Chapter 148: The Meaning of Life
The Qionglong Mountain in the dark night is exceptionally beautiful, with the crisp chirping of insects, the gurgling sound of running water, the bright moonlight, and the fresh air, all of which make the originally somewhat depressed heart of the chicken lees stretch.
The battle with Qianjun made him unconsciously exert his full strength, and every time he devoted himself wholeheartedly, countless corpses and cold blood would appear in Ji Ji's mind, these were all companions who had eaten and lived with him, but in the end they all fell under Ji Ji's dagger.
Before leaving the organization, the character of the chicken dregs was not like this, decisive killing, cold-blooded and ruthless, but when the chicken dregs betrayed the organization and escaped, he wanted to be a normal person again, so he changed his personality, verbose, obscene, and obscene, of course, the essence of the black belly has penetrated into the soul of the chicken dregs.
Counting the previous life, it has been almost 7 years since Ji Jie left the organization, and although he has been suppressed for so long, when he really waved the butcher knife at his companion again, the string in his heart was still broken.
Ji Ji didn't know what he was doing up the mountain, just subconsciously walked around, over the years, whenever he was unhappy, only these scenes of Qionglong Mountain accompanied him, and only these scenes did not make him feel afraid.
"If you can't defeat your demons, you'll never be able to get rid of the past, and there's no better than what you have to do, at least he's able to look directly at his demons."
The unconscious wandering of the chicken lees made him go to Zixiao Yuan, Wu Mingzi seemed to have expected him to come, standing at the door with a whisk in his hand, seeing the state of the chicken lees, Wu Mingzi shook his head slightly, today's bobcat is no longer called a bobcat, Wuyuan is his current name, and Wuyuan is sitting cross-legged on the ground. The brow is sometimes tight and sometimes loose. It seems that he is going through some kind of pain.
Wu Mingzi gently brushed the dust. Said slowly to the chicken dregs: "Sit down to Baizhang Spring, look directly into your heart, everyone has a past, what you need to do is not to be bound by the past, but to make the past an insignificant part of your life, whether you end up on the road of seeking immortals or not." As a teacher, I will pass on your meditation tips today, hoping that you can face life directly. ”
The small waterfall under the Baizhang Spring, the chicken lees feel the impact of the spring water. With a slight shudder, he sat cross-legged like Wuyuan, and the whole person relaxed.
"It's cold for eternity, but everything is quiet. The heart should be quiet, and I will be alone. ”
Wu Mingzi's voice seemed to be engraved into Ji Lao's heart like a magical power, and suddenly Ji Ji felt that all the sounds between the whole heaven and earth had disappeared, even the spring water that washed his body had stopped, and he was the only one left in the whole world, and when Ji Ji Ji opened his eyes again, he was no longer under the Baizhang Spring. Instead, he sat in the middle of an empty square, surrounded by sticky blood and dead bodies lying on the ground.
"Why kill me. Let's get through this together! "Why did I die?" "Kill you, kill you!"
The pupils of the chicken lees shrank, and the picture that had been deliberately forgotten by the chicken lees resurfaced little by little, the picture was still so clear, and it did not become blurred at all because of the washing of time, and there were countless souls with teeth and claws floating out of the flesh and blood of those corpses, and the miserable howls were overwhelmingly grabbed at the chicken lees, the appearance of those unjust souls was so familiar, each of them was a companion who had eaten, lived, and played with him.
The unjust soul tore at the body of the chicken dregs, more memories emerged from the depths of the chicken dregs' mind, as he carefully recalled those pictures, the whole square was constantly expanding, more and more corpses appeared around the square, these corpses staggered to their feet, and slowly walked towards the chicken dregs, these new people, the chicken dregs are also very familiar, each of them is a person who died in his hands, in the blink of an eye, the chicken dregs have been covered by the unjust souls and the terrifying corpses of death, and everyone is coming to him to collect debts.
The fists of the chicken dregs under Baizhang Spring were subconsciously clenched, the nails pierced deeply into the palms, the teeth creaked, and even the body began to tremble slightly.
"The mind and spirit are one, and the spirit should go hand in hand. If there is more than one phase, everything will not be surprised. ”
Under the tearing of those unjust ghosts, the chicken lees have become fragmented, and his fragments have been swallowed by every unjust ghost, just when the chicken lees are disheartened, Wu Mingzi's voice rang out again, and then all the unjust ghosts moved closer to the original location of the chicken lees, and gradually reconstituted a new chicken lees.
"No ignorance, no hatred, no desire. No abandonment, no self. ”
Wu Mingzi's voice still echoed in Ji Lao's heart, a milky white soft light shone above his head, and the whole world of Ji Ji seemed to be illuminated by this soft light, the viscous blood was gone, all the corpses were gone, and the whole world was only himself.
The picture rotated again, and all the pictures of chicken lees from birth to rebirth began to circulate, and he watched quietly like a bystander, without joy or sorrow.
Chicken bad's parents abandoned him after he was born,Raised in an orphanage, he was soon adopted by the organization,A large group of little children are all lively together,From the age of 5, everyone has entered the militarized training,Although the young people have received very heavy training,But it's still happy,After all, so many friends are playing together every day.,This situation has lasted until 1o years old.,It's also the best 5 years in the memory of chicken bads.。
Since the age of ten, everyone has been trained in how to kill, and the nightmare officially descended on everyone, from the first day, there are constantly people who are eliminated from the game, as long as they are disabled, they have an incurable disease, then he will be familiar with how to kill people quickly, during which many people commit suicide, and many people have neuropathy, but more have persevered, and their personalities have become distorted.
