But it backfired, just when Xiao Xiangyu had this idea, he received the news that the director of the welfare institute had died.

The old dean Li Chunhua is an orphan, I heard that when she was young, she was forced to be separated from her family because of the outbreak of the revolutionary war in the country. Li Chunhua gradually grew up in the cruel environment of the old society, she relied on the knitting she learned from her mother as a child, found a place to make a living, in her 20s, met a small businessman who was 5 years older than her, the two worked hard together, had some careers, just after they got married, her husband died in a car accident.

The two had no children under their knees, and Li Chunhua, who was like a dead heart, took the inheritance left by her husband, found a place to settle down, and opened a welfare home to repay the society.

After endless vicissitudes of life, when she died, Li Chunhua was 80 years old, she suffered from advanced brain cancer, and she has been receiving treatment in the hospital for a few days, but she knew that her time was short, so she chose to return to the welfare home as the last stop of her life.

When Li Chunhua died of illness, the old volunteers in the welfare home were crying silently, although the old dean was much older than them, but he has been taking care of them all these years, in the early years, the welfare home faced demolition several times, it was the old dean who led them to fight tenaciously together, so that they were preserved.

After Xiao Xiangyu paid homage to the old dean, he tried to sneak into the office to find information, but found nothing.

Another two years have passed, because he has entered high school, Xiao Xiangyu is preparing for the most important college entrance examination in his life, plus the trivial things of life, he slowly forgot about looking for his life experience.

With her hard work over the years, Xiao Xiangyu's college entrance examination score won the first place in the province and was given the title of female champion, but the relaxed nerves after the college entrance examination made her realize that her bloody and violent character was getting more and more serious.

In the past, she would only browse materials about learning on the computer, but now, Xiao Xiangyu will unconsciously click on some videos of "car accident scenes" and "animal cruelty" to check them, whenever she sees these bloody contents, her heart will be extremely excited, with a strong sense of satisfaction, and a feeling of imminent action!

In order to escape this idea, Xiao Xiangyu found several summer jobs during the summer vacation, one to pass the time, and the other to earn money to go to college.

The first summer job was a part-time tutor, Xiao Xiangyu came to a lady's house according to the agreed address, to help her children in the 6th grade tutoring, the child's family background is better, raised 2 hutchis, whenever Xiao Xiangyu came to his house, the cute hutches came to welcome the guests.

Since the child's parents have to go to work during the day, they asked Xiao Xiangyu to help take care of the children and give them double their wages.

After lunch, Xiao Xiangyu and the child went back to the room to rest, during which she had a dream, she saw that she had just entered the door, the 2 cute hutchis turned into 2 brutal wolves, and rushed towards her, out of resistance, Xiao Xiangyu used all his strength to kill them!

After waking up from the nightmare, Xiao Xiangyu found that she was sweating profusely, and then there was a hoarse cry of a child, and she came to the house to see that two hutchis were falling miserably to the ground, surrounded by blood and flesh, and the scene was simply miserable.

After this incident, Xiao Xiangyu has roughly determined that there may be another personality in her mind, and this personality forces her to like violent and bloody events.

And as she grew older, that violent personality came out without her consciousness!

Through this incident, Xiao Xiangyu thought of the pet tragedy that happened in the welfare home when he was a child, maybe this incident was done unconsciously!

Realizing the flaws of her personality, Xiao Xiangyu became silent, she quit her part-time job as a tutor and stayed in the rental house all day, but this kind of leisure made her cranky, and she became more crazy about all kinds of bloody and violent comics or anime.

"School Apocalypse", "Schooldays", "Killing City", "Fairy Melody", "Corpse Party"

These heavy-tasting comics are extremely attractive in Xiao Xiangyu's eyes, and they get a strong sense of satisfaction from the bloody and violent plot development.

Until one day, there was a quarrel in the rental house next door, Xiao Xiangyu couldn't help but go out to check, 60-year-old Aunt Huang who lived next door was actually knocked to the ground by her own son, the neighbors kept complaining, and after some arguments, Xiao Xiangyu knew that Aunt Huang's 32-year-old son had achieved nothing, and he was also addicted to drinking and gambling, and he was cheeky to covet his mother's pension, and the old mother was blackmailed by her own son again and again, of course, she resisted, this pension of 800 yuan per month is her living expenses, and the old man has suffered from arthritis in recent years. This money is not enough to see a doctor, how can it be taken by a son who is not a good person?

After the son took advantage of the alcohol to put his mother on the ground, he cursed the neighbors who were fighting on the side, and even beat him, Xiao Xiangyu saw this scene, and she was originally holding a blaming attitude in her heart, but suddenly, she became angry, and a crazy thought clearly flashed in her mind - kill him, kill this useless man!

