The forearm muscles have calluses, but the joints at both ends are just the opposite, the fingers are very rough on the front and back, and the index finger has a layer of calluses......

"Honestly, I've always adored you. Pen Fun Pavilion www.biquge.info "The recruit looked at me and said.

"Why?" I looked at the ground and replied with this in my mouth.

"Because what others can barely do, you can do it smoothly, a veteran who has chosen to serve the country all his life in the past, how to say it, how to say, but in the end......" he shrugged.

"......It's very reluctant," he smiled, "so I've always wanted to know how I can be like you, how you became like this." ”

At this point, I hesitated, but finally said.

"Because I've been living like this since I was a kid."

"Days like this?" The recruit seemed incomprehensible.

"Yes, I've lived in exile since I was born, and I remember the sheep that seemed to be spared for a while when I was a child, but it was probably the happiest day of my life, but I don't have that memory, and the war hasn't stopped for a moment since I can remember."

I looked at the moonlight and said very bleakly.

"So, you hate the aggressor, sharpen yourself every day, and finally become a ......"

I shook my head.

"Then I tossed and turned, and finally I ran away...... My family escaped to the city with the help of a priest. ”

"Uh......" the recruit seemed embarrassed, "and then you joined the army?" ”

I still shook my head and said with a smile, "How is it possible, I was only 7 years old at that time." ”

"It's really pitiful." The recruit smiled, as if he didn't dare to ask any further.

"So in the city, do you have a girlfriend, but if you're 7 years old, you seem to be able to go to school. There are cute school girls. The recruit finally showed a smile that everyone understands, "After all, there will always be many women like us, and when I was in school, I dated a lot of girls......" The expression of memory seems to be slowly enjoying.

I didn't talk to you.

"Senior, you must have it too." The recruit looked at me and smiled again.

But I grinned slightly, though I think the expression was a bit fake.

"No ......"

"Can't you......" The recruit looked at himself dumbfounded, as if he were looking at the most incredible thing in the world.

"Because when I didn't see the facts, I was still holding on to illusions, and when I understood the facts, I gave up on the idea."

I touched my cheek and finally said this.

"Why? Don't you know? The student girls were very ...... "The recruit took out a cigarette without paying attention, as if he was going to keep chatting for a long time.

"Because, when I understand the facts, I understand how heavy the responsibility is. It's so heavy that I can't bear it. ”

I touched my cheek and reminded me of the last thing I wanted to think about.

"There's a fart responsibility...... That kind of thing...... Play ......," said the recruit nonchalantly.

"It's not that I don't want to admit it, and I don't want to admit it, but I have to admit it, I admit that I don't have any merits, and when I see girls in school, I want to go over and talk, but I can't...... No one wanted to talk to me, and there was always a lot of talk around me. ”

"Why?" The recruits don't seem to understand.

I looked at the sky and finally said, "Maybe it's not mature enough, maybe it's not strong enough." ”

"Haha......"

"And then in order to become stronger, in order to become rich, I thought that life could be fooled by the past, for all kinds of reasons......" the wind blew through my hair, and I said with the words of my mouth. In the end, I was forced to do the ...... of shooting someone. ”

"It's always amazing...... the recruit said, smoking a cigarette.

"Not only that, but at that time, I often heard about how society was doing, and it was a fight for justice. In the end, it turned out that it was just for some boring drugs...... At that time, I understood something...... What do you agree with......"

"And then?"

"And then, Mother died......" I said so heavily, though my voice was still so faint.

"Then, the drug dealer was executed, we went into hiding, and spent two unforgettable years with my second person who influenced my life, and taught me the most important lesson in life, and the funny thing is that he was actually the brother of the drug dealer, and then the war broke out...... I followed those social ideals and participated in the Second War of Conflict in the countries of World War III. ”

"Honestly...... I really don't have a good impression of the country at all...... For girls......"

"It's not that I don't want to find a girl, but I don't have money, it's hard to live, I don't even have a place to live as a student, I'm always on the move, such a person, even if a girl follows you, can I really protect her?"

"Why do you think that? Play ......," the recruit smiled.

"Because that's the responsibility......" I smiled mockingly.

"And then the war broke out......"

"On the day my mother died, I resented and hated why society didn't give such a poor person a little more care. But there was no news......"

"I really hate everything...... If it's possible, I hope everything has nothing to do with me. ”

"Even if it's just a feeble look at all this......"

"And then, the state came to the point of its greatest survival, yes...... I can choose to retreat like the army, and thank that country and the sensible person who braved the world to recruit conscripts. ”

"I didn't stand up, but I had to stand up......"

"You're thinking too much...... That person is also funny, the army has retreated, and you still resist a yarn. ”

"yes...... It's crazy...... If it's really possible, I don't want to have anything to do with the army for the rest of my life, and whoever I want to go will go, but that's a last resort......"

"It's just that that person really changed me, and in the end, we, a group of civilians who had never experienced war, miraculously won the war and won the regular army, and even almost recovered all the lost territory at one time......"

"How nice it would be if it was really once...... I don't have to wander in the north and fight a war for twenty years, I don't have to hold this abominable lump of iron to this day, and I don't have to watch my comrades hold my hand. ”

"Really...... I still remember what the comrade-in-arms said, at that time, his foot was broken, and there were pursuers behind him, I pulled him, trying to run with him, but he shot himself in the heart, and told me with his bloody eyes that I must regain the lost ground...... I didn't know how to respond to him, but I didn't know what to say to his face that was still smiling to death...... I don't want to go to war like this at all, a little, a little...... I can still remember that sound...... His face ......"

I stroked my hair and said the last thing.

The recruit looked at the hateful expression on my face and smiled awkwardly.

The man wanted to tease me about something, but he felt like his neck was being choked......

"They all have to go to war, they have to go to war in the midst of necessity, and they have fought in the midst of necessity until now, there are too few choices, and there are almost no changes that can be made...... Even if it was just a necessity, just in such a life...... What the hell have I done and what have I changed......"

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