts of the neighboring countries, seemed to be full of our rebels, and at that moment, because the social system that had been perfected in the early days, including the level of support, solved almost all the problems in an instant, and at that time, including the hospitalization and schooling, did not cost a penny, and the social system really permeated all corners. However...... After all, this is just a façade. ”

"The Northern Army and the neighboring countries reacted quickly, but the truth is that they can't beat us, and looking at the world, what army can compete with us? But in the end, I still lost, watching one comrade after another die in front of me, yes, the power obtained by relying on the power of such a crime is nothing but tyranny, and how far can such a regime last? ”

"Just like the last thing she said to me, I'm just an ordinary person......"

Standing far away from this world, looking at the city that had begun to darken because there was not a single light, it seemed that the lonely night sky was laughing at me.

"Sounds mysterious......"

The boy quietly touched his cheek, and his dry skin was no longer smooth.

"yes...... This kind of life is a little strange even to me. But only when fate is deeply involved in it, can you feel the heaviness of it, and if people can really forgive everything, maybe they can cry again...... But don't say forgive...... I'm afraid it's a very difficult thing just to face...... So all one can do is forget. ”

I looked at him, and then at the endless night.

"I really don't want to hold a weapon if I can......"

The boy looked at me, then at the dagger pinned to my side.

He patted the tree next to him and said.

"But you are not born to be a creature to be slaughtered."

I looked at him.

"Who knows......"