"I killed people, killed a lot of people, killed a lot of innocent people"

"Killed, I killed with my own hands."

"They are all heroes, they ...... in the end"

Qin Fanghao told Zhao Yingluo about the time he met today, but as he spoke, Qin Fanghao actually cried.

Seriously, Qin Fanghao didn't know why he was crying, but the tears just couldn't help but flow.

Zhao Yingluo saw Qin Fanghao's appearance, Zhao Yingluo felt sorry for this man in his heart, Zhao Yingluo reached out and hugged Qin Fanghao's head in his arms.

Qin Fanghao lay on Zhao Yingluo's stomach and cried bitterly, although Zhao Yingluo did not experience this afternoon's scene.

But Zhao Yingluo knew in his heart that it was definitely a nightmare for Qin Fanghao, a nightmare that you may never forget in your life.

Zhao Yingluo didn't feel sorry for the man in front of him, they had been working together for a long time, and this time Qin Fanghao was directly undercover in No. 76.

No. 76 is very dangerous, Zhao Yingluo knows it, and she also knows that Qin Fanghao must be trembling inside, and she has to be worried every day.

So Zhao Yingluo took care of the house very well, although they were pretending to be husband and wife, not real husband and wife, and there was no real home.

But Zhao Yingluo still fulfilled his responsibilities, washing clothes and cooking, and playing the role of a wife.

Because Zhao Yingluo knew in his heart that Qin Fanghao was already very hard, and he had to help Qin Fanghao bear something.

Now seeing Qin Fanghao's crying bitterly, Zhao Yingluo didn't feel good in his heart, the man who was always a hero in front of him was actually crying now.

So Zhao Yingluo knew that Qin Fanghao was really depressed, too hateful, and too uncomfortable.

"Cry, just cry." Zhao Yingluo stroked Qin Fanghao's head and asked Qin Fanghao to cry, just cry.

"They all died, they killed each other, and the last one was killed by me."

"He may have seen who I am, but I didn't give him a chance to speak and affirm, so I just shot him."

"I killed a lot of people today, four innocent people, plus one Zhongtong person."

"I killed them all, you know? Can you imagine the look in their eyes for survival, the longing in that look? ”

"I almost killed a father who came out to buy medicine for his daughter, and he knelt in front of me and begged me to let him go, but I was ready to shoot."

"The person in the middle still wanted to look at me, but I didn't give him a chance."

"He's obviously a hero, he's not afraid of death, it's impossible for him to reveal my identity, but I don't dare to let him look at me more, I just shot him."

"He had all his knees shattered, and he was sitting in front of me, with tears on his face, and he ......"

Qin Fanghao was lying in Zhao Yingluo's arms, he recalled everything that happened today, he just felt that it was difficult to breathe.

He felt that every time he breathed, he could hear those voices calling for help, and he could see those longing eyes.

He felt that every time he breathed, the eyes of the middle-aged man, the eyes of the last second before death, looked directly at him.

Qin Fanghao felt that he was already unable to breathe, Qin Fanghao had been trained, and Qin Fanghao was also a professional.

But training and really letting you experience it, those are two processes, and now Qin Fanghao has really experienced it, so he realized what that feeling is.

Zhao Yingluo lowered his head and looked at Qin Fanghao distressedly, and said softly: "It's okay, I don't blame you for this matter, what you did was not wrong, really, there was nothing wrong." ”

The unique gentleness of a woman, at this time, as if giving Qin Fanghao some support, Qin Fanghao looked up at Zhao Yingluo from Zhao Yingluo's arms.

With longing in his eyes, he asked, "Am I really not wrong?" ”

Qin Fanghao now needs the affirmation of others, he needs others to speak in person, firmly, and without hesitation to tell himself that he has done nothing wrong.

Because Qin Fanghao couldn't convince himself anymore, those eyes full of survival ** made Qin Fanghao unable to convince himself in his heart.

Zhao Yingluo didn't hesitate at all, she nodded vigorously and said, "Yes, it's not your fault, you're not wrong, you did a good job today, do you understand?" ”

"Really?" Qin Fanghao seems to feel that he has been redeemed by Zhao Yingluo's words, in fact, people are like this many times, you have not done anything wrong, or even if you really did something wrong.

When someone affirms you and supports you, you can convince yourself.

But if you let yourself convince yourself, it may be difficult for you, Qin Fanghao is in such a state now.

Zhao Yingluo understands that this time is very important to Qin Fanghao, if Qin Fanghao survives, then Qin Fanghao will become a better underground worker.

But if Qin Fanghao can't get through, then Qin Fanghao will collapse, and he will slowly degenerate from now on.

Zhao Yingluo couldn't let such a thing happen, so she needed to help Qin Fanghao, no one was an independent individual.

