37. The melancholy winter day of the second master

"Run, run, one-two-three-four, one-two-three-four. Keep up and don't listen. One, two, three, four! ”

"One! Two!! Three!!! Four!!!! ”

"Very good, it's such momentum, there are still ten laps to end today's training, and there will be additional meals after the training!"

"Oooh!!" Obviously, this kind of material reward has a more substantial effect than mere spiritual encouragement.

Although the weather outside can be said to be cold, and even two days ago, there was a snowstorm that could touch the calf, but in the school field where the snow has been cleared, the steaming heat that envelops the place proves how enthusiastic the group of people who are training here are, and the earth-shattering slogan seems to be an oath to the sky, and the cold can't stop them at all.

"Speed up, five more laps! Notice those steaming cauldrons over there? Your boss and I have always been a talker, and I will never be ambiguous when I say that I will give you additional food! At the end of the lap, the first ten people to arrive add two more pieces of meat, the next ten people to add one piece, and the last twenty people to stand in the cold wind for a while, and then find firewood to make a fire after the robes are finished, or go directly to drink the broth frozen into ice ballast! ”

"The pieces of meat are all mine! The broth is all mine too!! "Oooh, the lump of meat is beckoning to me!" "At least it's meat!"

So, the originally very neat team was scattered in an instant, and the sprint of the sprint, I felt that I couldn't hold on to the end in the sprint first, and I secretly gritted my teeth and tried to speed up a little, only the "boss" who was originally ahead of everyone was still as before, not in a hurry, steady, and looked like a leisurely stroll on the school field.

It didn't take long for even the slowest soldier to surpass the distance of the "boss" by half a circle. The strong body is already ahead of more than half a lap, and it may not take two laps of effort for this "boss" to be lapped by his own soldiers.

"It's really a simple happiness, I have to envy them a little, I can muster up all my strength to keep rushing forward for a little profit, and I don't care if I will find out that I have failed at the last moment. I'm probably just like them, who used to work under the lord. No matter what, just keep your head down and rush forward, anyway, the lord and those people around the lord will always do the rest well, I just need to fight to the fullest and defeat the enemy.

My name is Guan Yu, and I am a military general under the account of Li Shushi, the general of Pingbei, and I am now being punished for some reason.

I remember that my lord once asked me to do a lot of things: I used to guard the checkpoints, guard against enemies and enemy infiltration, and protect those merchants who were originally of low status and treacherous; He was also sent to work with the magistrates to dig canals and build water conservancy facilities, and to eat and live with workers who came to the site for forced labor or for money. He was also sent to the border. On the one hand, it protects the people at the border from invasion, and at the same time cooperates with local officials to preside over mutual trade and provide the necessary materials and money for the state army; Naturally, he also independently led the troops into the grassland, and according to the requirements of the lord, he went to fight the tribes of those grasslands, and often slaughtered the entire tribe with men, brought back women, and raised children. For this reason, his lord also invented a very special unit of length - a car wheel height, and men above this height are considered men. That is to say, they must be killed.

I'm not Our Lady of Narausch, I'm just a knife and a gun in the hands of the lord, and I will do whatever the lord says. Not to mention the tribes that were slaughtered, none of them were the most cheerful people who plundered the frontiers, and their hands were stained with the blood and tears of the Han people. So even if one day the whole clan is slaughtered, there is nothing to complain about, they should already have such an awareness.

It is precisely because of this that over the years, there have been seven or eight more concubines in my family. Well. It's the woman who is busy going around that steaming cauldron. She is a good woman among those Hu people, but she is a little less delicate than the Han women, but she is more tenacious and capable, I actually like them, because when they work, they always remind me of my mother who has long passed away, a good mother who was angry with her young and frivolous son, and frightened because her son committed a crime, but unfortunately her son was too ignorant and made a lot of mistakes.

However, I have never regretted killing the bastard named Chen Ming who also had to flee from his hometown, but I don't know if the father and daughter who were rescued by me are doing well now, and whether they have returned to their hometown to live a peaceful life. However, I remember that their father and daughter are from Qinghe Country, Qinghe Country has not been peaceful since the Yellow Turban, but this Hedong, although it has also been chaotic for a while, but since the Lord decided to rebel and subdued those thieves in Baibo Valley, it has been a long time since there has been no big trouble, and occasionally when I go to the mountains there to practice, I see happy smiling faces along the way, and if I really want to make the people stable and rich, I can't make any changes just by relying on personal strength.

