Chapter 9: Discouragement
Before the next day, someone from the Shang Sleep Bureau came and said that the emperor would come over in the evening, so I could prepare for it. I was taking a nap, and the spring equinox gave me a curl of hair, and said with a smile: "Niangniang was born in the fifteenth, and I am afraid that I will not have the opportunity to celebrate my birthday with the emperor in the future, which is a pity." But fortunately, the emperor came to accompany his mother the next day, which shows that the emperor still has a mother in his heart. ”
I didn't say a word, but I thought to myself: The emperor wants to be with the queen every Friday, I am not the queen, so I don't have the day to celebrate his birthday with him, so what is the next day? My birthday has already passed! I don't rarely like him to accompany me! As long as he is willing to give me a child, even if he only stays here for one day out of 360 days a year, I don't care!
In the evening, when the emperor came over for dinner, I was restless, not as attentive as usual. Actually, I just remembered that he was wary of me, and he probably thought that he was not with me on my birthday yesterday.
"Every fifth day of the month, the emperor must live with the queen, this is the rule set by the ancestors, since I am the emperor, I must be respected. So...... I'm afraid I won't be able to accompany Concubine Ai in the future. He said with a smile.
I looked at the smile on his face, but sadness slowly welled up in my heart, mixed with expectations, but I felt that it was extravagant hope. A moment of hatred flashed in his heart, and he said with a smile: "Since this is the case, it is not difficult for the emperor to accompany me!"
The smile in his eyes was fleeting like a meteor on a cold night, and the smile on his lips was slightly cold, and he said, "Oh?
I wiped the corners of my mouth with a handkerchief with a smile, and said angrily: "The emperor said this, is it to make the queen mother disgusted with the concubines?
After all, he was too suspicious, and I was just joking, and he became suspicious.
Oh! With my family background and beauty, can't I deserve it!
It's just that I never think about competing for favor, but now I am thinking about how to give birth to a prince and keep my Ji family safe, and I have never paid attention to the rest.
When she becomes a queen, it is not easy to give birth to a prince, because the queen's child is a noble concubine. Historically, the queen's concubines have either inherited the throne or died unexpectedly. Emperor Taizu's Empress Wende gave birth to three sons, the youngest son died young, but the eldest son was a good man, and he was abolished because of the male favorite. The second son was tyrannical and mad, mutilated his siblings, and was rejected and degraded to a concubine by Taizu. Empress Wende was virtuous all her life, but she passed away before she was forty years old, and it was the turn of Concubine Duan's son, Emperor Taizong.
Now that Concubine Zheng Guifei is dominant, I am still Jieyu, she is already so jealous of me, and I will be crowned a concubine every day, won't I be even more intolerant of me? Where do I dare to hope for the position of a queen? I don't have to be killed by people!
"The concubine hasn't thanked the emperor for the birthday gift! A glass of wine, thank the emperor for thinking about the concubine. I raised my glass with a smile, hoping that he would forget about Fang Cai's unhappiness.
He also raised his glass and touched it, and said, "If it weren't for the queen's reminder, I wouldn't have remembered it for a while." ”
I didn't care, I didn't expect him to remember, so I smiled and said: "The emperor has a lot of opportunities, and it's normal that he can't remember so many miscellaneous things, but the queen loves her concubines." "I have already thanked the queen when I went to ask for peace today, and the queen is very useful.
"How do you know that only the queen loves you, and I don't?" he said with a smirk.
After a while, after the meal was over, we took the dishes and went down, and we moved into the inner room to sit opposite each other. He only loves hunting and fighting, and does not like piano, chess, poetry and books, so he can't entertain the things in my room, so he can only talk at will.
"Don't you need incense in the palace on weekdays?" he seemed to ask casually, but I was nervous when I heard the word "incense" recently, and I was already on guard when I heard him ask.
Glancing at the people who were waiting on the side, he said: "The concubine doesn't like incense, and she only uses some fresh flowers on weekdays. ”
When the emperor heard this, he didn't say anything, glanced at the people in the Shang Sleep Bureau, and said, "It's not early, let's rest!"
The people of the Shang Sleep Bureau began to prepare and decorate, made the beds, lit benzoin, extinguished some red candles, and so on.
The emperor waved his hand, the palace people retreated, and I was just about to change my clothes, when I saw him take out a delicate small box from himself like a trick.
Oval shape, goose yellow background depicting lake blue pink through the clouds moon pattern, the color is fresh and tender, the pattern is unique.
And I, when I saw the box, it was like a lightning strike.
It was as if a basin of ice water was pouring down, and my whole body was as cold as falling into an ice cellar.
My heart was cold, and that kind of pain and hatred was like a thousand arrows in the heart, stabbing straight into the depths of the internal organs, and the pain that burst out together could not even breathe!
"It's ...... What?" "Although my heart was like a fire boiling oil, tormenting and painful, I finally asked indifferently, "What kind of treasure is it that looks exquisite?"
His voice was low and steady: "This is a box of spices, called Jiuhe, made of ninety-nine eighty-one precious fragrant flowers, lit at night, which can not only produce incense at night, but also ...... Urging people's affection. ”
I know it's nine incense!
In my previous life, I kept a box like a rare treasure, and in this life, how can I not recognize it?
One more question, one more question! Do you want to be sure that this is Jiuhexiang, or do you think that he will give another answer? What a question you really ask! It turns out that I am wrong, and I am wrong again! Why do you want to be low and small? Why do you want to do everything you can? I only ask for one child, and since I entered the palace, I have asked myself that although I am not the best, I have done my best. But he ...... Still watch out for me!
I thought that my change could at least make you change a little, what a joke! Qiheng, you haven't changed, you're still the emperor!
But can you tell me whether it was true or false that day when you hugged and kissed me in the Yeonying Palace? I was stupid enough to think that I could change the mind of an emperor by myself, but I was not stupid enough to think that I could hallucinate when I was drunk!
I looked up at him blankly, my eyes aching, but there was not a single tear.
"Qiheng, can you answer me a question?" I said softly.
He finally noticed my abnormality, and after a long silence, he said, "Ask." ”
I asked, "Have you ever loved me?"
Have you ever loved me?
It's a question that has puzzled me for two lifetimes, and I thought I would never ask it.
He stared straight at me, as if he had never known me, his gaze seemed calm, but mixed with inexplicable sadness, a trace of pain was fleeting, so fast that people couldn't catch it, and then he smiled and said, "What is the concubine talking about? How can the emperor have love?"
Oh, no! I laughed.
I don't remember exactly how the night passed, but I remembered the vague smell on the tip of my nose, and I rolled over and pressed him hard under me, ten fingers embedded in his shoulder, leaving bright red fingerprints. Your Majesty, since you don't know what love is, let it hurt you!