At night, outside the window at about ** o'clock, a slender figure rolled off the bed and ran to the bathroom as if flying. Then there was a tumbling sound of vomiting.

Zuo Hua who finished vomiting the convention... Shirley looked up at the mirror and let out a sigh in her heart.

It's like a little more, and the self in the mirror is a little closer to Shirley, and the black one can be considered neutral and short, but it is already the same hair as Shirley. The good-looking black eyes are a little closer to the ice color, and the face shape has become thinner from the face shape that can still be seen to be a man, and it feels like a girl's melon seed face at a glance.

The various parts of the body are also a little slender, the hands, arms, waist, hips, thighs... Fortunately, it has only become slender, and as long as it is said that he has lost a lot of weight, although some people will have doubts, they will still smile.

Looking at myself who looks more and more beautiful in the mirror, I feel as if I feel light and fluttering in my heart. The cold touch made him suddenly have a wit, and when he fixed his eyes, it turned out that his hand unconsciously touched the extremely feminine face. The cold little hand caressed his face, but his heart was warm. It was a warm feeling that welled up from my heart, as if I had found home.

This one... It's me?

It was as if his body had touched a wire, and the pain and numbness of the intense current flowing through his body told him of this fact, and it was an irreversible fact, and he felt as if he had suddenly become happy. Shirley in the mirror showed a smile, a gentle maternal smile, but at this time there was only one thought in his heart: the smile was so beautiful.

The cheeks are a little rosy, and they look as good as others without foundation. The slender figure also has a sense of beauty, looking at himself like this, he didn't think of complaining, he didn't think of self-pity, but there was a wonderful fun in it. It was a strange feeling of euphoria, a thrill that stemmed from the oldest pranks of childhood.

Is such a beautiful self a state of psychological proliferation? Or maybe there is a huge contradiction in sociality.

Have you ever imagined a model of your own girl? It is a pure unexpected impulse that arises under the condition of 'envy', 'desire' and 'oppression'. When a person's social performance is full of the above three points, it is easy to naturally associate such things. Just like the relationship between the exploiter and the exploited, the simplest, easiest and most direct way to satisfy an exploited person is to make her join the exploiter.

What are the benefits of being a girl? You can wear all kinds of beautiful and cheap clothes, you can be coquettish to your heart's content, and you can enjoy a lot of preferential treatment in this society, which is a strange desire in a man's heart. Machismo is a product of extreme inferiority, and metamorphism is also a product of extreme inferiority, both of which in some ways contain this characteristic of sexism.

Zuo Hua is different, he sees his beautiful self through this mirror, just like Shirley. It was a beast that lurked deep inside him, a terrifying, extreme creature. Shirley is full of all the characteristics of the high-IQ criminal psychology that Zuo Hua has seen and understood, and that is where Zuo Hua is afraid of Shirley, he is afraid that he will become her, and become this woman who is full of ten million unstable factors.

She is full of a strange sense of freedom, the crazy chaos of 'I can do whatever I want' makes the orderly Zuo Hua himself have a crazy obsession, every time he enters the game and becomes Shirley, he will do many terrifying things that make people's hearts cold, and after returning to reality, Zuo Hua will be very uncomfortable and want to vomit. But... He still gets into the game every day.

That kind of subconscious freedom is unhindered, that kind of situation where the mind and body are extremely free, he wants it very much, crazy wants.

After a person has been restrained for so long, he wants to see the outside world. He didn't want to endure it anymore!

Zuo Hua has a social communication barrier, and every time he sees someone, it is like encountering a huge beast roaring at him, torturing him, and he doesn't like to look directly at people. When he used to go to school, even if he wasn't short-sighted, he wore big flat glasses to block his communication with outsiders, and he hated communicating with outsiders... But Shirley is not, Shirley has energy and a free mind.

He... In the envy of Shirley.

Back on the bed, hugging the pillow and looking out the window, he was distracted again.

Zuo Huajia is an apartment room, a beautiful apartment with three bedrooms and one living room. But unlike others, all three of his rooms are functional, a piano room, a study and a kitchen, the kitchen in the living room was demolished by him, and his bed was placed in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows in the hall.

Huddled under the covers, he was thinking about a lot of things.

About Shirley, about yourself. He felt more and more similar to Shirley, which meant that he identified with her more and more, and wanted to be her more and more...

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Shirley: Who are you? A great music tutor, a music professor with two college open classes a month, but I know who you are... Hehehe... A coward, a coward who does not dare to face your own true talent, you think you are well hidden? No, no, Zuo Hua, you're going crazy. Such a suppressed killing intent, such a suppressed **, you will go completely crazy, just like - me~hahahahaha~

Zuo Hua: ... I

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Dreaming again!

In the dream, the man bounced up from the bed, only to find that the pajamas on his body had been soaked with sweat and were wet.

I had no choice but to get up and go to the bathroom in the study to wash up.

opened the hot water valve, and the warm hot water poured on his body, and the relaxed feeling made him can't help but sigh.

His eyes were wet, and he couldn't see anything through the hot mist, and he looked through the glass bathroom to see the mirror outside, and in the mirror there was a beautiful person who couldn't tell his gender in the bathroom, and the fog shrouded him.

Snow-white body, slender limbs, exquisite jade feet... Any such description can be used on this person, Zuo Hua looked a little stupid, and blushed and lowered his head meekly to meet the impact of hot water. Warm, warm, every pore of the body is stretching, and the beautiful body is slightly reddened in the hot water, which is very cute.

With his long black hair draped over his back, on his body, on his chest, he was obscure and charming, he... It doesn't look like a boy anymore.

At this moment, Zuo Hua felt a feeling as if Shirley was here, yes, that Shirley feeling in reality.

If... What happens if you put on women's clothes?