It seems to be contaminated with the habits of the lord, and I don't know where to go if I'm not careful.

However, my current wife, Hu Shi, has given birth to two big fat boys, and my concubine has also given birth to me two concubines and a daughter, which may be the only thing I can do better than Feng Xian or Zilong, because Zilong has only two sons, while Feng Xian has only one precious daughter. Zilong didn't mention it for the time being, that guy was looked down on by his two childhood sweethearts, but Feng Xian, obviously the concubine is not less than me, but only the main wife gives the rest of the baby daughter, it shouldn't be that he has something wrong - although I can't laugh, especially in front of him, but this incident will really make me feel very happy.

It's just that Feng Xian and Zilong can spend a happy winter festival with the lord at this time, watch fireworks together, watch songs and dances, or watch the lord and his fierce fiancées come up with a good look, but every time someone will be unlucky because of this, speaking of which the performance is the drama I look forward to the most in the year along with the spring festival hosted by the lord, but now I can only think about this kind of thing to find a little bit of happiness, Or do a lot of exercise to numb yourself so that you can get at least one night's sleep, as my body is doing right now.

Yes, I couldn't even sleep like a normal person a while ago. Because every time I close my eyes, the battle appears before my eyes, and the soldiers who have followed me for many years fall before my eyes, and then the guards, who are very qualified or extremely hardworking, also fall one by one to protect me. If it weren't for Wen Yuan's bloody killing. I'm afraid that it will be difficult for me to have a chance of survival, after all, I heard that Wen Yuan also lost a lot of warriors in this battle, many of whom followed him when he was young or those of his cronies who followed him when he was young, and they are the core backbone of a border family.

In my dream, the sky was red, the earth was red, and everywhere I looked, there was a patch of red, and red kept splashing on my face. On my hands, on my body, then red slowly turned black, and then I couldn't hear any more sounds, I couldn't see colors other than black, I couldn't feel if my old friend Qinglong Yanyue Knife was still in my hands, I couldn't feel anything. No, maybe there's still a feeling. That's what it feels like to be dying, because you can't breathe. The feeling of dying because of suffocation.

I woke up, awakened by the sight of my dream, covered in a cold sweat, and even for the first few days I had a serious illness because of it, and although I was quickly cured by my mother, it did not change the fact that I was still unable to sleep peacefully. Even if the body feels extremely sleepy, as soon as you lie on the bed, as soon as you close your eyes, the feeling of suffocation will come again and again.

Lie down and wake up. Lay down again, woke up again, and the cycle repeated, and within a few days, I looked haggard and scary.

I wanted to drink to relieve my sorrows, but unfortunately I was born with a good amount of alcohol, and although the amount that could make me fall asleep completely was much less because of my depressed mood, it still made my treasure wine less than a fifth in one day.

Of course, as long as I can fall asleep, I can still afford such a loss, anyway, I just want to sleep, taste or anything is not the first priority. But when I woke up, I saw my wife's red and swollen eyes and anxious and haggard face, and I knew that she had been terrified of what I had been looking like for the past few days. But what surprised me the most was the figure of the lord and the lord and the mother standing not far away, which was the first time I saw the lord after I was asked by the lord to reflect at home because of the defeat. His expression was very unhappy, he seemed to be a little angry, and he seemed to blame himself, and I just woke up and couldn't read the eyes of the lord at that time.

I looked at the lord for a while, and the lord left without saying anything. I was very disappointed at the time, but I knew very well what a loss my defeat had caused, and the lord wanted to reward the meritorious men of this battle, without me, and there could be no me, but several generals led by Gao Zi'an and Wen Yuan submitted their resignation from the lord to reward them, because the loss in this battle was too great.

That's all because of me, because of my pride, because of my blind optimism and self-confidence, because of my carelessness.

But when my lord left, I still felt a little disappointed, because I was also in pain, and I was also very uncomfortable. In fact, I have not experienced a tragic battle, when I fought with the Xianbei people in Taiyuan County, the troops I led took on a very important responsibility, and the losses were extremely heavy, but we won that battle, a very brilliant victory, and even the reason for the victory was very large because Hua Boying and I bit the enemy to the death, and bought time for the final fatal blow of the lord.

