Chapter Eighty-Seven: Growth Is a ......
Bai Fei's favorite TV series is the Soldier Assault, and in the Soldier Assault, the ground that Bai Fei feels most fake is Xu Sanduo's emotions after killing the woman. He had always thought it was a false emotion.
But after this day, he had to admit that maybe those emotions were real. Because he knows how he feels. I can't sleep and can't sleep, I can't wake up when I wake up......
Obviously, as long as you hypnotize yourself and tell yourself that it is just an ordinary monster, you can sleep peacefully. But I still can't convince myself.
Bai Fei was dizzy and silent. When the time for his patrol is up, he goes on patrol. With him this time is the Phantom Butterfly. smiled at the phantom butterfly who disappeared directly after appearing, although he didn't understand that the phantom butterfly would be a little special to him, but he would still be grateful to others.
Flip out the black book and wander while reading. I didn't look at it at all when I got to zuihou. Thinking about it, he thought of Phantom Butterfly, after all, Phantom Butterfly was the only one by his side now, and in these days of being a teammate, the Phantom Butterfly he felt seemed to be no different from the legendary Phantom Butterfly. Although he doesn't deal with people, he doesn't make trouble for people.
Curiosity kills cats!
Bai Fei's eyes swept over a white mist, and after realizing that he couldn't find any trace of the phantom butterfly, he smiled and stopped thinking about it.
He didn't know that Phantom Butterfly was right in front of him, watching him open his mouth several times, but he didn't say anything, and now he was squatting beside him, squatting with some grievances.
He didn't even know that Phantom Butterfly was Gao Die, who had been sitting next to him, and Gao Die had never thought of telling Bai Fei that she was a Phantom Butterfly, she didn't want Bai Fei to know that she was like this in the game, but she really wanted to help Bai Fei.
"Reincarnation is deliberate! Right? Bai Fei's voice suddenly sounded.
The phantom butterfly in stealth rolled away a few meters away like a cat that had been stepped on by its tail, and looked at Bai Fei only when it felt safe.
There was some strange light in Bai Fei's eyes. He's not asking about others, he's thinking about what will happen.
"I didn't quite understand it all along, but now that I think about it, it's clear that something went wrong. I can't see it, but how can an experienced regiment leader like Samsara not be able to see who has mission information? Even if someone were to hunt us down, there would be some way to avoid it. Just because I can't help it doesn't mean he can't do it, he deliberately rushed into battle like this, and deliberately killed so many people like this. But weishenme? Bai Fei still couldn't understand.
What about weishenme?
Phantom Butterfly looked at Bai Fei with a smile in stealth. I just know, but I just won't tell you.
This kind of thinking is a bit divergent from Bai Fei's thinking, but it still can't solve his own problem, that is, the guilt of those NPCs who seem to be alive.
Carter's letter has always appeared in Bai Fei's heart, maybe it was just a task, but Bai Fei would take him seriously. In a novel written by a middle two uncle that I read before, there is a person who plays a game. moved by a certain plot in the story, so his game was just practiced to the level where the plot was opened, so that he committed suicide when the plot was almost over and started all over again. Because he likes the beginning, but he doesn't like the end.
Bai Fei always felt that it was an almost brain-dead emotion, but when he himself had such an almost brain-dead emotion, he really understood those people.
But the real problem is that the guilt can't solve anything, nothing can be changed, the facts have happened, and more importantly, Bai Fei asked himself, what would he do if he had something like this next time?
The answer is still that way!
So how hypocritical is this guilt?
Bai Fei has never thought of himself as a hypocrite, but Bai Fei can't get around this circle.
The problem is not how to make up for it afterwards, but how to face this shijie when doing things, if it is just such a beginning that has not changed at all, and the result has not changed at all. Nothing has changed in that whole Shijie, except that Bai Fei has to face the life that he has become hypocritical.
