Chapter 132: Reason for Continued Existence

"There's no way you can win my !!"

The loud rebuttal or roar spread far away, and there were too many emotions and pressures in it.

Ming Xue's mood seemed extremely abnormal, her cheeks were flushed, and strange emotions jumped in her eyes, excited and resentful, and even had a trace of self-blame. A pair of big dark blue eyes were covered with a layer of terrifying light that flickered because of anger, and the whole body seemed to be boiling, this emotion called anger made the girl's snow-white slap face even have a trace of hideousness and distortion, and the six mini wild black beast patterns trembled slightly.

"Didn't I tell you to stop talking? You should know that she is no different from a monster!! Lu Wan frowned, her mind was a little anxious, she had seen my Ai Luo's cold murderous appearance, but she couldn't think of a countermeasure, her mentality began to become agitated, she reached out and grabbed the little fox's clothes, pulled the little fox to further stimulate the other party's behavior, and complained impatiently.

Tenma also frowned slightly, the mood of these two little guys is a little wrong, right? Especially the little fox, who seems to be very impatient and sensitive?! Have you accumulated a lot of stress? Looks like we need to find a time to talk to her.

Recently, because he has been busy with his cultivation, Tenma has rarely chatted with Naruyuki.

Tianma has known the Tao since his previous life, the little fox has always been smiling, sunny and cheerful, but his heart is extremely sensitive, growing up in that environment, the indifferent and numb girl who has not changed can already be said to be mentally tough, pure and kind.

But how could it be that there was no shadow?! In the face of everyone's indifference, coldness, and even bullying. Forcing or trying to ask yourself not to resent, to face, to smile, to ignore, to be strong and brave, to work hard to live, to get their approval. How difficult should this be a decision and process? But this girl did it. The girl buried tears and pain in her heart, put smiles and sunshine on her face, and was strong and pitiful. Stupid and pampered.

She's the biggest and biggest fool in the world.

She is also the best and best girl in the world.

"I've got a real monster in my body." The girl ignored Lu Wan's persuasion, her eyes stared straight at the red panda with a cold and calm face, her teeth clenched tightly, and her blue pupils were stubborn and angry, "I won't lose to this kind of person!" ”

I would even kill my brother like that, and I would not hesitate to kill him! That monster! That monster-like me who can't even stop my brother! How could it be possible to lose to you!!

How can it be repaired!! I finally got my brother's spoiling ~ the general feeling of family! How can it be repaired!! How can it be repaired!! I'm the monster!! I'm the real monster!!

What emerged in the girl's heart was deep unwillingness, fear, self-blame, chagrin, stubbornness, and fighting spirit.

Quiet.

My Airo's pupils shrank imperceptibly, monster?

"Stupid! Why are you deliberately messing with her?! "It's already troublesome enough. Damn, what to do?

"Monsters." My short burgundy hair fell slightly, because she lowered her head, the shadow cast by the light on her forehead on her eyelids made her gaze extremely difficult to discern, and her voice, which had been extremely smooth and unwavering, was slightly lowered, and she repeated softly with unspeakable emotion, "Then I will be the same as you."

The room was quiet again for a moment lu wan and ming xue s surprised eyes pierced my lai luo s body reminded the girl of being isolated, ignored and feared by everyone the originally lowered eyes slightly agreed with the gaze instantly turned cold, it turned out . Even my own kind won't identify with me, make me feel warm, make me feel existent?

Looking up expressionlessly, his eyes became colder and colder, and a trace of cold air rose from the bottom of his heart, emanating through his body in the air outside his body, lonely and indifferent, as if isolated from this world.

But there was still a desire to talk in her heart, she had been lonely for too long.

But that surprised gaze was so piercing, it made people's hearts chill, her voice became more and more cold, and the girl opened her mouth expressionlessly, as if she was telling another person's story, "As you said, I was not educated well by my parents."

Parents, what a cold and distant term.

"When I was born, I took the life of a woman whom I should call my mother." The girl's voice was calm and cold, like an emotionless machine, as if passively playing a recording burned in the bottom of her heart, "In order to make me the first ninja. My father used ninjutsu to attach the incarnation of sand to me."

In the heavy dark circles under his eyes, those gray-green eyes carried a thick coldness, "So, I was born a monster." ”

"Sand. The incarnation?! ”

"That's what was sealed in a pot of boiling water called Shouhe. The creature of an old monk in Sand Ninja Village. ”

It's like you're talking about something unrelated, and you're going to be painful, hateful, and angry, right? Why is there only such an indifferent and numb voice left? Have you been so used to the pain that you have forgotten how to express it? This girl who enjoyed all the spoiling at the beginning of her life, but lost all happiness that day, and lived alone and painfully.