Even if they work underground, it is difficult for them to survive independently if they do not rely on and support each other.

For example, An Yinong, there were many things that I couldn't understand and couldn't figure out at that time, they were all Yang Wan, Fu Ash, Fu Changsheng, and Qiu Gang who were helping An Yinong.

If it weren't for them, An Yinong wouldn't have come to this day, and maybe he would have collapsed in one thing.

So now Zhao Yingluo feels that she must play her due role, she must enlighten Qin Fanghao, so that Qin Fanghao can grow from this incident.

Instead of being defeated by this incident, because this incident was somewhat serious for Qin Fanghao.

Because those innocent people were killed by Qin Fanghao's own hands, if Qin Fanghao saw their family members on the street in the future, he might feel even more uncomfortable.

Therefore, Zhao Yingluo now wants to help Qin Fanghao enlighten, not to let Qin Fanghao simply understand, but to really understand.

Even when I met the family members of these people in the future, I was forced to ask and questioned by the family members of these people.

Qin Fanghao can be unmoved, although he is a little cold-blooded, but that is really what he wants to understand, Zhao Yingluo feels that his task today is a bit heavy.

At this time, An Yinong and Liu Wei had already arrived home, and they had already eaten, and they left a little earlier than Qin Fanghao.

When she was on the road, Liu Wei told An Yinong about the state of Qin Fanghao when she met Qin Fanghao.

Liu Wei also told An Yinong that she felt that Qin Fanghao's state was very bad, and even a little worried.

Liu Wei was very worried, she felt that Qin Fanghao's state at that time might already be a little blank in her brain.

But when he was on the road, An Yinong didn't say much, and after he came back, Zhang Xiaolan was there, and Liu Wei was not easy to ask.

After eating, when everyone went back to rest, lying on the bed, Liu Wei finally couldn't help it.

pushed An Yinong and said: "Tell me, Qin Fanghao's current appearance, is it no longer suitable to continue working." ”

Liu Wei felt that with Qin Fanghao's current state of being unstoppable, it would be very dangerous if he continued to work.

But An Yinong looked at Liu Wei and said, "Do you think Qin Fanghao can leave?" ”

Qin Fanghao can't leave, his relationship is that he has a relationship with Feng Yichi, and he is now a new person supported by Feng Yichi.

You let Qin Fanghao go now, how can Qin Fanghao go, and he can't go.

"But ......" Liu Wei still wanted to say something.

However, An Yinong said directly: "This time is a test for Qin Fanghao, he can pass it, and if he can't, he will resign himself to fate." ”

An Yinong understood in his heart that today's incident would of course have a great impact and blow to Qin Fanghao.

Because Qin Fanghao's age is not very old, at his age, when he encounters such a thing, if you want Qin Fanghao to have no negative pressure at all, he will be resurrected with full blood.

That's impossible, first of all, Qin Fanghao is a flesh-and-blood person, not a cold-blooded machine.

"What if I can't get by?" Liu Wei remembered that when she saw Qin Fanghao today, she was worried about Qin Fanghao's appearance.

In fact, Liu Wei was not so worried at first, because Qin Fanghao's final performance was very good, he personally killed the people of Zhongtong, Liu Wei thought that Qin Fanghao had already figured it out in his heart at that time.

But when she saw Qin Fanghao in the corridor, Liu Wei realized that she was wrong, because Qin Fanghao didn't look like he had figured it out.

In fact, An Yinong understood in his heart that Qin Fanghao did what he did at that time because of the pressure from the outside world and the pressure from Feng Yichi.

Although Qin Fanghao was under the trend of pressure, under the action, he went to complete a practice that seemed very good.

But those knots in his heart have already been buried, and in the future, Qin Fanghao will not be able to get along with himself, and he will drill the horns of the bull with himself, which is the most troublesome.

However, An Yinong said: "Then it depends on Zhao Yingluo." ”

"Zhao Yingluo?"

"Why?" Liu Wei didn't understand very well, why this time it depended on Zhao Yingluo, and what does this have to do with Zhao Yingluo.

Seeing that Liu Wei didn't understand, An Yi groaned and said: "At this time, what is often needed most is the help and affirmation of others. ”

An Yinong's groan was because he remembered many people, those who had given him help and affirmation.

Although some of them are alive now, and some of them are dead, they still remember vividly those who taught and enlightened and helped them through difficulties.

Therefore, An Yinong feels that the main task today should be Zhao Yingluo, if Zhao Yingluo can see it clearly, then Qin Fanghao will not fall.

Because Zhao Yingluo knows Qin Fanghao best, and others don't have such a good effect as Zhao Yingluo, so An Yinong feels that today's matter depends on Zhao Yingluo.