In the mirror, the outfit is a bit funny, a woman in her forties, actually wearing a pair of children's animal-shaped slippers.

When she entered the door first, Butterfly noticed that Bi Lin was staring at her feet for a long time. At that time, Butterfly didn't realize that there was a problem with his shoes, and at this moment, Butterfly thought: he must think it is funny, how to wear such shoes.

Butterfly secretly relieved: There are many funny things in life. Some aunts and uncles in the vegetable market will also wear their children's school uniforms to go shopping. So, hehe-

The butterfly walked out of the bedroom like this.

Bi Lin was looking at the spider plants in the kitchen, and when he heard a sound behind him, he knew that the butterflies had come out, so he turned around and said: This spider plant is so beautiful.

The butterfly looked at it and said, "Oh, there are a lot of flowers downstairs, I looked at it last spring, so I planted a few, and after planting, it actually grew gratifyingly."

Bi Lin said: In the past, there was a chef in Huawu Tingting, and he planted flowers very well.

Butterfly didn't dare to mention more of Wood Apple, for fear that he would be sad, and didn't want him to mention it himself, so he said: Oh, I know that person, I have seen the herbs he planted, and I once talked to him a few words. Do you still remember there?

Bi Lin felt a little stunned, and said: Of course I remember, how can I forget something? Life there is actually very happy. I enjoyed working there, the valley was beautiful and everyone got along very well.

Butterfly said: I don't know what happened to that clubhouse now?

As she spoke, she thought to herself, what should she do in the morning?

Bi Lin looked at the busy figure of the butterfly, and his voice was a little uneasy, and said: I also want to know.

Butterfly noticed the change in his tone, and felt that it was necessary to divert the topic, don't open which pot to mention, when it comes to Huawu Ting, he will naturally associate Chongju, isn't this touching the scene?

Why did you talk about the spider plant to the Huawu apple?

Butterfly said: Didn't you hear before that you were taking the civil service exam?

Bi Lin said: Well, yes. My sister also knows about this?

Butterfly smiled and said, "Hehe, I heard it from your aunt's mouth."

Bi Lin said: Father must have told her. That's right, I'm going to take the civil service exam.

Butterfly endured it, but the doubt in her heart was still not suppressed, and said: I don't know much about this, and no one around me is taking this test, so I don't know about the civil service exam.

The butterfly glanced at him, intentionally or unintentionally.

Bi Lin leaned on the door frame of the kitchen, but he was quite determined, and said lightly: Not yet.

Butterfly was surprised, this is not a critical moment to review and take the exam, how can there be time to run away from the demons?

Although Butterfly doesn't know much about civil servants, she has never taken the exam, but she knows that it is on par with the college entrance examination, and the competition is fierce. So, how could it be so leisurely, suddenly ran in front of him, and ran in front of himself so easily and casually?

While cleaning up the dishes, Butterfly asked side-by-side: Oh, in this way, I thought you had finished the exam, so it was easy. Listening to Gao Ruohan, you are quite hardworking, I am really happy for you. There must always be a goal in life, no matter whether this goal is noble or ordinary, it is easy to lose yourself without a goal. Especially young people like you.

The butterfly also deliberately accentuated the words "young young man" at the end.

Bi Lin said: I know.

Butterfly waited, but he didn't have a follow-up, so he had to continue: So you are preparing to take the exam here?

Bi Lin pondered for a while and said: Actually, I don't want to take the test.

The butterfly was stunned for a moment and said, "What's wrong?" What's happening again?

Bi Lin shook his head and said: Nothing happened, I feel like my heart is very messy-

Butterfly knew that Bi Lin in front of him was in a state of confusion in life, completely confused.

For a man in his twenties, his understanding of the world is not enough, and he stays in his weak and narrow concept of life.

When encountering problems, I will only use the experience I have accumulated in the past, which usually comes from school and family. But once reality goes beyond the scope of these two, he will inevitably fall into a situation where he is overwhelmed.

He originally felt that life was beautiful and splendid, but from the moment he came to the magic capital alone, he felt that he was beginning to face a new world, at the end of the originally gray and monotonous world, suddenly another door opened, leading to an unknown but hopeful new world.

And this new world has added a touch of brilliance because of the appearance of Chongju, and even once made him feel that the world is very beautiful and life is perfect. He had a very good time. Chong Jue gave him a strong love and affection, and let him realize what full humanity is, and the two were addicted to it for a while, and they couldn't extricate themselves.

But this happy reality soon came to an abrupt end. Suddenly, like a shattered dream, I really found that I was just intoxicated in the dream, and when I woke up, I found that I was still in the world before.

In an instant, I found that I had no love, no job, no hope, and no all my passion, and even began to doubt my whole life and doubt the value of my existence.

Originally, when he left the university, he was full of expectations and enthusiasm,

It made him feel like he had stumbled into a completely weightless enclosed space. You stretch out your limbs and feel like you're floating in the void, unable to exert yourself because there is no point of support for force.

The surroundings are confused, chaotic and empty, as if you yourself are a product of nothingness, nothingness to the extreme, and inner disappointment and despair to the extreme.

He also tried to take some stress measures, anyone would do this, they would take self-help behavior, but they found that there was nothing they could do, and the more they struggled, the more you felt like you were in a deep position.

But now he realized that he couldn't handle it at all. This was completely beyond all of his capabilities. His personal understanding of reality, or his personal paradox of anticipating life and reality, made him feel like the fear, hesitation and cowardice of his childhood when he was faced with mistakes for the first time.

But the problem at hand is more complex and difficult. He can escape all the harsh criticism and scolding from the outside world, but he can't escape the loss and helplessness in his heart.

This is a thorny problem that all his previous years of school life and poor social experience combined cannot handle. Because the question touches on his own humanity.

He found that not only could he not handle it, but his mother and father, almost everyone couldn't handle it, and there was no way to help him.

They coldly pushed him to the moment of this life test of choice, calmly and objectively told him: this problem, you have to deal with it yourself, you must deal with it!

Yes, everyone will go through such a process of transformation in the process of growing up, which can be said to be a bit cruel, and fate throws you to a crossroads of choices in your unconscious state.

This choice is usually passive. This is also a full embodiment of the impermanence of fate, which never warns you in advance, nor does it prepare you, it is completely unpredictable, and suddenly you find yourself left behind in the moment of choice. The chosen path is also full of obstacles and uncertainties.

Like a fawn, Bi Lin tried to jump up and break free, but after jumping a few times, he found that he still fell heavily in place. He began to be disappointed and gloomy, and fell back into deep despair. This is Bi Lin's confusion at the moment.

His instinct was to let himself forget all about it and start over. In fact, this is a natural approach for everyone who encounters setbacks.

So sometimes don't blame others for not trying hard in the face of difficult situations, in fact, they have tried, but in the end they have failed again. Ten attempts, nine failures, and probably a lot of people let go of that last one completely.

You must know that not everyone will be indomitable, and many people finally choose to compromise, that is, the choice he can see the most, and live a random life. And admittedly, it's okay to be alive.

He was already afraid of facing defeat again.