In that case, why should I give happiness and beauty at the beginning of extreme suffering and then let me lose it? Do you want me to be more aware of what is the meaning of existence? People are lonely and miserable in the end! Everything is false, only existence and blood are real.

What a bloody deep and stubborn realization, the girl thought coldly.

"It's a possession technique to get something attached to her before she was born." This guy still has this kind of identity and ability, how can he cultivate it, this time it is even more troublesome. Sweat oozed from her sideburns due to surprise and anxiety, and Lu Wan reluctantly explained to the little fox next to her who looked curious, "I didn't expect that it would be to this extent. It's insane! ”

Staring at the red-haired girl with a cold face, Lu Wan was a little anxious, in short, the current situation can only continue to delay, and it would be better to wait until there is an outside force to break this balance! For example, Mr. Kai, who will definitely come to visit Xiao Li every day.

"Hmph~ Is this what parents should do?!" Lu Wan thought about it like this, and was a little weak-hearted, and reluctantly asked questions that might stimulate the other party, but I just hoped that the effect would not be too much. Their affection for you has been distorted~"

"Family affection?!" It seemed to sneer, but Lu Wan felt more like her own illusion, the red-haired girl kept a cold face, as if there was no trace of mood swings, "You are using your standards to measure me?"

"Family?" Raising her thin pale cheeks slightly, the girl's gray-green eyes flashed with ridicule for the first time, obviously expressionless, but for some reason there was always a feeling of sadness, "Let me tell you, what kind of person is that to me!" ”

"We're just hating and killing." Coldly confiding chilling words, I have never said such words to others, the emotions that have accumulated in my heart for many years, even a brother and sister have never known the Dao, pitiful words, "to involve the flesh of the relationship. ”

Quiet.

"I treat my mother's life as food." Unconsciously clenched his fists, I Airo looked a little excited, and finally seemed to have a human feeling, even though he said a pitiful topic coldly, "When I was born, I was regarded as the best masterpiece by the people of the village. Because I'm a child of the Kazekage. ”

"My father taught me the secrets of ninja one after another, and he overprotected, spoiled, and indulged me." The red-haired girl seemed to be feeling something, her lake-green eyes were tightly closed, with a hint of undetectable warmth and longing, "I think that's family affection."

As if laughing at herself at how she could have such an idea at the time, the corners of the girl's mouth twitched, but as if she had forgotten how to laugh, and in the end she didn't outline the angle of success.

"But that was before that happened."

The red-haired girl was a little stunned, a memory that she hadn't touched for a long time.

"Something?" Damn, it looks like you've touched something you can't touch. Why hasn't Mr. Kai come yet? If you continue like this, you will definitely die!

"What the hell is that?!" Because they are of the same kind, Naruyuki seems to be extremely concerned about my Airo's past. This sense of identity between the girls called monsters made her unconsciously ask.

I Airo was stunned again, desperately trying to make a sarcastic smile, but the corners of his mouth didn't know why he didn't listen to the command, and his pale thin lips opened slightly.

"What the hell is going on?"

“.” I finally gave up, and sure enough, am I abnormal? Not even a smile.

Suddenly looking up at the corners of his mouth cracked, pulling out a hideous angle of nervousness that he was most familiar with, my Airo's whole little face was distorted, and his gray-green eyes were bloodshot, looking hideous and crazy! Even his voice was emotionally charged for the first time, but it was naked killing intent and hatred!! Slightly with a kind of roaring hoarse texture!

"I started when I was six years old and now it's been six years."

"Several times I was almost assassinated by my own father, and . . . That candidate."

"What!!" Ming Xue was stunned! Was it killed by your own relatives because you were a monster? If I become like that. Brother he. Will.

"Huh. What are you talking about? Didn't you say your father doted on you?!" Lu Wan was already so anxious that she was about to sweat profusely, and it was getting more and more dangerous, the breath on that guy's body. But I can only continue to ask like this and procrastinate!" What the hell is going on? ”

I glanced at both of them with a kind of squint.

"Hmph~ An existence that is too strong will later become a terrifying existence." Tightened his fists, and the green tendons on the back of his hand burst out slightly, this kind of false memory never wanted to go on anymore! But why do you always have an urge to be recognized and comforted in your heart? Why do you have to say anything?" I was born through ninjutsu, and my mind was very unstable. The stupid people in the village finally found out that there was something wrong with my emotional side."