Maybe it's because the past two years have been too smooth, so people have become a lot more frivolous, and the increasing number of women in my family is probably the embodiment of my mentality. Obviously, the lord attaches so much importance to the guy named Yuwen Tuo, and he knows that the lord has a very powerful reputation in terms of people, but he still feels that there are few opponents in the world, but the enemy is only a few people in the state army. As a result, he fell big and suffered a big loss. Although the lord didn't say much, I knew he must have been disappointed in me. So even if my heart is so depressed and painful, the lord won't say anything to me.

Yes, the lord is also very busy, and he has too many things to deal with. Although many people say that the lord is idle and pushes the work to his subordinates, I have thought so before. But when I really became a captain who managed a lot of things, I realized that when a person makes decisions every day that are related to the life and death of many people, the rise and fall of many families, that kind of pressure may not be much less than those real jobs. And I heard that a new terrible enemy has appeared. It was the enemies that the lord had to face in the northern part of the state. Originally, I thought it was just a few powerful generals who appeared mysteriously, but now it is a group of very strange forces, I don't know where they came from, and I don't know what they plan to do.

While I was thinking so much, my wife brought me a bowl of soup.

This decoction is not the same as the decoction I used to treat severe colds, the most fundamental difference is. The decoction for colds is very bitter, but this decoction is not too bitter, and even tastes it after a while, with a little sweetness and other very nice flavors.

Of course, I knew that my mother had the ability to cure a cold in an instant, but my situation was quite special, so she also prescribed me some medicine to prevent my vitality from being harmed by the cold. So I just drank some wine, and I didn't drink as much as I usually did, so why did I have to drink the potion. Could it be that I got sick again when I didn't know it?

I told my wife my doubts, and she fell on top of me in agony.

I don't like women to cry, or I just hate crying, because it's obviously not manly, and even if I later know that I can cry when I feel happy and happy, I still instinctively reject it.

On top of that, crying can make a person too excited and lose most of his ability to express himself, making what is otherwise easy to understand difficult to understand because of staccato and repetition. Although this is often the case on the battlefield, those heralds or scouts with urgent information always make themselves out of breath. I have somewhat mastered how to distinguish between intermittent sentences, or repetitions, or after speaking half a sentence because of lack of strength, the rest of the words can only be based on the shape of the mouth. Seriously, this skill has often come in handy throughout my military career.

However, I still can't help but complain as the lord said, don't those heralds and scouts know that if they can't keep their state in a state where they can fully say what they want to say, and the information they convey is not accurate enough, it will also be a real headache. Although I also understand their eagerness to get the message across.

Well, I accidentally digressed again, or as the lord liked, I was crooked again.

Because I had a lot of practical skills, I easily figured out what my wife was trying to say.

It turned out to make me break out in a cold sweat again - I wanted to get drunk that day to help myself fall asleep. But I don't know if it's because drinking alcohol is really not a clever way to kill my sorrows, and I, who have always been very good drinkers, was not only drunk, but the effect was so amazing that I almost couldn't wake up.

It can be said that if it weren't for the fact that my wife was afraid of me at night and couldn't sleep peacefully and wanted to come and accompany me, and then noticed all kinds of abnormal expressions in me, and sent someone to the lord to cry overnight, maybe I really wouldn't need to worry about my future anymore.

Of course, this is not the development I wanted, because the agreement I made with Feng Xian at the beginning, that is, to play all the beauties in the world, in addition to the Central Plains and the Western Regions, there are also those lords in the west who say that I have never seen the 'big ocean horse' and 'black pearl' or something, how can I just leave the world...... Ahem, didn't the sage also say that 'eating and drinking men and women, people's great desires to survive', and our family has always been sparsely populated, I believe that my father and mother will be very pleased to know.

Later, my wife gave me a piece of tissue paper, which I thought was a prescription, but after reading it, I realized that it was written to me by my lord.

One side of thin paper, not big, and there are not many words on it. One line is 'not arrogant in victory, not discouraged in defeat', and the other line is to let me exercise like crazy every day as I am now, so that I am completely tired, and I can naturally sleep well.