After three years of primary selection, the people who are still alive have basically mastered the ability of how to kill people and protect themselves, and then a few people came to pick people among everyone, and the good-looking people were all transferred, and they were not arranged for the next training, and the chicken lees were arranged in the training camp No. 25, and the number 571 was numbered in a group, and everyone in the training camp did not have a name, only a number, and legend has it that only when all the tests were passed in guò, they would have their own names, and all the people who survived were working towards having a name, and the same was true of chicken grains at the time.
The days when 571 became teammates, the two got along very happily. All the tasks were done by the two of them. The two soon became friends in life and death. Until the time when the chicken was 18 years old.
This year will be the graduation exam for everyone in the training camp, and the content of the exam is very simple, for a month, on a lonely island, with only one dagger, two people hunt the other teams until there are only two groups left, that is, four people. If, after a month, there are still more people, then everyone will die.
Chicken Grains and Team 571 became the final victorious team, and Bobcat and his teammates were the remaining team.
The final test of the graduation exam was to kill teammates, and only two of the four people survived. Ji Ji never forgot the scene when he and 571 held a dagger, and 571's expression was very calm from beginning to end, as if he had expected this ending a long time ago. In the battle between the two, the chicken dregs never made a dead move, but 571 was killed.
In the end, the chicken rot survived, but because of this, the whole person's personality became gloomy, and it was the lynx that changed the same as his life. As the only two qualified candidates in the training camp, the two actually felt a sense of sympathy for each other.
At the age of 18, chicken dregs and bobcats were given the names they had always wanted. But it was obtained by the life of a teammate who had been with him for 5 years.
After another 3 years of professional training, Chicken Lees and Bobcat officially became the ace killers in the organization, but when Chicken Lees was 21 years old, Bobcat was transferred from his position, removed from the team responsible for assault, and placed in the team of spies.
If a person who graduated from the training camp wants to continue to live, he has to kill an old member of the current team and take his place, when he was 21 years old, he killed a member of the Night Stalker, took his place, and officially joined the Night Stalker Assault Team, once thought that he would die in a mission or be replaced by other new members, but the ghost made the god Chicken Dregs become the captain of the Night Stalker at the age of 23.
Then there was Ji Ji who embarked on the same path as his previous captain, but his luck was a little better, he met Wu Mingzi and avoided being broken into thousands of pieces by Wuji.
For the next 6 years, the chicken lees has been paralyzing himself, trying to divert his attention through the game of guò legend and make him forget the past, who knew that the rebirth of this bullshit actually made him go back to 6 years ago, and what is even more nonsense is that this rebirth seems to have changed too many things, so that the previous 6 years seem to have been in vain.
The picture of memory arrived, and a strange thought arose, what is the meaning of my life? What do you live for?
The picture of the memory was repeated over and over again, and Ji Ji kept thinking about what he was living for.
At the time of the organization, the chicken lees just kept moving forward in order to survive, becoming stronger, and walking forward on other people's corpses, this state lasted until he became the captain of the night owl, and after becoming the captain of the night owl, the chicken lees seemed to have become a real person, a thinking person, he began to show that the world was very big, very exciting, and his life was not a normal person's life, so he chose to betray, although the chicken lees at this time did not find the meaning of life, but he had realized that he needed a meaningful life.
After meeting Wu Mingzi in his previous life, although Ji Ji got rid of the organization, he once again lost the motivation to find the meaning of life, and now looking back, Ji Ji appeared, it turned out that there were some things without pressure and would not have the motivation to force him to find, as if the meaning of his life was the same.
Losing the pressure of the organization, Chicken Mess threw himself into the game, wanting to use it to forget the past, until he was reborn.
Although it has only been a few short months since he was reborn, it is a waste of life to look back on the six years he wasted again, maybe God let him be reborn just to give him another chance to regain these six years.
Thinking of this, the chicken lees regained consciousness, the spring water of Baizhang Spring was still impacting his body, and the cold still made him shiver, but I don't know why, the chicken lees felt a lot more relaxed, and the feeling was like being constipated for a long time, and suddenly having diarrhea, maybe this metaphor was very disgusting, but it was very suitable for the mood of the chicken lees at this time.
"Master, why do you say people live?"
"Everyone has their own pursuit, for the teacher to find immortals, so live, this is also the lifelong pursuit of the teacher, have you found the meaning of your life?"
When the chicken came back to his senses, Wu Mingzi was still standing not far away, looking up at the moon and stretching out his hand to keep calculating something. After being silent for a while, he asked, Wu Mingzi rarely showed a shallow smile, answered his question, and also asked Ji Lee.
"I just want to make my life more exciting, to live a little freer, and not be bound by anyone."
"When you find your true meaning in life, it is also the time when you enter the Tao."
The chicken nodded a little, shook his head again, and replied a little confusedly, the smile on Wu Mingzi's face was even worse, and he waved the dust casually and walked towards Zixiaoyuan. (To be continued!)
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