In the plaza outside the library, Pan An sat by the fountain and reflected violently.

You're the kind of person you've always felt disgusting?!

Pan An hates philosophical reflection the most, and now he feels a mess in his head, and he wants to sell the memory just now.

"Selling that thing can't solve the problem, there is more than one woman in this world, and without Li Yan, there will be Zhang Yan and Zhao Yan. ”

The problem is not Li Yan's helpless little witch, but Pan An's discovery that his heart actually longs for this kind of thing!

This kind of thing is normal for ordinary people, and Pan An also feels that it is not a problem to have this kind of thought, as long as it is not a problem to take action.

It is normal for normal men to have reactions and thoughts about beautiful women, especially strong men who have been holding back for more than half a year, it is normal for them to have cranky thoughts under the influence of their bodies, and Pan An also understands it.

But this thing is done to others!

Pan An can understand that this kind of thing happens to others, but he can't recognize that he has such a disgusting thought.

The sun at two or three o'clock in the afternoon was very poisonous, and Pan An had a lot of water vapor around him because of the fountain, and he didn't feel too hot, but the sun's rays gave Pan An not only high temperatures, but also the pain directly caused by the light.

He was wearing long sleeves and pants to avoid the light, but his hair was still hot from the sun, and his scalp hurt.

Driven by the pain, Pan Anxin's chaotic thoughts were also reduced.

"Am I thinking too highly of myself?"

Pan An thought about his own problems, did he have too high requirements for himself?

It's not just the requirements of learning, after thinking about it carefully, Pan An found that he had long since begun to stop treating himself as an ordinary person.

Whether it is the attitude towards Zhang Jian and others, or the attitude towards himself, there is a bit of detachment.

It is said to be strict with oneself, but in fact, it is to look down on others, never put the rest of the people in the same position as oneself, even if it is inferior to others everywhere, it is still looking at the shortcomings of others to create that sense of superiority that does not know where it comes from.

It's like this kind of thing right now, it's not my problem at all, but I feel like I'm a big evil.

Pan An thought about it carefully, closed his eyes and gently felt the cool water vapor floating around him because of the splashing, and savored the tranquility of this prosperous place near the pool in the square.

"I'm not perfect. ”

Pan An said a fact and accepted it from the bottom of his heart.

"At least...... It's not perfect right now. ”

Pan An has figured out his own things, and he has always tried to fit into the lives of ordinary people, trying to be less noticeable, trying to be recognized by others.

But deep down, after receiving nine years of compulsory education, I denied a reality that was different from what I read in books.

In reality, the "realistic, dark, euphemistic, humble, and ...... that should have appeared since childhood", all the sins that do not exist in books, should actually slowly appear around in life, slowly collide with the correct concept, and then grow up in this situation.

Pan An lost those filthy memories, and also missed the age when he was most easily affected.

Just like those college students who graduate from school, these college students are supposed to be educated by society and then integrated into society.

Pan An is different, he has ...... I can't get on my knees

After thinking about why it was difficult for him to accept his true side, Pan An stood up, the sun here is too scorching, let's change places.

"Since I am such a person, there is no need to reject such a self, and it is just an idea, and having such an idea is not contrary to my own will. ”

"It's like going to a restaurant and seeing a watermelon vendor on the side of the road, and you have the idea of wanting to eat watermelon, but this idea is not in line with your goal, so you are restrained. ”

Pan An sees Li Yan as a watermelon, thinking about the relationship between Li Yan and the watermelon.

"Li Yan's performance is my influence...... Actually, it's not wrong, my body does have that kind of need, and Li Yan is very beautiful and has a very good figure, and she is still such an active beautiful girl. ”

After realizing that he was actually not rejecting Li Yan at all, Pan An found out that Li Yan was good.

Beautiful, young, rich, self-motivated, and in good shape......

What else?

Pan An thought about it and couldn't think of any other advantages.

Compared with Li Yan, Pan An felt that Zhang Qiyu's personality was more suitable for him.

Of course, this kind of thing is just thinking about it.

Sure enough, although the mouth said no, it didn't look nasty. ”

Pan An gave up resistance, and when he compared Zhang Qiyu with Li Yan, he actually proved that his subconscious was vulgar.

In the past, Pan An always thought that he was a moral person, a person who was free from low-level interests, but now the reality has made Pan An understand that he is just a person.

But even so, Pan An didn't feel much lost, and he didn't give up on himself.

A person has great or small abilities, but as long as he has a strong mind, he is a noble person, a pure person, a moral person, and a person who is free from low-level interests.

"First of all, I want to be able to control my ...... Subconscious!"

The mind spell showed Pan An's honest body, making Pan An realize that his body had reached the point where he needed a woman.

My knowledge reserve has reached the point where I am between a high school student and a college student, but my mind is still stuck in the stage of an elementary school student!

Since he is thinking about Zhang Qiyu in his heart, it means that he has a good impression of Zhang Qiyu, whether he is unconvinced because of the other party's high education, or he wants to see the change of his always faint expression towards shyness and cuteness.

"Let's go! go see your heart!

Pan An looked at his attribute bar, and his eyes became firm.

[Blood]: 2 copper coins per 10 ml, preferentially drawn from the arms and legs, does not affect the healthy operation of the body, and cannot be sold when the body is in a state of anemia.

[Fat]: 6 copper coins per gram, starting from the excess fat, does not affect the healthy operation of the body, and the body cannot be sold when it is in a state of hunger.

Sell blood to make up enough money for a single shot of psychic magic!

In the past, the price of blood and meat was not this, it was cheaper, but now Pan An has appreciated, and the price has also risen by one copper.

Coupled with the hard-earned money from the sale, Pan An scraped together enough money for another ticket.

"Am I taking my hard-earned money to pick up girls?"

Pan An sighed, and he slowly became the kind of person he looked down on before.

Go see your true side!

Take this money and see who you really are!