Awakened by this so-called "nightmare" again, Song Song was already used to it, and even he didn't know why he said such hurtful words at that time, even if it had been a long time, it was so hard to forget. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 info

"Sometimes, the more you want to forget, the more it will become the most indelible memory of your life." I don't know which book I read this sentence from, but its original intention should be to let people learn to let go, not to remember the past, but to live in the present.

But this sentence is also very appropriate to describe the current Song Song.

Gently removing a gentle jade arm from his chest, he carefully sat up from the bed, standing in front of the window and looking at the bright stars in the sky, Song Song couldn't help but start thinking deeply.

He has always thought that what he did was right, whether he chose to retire at the beginning, or then listened to Fangfang's advice to do other work, not because the chips that Fangfang used to threaten were too huge, but he himself knew very well that he didn't want to lose the relationship with Fangfang.

I have lived alone for more than 20 years, and finally met her in the vast sea of people, and there has never been a person who has supported him like that, making his life full of color, and accompanying him step by step to victory, but the more victories he gets, the more difficult it is for him to let go of the hard-won victory, the only place where he can show his talent and the only place where he can feel his presence.

Even so, I thought that this relationship with Fangfang could make these things become floating clouds, so I chose to retire.

However, life after retirement is not as sweet as he and Fangfang thought, and every day life is nothing but quarrels or quarrels, for many, many reasons, not just because of League of Legends.

Living like a walking dead every day, working the same, and not finding a sense of existence in one's own life, such a life is like a shackle that locks all one's talents.

Song Song himself didn't think of why his life with Fangfang suddenly became like this, Song Song can be sure that even in his three consecutive championships, when he was the most brilliant, e-sports, League of Legends, Ahri, all these glories were second to Fangfang, and Song Song regarded Fangfang as his only relative.

But, will relatives say such hurtful words to each other?

This made Song Song reflect:

He asked Fangfang to understand himself, but how could he really understand Fangfang.

She is different from Wen Wan, her living environment is cheesy, she herself is cheesy, she wants her man to be shiny, to be sparkling when talking about her man to others in every way.

She is also a woman who loves vanity, but she can't give her these, but thinks that she was completely wrong to choose Fangfang in the first place, she is so unreasonable, instead of choosing Fangfang, it is better to choose League of Legends.

Now that I think about it, in fact, Fangfang may be willing to support herself to play professionally, as long as she does what a boyfriend should do, and talks to her in the calmest and most rational words, even if she is extremely opposed in her heart, she may slowly melt because of these warm words.

However, he didn't do that, always thinking that the other party didn't understand, and either chose to escape, or choose to quarrel, or even choose confrontation, so that both hearts were covered with thick frost.

So much so, until finally, I involuntarily appeared in this world, and when those memories surged into my mind, the first thought was actually ...... To be able to better display their talents in this place, to stand on a higher shining point, and even this heart that wants to win is even hotter than in that life.

Although at first, Song Song forced himself not to play, he was afraid that he would fall into it again.

But I don't know why this feeling of winning is becoming stronger and stronger in such a situation, is it because I am still very unwilling to retire that year, or because of the only remaining resentment towards Fangfang in my heart.

I don't know!

I don't know!

To this day, Song Song is still confused.

He didn't know what he was hiding in his heart.

I wonder what is the reason for the determination to win to the death?

He only knows that he wants to become the champion, no matter what, he wants to be the champion, even if he may let An Xiaobai play in the end because of his poor form in the game, he has to get this glory!

"But what is all this for?"

Song Song looked at the bright starry sky, but his mood was extremely melancholy.

For the first time, he was confused about his career, confused like the bright moon in the sky, hanging in this boundless sky, lonely, persevering, but not knowing what he was holding onto.

For the sake of gentleness? It doesn't seem to be all.

At the beginning, he promised to take Wen Wan to the world stage, but at that time, Song Song just thought that he would eventually go to the world stage one day, and taking Wen Wan was just a piggybacking thing.

Even, until now, Song Song didn't understand what kind of feelings he had for Wen Wan.

There is still that fear buried in my heart, afraid that one day, the same thing will happen to Song Song and Wen Wan.

Even, Song Song thinks that he doesn't really like gentleness, but his inner hollowness, fear, and confusion, and the desire to win will continue to show different postures with this girl's soft heart......

"Ugh."

Song Song sighed slightly, walked to the window and picked up the mobile phone at the bedside to look at the time, but it was only two or three o'clock in the morning, it was still early, so let's sleep for a while.

As soon as she was lying on the bed, Wen Wan immediately leaned over as if she did it on purpose, and her jade arm tightly wrapped around Song Song's waist.

"Go to sleep, there will be a practice match with King and their team tomorrow." Song Song said.

"Hmm." Wen Wan, who was asleep, responded slightly.

PS: I hope this chapter doesn't appear too abruptly. I have to admit that the book has completely collapsed, and it seems that the main line has not completely collapsed, but I have not written some details in the middle, and it would have been much better to keep writing according to the outline.

But because of some readers, I changed a lot in the middle, and it took a long time to break the change, and I didn't write this plot until now, and it seems so abrupt.

Originally, the relationship between Song Song and Wen Wan slowly changed with the relationship between Song Song and Fangfang, so it doesn't matter if the beginning is written like that, because some memories will be written in the middle to change Song Song's extreme personality in some aspects, and the reader can understand the reason why he wrote it at the beginning. As a result, it was revised without authorization due to reader pressure, and this relationship line collapsed, but I had to write it out, so I had to add this paragraph here.

After all, this is almost the end of writing.