In an instant, Xiao Xiangyu hit a spirit, his heart beat wildly, I don't know why this thought happened, although this man is hateful, but he is not guilty of death

Xiao Xiangyu's nature is kind, although she has been excellent in character and learning since she was a child, she has no intention of stopping the injustice of the world, but she knows that the existence in her mind is hating all the injustices in the world!

In order to stop her crazy thoughts, she moved to a neighboring urban village, as if trying to escape it all.

But fate, after all, can't escape!

When she knew that the husband and wife living opposite her were quarreling over property rights, when she saw a pair of children on the news fighting for their father's inheritance, when she knew that the armed soldiers in Afghanistan were killing foreigners because of racial hatred, she realized the darkness of this world!

If the campus is the cradle of protecting Xiao Xiangyu, then the society is a breeding ground for hatred, and all kinds of extremely unfair things happen around her, gradually awakening the personality hidden in the depths!

In Xiao Xiangyu's thoughts, she has thought more than once about purifying the world and purifying it through her bloody violence, because only violence can make the wrong person sober, and only blood can make the wrong person confess!

For this reason, another thought in Xiao Xiangyu's mind became clearer and clearer, but her own consciousness became more and more blurred.

Until one day, she suddenly woke up and found that the memory of the whole night of the previous night was lost, she didn't know where she had been, and she didn't know what had happened.

This happens every few days, and every time she comes to her senses, there are violent and bloody incidents in the neighboring area, where someone's pet is brutally killed, a man who has a mistress is attacked by a mystery man for no reason, and a thief is beaten by a mystery man while ransacking someone's home.

Every time she was awake, she would always find that there were inexplicable injuries on her body, and even her whole body was violently sore. Looking back on various factors, she clearly knew that this was her other personality playing tricks!

Xiao Xiangyu, who was at a loss, thought about imprisoning her limbs and preventing what another personality did, but it was useless to do so, whenever she woke up, it was still the same as before, and sometimes she even slept on the rooftop.

She went to a psychiatrist for help and was given psychotropic medication. But instead of getting any better, it got worse and worse, until by the time she came to her senses, it was too late!

Xiao Xiangyu doesn't know how she spent her time after the college entrance examination, during these days, she often loses her memory, lives a mess, and even her friends who usually play with her are gradually estranged.

She knew that if she continued like this, her instinctive consciousness would most likely be swallowed up by another personality.

Xiao Xiangyu thought about escaping, but she couldn't escape, she thought about self-harm, and whenever she hurt her body, another consciousness in her mind actually stopped her behavior.

After thinking about it for a long time, Xiao Xiangyu finally realized that maybe she was born with schizophrenia, which gradually worsened with age, in order to find the truth, she came to the welfare home again, and traced her life experience to the aunts who watched her grow up.

Finally, Xiao Xiangyu learned an extremely cruel truth from an old uncle in his 60s, and this truth officially solved the mystery of her life experience.

When Xiao Xiangyu's mother was already pregnant, she was stressed by environmental problems and suffered from severe prenatal depression.

By the time the baby was 3 years old, her mother had already begun to go crazy, and when Xiao Xiangyu was 10 years old, she witnessed her mother brutally murdering her father, and then her mother jumped from the sixth floor with her.

In the end, after rescue, Xiao Xiangyu was out of danger, but his mother died of a serious head injury.

After Xiao Xiangyu woke up, due to severe brain damage and mental damage, he automatically filtered the memories before the age of 10, so this memory was lost!

The blocked memories gradually untied the shackles with the uncle's explanation, Xiao Xiangyu was disillusioned, and it turned out that he was suffering from split personality for a reason.

Several times, Xiao Xiangyu even thought about ending her life, but before she left, the old man's words were still in his ears, and he told himself: "The truth is terrible, but the road of life must be full of difficulties, your youth has just begun, don't be implicated by the past, move forward bravely, in order to see the rainbow!" ”

Of course, the old man knows that Xiao Xiangyu has become the first female champion in the province's college entrance examination, and he also knows that she has been looking for the mystery of her life experience all these years.

In fact, he doesn't know if it's a bit cruel to tell the truth to the little girl today, but the old man who is pessimistic about everything believes that this little girl will break the shackles of fate and finally get out of the predicament.

In fact, Xiao Xiangyu did it, because when she was the most confused in her life, she met her true son - Mai Junjie.

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(The update is late, and I'm not in a good state for the past two days, and I'm thinking about the plot of schizophrenia, which almost made me schizophrenic)