Chapter 55: Forbidden Love V
Ihan and Chunqiu stood in the courtyard, and the autumn wind blew the ends of their hair and their hearts. Heaven and earth began to become vast and desolate, as if there were only two of them, and it was heartbreaking and terrifying.
Yi Han held back his tears and said with a smile: "Brother Zuo, what do you say this season?" ”
Chunqiu stood here like a pins and needles, he didn't dare to face Yihan, but he was afraid that once he relented, he would break his heart.
"Brother Zuo, I know you don't like me!"
Ihan's eyes were filled with tears, he didn't want to be strong anymore, he just wanted to cry bitterly. But he couldn't cry in front of his big brother Zuo, he could only let his heart be tightly pressed to his throat.
"Ihan, it's not like that, it's not like what you say."
Chunqiu and Ihan stood facing each other, and they were no more than one step away, but he didn't know how to justify.
Yihan smiled coldly, and said with a long sigh of relief: "Isn't that the case? ”
Chunqiu hurriedly answered: "That's not the case. I like you, but I already liked Wanjun before you, and I have always regarded you as a younger brother. ”
Chunqiu wanted to speak again and again, he didn't want to continue to talk and hurt Yihan's heart.
"Why did you say you liked me at this time? I have no illusions about you, but you have once again stirred up ripples in my heart! ”
Yihan burst into tears, he didn't want to cry in front of Chunqiu, but he couldn't help it.
"Brother Zuo, don't give me any more hope, I know it's impossible for us, since the moment Du Wanjun appeared, your heart no longer belongs to me."
Chunqiu raised his foot and was about to walk over and hug Ihan, but was blocked by Ihan.
"Don't come here, we'll keep this distance, okay?"
Ihan lowered his head and cried silently, it is difficult to fall in love in this life, when will it be in the next life?
"Yihan, don't look like this, you will find someone who is a thousand times better than me, he will know how to take care of you better than me, and know how to love you better than me."
The cruelty of Chunqiu is not in how he refuses Yihan, but in how he refuses or not, and he is willing to stop until he tortures Yihan's heart.
"Brother Zuo, I can know what I'm doing, and I can tell who is good to me, you don't have to say anything, just let me forget you!"
Ihan closed his eyes and bit his lip, but he couldn't control his heart.
"I know, I know, I'm a villain, but I beg you not to be sad, not to be sad!"
Chunqiu came over strongly and took Ihan into his arms.
Ihan cried bitterly, and he cried as he pushed Chunqiu away. But Chunqiu's strength was too great, so he could only cry obediently in his arms.
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry......"
Chunqiu kept whispering in Ihan's ear.
Yihan beat him for a long time and hugged Chunqiu tightly: "Why, why do you want to do this to me, don't you know that my heart hurts?" But why do you want to do this? ”
"Ihan, it's my fault, you cry, but I can't promise you anything, and I can't give you what you want."
Chunqiu was pushed away by Yi Han with all his strength, turned around and ran away crying, "Brother Zuo, let's go!" ”
Chunqiu ran two steps forward: "Yihan, are you driving me away?" ”
"Yes, I'm driving you away, you go, don't come back!"
It's like Ihan's heart is soaked in salt water, and the pain makes it impossible for him to breathe.
Chunqiu smiled bitterly and took a few steps back, and accidentally sat on the ground: "Okay, okay, I'll go!" ”
When Yihan heard that Chunqiu had fallen, he turned around and was about to run over to help him up, but he still held back, and now his life and death had nothing to do with him.
"Let's go, don't come back if you're gone!"
Yihan looked at Chunqiu sitting on the ground, and he couldn't wait to rush over and hug him and kiss him wildly. But he could not do that, so he could only stand in front of him and weep.
"I'll go, I'll go."
Chunqiu stood up and ran back to the room without looking back.
Ihan watched Chunqiu run back to the room, his heart hurting so much that he couldn't breathe.
"Brother Zuo, let's go, take your Wanjun and leave here!"
Chunqiu took Wanjun's hand and said in a panic: "Let's go, let's go, let's go now." ”
Wanjun pushed away Chunqiu and said: "I heard what you said, you can't do this, if you are still a man, you should say goodbye to him in a dignified manner." ”
Chunqiu was furious and sneered: "Farewell? How do I say goodbye? How can I say goodbye? Does the male mean you walk alone? Am I staying? ”
"Zuo Chunqiu, look at your current appearance, do you still look like a man? If you want to stay here, I won't force you to follow me, but please don't be so cowardly! ”
Wanjun stood up and walked up to Chunqiu and looked into his eyes: "Chunqiu, if you don't want to leave him, if you don't want to leave here, I will fulfill you, but don't hurt everyone who loves you in this way!" ”
Chunqiu didn't know where he had hurt them, and roared: "Du Wanjun, don't be unreasonable, are you jealous?" Is Ihan holding you back? ”
"I'm jealous, do you only allow me to be jealous?"
Wanjun took a step towards the door.
