Chapter 3: Despair and Hope
On the third day of Su Ran's arrival in S City, the sky was floating with goose feathers and heavy snow without warning, which was the first snow after the year, which covered the "spring" day with a dazzling layer of white before the cold snap had not faded.
Looking into the distance, there are several figures jumping happily on the snow in the bustling and fashionable pedestrian street. The young father wearing a 'hair' coat and a hat doted on the child and walked carefully on the snow, and then the child broke free of his father's hand, dancing and running in the snow that was not deep or shallow, and sometimes turned around, grimacing at the young father who was looking at all this with a happy face, "Dad, you can't catch me!" ”
Such a white snow 'flower' may be a wonderful thing to be born in this city. Su Ran stared at all this lightly, the freshness and curiosity of entering the big city for the first time were gone, the coldness deep in his bones made him have to hug his body tightly, his thin clothes could not feel any warmth, he could only curl up desperately on a no-man's street corner, his eyes were already lifeless looking at everything in front of him, everything was insignificant to him, yes, now for him, nothing matters.
He had already inquired about the address of Lin Kexin's school, but he didn't have the courage at the moment, as if he still had illusions, he would rather pretend to be confused to indirectly deny this fact than face it. He wandered around Lin Kexin's school, carefully guarding the childhood sweetheart love of Xiaoxiao = one = book = reading = novel = ybdu, but when he asked himself, why did he come to this city? Isn't it to ask Lin Kexin clearly? Do you want to hear Lin Kexin say that she doesn't love him?
Curled up in the corner, Su Ran had no money, not a penny, and the twenty yuan had already been 'spent', and it was only enough for a meal. He hadn't eaten for more than a day, and he could hold back his suppressed hunger, but the indifference of the city still made him feel frightened for no reason, and when he needed help the most, what appeared in front of him was expressionless, hateful and disgusting faces, and no one stretched out a helping hand, even if it was a warm gaze.
Although he was desperate, a voice in Su Ran's mind always warned him that he couldn't admit defeat! What about the indifference of the human heart? What about social cruelty? No one is obligated to help you, no one is obligated to care for you. Your downfall is your own unbearability, why can others live better than you? Why haven't others complained about this society? What's wrong with someone else? The mistake is that I am not capable! I haven't tried hard!
So even if he starves to death, Su Ran will never bow his head to anyone, he will not pray to anyone, if that's the case, what is the difference between himself and a beggar! I'm not a beggar, by no means!
Gritting his teeth to endure the cold, shivering and feeling the temperature of the snow 'flowers', Su Ran felt that this world was so unreal, and the scenes in front of him became more and more blurred, until two young figures strolled out of the empty street, and when the two figures gradually became clear in his eyes, Su Ran suddenly stared at the two people like that, his pupils dilated and dilated, and his open mouth was vague but he couldn't make any sound, but he was poured in by scattered snow 'flowers', and there was no taste of saltiness or lightness.
In the silent pedestrian street, Lin Kexin happily walked on the snow holding the senior's arm, originally the two of them didn't plan to leave the school today, but Lin Kexin woke up and found that the dormitory was already white and white, and she couldn't help but rejoice, and pulled the senior out.
"Be careful, don't catch a cold."
The originally extremely warm and 'wave' picture was so dazzling in Su Ran's eyes, the man had already taken off his coat and spoiled it on Lin Kexin's small body, and the gentle tone was something that Su Ran couldn't say.
Su Ran opened his mouth wide and was stunned, and there was bloodshot in his desperate eyes. Su Ran had to admit that Lin Kexin liked this man, as can be seen from her shy demeanor just now, and in this poetic snow, isn't it her partner who can accompany her?
That......
I...... What to do......
The arm was trembling, and the damn coldness once again silently penetrated into the corner of his clothes, Su Ran raised his head and slammed the back of his head against the wall behind him, and the cold and heart-rending pain spread out from his mind until he was already numb in his palm.
Su Ran clenched his hands fiercely.
Su Ran felt that his sky had collapsed, and he was 'lost' in this collapsed small world, unable to find a way out.
