Countless nights of endorsing and brushing questions until two or three o'clock in the morning are pictures that Hao Ze never thought would happen to him before he met Ye Jiajia.

He is very tired from daily training, very tired from listening to books in class, and when he comes home, he either chooses to sleep or play games on the computer for a while.

Looking back now, he couldn't believe that he had changed like a radical change.

He still remembers that it was very difficult at first, he had to force himself to change his habits for many years, and he had to keep holding up his eyelids when sleepiness hit. In front of him are incomprehensible alphabet symbols, he has to start from the most basic review, and spend one year to complete the process of others laying the foundation for three years to applying flexibly. Many times he wanted to give up, but found that on the same night, there was someone studying with him, and he changed his routine specifically for him.

A chance encounter in the rivers and lakes, a casual invitation, and the willow branches that were unintentionally inserted really became shady.

With someone to accompany you, no matter how hard the days are, they don't seem to be so bitter.

"Still can't you understand? Need I say it again? Ye Jiajia waited for almost half an hour without waiting for Hao Ze's reply, thinking that he had encountered a difficult problem and drilled the tip of the horns, "Don't think about it yourself, jump out if you get stuck." ”

Where is Haozer pondering and solving the problem, it is clearly enjoying in the memory, recalling the year in front of him: "Jiajia, don't you think these pictures are familiar?" I seem to have regained the feeling I used to have. ”

Separated by the screen, separated by two places, they have never seen each other, or even touched each other, but they fell in love between getting along day and night.

"Hey, hey, hey! I'm talking to you about the tax law, you're in a fugue here! Ye Jiajia sent out a complaint, in fact, she herself was the same, "Will you do it!" No, I can still be again! ”

When Hao Ze saw the first sentence, he really thought she was angry again, but when he saw the one following behind, he knew that her memories were synchronized with himself: "You still say that me, aren't you the same, and you haven't even changed what you asked me." ”

It's like again, again, again.

Afraid that what she said was too jumpy, afraid that her thinking was not basic enough, afraid that he had not learned the methods she used, and afraid that she would force him to a more flexible level, she always left him ten minutes to understand after answering, and then asked if he needed to do it again.

Haozer really couldn't keep up at first, but he was too embarrassed to trouble her, so he forced himself to get by. After a long time, it was found that he didn't understand many things at all, so Ye Jiajia would automatically repeat, if he encountered a problem that could be solved in a variety of ways, he would list them all for him, say them one by one, split the process into each step, and explain the operation process of addition, subtraction, multiplication and division. Gradually, Haoze's foundation was filled, and he only needed Ye Jiajia to help him disassemble the complex problems into N small problems, and then he could do it himself, and he no longer needed her repetition, but she would still ask.

Again is like a love password exclusive to them, and the correct way to open it is after entering.

"It's different, we used to read different books, but now we study the same major." Compared with a science student who graduated for a long time a year or two ago to talk about liberal arts students, now there are overlapping parts of the same major, Ye Jiajia will be more comfortable talking, "If I hadn't made faster progress than you, I would have been able to take two more tax law classes this semester." ”

Anyway, the textbooks used are the same, saving a lot of time to listen to online classes, but the schedule is not coincidental, she has to take the exam, and the course over there has just started.

"It means that we are closer." Ozer followed her footsteps, trying to catch up unrealistically, but he could do it if he maintained a consistent direction.

Distance, not because of the region, but because of the emotion of closeness.

She shares a love with him, so she can give him the greatest support and encouragement on the way to chasing his dreams;

He has the same profession as her, so he can better understand her pain and embarrassment caught between ideals and reality.

It's really hard to jump from one to the other.

"How do you remember so many things? I started yawning when I read two pages. With hundreds of pages of textbooks, Haozer feels that holding such a book in his hand is a fight with moving bricks, and it is no problem to use it as a murder weapon to smash people unconscious, "So many taxes, so many rates, so many laws." ”

How to remember? Ye Jiajia summed it up in only two words - hard memorization.

"I'll tell you the truth, for a long time, I wanted to cry when I saw the word 'accounting', and I couldn't wait to tear them ......up when I saw a book of professional courses" Speaking of the unknown heart, Ye Jiajia's eyes turned red, "I don't want to read, I don't want to learn, I don't want to take the exam...... I feel that the more I look at these, the more depressed I become, full of rules, full of requirements, and so many rules and regulations that are suffocating. ”

"But there was no way, I didn't dare, I didn't dare to break free from the environment that appeared, it was dark in front of me, and I couldn't find my direction."

"I can only go one way to the dark, even if this road will not bring me any fun, I still have to go hard."

"When you can't memorize it, you memorize it repeatedly, and if you can't memorize it, you copy it several times...... Can you imagine me crying while calculating the consolidated statements? ”

The consolidated statement is the content of high wealth, Ye Jiajia thought that Haozer couldn't understand it, so he changed his words.

"I'm crying when I count the difficult questions, it's not that I'm crying because of the difficult questions, but I just cry when I see the question uncontrollably."

It feels like an inexplicable conditioned reflex, inexplicably uncomfortable, the brain is saying that you want to revise, you want to take exams, but the heart is saying that you don't want to, you don't want to.

This night, Ye Jiajia opened her heart and said a lot of sources of helplessness, and she showed her real vulnerable side in front of Haozer's eyes without reservation, so that he could feel that she was not as strong as she appeared.

It was he who felt it from getting to know her better, not from the mouths of some other person.

Ozer wasn't by her side, he couldn't give her real comfort, he couldn't hug her and make her cry.

He knew that she must be crying again now, she must have wept silently, letting her tears soak the pillow towel, and finally greeted the next dawn with despair.

"Do you remember the school you wanted to go to?" Ozer takes her back to the beginning of her dream.

Ye Jiajia remembered that she never forgot: "Communication University." ”

The score is enough, the conditions are enough, as long as she reports, she can go.

But she didn't, she couldn't, and Mother Ye's veto attitude made her miss her dream.

Returning to Ye's mother's question, it seems that this is the source of Ye Jiajia's various pain and helplessness.