I can't put it into words, I can't put it into words, I'm in the middle of this rain curtain. Pen? Interesting? Pavilion wWw. ｂiquge。 ｉｎfo

Waiting for the so-called fate......

However, the yearning that seems to change the world was once in my mind......

At that time, I saw a lot of painful facts in front of me, and I faced everything without escaping, and then I was determined to change all this......

At that time, no one refuted themselves......

"Then you have to study hard......"

"yes...... When you grow up, you can have a good ......"

"Give your parents a good face......"

However, as time went on, everything in front of me was constantly changing, and I often couldn't sleep all night by leaning against the wall, trying to figure out if I was really right to choose this path? However, even if you really can't figure it out, you have something worth fighting for.

So I quietly raised my eyes to face the so-called reality, but why the more I want to cherish, the farther away from myself, and define that intangible thing as "dream" and "love".

"Study hard......"

"You study and learn from others, and see what they get into......"

"When you grow up, you understand......"

"When you see people driving sports cars, are you embarrassed to say hello to them? Would you rather be a big official, or dig a big ditch every day......"

"Watch people eat and drink well every day, but don't study well......"

"Is it okay if you don't study hard?"

"Don't people do that?"

In order to keep myself, I was deceived by such words, and the result that was difficult to come to was to make myself miserable......

"How capable do you think you are, you don't study hard, without me...... You can't even eat to catch up with the hot ......"

Every day, every day, I was always stubborn that I was right...... In the end, I realized that I was nothing more than scum and trash...... Yes, I'm just a piece of waste, and no matter what I do, I always cause significant harm to those around me.

"Can't you light it up for me?"

"I'm old, but how can I fix it......"

"But there are so many of them?"

"You can't control yourself, do you still care about others?" That kind of bitter persuasion seems to be still in front of me, so I don't know how to answer, yes, I can't even manage myself, how can I care about the good and bad of others, but such a day by day facts in front of my eyes, what should I think...... Oh, yes...... So I chose to ignore it completely......

To be precise, I should turn a blind eye......

Am I right? I started to wonder about this...... After all, I'm just an ordinary person, I don't have any money in my family, and I don't have anyone who is a big official, should I take care of so much? Oh, yes...... Or live your own life, what's the matter?

I'm just an ordinary person...... It's not even as good as ordinary people, ordinary people will at least let their parents live well, but when I was in high school, I could only watch my mother die in front of me, and I couldn't do anything......

Even though I tried to let my fantasies fuel my desire and never back down, my knees were still shaking, just like my twelve-year-old me, nothing changed, just as innocently sneaking away from behind the classroom door, not wanting to live so clearly......

Maybe it wasn't until the moment my mother died that I felt a sense of self-blame...... Maybe if I study hard, my mother won't die...... Maybe if I study hard, my mother will definitely live well in front of me...... Maybe...... But there are not so many possibilities in the world, just like I am just an ordinary person, and I am afraid that this will never change......

Oh, yes......

I'm just an ordinary person......

Waste and scum that are not even as good as ordinary people......

Rubbish......

"Rubbish! What the hell are you talking about, Sabbi...... Don't pee either...... What do you look like...... voice was in front of my eyes, as if the eyes were in my eyes.

Sabi ...... What the hell are you thinking? ”

"Sabi ......" is like a shoe print on my face, but I have no power to resist.

It's just that I endure such a beating, and I struggle hard in the group of a group of social bastards...... In my heart, although I never thought that I was not afraid, although I thought that I was strong, why did I ...... Why...... Or do you feel a little cold...... When did this cold begin...... When did it start......

Bone-chilling ......

The gaze was in front of my eyes, as if I were looking at a poor man......

"Do you know what's going on......

"It's because of you! So many people died! ”

"In the end, you can't do anything......

Thankfully, we've found the true savior...... "Still, I'm fresh in my mind."

So I could only sit in a dark corner and look at what was in front of me.

An inexplicable shivering sensation slowly appeared around me......

What does that feel like?

It always feels familiar...... It's just this cold feeling that makes me tremble, why is it always like that...... Make yourself like a thin and delicate piece of paper that is not as thin as a hand......

Where should I go in the empty world......

As for the eyes that wrap up, it seems to be touched slowly......

I don't know where I'm going, I don't know why I'm so vulnerable......

Just supporting...... Just support......

What the hell is going on with me reflected in the flames......

Am I becoming vulnerable?

No...... I'm going to ...... Still......

"Child, what's wrong with you......" The voice was transmitted, and the hand on my arm seemed to tremble, and then slowly raised my gaze, and the darkness and light in front of me made me a little confused.

But before I could see it, his body seemed to sit in the same dark place next to me, and then leaned against the wall as I did.

"Is it because someone else is a savior, you're not happy......"

I lowered my head, looked at the small wooden lattice on the ground, and slowly lowered my arms.

"Not much, it's just a little cold...... "I still touched my forearm, and the feeling made me slowly shrink my legs, wanting to slowly turn into a ball.

"Don't mind, they're just ......," he said, looking at the lonely chandelier on the roof.

"I never expected anything, and I'm so grateful you saved me, otherwise I would have died there......"

I lowered my head, slowly flipped my trembling palms, and said with a smile.

"I know that I'm just a ...... of waste"

"Not necessarily...... You may be the dream of mankind, the hope of the country, and the full yearning of nature! His voice seemed to interrupt me all at once......

I stared at him blankly, as if I had something in mind......

"Nothing...... It's just a sentence from "Sophie's Sorrow", do you remember......" He looked at himself with a smile, the stubble already covering his face.

"That kind of thing...... How can I ...... such a waste?"

I kept my head down......

"Don't give up hope......," he patted himself on the shoulder, then stood up and walked slowly forward.

"I'll come back to you when I have time!" He waved behind my back.

I looked at him, just dumbfounded.

The shriveled mouth reads.

"Hopefully?"