The delicate conversation between Lin Kexin and the senior is still rippling in his ears, Su Ran's bitterness spreads into his heart, he tried to come to a strange place and a strange environment for the first time for Lin Kexin, just to save Lin Kexin. And now...... Walk up and question her? If it were another 'female', Su Ran might do this, but that 'female' person was Lin Kexin, and he would never be able to do it.
Su Ran respected Lin Kexin's decision, he once thought that her happiness was more important than himself, as long as Lin Kexin could get happiness, he was willing to endure the pain and cut his love.
What's more, Su Ran knew in his heart, what did he compare with that senior? In addition to his somewhat confident appearance, he is Su Ran and even useless, what can he compare to that confident man?
In the calm pedestrian street after the heavy snowfall, on one side is the picture of Lin Kexin and the senior holding hands like a couple, and on the other hand, the down-and-out Su Ran is desperately trying to stop the tears in the corner. Just for a moment, Lin Kexin seemed to notice this side of the corner, obviously stunned, and then walked over quickly, and when Su Ran just lowered his head in a panic, Lin Kexin asked tentatively, "Xiao Ran?" ”
"You've mistaken someone." In a hoarse voice, Su Ran didn't wait for Lin Kexin to make a move, so he lowered his head and hurriedly walked away. The depressed back was reflected in Lin Kexin's eyes, stunned, for a long time, Lin Kexin muttered, "Maybe it's really wrong, how could Xiao Ran be in S City?" ”
Su Ran didn't know how long he had been running, as if he wanted to vent all the unhappiness in his heart, his two 'legs' were in hot pain, but he couldn't exert his strength at all, he couldn't hold on anymore, he "banged" and fell on his back in the snow.
The snow was not very thick, but he could feel the coldness that penetrated into his bones, and smelling the coolness of the snow on his lips, Su Ran felt that he was going to die. Death, for him, may be a relief.
Since he came to this city, he has experienced all kinds of hot and cold worlds, and originally thought that as long as he could redeem Lin Kexin's love, then it would all be worth it, but just now, fate even stripped away his small wish, although the wish was small, but as everyone knows, it was the only motivation for him to stand in this city.
"You, are you alright?"
Just when Su Ran was in despair, the words that suddenly came from the sky above his head made him stunned, with a sweet voice, with warm concern, Su Ran stunned his face from the snow, raised his head with difficulty, and a clear young 'girl' became clear in front of his eyes.
The young 'girl' wore a lovely 'female' felt hat, the brim of the felt hat was embroidered with a 'flower' pattern, her beautiful and picturesque face was with obvious concern, her small mouth was slightly open, and a pink 'colored' scarf was wrapped around her neck.
"I ...... No, it's fine. Su Ran's face suddenly turned red, the 'girl' in front of her was really too cute and beautiful!
Hearing Su Ran's words, a smile spread on the young woman's face, and she 'withdrew' her right hand from her knee and handed it to Su Ran's eyes, "Then I'll pull you up." ”
"Huh?." Su Ran was a little panicked about the hand of the young 'girl' who suddenly stretched out, such a slender and white hand, and when he heard the words of the young 'girl', Su Ran let out an "oh", and stretched out the already cold hand under him with difficulty and held it on those hands.
"Knock knock...... "At the moment when the young 'girl' pulled him up, Su Ran could clearly feel his violent heartbeat, such an angel-like 'girl' child was too exciting, not to mention an angel who was kind to himself!
The sound of heartbeat was still echoed in his ears, and Su Ran only felt that everything in the world had become gloomy, only the 'girl' in front of him was so dazzling and so bright. He just stared straight at the face of the young 'girl', and he didn't mean to let go when he had already stood up, but fortunately, the young 'girl' didn't mean to scold, and instead pulled Su Ran and ran in one direction, "Take you to a place!" ”
Su Ran was caught off guard, and was almost knocked down by the young 'girl' suddenly, but fortunately, the young 'girl' didn't run fast, Su Ran was surprised, "Where are you going?" ”
"You'll know when you go!" The young 'girl' turned around and stuck out her tongue at Su Ran playfully, "By the way, my name is 'Hua' Yan, what about you?" ”
"'Flower' Yan ......" Su Ran thought silently, his heartbeat became clear again, thinking of something, he hurriedly spoke, "Ah, I, my name is Su Ran!" ”
Held by 'Hua' Yeon, they ran together in the silent snow, and the buildings were submerged behind them, and a small sense of happiness quietly came out. Su Ran looked at the 'flower' Yan who was running with one hand holding him and the other hand holding the felt hat, the long hair fluttering under the felt hat floated into his eyes, and the corner of the scarf that rose with the wind was stained with snow 'flowers', and the snow 'flowers' fluttered in the swaying of the wind......
