After Xiao Xiao walked out of the consultation room, he saw Xiao Zhengang who had been waiting outside, for some reason, when he saw this scene, he suddenly felt that his eyes were sour, and he wanted to shed tears, even after his father came over, he kept asking and chatting around him, he didn't think Xiao Zhengang was as verbose as before.

Xiao Xiao quietly clenched his fists, avoided Xiao Zhengang's gaze, turned his head sideways, and blinked his eyes twice, until he felt that the tears were completely forced back by him, "Dad, I'm fine, the doctor said that it was a trance caused by not sleeping well recently, it's not a big deal, I prescribed some medicine, just take it for two days." ”

Xiao Xiao handed the medicine list in his hand to his father, Xiao Zhengang took it and studied it, he knew the name of the medicine, but he didn't know what it was treated, but since the doctor said it was okay, he could put down his snack a little.

Xiao Zhengang gently patted his son's shoulder, as if he wanted to say something, but finally turned his head sideways or swallowed the words back, and changed the subject, "Son, if you feel uncomfortable, don't bear it, don't hold on, rest at home for a few days, and Dad at school will ask you for leave!" ”

"Hmm......" Xiao Xiao lowered his head and agreed, with a shallow nasal voice in his voice.

He actually didn't need Xiao Zhengang to help him ask for leave, he preferred to stay at school than stay at home, but he didn't want to refute Xiao Zhengang at this time, there had not been such a harmonious atmosphere between their father and son for a long time.

For a period of time after that, Xiao Xiao has been honestly following the doctor's instructions, taking medicine on time and in accordance with the amount, and Xiao Zhengang at the school insisted on asking him to take a week off, saying that he wanted him to take care of his face before going back to class.

I don't know if the medicine prescribed by the doctor worked, or the hint of the doctor's words had an effect, anyway, the anxiety, fear, anxiety and self-blame that had been haunting Xiao Xiao's heart before were slowly precipitating little by little.

In the past few days, he has begun to be able to sleep, no longer feeling that there is Xiao Ze everywhere in the room, and he is not having nightmares, although he still subconsciously feels uneasy and sad whenever he sees Xiao Ze's things, but he has lost the feeling of almost being swallowed by this emotion.

Xiao Xiao's state of slowly developing for the better continued until Xu Yan's spirit recovered, and they officially went to the cemetery together for the first time to worship Xiao Ze.

Xiao Ze's funeral was organized by Xiao Zhengang, because it was a small funeral, and it was simple, and Xu Yan's state at that time was not stimulated at all, so Xiao Zhengang didn't tell her to make up her own minds.

This is the first time that Xiao Xiao and Xu Yan have come to see Xiao Ze in more than a month after Xiao Ze's death, obviously both Xu Yan and Xiao Xiao have overestimated their ability to bear.

Xiao Xiao's face began to turn pale the moment he walked into the cemetery, and when he saw the brilliant black and white photo of Xiao Ze smiling on the tombstone, his eyes were dark and fainted.

And Xu Yan collapsed when she saw the tombstone, ran up and hugged the cold tombstone and slapped and beaten, and scolded Xiao Ze for being heartless, unkind and unfilial, it seemed that what she was holding was not a stone tablet but Xiao Ze himself.

Xu Yan fell ill again when she returned from the cemetery that day, and Xiao Xiao's nightmare began again.

It's still the dream he has repeated many times, the dream starts from the first day Xiao Ze came to his house, Xiao Ze timidly raised his head and called his brother; He was going to live in school, Xiao Ze was reluctant to let him go, and stood in front of his bedside for half a night; Xiao Ze insisted day after day, rain or shine, and insisted that he must bring him food......

In the past few years, the pictures of him getting along with Xiao Ze have taken him around in his dreams like a marquee, but this time the final result changed when the dream came to the end.

This time, it was no longer Xiao Ze who jumped off the stairs after being thrown away by him when he expressed his intentions to him, but after Xiao Ze confessed, he clearly and directly rejected Xiao Ze.

Just when he was about to explain to Xiao Ze that he only regarded him as a younger brother, Xiao Ze's face suddenly began to become hideous, his eyes became gloomy, his fierce eyes stared at him fiercely, approaching him step by step, the cold and empty voice resounded throughout the roof, and asked him sharply, 'Why, you tell me why, why don't you like me, am I not good to you?' I care about you, I follow you, I chase you, why don't you like me? Why, you say, you tell me, why don't you dare look at me, you look at me......'

Xiao Xiao looked at Xiao Ze who was yelling at him and approaching step by step, the thin body began to deform from the arm, broke the wrist, lost the joint, bent the leg bone, and the head that was propped up on the neck lost its support and suddenly drooped down, even so Xiao Ze still persisted like he walked over, crookedly, and walked towards him step by step, a large area of bright red blood gushed out of his body and flowed down his body, flowing to the cement floor on the roof of the building, paving the road towards Xiao Xiao, 'Xiao Xiao, Did you see it, you understood, how much I love you, do you know, I can even give up myself for you, I can do anything for you, brother, look at me......'

Xiao Ze's roaring voice suddenly became low, with a hint of pleading, but the feeling on the side of the pubic side and his blood-drenched body that was moving in a strange posture made Xiao Xiao feel frightened and frightened in his heart, and at the same time, his stomach was nauseous.

