Zheng Ying turned her head and looked at Mu Hongshang quietly, her eyes, which were originally very heavy, looked even more unfathomable in the night.

"Do you feel guilty?" Zheng Ying asked, "Because you didn't cry out like everyone else." ”

Mu Hongsheng was silent for a moment before replying in a low voice, "I don't know." ”

"Are you scared?" Zheng Ying's voice was calm and a little cruel: "Afraid of Zhongmin Gong is just the beginning." ”

Mu Hongsheng raised her head abruptly and glared at Zheng Ying angrily, as if he had said something unforgivable. But Zheng Ying's expression was as calm as ever, he looked at Mu Hongsheng's eyes full of anger, and asked, "What do you want, you say, as long as you say, I will try my best to do it for you." ”

Mu Hongsheng's head hung down again, and he didn't say a word. Zheng Ying sighed softly: "As long as you say it, I can really try my best to achieve your wish." ”

"I know." Mu Hongshang replied in a low voice: "But what I want is not necessarily what my father wants." ”

"You actually understand everything, don't you?" Zheng Ying replied, "So you don't have to blame yourself. As the royal family of the Great Zhou, relying on the sacrifices of generations of Mu generals to guard the periphery of our country, it is our Zheng family who owes the Mu family. Therefore, it should not be up to me to persuade you, and it should not be you who should be guilty. ”

"But I understood what you said," Mu Hongsheng finally raised her face and looked at the bright moon in the sky with Zheng Ying: "Second uncle, he ...... In a sense, it can be regarded as seeking benevolence. He would rather dedicate his last effort to the north than go back to Jing'an to recuperate, this is his choice, and he is willing to do so. It's me, my grandmother, my second uncle, and those of us who look forward to their return every day in the back house. You're right, I understand it, but I'm still afraid of ......"

"The fifth and sixth sons can not go to the battlefield for the rest of their lives." Zheng Ying said: "As long as they don't go through the imperial examination and become idle sons at home, my father will not interfere." ”

"But they won't want to." Mu Hongsheng replied in a low voice: "I know it in my heart, it's just that I don't want them to go to the battlefield again." If I could, I'd rather my brothers and sisters stay at home, I'll go to the north, and I'll go to the battlefield to guard the border for them. But I'm a woman, even if I want to help them, I'm powerless. ”

"Before the second uncle had an accident, although I knew that there was a difference between men and women, I was a girl, and I would not go to the battlefield in the future. But in fact, in my heart, I have always felt that I am no different from Jinyi, I am better than him, and sometimes, I am even a little complacent. But after the death of my second uncle, I realized that this is not the case, we are inherently different. ”

"It's not your fault." Zheng Ying said softly: "I can't choose my background, I can't choose, and so are you." But you have to learn to accept it. You are the Mu family, you are destined to watch your father and brother go to war, this is the way they will go, you should respect it, but you don't need to blame yourself for your own powerlessness. In fact, the Mu family has been sharing weal and woe together, the man's suffering is on the battlefield, and the woman's suffering is in the back house, look at your grandmother, your mother and your uncles, you should be able to understand. Everyone is boiling and consuming. ”

"That's why I look down on myself." Mu Hongshang replied in a low voice: "In the whole family, I am the least qualified to complain. ”

"Old Madam Mu is indeed a very strong person," Zheng Ying looked at the moon and said calmly, "She is also the most blessed one among Mrs. Mu. The Mu family has not had a general killed in battle for twenty years, and the last time there was a big funeral in the Anguo Mansion was when the old Guogong was killed, and you were not born at that time. So it's not that you're weak, it's that everyone else has experienced this kind of life and death, and you haven't. "123 Reading Books

"Neither does my sister-in-law." Mu Hongsheng smiled bitterly: "The eldest brother is still in the north, and she is not like me." I'm really ridiculous, my second uncle died, I can't help at all, and I'm still thinking nonsense here. It's really ......."

"You are indeed thinking nonsense and blaming yourself." Zheng Ying replied: "Your surname is Mu, and when Gong Zhongmin died, you are qualified to shed tears in a righteous and bright light." Your father and brother are still on the battlefield, and it is normal for you to be more afraid and worried because of the relationship between Zhong Min Gong, this is not weakness, but human nature. You're a girl, and you really can't share the pressure on the battlefield for An Guogong and them, but it's not your fault, after all, ......"

Zheng Ying suddenly sneered self-deprecatingly: "We, the royal family who are at ease and guard the border with the blood of the Mu clan, are the ones who should really bear the blame. If you want to blame anyone, then you might as well blame me, blame me, a waste prince who eats the king but can't afford to protect the land. ”

Mu Hongsheng raised her eyes and looked at Zheng Ying's face, as if she was a little surprised that he actually said such a thing.

"I'm not comforting you," Zheng Ying directly turned her face away from Mu Hongsheng's bright gaze: "It's all the truth, I don't dare to admit it." ”

Somehow, Mu Hongshang suddenly remembered what her grandmother had said to her before. Grandmother said that she hoped that the emperor could be more at ease with the Mu family, so that when dealing with court affairs and making trade-offs, the emperor could be more considerate of the Mu family's situation and difficulties, and could more unreservedly support An Guogong in matters involving the north.

"Lord Wang," Mu Hongsheng said, "Second Uncle refused to return to Beijing in the end, not for himself, nor for the Mu Clan's military flag not to fall, you know, right?" Our Mu clan really has no other wishes, only to pacify Rongdi and let the northern border pass be eternal Chang'an. ”

Zheng Ying was silent for a moment, then nodded and responded, "I understand." ”

He replied not that he knew, but that he understood. This made Mu Hongsheng slightly stunned, and then reacted, Zheng Ying should do something important to her.

"Thank you." Mu Hongshang turned her head to look at the moon and thanked Zheng Ying softly.

Everything was hidden in these two short words, which made Zheng Ying can't help but shake her head: "You trust me like this?" ”

"Hmm." Mu Hongsheng nodded, and answered decisively and simply.

"You ......" Zheng Ying sighed and shook her head: "It's really untaught." I've told you how many times. Forget it, just to be worthy of your trust! In fact, his father is suspicious, because he is by nature, it is the same for the Mu family, for others, or for us princes. But since I have answered you, I will do my best. ”

"Lord Wang, what about you?" Mu Hongshang turned her head to look at Zheng Ying, her big bright eyes seemed to have a broken star in her mouth: "You know what I said is true, right?" Although the Mu family is in charge of the military talisman, they have no ambitions, and the Mu family only wants to guard the northern border passes. ”