**Month** sunny day

I cried all night yesterday and didn't have any energy all day today. I couldn't open my eyes, and I was in a daze all day, as if I was still in a dream.

Today, Dad called me three more times and said that I must break up with Jinjin Pig! Otherwise, you won't recognize me as a daughter!

How could he do that?

The Jinjin Pig that Dad killed has not finished the investigation yet, and the Jinjin Pig has been suspended, and the thin eyes of the face have sunken. How can he still be so unrelenting, how can he still fall into the well like this?

What would I do if I didn't have me? Who will take care of him? Who can comfort him?

What else do you say that my Jinjin pig's character is not good? Does he have my understanding? Does he have me clear? He didn't know anything, how could he be so stubborn?

No matter what my dad says, no matter what happens, I won't give in, as long as I can be with Jinjin Pig, I'd rather not be the good girl I used to be.

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**Month** sunny day

Now I feel sad and a little proud.

I'm sad that my relationship with my father has reached this point, I actually contradicted him, and my daughter, who has always been very well-behaved and obedient, actually contradicted him, he must be very sad, right?

I'm proud that I'm so brave, just like the 'aiqing fighters' in the old society on TV who rebelled against the rule of the family for the sake of aiqing and happiness.

I don't regret it because I did it right!

I think even if Dad is angry and doesn't understand now, he will figure it out later, because his daughter, like him, is a person who insists on her own righteousness and believes in her own truth!

Just like so many times he has made generous statements and inspired words in order to acupuncture the evils of the times, even if he has been warned countless times, threatened countless times, and even beaten into the hospital several times, he still insists on unrepentance.

I used to be worried, sad, and proud of my father's persistence!

Dad will definitely be proud of my persistence in the future!

Because he'll know after all. Jinjin Pig is actually a good person, the most haode person, Dad will understand in the future!

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**month** day overcast to light rain

It's really funny that the Jinjin Pig actually said that he wanted to break up.

How is this possible? How can this be? How can I be separated from him?

We agreed. will live this life and the next life together. We will live like this for ten lifetimes, until ten lifetimes later, I will be reincarnated as a man, he will be reincarnated as a woman, and we will continue to be together!

Although he was serious when he said 'break up', although his expression was solemn, I didn't believe it at all!

I'm sure. Jinjin pig can't live without me, just like I can't do without him, just like fish can't do without water, just like people can't do without air!

I need him, and the pig needs me, just as we need to eat and drink if we want to live!

So, I'm not mad at the joke about the pig. I just laughed and poked his joke and said:

"Piggy, your jokes aren't funny at all! I don't believe it at all! ”

Sure enough, when I poked his jokes. He laughed more ugly than he cried, but he didn't refute it. Moreover, after taking a shower at night, he was so crazy that it made my waist sore!

After the madness, he lay on top of me, just holding me.

Although he pressed on my body and made me almost breathless, that heavy feeling was really real! Although his arms were so hard that he was holding me that he was about to suffocate me and break my back into two pieces, his whole body was close to him. It feels like I'm completely integrated with him, and I'm really happy!

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**Month** sunny day with thundershowers

While I was not at home, Jinjin Pig moved his things, he said that he was going to break up completely, and he said that he was tired of me. I said I wanted to meet him, and I made it clear to my face. He wouldn't.

Think I'm so stupid? It must be because I'm afraid that when I look at me, I can't make up my mind to break up.

Does he think I don't know that he is going to break up with me?

He obviously felt sorry for me, and he heard me cry at night. He didn't ask, but he must have known that I was being forced by my father, and it was even possible that my father was calling me again.

I don't believe that he who has always been strong will not be able to withstand the pressure that his father gives him, and I don't believe that he will give up our happiness because of his father's threat.

I know that he must not want me to be in a dilemma, he wants me to have a long pain rather than a short pain.

However, he still doesn't know me well enough, he doesn't know that I will be strong, and I will definitely persevere.

I don't force him, when things calm down on my side, and when Dad thinks it through, I will naturally return to him. I know that no matter how long it takes to convince my father, there will always be a place for me by my side!

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**Month** sunny day

Today's weather is very good, but there is always a light rain in my heart, just like every year during the Qingming season, the pain and coldness of mourning, even if I live in the sun, I can't dispel it.

After seeing Jinjin Pig and that beautiful girl yesterday, I finally decided to go back to Xiangdu!