Su Ran let 'Hua' Yan pull him to run, it doesn't matter where he goes, the important thing is that 'Hua' Yan didn't hate him, didn't dislike him for wearing shabby and poor, it turns out that city people are also good and bad?
I want time to stay at this moment, such an unreal picture can only appear in a dream, 'Hua' Yan, are you really an angel sent by God?
"Ah, finally caught up!"
At the moment when Su Ran's thoughts deviated, the 'flower' in front of her stopped, let go of the hand holding Su Ran, and gasped slightly with her knees. Su Ran came back to his senses, only to find that he had come to the crowd of people, surrounded by people, dense, all 'colored' young people, not far away, is an oval giant building, directly above the building, is a large LCD screen, at the moment the display screen is playing advertising.
There was a lot of noise all around, Su Ran frowned, and asked 'Hua' Yandao, "This is here?" ”
"Don't you play League of Legends?" 'Hua' Yan asked with some surprise.
League of Legends? It's League of Legends again! Su Ran couldn't help but think of the one she saw on TV at home, which seemed to be called the MVP and the national finals of the IE team, and finally won the championship by MVP. But it's true that he never played the game, not even a computer game. At that moment, he shook his head, but what surprised him was that 'Hua' Yan's eyes actually 'revealed' a reverent face, "This is the venue for major events in the domestic League of Legends - 10,000 people stadium!" ”
In Su Ran's unclear reason, 'Hua' Yan pointed to the giant oval building, "The MVP just won the national championship, and in order to thank the fans, the MVP specially held an all-star exhibition game here!" A star team composed of MVP against other top teams in China! ”
Su Ran understood something, nodded and asked 'Hua' Yan, "Then when will the game start?" ”
Obviously, Su Ran is also very interested in this, League of Legends does have an irresistible charm that attracts him, making him unable to extricate himself.
"Soon!" Looking at the bright smile that 'Hua' Yan 'revealed' to herself, Su Ran was stunned. Then I heard 'Hua' Yan muttering in a low voice, "It's a pity that I didn't grab a ticket for the infield, although there is also a live broadcast in the outfield, but it's ......"
"Hi Miss, do you want a ticket? It's hard to get a ticket now, and even I only have 3 tickets in my hand! "In the crowd, a scalper appeared in front of 'Hua' Yan at the right time, raised the ticket in his hand, and said with a full of 'temptation' and 'confusion'.
'Hua' Yan's beautiful eyes obviously had more light, and when she thought of something, she tugged at the corner of her clothes and asked worriedly, "How much is a piece?" ”
"No more, no more, only 500 sheets."
"Don't ......" Before the words were finished, I saw that 'Hua' Yan's face was flushed, and she vetoed it.
Su Ran also seemed to understand something, and when the scalper handed him a smiling face, he directly said "don't" and sent it away. But if he has money, he will definitely buy it, even if it is 1000, he will buy it, as long as he can make 'Hua' Yanzhan 'show' smile, he thinks everything is worth it. Thinking of Lin Kexin at dusk, his heart chuckled, and his thoughts didn't know where to fly.
Suddenly the crowd began to be restless, surging in one direction, Su Ran was swept by the chaotic crowd, thinking of 'Hua' Yan, he hurriedly walked over to protect 'Hua' Yan, I don't know who in the crowd shouted "MVP players are coming", Su Ran vaguely understood, it seemed that the players were coming.
It's just that 'Hua' Yan also ran away with the crowd, and Su Ran had no choice but to follow the interpersonal relationship. When he squeezed to the side of 'Hua' Yan and looked in, his body shook instantly, and he couldn't believe it, "It's her?" ”
In the crowd, a group of five people were very dazzling, all of them in 'color' MVP uniforms, all of them smiling at the onlookers, although some smiles were very unnatural. Su Ran opened her mouth wide and couldn't speak, she was stunned, staring directly at the only young 'girl' among the five, the young 'girl' was wearing sunglasses, her smile was extremely beautiful, her grape purple hair was shining in the sun, and the young 'girl' waved sweetly to the almost crazy fans as she walked, "Thank you, I'm going to cheer for our MVP in a while!" ”
This, this, this...... Su Ran was so surprised, he didn't expect that the MVP star player in front of him turned out to be the Audimy 'girl' the day before yesterday! Thinking that he had accidentally kissed her, Su Ran couldn't help but swallow and spit at the mouth, this is too coincidental, right?
