The word "Kunlun" hovered over my head, lingering. I stared at the gray city beneath my feet, both familiar and strange.

It's our home, she said. But in my impression, in my memory, it seems that there is never a trace of this "home", and even if I try very hard to recall it, I can't find the slightest fragment of it. I don't know if it's related to my amnesia before I went to Lazytown, or if I don't remember it in the first place, or if it's something else. In short, I can't remember it.

She took me by the hand and took me around the gray city and showed me which building was the school, which building was the hospital, and which building was the residence...... In comparison, she was much more familiar with the place than I was, and I looked at the houses she introduced, only a little familiar, but I couldn't think of anything about it.

After a few spins in the air, she took my hand and flew towards the ground. The two of us slowly descended and landed in a narrow alley. The alley was all gray and there was nothing. She happily circled in front of me, and when I looked at her happy appearance and everything around her, I couldn't help but have many questions in my heart.

"You...... Why did you bring me here?" I asked weakly.

She spun around happily despite my questions.

"I said, why did you bring me here!" I said aloud, grabbing her hand and telling her to stop spinning in circles.

She stopped, looked me pitifully in the eye, and I turned my head away at a loss, not daring to look at her.

"Because...... That's where you lost me!" she looked at me, her eyes blinking.

"I ...... I'll ...... you Lost?" I frowned in disbelief and looked at her in surprise.

"Hmm!" she nodded at me, her eyes widened.

"What? Wait, let me clear my mind first, I ...... When did you lose it!?"

"It was a long, long time ago...... she said, bowing her head, looking at the ground sadly, without saying a word, as if remembering something.

I nervously walked to her side, looked at her suddenly darkened, and began to feel a little sorry for her. Did she go through something, something I don't remember.

"Joan......" I whispered in her ear.

"Huh, what's wrong?" she looked up in a panic and smiled at me reluctantly.

"Can you tell me what happened to you?" I asked, looking into her eyes, earnestly.

"Of course I can tell you!" she looked at me in surprise, "but ......"

"But what?"

"But you have to think for yourself, because I told you, and what you are going to do is meaningless!" she said to me in a righteous voice.

"But I don't know anything now, I don't know what I'm going to do next! That's why I'm going to ask you! But why don't you tell me!" I angrily broke free from her hand, I really couldn't understand why she knew everything, but she didn't tell me, didn't she know that I was confused and helpless enough!

"You know!" she looked at me in surprise.

"I know what! I don't know anything! I'm confused! I'm panicked! I don't know what I'm supposed to do day by day! I'm so tired! I'm so tired! I'm so fed up!!" I couldn't control my emotions for a moment, and I yelled loudly, my voice echoing through the narrow alley.

I may have been really tired, tired by these invisible questions, but at this moment I exploded, venting all the pain and exhaustion that I had accumulated for a long time.

I gasped and blinked, and the air around me condensed, and it was awkwardly quiet. Seeing my angry look, she quickly took two steps back, showing a panicked expression, and that's when I realized that I had lost my temper.

"I'm sorry...... I'm so excited. I took a deep breath and let myself relax.

"I didn't ...... It's okay, it's all my own!" she walked over and looked at me very attentively, her hand gently caressing my back, giving me relief.

"Actually, you know," she stared at me with watery eyes, and when she saw her like this, I lost my temper at once, and she saw that I was deflated, and continued, "What are you here for? ”

"Purpose?" I frowned, thinking seriously about what my purpose was.

I'm here to beat laziness?

I'm here to be a savior for Fluffa?

Am I here to find the diligent?

I'm here to beat up Lao Xu?

......

I thought of a lot of reasons, but none of them seemed to be right. Suddenly, I remembered what the woman had said when I first came to this dark place: "Find him". Don't......

"Find him, that man!" I cried out, shaking my head.

"Hmm!" she nodded excitedly when she heard the correct answer.

"But what's the matter with him?" I asked, puzzled.

"You're here to find him, and he's the key to everything. She pointed to the sky and said like a scholar.

"Who the hell is he?"

"Didn't I tell you?

I sighed helplessly, and sure enough, after a round, I finally came back, and she would never tell me.

"I knew you'd say that, so how am I going to find him?"

"You'll find out soon. She looked at me meaningfully.

"Soon?" I asked, incredulously. Faced with a lot of unanswered questions, I basically had a loveless demeanor.

She raised her left hand, looked at her wrist, and covered her mouth in fright, but there was no watch or anything like that.

"It's almost time, it's time for you to go. She said to me calmly.

