Su Honglin woke up in bursts of crying, the cry was hoarse and intermittent, with sadness and despair, she felt very uncomfortable when she heard it, tears couldn't help but flow out, and the sadness in her heart fell heavily on her heart.

A thin baby cry mixed with the sad cry came, which was particularly heart-wrenching, Su Honglin only felt that her heart was hurting like a needle, she couldn't help curling up, refusing to listen to the sound.

"Wen Yue, people can't be resurrected after death, you still have two children, if you fall down again, what will they do? You little one is only forty days old, and your days are still long, so take care of your health. The hoarse voice, the pity in the words, and the hesitation about the future came with Su Honglin's familiar native accent.

And the cry sobbed louder with the comforting sound, but because the crying had been completely out of her voice for a long time, she felt the baby being picked up, and the thin cry was finally gone, and the sound of the baby sucking hard sounded, but after a while the baby cried in a louder voice.

"Wen Yue, what you want to eat, you don't see milk, Hongmei is hungry." The low, hoarse voice rang out again, and the voice was full of anxiety.

"I can't eat it." The poignant voice labored to say something.

"If you can't eat, you have to eat a little, you don't think about yourself, you have to think about your children."

For a moment the room was silent, and the sound of firecrackers, mixed with the sound of artillery, could only be heard on the occasion of the dead.

Su Honglin thought that she was dreaming, but she didn't expect that the sense of reality was getting stronger and stronger, so strong that she felt that she was in it.

"You see if Honglin still has a fever, if it doesn't go away, you have to send her to the doctor." A hoarse voice rang out again in the silent room.

Su Honglin thought suspiciously, did he have a fever? No, even if you have a fever, you can't hear this kind of local sound, I have lived in the south for many years, and there are no familiar fellows around me, they are all fluent Mandarin.

Then there was a shuddering voice, which was so close to her, so close to her ears.

A pair of slightly cool hands touched her forehead, making her tremble, who is this?

Su Honglin finally opened her eyes, and there was a young woman of about twenty-one or twelve years old standing in front of her, with a goose egg face, thick eyebrows, and big eyes, but the eyes were now red and swollen, and there were tears in her eyes. ”

Su Honglin opened her mouth and was about to speak, but found that her throat was very dry and she couldn't speak at all, she shook her head, and the woman in front of her seemed to understand, "Don't worry, mom will bring you water now." ”

Mom? No wonder Su Honglin thinks her face is so familiar, isn't her face similar to this one? It's just that her own skin is fairer, and hers is more black and yellow.

Mother brought her water, carefully helped her sit up, and then served the water before letting her drink, Zhang Honglin drank a few sips of water and her throat moistened a little, she felt a lot more comfortable, so she gently pushed it away.

"Are you feeling better now?" Mom asked with concern, she felt that it was difficult for her mother to speak, and she couldn't even hear some words.

Su Honglin nodded, she didn't know what was going on? This shouldn't be a dream, it feels so real, is it reborn? She looked around in some horror.

It was a strange environment, she slept in a mud brick house, a few simple pieces of furniture, a red lacquered wooden box, a simple red lacquer cabinet was relatively new, she was lying on a simple shelf bed, a thick hemp mosquito net hung on it, two simple iron hooks hooked the mosquito net, everything was so incredible.

In addition to the mother, there was also a woman sitting there holding a baby in her arms, the baby was probably tired of crying and had fallen asleep, and the woman was also haggard and looked at her with worried eyes.

"Don't know my aunt anymore?" Seeing Su Honglin looking at her blankly, she asked in that hoarse and gentle voice.

After speaking, he sat there silently wiping his tears, was he reborn? She is very familiar with the wooden box, the red lacquer cabinet, but she is unfamiliar with this room, where is she? She turned her head to look into the room again, and found that the words of the Su family in Yuncun were messily painted on the earthen wall with the black ink.

Cloud Village? Wasn't Su Honglin's previous home in Yuncun? It was her father's house, but her mother rarely went there after she took them to remarry.

Su Honglin raised her hand and looked at the palm that belonged to the child, some black nails and some dirt, small and thin, she looked at all this in horror, is she really reborn? Back to when you were a kid?