Maybe even if Dad's temper is stubborn, it can be smoothed out with time and perseverance. And I also have perseverance, perseverance to be able to persevere until that day. Even if you have to be tortured in pain for ten or twenty years!

However, I can't bear to let the pigs suffer with me. He is so haode alone, he deserves the happiest haode on this shijie! I can't be so selfish!

Yesterday I saw Jinjin Pig and that girl eating and chatting together, and Jinjin Pig's haggard face was so happy.

But, perhaps, the young and beautiful girl couldn't see the strong smile of the pig, but I could see it. I know that Jin Jin Pig pursued this girl and went to the restaurant that I would definitely go to after school every day at noon, just to show me!

He didn't want me to continue to fall into this kind of pain with no end in sight, he wanted to use a quick knife to cut through the mess to make me feel the most painful taste as soon as possible, and then let me come out of the pain.

The most painful this time is the bottom of a pot, no matter what direction you go from now on, you are moving towards happiness!

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Although it was only the first time I saw it, although it was only a glimpse, I could see that this girl with Jinjin Pig should be a good girl. From the smile movement, she seems to be a hearty and lively girl!

Moreover, she seems to have a crush on Jinjin Pig. As she learns more and more about the good of the pig, she will quickly fall in love with the pig, and I believe that.

But I also know that if I don't disappear into Jinjin Pig's shijie, even if this girl becomes Jinjin Pig's girlfriend, even if she goes one step further and becomes Jinjin Pig's wife in the future, she will not be able to get Jinjin Pig's true and wholehearted love. Then she's so pathetic!

I also know that if I don't leave, if no one can completely replace my place in the heart of Jinjin Pig, Jinjin Pig will never be able to let go of me. can't let go of me, and if you are ashamed of the woman who is sincere to him, the strong pig is even more pitiful!

I really can't bear to let such a haode girl live in deception all the time, even if I give it all, I can't get true love. I couldn't bear it, so that the door of Jinjin Pig's heart was always locked, and the door was full of ice and snow.

I thought, I'll be fine when I leave!

Time will heal all the wounds and erase all traces. If this good girl is really patient and sincere, she will definitely be able to become a new happiness after I leave!

The plane is about to take off, and let me zuihou take a look at this city that I may love the most in this life, and make me zuihou think about the Jinjin pig. Farewell, Shenshi, don't be a strong pig!

I'll listen to you and try to forget you. I will listen to you and try my best to erase the happiness of these years from my memory......

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Zhang Jin burst into tears again!

He Qingqian understands Zhang Jin like a roundworm in his stomach, knows people and faces, and paints skin and bones! Zhang Jin doesn't have a thorough understanding of He Qingqian, the woman he once devoted himself to in love?

Qingqian knows every psychological fluctuation at every stage of his own life, understands that he is going to move away, understands that he is unwilling to meet, and understands that he must take Ye Zi, who he has just met, to that restaurant for dinner......

Zhang Jin can also understand He Qingqian's pain during that time, he can understand the heart-wrenching taste when He Qingqian leaves the deep market, the heart-wrenching pain that seems to cut his soul!

Therefore, when Zhang Jin saw this paragraph of "Qingqian's Diary", it was like uncovering the scars that had been injured for a long time but had not yet healed, and empathized with He Qingqian's thoroughness, and the pain was indescribable!

After putting down the diary in his hand, Zhang Jin got up and knelt on the edge of the bed, holding He Qingqian's face in 'sleeping', and said in a low voice:

"Qingshallow, I'm sorry, I'm sorry! I'm a bastard, and you suffered so much and so much pain at that time! I'm sorry, I'm really sorry! ”

Zhang Jin said guiltily, and the salty lips with tears in his standing kept falling on He Qingqian's face, lips, eyes, and forehead......

Zhang Jin seems to be hoping to use his own kiss to warm the coldness in his once shallow heart; seems to hope that he can use his own tears to wash away the haze of those days in his shallow heart!

After a long time, when Zhang Jin's lips left He Qingqian's cheeks, Zhang Jin's expression was no longer as sad as a resentful woman, but changed to a resolute expression, and he said categorically and word by word:

"Qingqian, I used to make you miserable. I'll definitely make it up in the future! Once I gave up your deep affection for me, I will definitely find it again! You will definitely be mine in the future, and our agreement must continue.

Even if you have gotten out of that period of pain, you have forgotten me, you no longer love me, and you just treat me as a friend.

I'd rather be a jerk again than imprison you back into my arms! (To be continued)