"For my father, who is also the Wind Shadow, I'm the most embarrassing trump card in the village. But it is also an extremely dangerous item. items."

The red-haired girl's hand clenched even tighter, and her slender white arm trembled slightly, "It seems that he judged me as a dangerous object after I was six years old!" ”

"So, I'm afraid he used me as a dangerous tool in the village before."

"It's just a matter of careful care."

My Ara's petite body stood, her thin cheeks drooped slightly, and she continued to speak with a strange emotion, and it was sad to say that she was a tool-like being." To them, I am just a relic of the past that is eager to be erased. ”

"So, what am I here for, and what am I trying to survive?" Is it worth it for me to take my mother's life and survive? I've thought about it more than once, "When I think about this question, I can't find the answer. ”

"But while you are alive, you must have a reason to live, otherwise it will be no different from dying." The delicate and faint eyebrows were furrowed, and my Airo's eyes seemed to be confused.

What the hell is she talking about?" Lu Wan frowned a little, always feeling that something was wrong.

I. To be able to understand her thoughts.! She. Same with me.

Ming Xue looked at the girl opposite a little stunned, did she ever think like this?

"So, I came to this conclusion." I love Luo squinting, but my heart is full of sorrow, tool? Then the tool. "I'm a tool to kill everyone but Everything! I live in fear of being assassinated, and I feel at ease when I think about it."

"Because I keep killing the assassins." The girl's face was calm and faintly satisfied, "Come and be more sure of my reason for living." ”

"Fight only for yourself, just for yourself to live."

"When I think that I am a tool to make others realize this, I feel that this world is very perfect."

"This world will make me feel like I'm alive." The bright red word love on the girl's forehead was extremely glaring, as if she was constantly shouting, "As long as the person I should kill will continue to exist."

"My existence will not disappear!"

Just standing there coldly, with short burgundy hair dyed like countless blood, with such a heavy killing on his petite body, and his gray-green pupils were dark and indifferent, Shura.

She. What the hell happened to her. Such a twisted psyche! Lu Wan stared at the slender girl not far in front of her who seemed to be surrounded by countless blood, she was really a dangerous and terrifying guy. This kind of thought kept hitting Lu Wan's mind, I'm afraid there will be a fight next, right? Will it be brutally killed?

The little fox next to him fell silent and trembled slightly.

I'm also alone. Apathy, loneliness, discrimination. I don't know why I'm alive, so I feel miserable, but because Ika-sensei, who has nothing to do with me, agrees with my existence, because of my brother's deep doting. The presence of family members. That's why I really feel the fact that I live in this world.

But I love her. But he has always been alone. To endure this pain, and to feel alive by killing people, the world. There really are such people in the world. There is too much difference between the two of us!

I should be considered cowardly to escape this pain and choose to strive to be recognized by others, right? I simply can't. Fight to win this kind of person.

The girl trembled even more.

“!” Finally noticing that Ming Xue next to her was not in a normal state, Lu Wan exclaimed, "Ming Xue, what's wrong with you!" Cheer up!! ”

You won't get it, Lu Wan.

It is precisely because we have understood that kind of pain that we know how powerful the person who bears that pain is.

"Whew!!" The sand around Iro suddenly moved!

Sure enough, you don't need to command with gestures?! Huh~ Lu Wan's eyes shrank suddenly, I haven't tried a leisurely old man's life, I don't want to die!!

Because of the deterrence of the sand, Lu Wan reluctantly came into contact with the shadow technique, and looked at the girl opposite with constricted pupils, what should I do?!

"Come on!" I Ai Luo lowered his head, his gray-green pupils were full of crazy bloodshots, and his face was hideous and contented, "Let me feel it well!" ”

"It feels like to be alive!!"

The room was instantly surrounded by a cold and violent aura, and the air and even time seemed to freeze.

"Step!"

"Enough!!" There was a sudden burst of shouting, and a black figure instantly penetrated the protection automatically formed by the sand.

"Bang!!" The fist slammed into the girl's cheek, and was rushed straight up by the huge force attached to it, falling to the ground, and pieces of fine pieces fell off the slender face.

Lying on the ground, the red-haired girl straightened her upper body, raised her left hand slightly, touched the battered cheek, and laughed.

"This. Is it just the feeling of pain? Ho ho. It didn't disappoint me."

"Igarashi Pegasus!"

End of Chapter 132.