He tried hard to say something to Xiao Ze, but he couldn't say anything, he was very anxious, he could only retreat backwards step by step, dodging Xiao Ze's approach, and suddenly his feet were empty, and his body suddenly lost his center of gravity and fell......

Xiao Xiao fell off the seventh floor in a dream, but he really felt the pain, because in the dream he was so excited that he fluttered so much that he threw himself off the bed.

Xiao Xiao has been asleep on the top bunk since Xiao Zhen just changed this bunk for them, and some time ago, when he was in a trance, he often felt that Xiao Ze slept on the lower bunk, so that he always ran to the living room in the middle of the night with the quilt......

Although he won't have that hallucination now, Xiao Xiao still doesn't want to sleep in the lower bunk, he hopes that his father can change his bed, but looking at Xu Yan, who is heartbroken every day, and Xiao Zhengang, who is busy with spinning tops every day, he didn't say anything after all......

The sound of falling from the top bunk can be a shock even on a noisy dayday, let alone in the silence of the night.

Xiao Zhengang in his sleep was awakened by this dull sound, and when he woke up, he found that the sound came from Xiao Xiao's room, and he was so frightened that he didn't even think to put on his shoes, so he hurriedly lifted the quilt and ran to Xiao Xiao's room barefoot.

When Xiao Zhengang pushed open the door and turned on the light, and found Xiao Xiao lying motionless on the ground, his heart was cold, and his legs began to tremble somehow. immediately rushed to Xiao Xiao's side, and in a panic, he was about to pick off Xiao Xiao's clothes, "Where did you fall?" Ah, is the waist twisted or broken? ”

"Dad, Dad, don't, don't talk about it, I'm fine, really, I just twisted it, it's really okay!" Xiao Xiao was rescuing his clothes while pushing out Xiao Zhengang's outstretched hand.

"Are you alright? How can I listen to such a big movement? Xiao Zhengang stopped the movements of his hand and looked at Xiao Xiao suspiciously, and his hand still insisted on holding Xiao Xiao's clothes and did not let go.

Xiao Xiao endured the pain in his waist and moved backwards with difficulty, avoiding his father's pull: "That's when I fell down, I wanted to stand up, so I pulled the chair next to me to support it, but I didn't find the right place to focus and pulled the chair down!" ”

"Really? That's good, it's okay, then, you get up and lie down first, I'll get you medicine......" Xiao Zhengang looked at Xiao Xiao's expression and breathed a sigh of relief, let go of Xiao Xiao's clothes, and instead went to help him by the arm, carefully stood him up from the ground, and was ready to help him to lie on the bed......

After Xiao Xiao stood up, he gently pulled back the arm that Xiao Zhengang was holding on, and did not move, he looked at the clean and tidy bedding on the lower bunk that was packed by Xu Yan, and he couldn't convince himself to lie down anyway, "Dad...... Otherwise, you can help me go to the living room sofa and rub the medicine! ”

Xiao Zhengang was stunned for a moment, and when he watched Xiao Xiao follow his line of sight and see the bed, in an instant, he understood.

"Tomorrow, tomorrow Dad will go and change the bed for you, why don't you spend the night on the sofa today, don't climb up, okay?" Xiao Zhengang held Xiao Xiao's arm and discussed with him.

Xiao Xiao nodded, and walked out of the bedroom with Xiao Zhengang.

This time, Xiao Zhengang didn't drag the mud and water a little, he really did what he said. got up early in the morning, first made a phone call to the unit and explained some things, and then went to the furniture market to buy a bed for Xiao Xiao.

However, the working hours of the furniture market are generally more than half past the morning before they begin to open one after another. When Xiao Zhen first passed, there were not many stores, but he didn't have so much to do, just buy a bed, and when he looked at a bed that was similar in length, width and height to the one Xiao Xiao originally slept in, he immediately bought it.

Xiao Xiao stood in the living room and supported his waist, which was still a little painful, watching his father go in and out with the two workers, inside and outside the house, moving beds and bedding rolls for him, and he couldn't tell what it felt like in his heart......

Xu Yan stayed in the room and didn't come out, tossing with their father and son. She also knew about Xiao Xiao falling out of bed last night, although Xiao Ze had just gone, the family began to move out the bed where Xiao Ze had slept in it, and she felt a little uncomfortable. But in the end, she didn't say anything, Xu Yan knew that these things would have to be cleaned up sooner or later, and no one was there, so what were you doing with those things!

"What is this, do you want more?" The two workers in the living room who helped move the bed were about to lift the bed board of the bunk bed one by one, when several diaries slipped out from under the bed board and fell to the ground one after another.

Xiao Xiao's eyes followed the place where the sound came from, and the moment he saw something on the ground, his head was stunned, he knew what it was.

Xiao Ze likes to keep a diary, and he should have thought that in the past four years, Xiao Ze could not have kept only one diary. It turns out that he put it all here.

Yes, last time, he also saw Xiao Ze squatting under the bed board and groping for a while, before he found the diary he wanted, these are all the diaries that Xiao Ze has written in the past few years......

"Don't move...... Xiao Xiao instinctively stopped the hand that was about to pick up the diary before he could react.