For Bai Fei, this was an almost shallow feeling, and he hadn't even felt it himself. It's just an instinctive feeling that something is going to get worse if you don't change. But the problem is that he doesn't know how to make a change, or make a choice.
I don't even know what decision I'll make!
This feeling of groping and walking by yourself in the fog is really helpless.
"Phantom Butterfly, I'll leave for a moment. Will patrol the neighborhood. Bai Fei suddenly got up. Without waiting for an answer, he left the tent.
Walked into the vast white mist.
Then he understood that Weishenme had to be tented.
Ten meters away from the tent, he could no longer distinguish between the southeast and the northwest, and he couldn't see the tent a few meters away, only the vast white mist in his eyes.
As soon as you start walking, you're bound to get lost.
But if you don't walk, time will walk with you.
What to do?
For example, if Sun Wukong has nothing in his heart, then whatever he says is what he says.
If someone shouted a word at Bai Fei in the fog and pointed him in a direction to walk, would he always believe this person's words? Until out of the fog, forever.
Bai Fei didn't know, because no one spoke.
Bai Fei only knew that Sun Wukong Zuihou was dead, and Rulai Zuihou lost.
But Bai Fei also knew that if Sun Wukong was used as a comparison, then Miss Lu Bu would undoubtedly be more suitable than him. His combat power is simply less than 0.5 scum compared to Miss Lu Bu.
What will Miss Lu Bu do?
Bai Fei's mind suddenly couldn't even control himself. I think of Dongfang, I think of Long Yi, I think of Gao Die, I think of the three brothers in his dormitory, I think of Jin, I think of his family. Even think of classmates and strange passers-by who only spoke a few words.
It's just that he remembered that these were not memories, but just looking for support, in the vast white mist, looking for an object to rely on. Find a way to get him out of the fog.
There's just no way.
There is no way!
No one can help him, and if he can't get out on his own, then the more he thinks about it, the more he can only retreat!
He didn't even notice that his fists were clenched tightly, and what he didn't notice was that he hadn't moved, and his white mist was already moving with his place......
Thinking is a kind of crazy thing, when Bai Fei wakes up from thinking or from wandering. There seemed to be a fog around that nothing had changed.
Thinking without a basis for action, no matter how long you think about it, it is a waste of time, and Bai Fei's mind suddenly remembered a sentence that he didn't know when he had read it. So he began to walk.
Walking without purpose, without direction.
This is a dangerous and irresponsible behavior, but Bai Fei really didn't think about it......
He didn't even know how long he had walked, how far he had walked, he could only see the time, he had been walking for three hours!
"Bai Fei! What are you doing! Come back! The voice of reincarnation suddenly sounded in the ranks.
When he went online, he saw Bai Fei's avatar in the team, thinking that he was reading a book like yesterday, but when he turned around and didn't see Bai Fei looking at his coordinates, he found that he had left the range of the tent!
Even in the display of coordinates, the straight-line distance has exceeded two kilometers.
"Bai Fei, listen! If you don't come back before the meeting tomorrow, then we won't be waiting for you, you know? The sound of reincarnation felt a little tired in the team.
"I understand." Bai Fei nodded.
"That's good, you can't see the coordinates in the fog, and there is almost no sense of direction for people, even if I direct you from front to back, left and right, you yourself are going in the same direction as I said. You can only rely on yourself there! Samsara's voice slowly sounded: "I can tell you that the chances of you walking back are almost none." Because in the Misty Forest, a fog circle will automatically form ten meters near all tents, and if you can't determine the location, you will never be able to walk in! ”
Bai Fei did not answer.
"Due to your unauthorized actions, if you do not arrive before the assembly tomorrow, the logistics you provide for the team, including tent items, are all your own responsibility, if the mission fails because of your current actions, then you must bear full responsibility, if it causes your own mission to fail, then our team will not give you any task compensation!" The voice of reincarnation was unusually cold.
Bai Fei fell silent.