I have been to many places, and I also love the scenery in my travels, and even gained a lot of gains and realizations during my travels, perhaps this is the origin of my soul emblem Ice Traveler.

The icy tundra is only pure snow white, the towering snow-capped mountains are a luxury to breathe, there is a double forbidden area of life and color, and in a desperate situation where there is nothing, I have learned to exile myself.

Yes, not a grandiose statement of emptying my mind, but a self-exile of abandonment and expulsion, where I was abandoned in that snowy land where heaven and earth could not be distinguished, torturing my soul in the dreams of extreme cold and death.

“…… Why is this world so hard, we just want to live well, can't that? Why is it so hard to survive? Why do warriors who sacrifice themselves still lose their homes and loved ones, and they will be stigmatized after death? Is there really no fairy tale in reality? Do good people deserve to go to hell? Is it all my fault and my sin? If I say the wrong thing, isn't it enough to punish me with just one, why let so many good people accompany me to hell? ”

The memories of the past are repeated like a flashback, and the faces that make me feel guilty, remorseful, and longing always do not let me go, and those vicious foul words never leave my ears.

"It's all your fault, if it weren't for you, a mischievous and self-righteous traverser, how could our country have perished."

"Ominous Gemini? No, no, no, the ominous only you, the outsider who took the prince's body, and it was you, the broom star, that allowed our people to be killed. Driven into a corner. ”

"It's all your fault. Why are you the only one who survived? Why don't you go to hell and stay with us......"

The amiable countenance of the past was so ugly distorted by hatred, and the originally cordial greetings made me spend the dawn again and again in curses and curses.

"yes, why am I still alive? God, why am I left alive alone! I want to die! Let me die! ”

I don't know how I got through those nightmarish days, because there is no memory and no concept of time, looking back. Even the memories are one by one, and the only thing that can be remembered clearly is the snow white and cold.

Perhaps, I didn't get through it, I had already fallen into complete madness at that moment, and it was just the last bit of luck and chance that allowed me to walk back from the endless madness.

Perhaps, during that time, I was half crazy and half sober, when I was crazy, I was cursing the injustice of God, and when I was sober, I was cursing my own powerlessness and weakness. Reality and dreams are distorted together, and ideal thinking and crazy distortion can be fused. Perhaps, this is also the most plausible explanation for that intermittent memory.

But in the end, I survived, and my reason, which was restored in a desperate situation, told me that those who trusted were still under my banner even before they died, and how could they regret their choices and trust.

"The heart of a knight is like a city of steel, pure and intolerant of impurities, I actually doubt that they will regret following me, this is the strictest insult to them, I am really an unqualified lord, even now, I still doubt their loyalty and trust......"

Even after regaining my sanity, I still chose to live alone on the glacier, confronting myself and my heart in a peaceful life, torturing my soul and memories bit by bit, and taking stock of the past mistakes one by one in the night of the stove.

"If I could have been more mature, a little more cunning, a little more shameless, a little more cruel, maybe I wouldn't have failed......"

I used to like to be lively, but in that snow-white gradually fell in love with the colors that represented the cold, because I knew that in the face of a desperate situation, passionate emotions were as meaningless as glossy slogans, and that calm and sensitive thinking was the only way to salvation, and I longed to freeze my reason under the glacier.

"If I can, I hope to leave my anger under the snowy mountain, then, I will no longer lose control of my love because of anger, let alone make regretful pasts, madness and anger are meaningless, the impulse of a hot-blooded teenager will only bring endless pain, I spit anger, I curse madness, I desire to be a bystander in a desperate situation,"

At some point, I lost my anger, but I had two more soul fragments representing anger around my neck, and from then on, I became a traveler who traveled alone on the icy mountains and rivers, and carved that scenery into the imprint of my soul, and re-entered the realm of legends, and laid the foundation for reaching the top.

Perhaps, I really did it, to become a spectator who can appreciate the splendor of the coming of the end with the mentality of a bystander, and then make the most calm choice in a desperate situation, perhaps, I am just a crippled person who simply cut off the fragments of my soul, a madman who thinks I have calmed down.

But in any case, I don't regret it, after all, it was my past, my own choice, and my sin that should be borne forever.......

"I'll never regret ......"

The fierce light stung my eyes, and tears flowed from my eyes, but the pillow was full of tears.

"Is this dream again?"

If you look closely, the sun and the moon are hanging at the same time, and looking at the position between the double stars, it seems that it has reached the dawn hour.

"Do you often have this dream?"

The blonde elf girl sat on my pillow, the silky blonde hair had been dragging all over the bed, and there were traces of pillows on her white and tender thighs, but there was a rare concern and nervousness in the mocking and haughty tone of the past, and there was shyness and redness on her little red face.