Chunqiu grabbed Wanjun: "Where are you going?" ”
"Go back, I shouldn't have come to you, I shouldn't have ruined your good deeds, I'm gone, you can be with him."
Wanjun said very coldly, his words were sharp, and every sentence was stinging Chunqiu's heart.
"Du Wanjun, you are really unreasonable, I didn't do anything, I didn't say anything, what do you want?"
Chunqiu had never been so angry as he was today, and this was the first time he had lost his temper with Wanjun.
Wanjun shook off Chunqiu's hand and said, "I'm unreasonable? Yes, have you had enough of my insolence? Isn't it far from your Ihan? ”
Chunqiu didn't know that Wanjun would lose such a big temper, but his eyes couldn't tolerate others like this? Besides, he and Ihan had nothing.
Chunqiu was so angry that he sat on the stool and didn't speak.
"Zuo Chunqiu, what's wrong? Did I say yes? You just can't leave him. ”
Chunqiu said coldly: "I am reluctant to leave him." He is kind and simple, and he is innocent! He will not intrigue, let alone kill innocents! He is innocent and innocent! ”
When Wanjun heard this, she finally couldn't stand it anymore, and walked over and grabbed Chunqiu's chest: "Zuo Chunqiu, am I so unbearable in your eyes?" Am I so mean in your eyes? ”
Wanjun's tears fell to the ground, and he realized that he was like this in his eyes.
"Then I ask you, will you abandon everything and stay here with me?"
Spring and Autumn suddenly storang Wanjun's lifeline, and he was speechless when asked by Spring and Autumn.
"Ha, hahaha, I said yes, right? You just can't let go of everything in the palace! ”
Chunqiu sneered.
"Zuo Chunqiu, what's wrong with you? Am I the kind of person who loves wealth in your eyes? ”
Wanjun asked Chunqiu in a low voice, his heart was like being blown by a cold wind, and a chill invaded his body.
"Wanjun, I, I'm ......"
Chunqiu also realized that he had said something wrong, but he couldn't take back what he said, he lowered his head, but he couldn't figure out why he was so excited.
Yihan walked in from outside, looked at the two of them and said, "Brother Zuo, let's go, there's nothing to be nostalgic about here!" ”
Chunqiu looked at Yi Han's eyes and said, "Yi Han! ”
"Brother Zuo, take Du Gongzi and leave here, don't hurt Du Gongzi's heart for a little thing. I know that I can't compare to Du Gongzi, and I don't deserve you. I'm already very happy to meet you, I don't expect anything, I just want you to be happy, you can be happy, and Ihan is also happy! ”
Ihan wiped away the tears from his face, how much courage it took to say these words in front of his beloved, but he couldn't change his heart, so it was better to let him go.
Yi Han took out a handful of jade pendants engraved with Manchu from his arms and gave them to Chunqiu, he held his hand tightly and said: "Brother Zuo, take this jade pendant, if you meet the Jurchen clan when you go out, take it out, they will not arrest you!" ”
Ihan looked at Chunqiu affectionately, he knew that this departure was goodbye, and he would never see each other again in this life. If there was an old student, he would definitely not let him go, but in this life he chose to let go, not for anything else, just for the short time they spent together.
"Ihan, thank you for saving me, thank you for taking care of me, if it weren't for you, I would have died in the wilderness."
"Brother Zuo, don't say it, get out of here quickly, if it's night, it's easy to get lost."
Ihan pretended to be indifferent and pushed Chunqiu out of the door.
Chunqiu and Wanjun walked towards the forest together, and now he was the only one left. He looked at them from afar, and although his heart ached, he was much more relieved than before.
When Chunqiu walked to the edge of the forest, he turned around and waved his hand to Ihan.
With tears streaming down his face, Ihan raised his hand and waved at them.
"Brother Zuo, I love you, remember to miss me!"
He crawled on the door frame and cried, Brother Zuo gave him an ethereal love, so he let go of everything and flew with this ethereal. Later, he found that the higher he flew, the emptier his heart became, and the more he found that this love did not belong to him.
He wanted to let go for a long time, but he was reluctant to let go, he once thought that as long as he could watch him every day. It wasn't until Du Wanjun's arrival that he was completely awakened, and those who didn't belong to him would never belong to him.
"Brother Zuo, you must be happy! If there is an afterlife, I will meet you again. ”
Ihan stood up, wiped away his tears, and walked back to his room with his heart aching.
Wanjun and Chunqiu hadn't gone far yet, Wanjun glanced back, but found that there was nothing behind him, except an empty field, which was a rotten tree that was so old that only its torso remained.
Chunqiu experienced a dream, a dream of self-discovery, he walked into an illusion, and came out of the illusion. He clasped Wanjun's hand and walked towards the deepest part of the forest.
The rotten tree shattered into pieces and blew away in the wind with the arrival of a strong wind.
Wanjun pointed to the small sawdust in the sky and said, "Spring and Autumn, what do you think it is?" ”
"That's the star that guides us home!"