This method is really good, in fact, I have been enjoying this life more or less lately - reading a book and reading all night, because it is very interesting, so I naturally can't sleep, and then I work hard, whether it is martial arts or physical fitness, and then go to sleep.

Well, occasionally I will be happy with my wives and concubines, after all, I have also read books and must follow the teachings of the saints.

The lingering shadow seems to be gradually dissipating, and although it still affects me occasionally, I am gradually able to accept or face the previous battle - although it was miserable, but I have to admit that after thinking about it carefully. I found that the man named Yuwen Tuo is worthy of being a strong enemy that even the lord cares about very much, and many techniques are indeed worth figuring out and learning by myself.

However, I know more clearly that it is my lord who is gradually coming out of the shadows and making me feel that I am beginning to change for the better. My lord, and the only one I am destined to serve for the rest of my life.

I engraved the six words that my lord wrote to me on a jade plaque, and I have always carried it with me ever since, and from time to time I will take it out to look at it, read it, remind myself of the mistakes I have made, and count it as a memorial to those robes who died for my mistakes.

In that battle, almost all of my guards were wiped out, and even the few who escaped with me were seriously wounded. Even if they recuperate and recover, except for two or three who still have hope of returning to the battlefield, the rest may not even be comparable to ordinary people.

I asked the lord to arrange them in the official school, hoping that they could at least recognize a few words there and learn some simple arithmetic knowledge, and then they would be willing to teach at home or continue to adventure in the caravan, and they would be able to find a place for the rest of their lives.

Although the death of an old friend is sad, now I am around. Laughter and laughter reappeared. It was a group of young people full of hope and energy, with momentum. But sometimes it gives people a bit of a headache, a bit like a young me.

I like to be around these soldiers, they give me a very real feeling, unlike those officials, who always wear false masks for various purposes. Say something that doesn't come from the bottom of your heart. Of course, I have to admit that when they compliment me, even though I know that those words are not credible, I still feel very happy when I hear them.

I am no longer the same person I was yesterday. Maybe I've become a new me.

What would I be like?

I can't tell, but I remember my lord saying it in a casual conversation. For a person, the mark of being smart is not to see whether he is always right, because as long as a person, it is impossible not to make mistakes, and no matter how smart a person is, he cannot guarantee that he is always 100% right. So there are only two criteria to measure whether a person is really a smart person:

One is that even if you make mistakes, you have to make valuable mistakes. And the other is not to fall into the same pit twice. Of course, if you continue to get rid of it three or four times, then this person is not a matter of whether you are smart or not, but that guy is a shaker M at all.

I don't really understand what Shake M is, but I can understand the tone of the lord's voice, so I must not be like that.

My lord once said that I was a very smart person, and I myself felt that I had a bad temper, but I was actually very smart.

Since I'm a smart person, I should always act like a smart person.

This is probably my biggest harvest in this cold season......"

I don't know when, Guan Yu's original running footsteps stopped, and he stood alone in the cold wind, no one disturbed him, or most people's eyes were attracted by the steaming oily broth and the oily pieces of meat, even the twenty unlucky ones who had been punished, and kept swallowing the saliva that was about to overflow in their mouths.

The women were busy on the side, serving the warriors hot soup and quilts, with a little bit of hot bread left.

Only one woman walked slowly to Guan Yu, who was still standing there in a trance, and did not disturb him, just standing quietly behind him like that, enduring the test of the cold with him. But even though his face was red by the cold wind, and his lips were a little blue-gray, the calm and happy smile on his face never faded for a moment.

"Meng Jiang, let's eat."

"Hmm."

Striding all the way, the originally confused look on Guan Yu's face has disappeared. Behind him was Hu Shi with a look of joy and admiration on his face.

If loyalty to Li Shushi is a major motivation for Guan Yu to keep moving forward, then letting his family, especially his wife, who has suffered a lot because of his youthful and frivolous behavior, live a happy life is another motivation for Guan Yu to move forward.

Therefore, he who has figured out a lot of things will no longer be confused.

Even if you make a mistake, even if you fall into a deep pit, but ......

He, Guan Yu Guan Yunchang, is back!

"Brothers, this time Guan is the last to complete the training, so I'll accompany you twenty unlucky guys to watch everyone eat!"

"Oh oh oh~~~!! The general is mighty!! The Boss is mighty!! (To be continued......)