But looking at this pomp, Su Ran found it hard to believe that these people were just playing games, looking at those who were shouting and hugging, Su Ran suddenly envied the MVP players.
Suddenly there was an urge to understand them, although it was more about the Audi 'girl', Su Ran quietly patted the 'flower' and asked, "Who are they?" ”
"Oh, the one who is very handsome with glasses is the MVP captain, his name is Lin Zhuo, his ID is white, he is 178 tall, he weighs 65 kilograms, and he has ...... hobbies."
In 'Hua' Yan's somewhat excited introduction, Su Ran couldn't help but be speechless, "So detailed?" ”
The face under the 'flower' felt hat instantly turned red, and she was shy, "These...... It's all information! Nasty, I'm not done yet! He is China, no, the world's number one ADC! ”
"So powerful?"
I don't know what an ADC is, but if it can be related to the world, it must be very powerful. It's just that Su Ran couldn't cry or laugh again, it seems that 'Hua' Yan is a super fan of the MVP captain, but her admiration for the glasses man is really jealous. But at this moment, Su Ran also saw that the 'flower' Yan was just driven by kindness to herself, and the 'female' god was not within her reach.
'Female' god is really a sarcastic word.
In the gushing introduction of 'Hua' Yan, Su Ran has a general understanding of the MVP players, the top single is named Fang Yao, the game ID is Xiao Yi, the temper is hot, the middle single is named Wu Xileng, the game ID is fragile, the jungler is named Liu Mingchuan, the game ID is ghost, without exception, they all have a very powerful title, what is China's top three AP, China's first single......
However, when it comes to Audi's 'female', 'Hua' Yan is unexpectedly said, "That 'female' is the assistant of MVP, game ID-SNOW, and the name is Ye Daili." ”
Su Ran was not much surprised by the strange appearance of 'Hua' Yan, it was normal for 'women' to be jealous of each other, especially the beautiful 'women'. But when it comes to this Audi 'girl', it turns out that her name is Ye Daili. What Su Ran couldn't understand was that it was originally a name that was 'quite good' and 'lady', why were people so rude? snow should mean snow 'flower', although Su Ran dropped out of school very early, he still learned some English, and he still knows some basic words.
Su Ran's gaze was fixed on the arrogant face of Ye Daili in the crowd, and a bold idea brewed in his heart, and he asked 'Hua' Yan slightly, "They should have tickets on them, right?" ”
Not noticing Su Ran's strange appearance, 'Hua' Yan nodded and said casually, "Of course, with their identities, it is not difficult to 'get' as many tickets as possible." ”
"In that case," the corners of Su Ran's mouth curled, mysteriously, he whispered to 'Hua' Yan, "Maybe I have a way to 'get' a ticket." ”
'Hua' Yan was stunned for a moment, and then overjoyed, "Really?!" ”
"You wait for me at the 'door' first, and I'll try it."
'Jiao' replaced 'Hua' Yan, seeing 'Hua' Yan reluctantly walking towards the big 'door' of the gymnasium, Su Ran watched 'Hua' Yan's quiet back gradually disappear into the sea of people, and he muttered, "For her, it may be worth it." ”
'Hua' Yan stood anxiously at the big 'door' of the gymnasium with two cups of 'milk' tea, looking left and right, she was always looking forward to Su Ran coming to her with a ticket, but ten minutes had passed, Su Ran still hadn't come, just when she didn't know what to do, Su Ran's 'tide' over there suddenly became restless, followed by a heart-rending scream, "Someone grabbed a ticket!" ”
Grab your tickets!
With a "bang", the 'milk' tea in 'Hua' Yan's hand fell to the ground, and she felt something, and she ran in that direction like crazy.
"Su Ran! Why are you so stupid! ”