At this time, there was a lot of noise outside, and many people were clamoring "You have forced people to death, and you dare to come?" I'm going to beat you to death. ”

"It's a matter of course to repay debts, why can't I come?"

"You still have a reason, you don't have to be so tight with the money you owe, are you still human." Several thick voices shouted with sadness and anger.

Hearing the noise outside, the aunt stood up and put the baby in the cradle, and quickly ran out, and soon the aunt's cry came outside: "You have no conscience, I just borrowed a little money from you, but you took my brother's life, and I will fight with you." ”

Immediately, I heard the crying of the women outside, as well as the persuasion of others, and the scolding of men, and the quarrel became a ball.

And her mother hugged Su Honglin tightly, "What should I do, what should I do?" ”

Listening to her mother's desperate and sad cry, Su Honglin already knew a little about when she had gone back, that is, when her own father died, when her own father died, she was only three and a half years old, and her sister was only forty days old.

This house is supposed to be her family's old house, but because her mother took them back to her grandmother's house later, she didn't have much impression of it, and it seems that after a year or two the house collapsed during a snowstorm.

The quarrel outside was quieter, but the crying was even more sad, many voices were mixed together, Zhang Honglin was sad, the tears fell like a broken thread, she had no father in her previous life, even if her stepfather was really good to her later, but deep down she always had low self-esteem, she didn't think of reliving a life, she still didn't have a father, she thought of many times in her previous life, those people looked at her pitifully, saying that she was a child without a father, and those children scolded her for being a wild child, the more she thought about it, the more sad she became, and the more she thought about it, the more she resented her father, he was too selfish, because he felt that he was tired of living, so he left, leaving their mother and daughter behind, and the family was poor and white, so he left them like this.

She remembered that when she was young, the three of them did not have a fixed home at all, and her mother used the basket to pick up the two sisters, and they were displaced from those relatives' houses, and lived in the aunt's house for a while, and lived in the grandmother's house for a while. When Su Honglin is older, as long as there are children who scold her like this, she will fight desperately with them, and her mother cried a lot about it, and it was not until later that her mother remarried.

Not to mention food, Su Honglin's memory did not eat snacks when she was a child, the clothes they usually wear, etc., are all inspection of other people's old clothes, she did not buy new clothes before she was in junior high school, she remembered one winter, I don't know who sent a piece of fabric to her mother, her mother begged someone to help her make a dress with her sister, and then they went out to play, Su Honglin's accidentally lost it, she cried for several hours, her mother was very angry when she heard it, she was so angry that she wanted to beat her, seeing her crying sadly but couldn't bear to start, Later, I hugged her and cried together.

She didn't have many memories of her childhood in her previous life, but there was one thing that she always remembered, it should be the winter of this year, and it was about to be the New Year, and suddenly there was a heavy snowfall, the snow was very deep, and it was over the adult's knees, the weather was too cold, and her sister had a fever, and her mother was wearing a single dress and carrying her sister to walk a few miles to the doctor's house, and when her mother came back, her hands and feet were all frozen, and she was seriously ill, and there was no treatment, and then an old barefoot doctor in the village saw her pitiful, and took a few medicines for her to drink, and then slowly got better. It's just that since then, in winter, her hands and feet will have chilblains, and it is very cold, she is suffering from severe cold, her health has been bad, and she has always had pain all over her body.

When she grows up, she will often dream that her mother is crawling in the snow step by step with her sister on her back...

The more Su Honglin got up, the more sad she became, the more she thought about it, the more sad she became, did she have to live such a difficult life again, watching her mother keep looking at other people's faces for them, suffering from the white eyes of others, and even cursing from relatives?

may have felt her daughter's emotional changes, and her mother pushed her away a little, "Honglin, don't be afraid, and Mom." ”

Obviously she was at a loss, and she comforted her daughter, Su Honglin looked at her mother with a heartache, she is only twenty-two years old now, but she encountered such a desperate thing, in her previous life, Su Honglin often wondered what supported her through those difficult years, and the only explanation was the love for their two sisters.

Su Honglin hugged her mother tightly, no, she was not the little child who knew nothing in her previous life, she had lived for decades, she couldn't watch her mother walk the same path again. Maybe God just saw that my mother suffered too much at that time, so that she was reborn and no longer let her mother suffer so much torture and so much pain.