"Gone, but I didn't figure it out!"

"You'll figure it out, I trust you. ”

I didn't want to leave so soon, I knew that as long as I put in a little effort, she would tell me everything, and I looked at her with longing eyes and told her that I didn't want to leave.

"You have to go, some people are still waiting for you to go back!" she looked at me reluctantly, hugged me fiercely, and then pouted and waved at me with a sad expression.

Suddenly, it seemed as if a thousand-pound stone was tied to my body, and I shook my head vigorously, but my body was pulled by the thousand-pound stone and fell to the ground. The moment I fell to the ground, the sunlight disappeared, and the buildings around me slowly turned into deep black, and I was shocked by the sight in front of me, and I trembled unconsciously.

"This alley, it turned out to be this alley!"

That's right, this alley, the alley that the man ran through with me, the alley where I was shot and fell, yes, this alley.

"You finally remember. She said with relief.

I looked at her and had so many questions I wanted to ask her, and I didn't want to leave so soon. My body sank into the ground quickly, falling at a rapid pace. In the blink of an eye, I had passed through the island, through the thick brown clouds, through the towering mountain, and finally through the ground, back to the place where it was all about darkness.

I lay on the ground, banging hard and yelling hysterically. But no matter how much I screamed, she was gone. The ground had also changed back to its solid ground, and there was no reflection of any figure on it, only endless darkness. I collapsed helplessly on the ground, asking in my heart, how could it be which alley?

There was nothing in that alley, and there were no instantly recognizable markers, but I was the first to react as I lay on the ground. The pain hidden in the depths of my memory opened up in an instant, and it spread all over my body, tearing every nerve in my body uncontrollably. Hot tears gradually soaked my eyes, slipped reluctantly from the corners of my eyes, burning my face and burning my heart.

I'm a very strong person, I think so, but how could that scene leave me with such painful tears again and again? It was like a sharp sword that pierced through my heart mercilessly, nailing me to the pain of memories forever. I clenched my fists and took a deep breath in pain, secretly determined in my heart that day, that moment, everything that had happened! I must, I must figure it out, no matter how painful it is, I want to know.

"Dut...... Toot ......"

What is this sound?

Suddenly, there was a regular rush of sounds all around, and I hurriedly stood up and kept turning to pay attention to the situation around me. But after a long time, there was still no movement at all, and it was terrifyingly quiet.

"Autumn ~ Joan ~ Autumn ~ Joan ~" Suddenly a long voice echoed in the dark place on all sides, it was a woman's voice, she called out my name.

"Qiu Qiong! Qiu Qiong!" In the blink of an eye, the long and long voice suddenly became anxious, and turned into a commanding tone, but it was still the voice of the woman.

"Qiu Qiong...... Qiu Qiong ...... "In the blink of an eye, the voice of the rapid command changed into a low and sad voice, still from the voice of the woman.

"Who?" I cried out uneasily, "Who!!"

"Trust me...... Trust me......" Her deep voice seemed to come from all directions, sometimes in front of me, sometimes behind me, sometimes below, sometimes above, so frightened that I kept turning my body.

"Who the hell are you!" I cried out impatiently.

"Cheer me on! Don't back down when anything happens! We'll be there for you!"

Wasn't this the last time I was here, and this time it was different, and after she said this, there was not a white door in front of me.

"How am I going to get out?" I shouted to the top, but there was no echo for a long time.

I sat on the ground in discouragement, burying my head between my knees, and silently crying in frustration. At this moment, I don't have everything to rely on, only myself.

"Myself?" flashed in my mind, and I seemed to have attained enlightenment.

To find someone, in fact, it is not difficult, as long as you are willing to put in the time and sweat, you will always find the person you are looking for. However, if the person you're looking for is yourself, it's a lot more complicated.

Everything changes, but only the human heart changes the fastest.

Sometimes, when you wake up, you find that you have lost the self of yesterday, and sometimes you don't know what your future self will become, and sometimes you choose the present self, but you dare to be sure that you are really you in the mirror, or is it just a person who has lost his heart and put on your skin.

Thinking of this, I suddenly realized that she said that I had lost her. Perhaps, in the past time, I really abandoned her, abandoned the self I used to be, abandoned the way I was.

I immediately understood that she was telling me that I had to find my true self before I could find him!

I covered my face excitedly as if I had finally found the right answer, and I laughed and cried. I know that this goal, this road, is difficult, but I must go.

I really want to know what kind of girl I used to be, what kind of girl I used to be, and what she went through!