I shook my head, threw aside the boring love, threw the liquid that represented weakness into the corner, shook my head, opened my eyes, and the next moment, Roland, who was full of vitality, youthful strength, and youthful firepower, was back!

"No, it's all things that have been forgotten, I don't know what's going on, but this week I always dream of ....... saying, who are you, how did you run in? Is it a prank to ruin my reputation? I said I'm not Lolicon, I'm a great maid! ”

Well, the little girl's face full of concern immediately turned into anger, and then she smashed her mouth with a click. Suddenly it turned into a big bird bite......

"Don't bite! Yes. This touch? You're Heloise? Hey. Aren't you a cat......"

Facts have proved that people are prone to low blood pressure when they just wake up, and it is natural that they have unclear memory, but at the critical moment, recognizing the wrong person and calling the wrong name will kill people......

"Oh oh oh, I remember, I'm sorry! Heloise. I just slept in a daze, don't bite, bleeding, bleeding, really bleeding! ”

I finally took off the pseudo-Lori on my head, and I made a bunch of promises before I coaxed it and put some medicine on my head.

“…… This is your dream of retrospection, and this is your soul urging you to condense the soul emblem. ”

And when I asked about the dream just now, Heloise made a categorical judgment.

"It seems. It was a memory of the time when the Ice Traveler's emblem was condensed. It's a pity, the death of that life must have been vigorous. Lost memories are the most. Would the Condensed Soul Emblem have such a dream? I don't seem to have such a memory before. ”

"Nonsense, you used to recreate a new emblem, to condense your life understanding in this life, and now you are the soul emblem of the past, which requires you to face your past self, even if the past is extremely sad."

"The past self, it's a sad past, and it's no wonder I've forgotten it...... Wait, how do you know it's a memory of the past, and you know it's a sad past? How dare you peek?! Did you use magic to peek into my dreams? ”

“…… Hehe, you should know that cats are very curious creatures. ”

The next moment, the blonde Lori turned into a dead cat, and there were claws scratching her face to maliciously sell cuteness, and Heloise became more and more adept at fooling people.

I squeezed a sentence out between my teeth.

"The curiosity of cats? Well, perhaps, we should start by talking about how cats die! ”――

In less than a month after entering this world, many of the warriors who came in had made breakthroughs, and these guys had often reached the bottleneck period for a long time, and after staying in this high-elemental tidal environment for a while, they naturally broke through.

But don't underestimate these breakthroughs, in the human world, the vast majority of mortals work hard all their lives, even if the famous teacher points out the resources to keep up, it is the peak of silver, otherwise the gold-level master will not be so popular.

And if all the silver peaks that are stuck here as mortal heaven passes into gold, and the precipitation of decades turns into real power, then tripling the combat power is considered to be less.

And the golden level to the legend, but it is a summary and condensation of one's own life, there is still a way to find the road to the gold, the legendary level is your hard life, just a little bit, you can't realize it is not realized.

But some people do realize it, but due to injury or old age, physical and mental exhaustion, still unable to advance, this is not an individual case, life is short, young and vigorous, young people do not know sorrow, people are often in old age, when they are seriously frustrated, they will look back on the past from the heart, will realize the advancement, but then it is too late, and the body near the end can not withstand the toss.

However, these old mercenaries and warriors, in the environment of high elemental tides, inexplicably repaired their injuries, extended their lifespan, and crossed this hurdle.

That is to say, just by settling here, these young soldiers have gained a lot, let the veterans regain their combat strength, and naturally have more confidence in our cause.

Of course, in a few decades, I am afraid that the whole world will have such benefits, but when the tide rises, the enemy will be even more difficult.

But in fact, in the midst of the joy, it was I who gained the most.

The seven-day conjuring has ended, and the huge consumption made me fall asleep at the same time, but I also forcibly raised my magic power to the legendary level, and the level of soul emblem that can be stuck in a normal person for a lifetime is not a problem from the beginning, forcing me to quickly condense the soul emblem and force me to face myself.

"It's really difficult, although entering the Legend and even the Holy Rank is also a necessary condition for completing the 'Great Plan', but I really don't want to have that dream anymore."

"Then, you can try to condense other soul emblems first. Still, it's not much better. ”

Thinking of the other things and memories that the soul emblems represented, my expression suddenly became strange, and I glared viciously at the dead cat, who didn't know whether to live or die.

"You, have you peeked at my dreams again? Otherwise, it's miserable. ”

"Hmph, do you still have to see this? Isn't your life just a cutlery? It's already full of cups (tragedy), and no matter how you look at it, you can't see a comedy. ”

"Comedy? Will there be? Dead Cat Dead Burlesque - Schrödinger's Cat, Absolutely Praised! Guess if the cat is dead or alive! (To be continued......)