After the excitement of the Shangyuan Festival, it is February in a blink of an eye.

On this day, Su kindly came back from outside to collect the accounts, and as soon as he entered the door of the Chu Waist Pavilion, he felt that everyone's expressions were different.

Before she could ask, Nephrite raised her chin at her and said, "Aunt Yin'er is upstairs!" ”

Su Haoyi hurriedly went upstairs, and when she saw Aunt Yin'er packing her things, she hurriedly asked, "Mother, what are you doing?" ”

Aunt Yin'er raised her hand and straightened the jade bone hairpin on her hair bun, and said calmly: "I have something to do, and I want to leave Beijing for a few months." I have instructed everyone else, you are in charge of the housekeeper this time, and if you have something bad to cook, you can ask Nephrite or your Aunt Liu. ”

Su Haoyi couldn't react for a while, and asked, "Mother, why are you leaving?" Where to go? ”

Seeing that she was worried, Aunt Yin'er stretched out her hand and pulled her to sit down, rubbed her hair and said, "Look, it's not a difficult thing to scare you." But no one else can do this for me, I have to do it myself. ”

"I don't believe it, why do you suddenly want to leave Beijing? If it's inconvenient for my mother to say, I won't ask, but I have to follow you, so that I don't worry every day. Su Haoyi was stubborn and easily refused to waver.

"I knew that if I didn't make it clear to you, you wouldn't let me go." Aunt Yin'er shook her head and smiled: "It's okay, it's nothing to tell you, anyway, it's all old things like old sesame seeds." ”

Regarding Aunt Yin'er's background, she never mentioned it, and Su Haoyi never asked.

Although Miao Ya had mentioned that Aunt Yin'er had voluntarily entered the Qinglou when she sent her to the Chu Waist Pavilion, only Aunt Yin'er herself knew why she came to the land of fireworks voluntarily.

"I think I was also the daughter of a good family back then, although I was not a rich family, but I was also innocent. My mother died when I was less than three years old, and my father did not remarry. First, he was afraid that he didn't know the other party's temperament and temperament to marry into the door and cause disputes, and secondly, he studied hard and wanted to gain fame. Aunt Yin'er's tone was slow, as if she was telling a story that had nothing to do with herself: "It's just that he was just a show talent when he was forty years old, and he finally won the exam that year." The whole tribe was glorified, for the last time they were raised was fifty years ago. ”

Su Haoyi listened quietly, vaguely feeling that Aunt Yin'er's departure from Beijing had something to do with her father.

"But before the joy passed, there was a fraud case in the field. My father didn't cheat, but he was implicated. The identity of the person was invalidated, and he was ordered to not play again for life. Aunt Yin'er let out a long sigh when she said this, and some things still linger even if they have passed for a long time: "My father is an upright character, and he feels that he is really wronged. I appealed one level at a time, wanting to seek justice for myself.

But you also know that lawsuits have always been wrong, such a big case implicates hundreds of people, how can he be given an exception?

He insisted on going his own way, and even went to the capital to sue the emperor, which angered the people in power, arrested him, and sent him to prison. He only has one child, me, and if I don't find a way to save him, he's going to die in prison. When I came to the capital, I had no relatives and couldn't move an inch.

At that time, the most popular brothel in the capital was called Peach Blossom Pavilion, where the old bustard's hands and eyes were all over the sky. I was hungry for three days and penniless. In addition to a body of flesh and skin, there is no capital. My parents are suffering from my body, and now my father is in trouble, where can I still take care of my shame.

I went to Mother Xue, the old bustard in the Peach Blossom Pavilion, and said that as long as she could save my father, I would voluntarily sell myself to her.

At that time, the most popular girl in her place had just redeemed herself, and when she saw that I looked good, she wanted to cultivate me, so she agreed. ”

"Did you really release the people later?" Su asked kindly.

"Yes, it was released in less than half a month." Aunt Yin'er nodded, with a relieved and sour look on her face: "Mother Xue is good at what she said, and she didn't lie to me." But my father knew that I had been in the fireworks, and he was so angry that he fell seriously ill, saying that he would rather die in prison than embarrass my ancestors. From then on, he refused to see me, not even to recognize me as his daughter. He is a scholar and attaches great importance to face, so I let him return to his hometown without shame, so he lived in Chenjiazhuang, which is more than 100 miles away from the capital. ”

"And he...... Is Grandpa still alive? "Su Haoyi never knew that Aunt Yin'er's father lived in the suburbs of Beijing.

"For so many years, I have entrusted a distant cousin to take care of him, he has been tortured in prison, he has old wounds on his body, he has a cough in winter, and he is out of breath at night, and he has to sit to fall asleep." Aunt Yin'er said: "But my cousin is very dedicated, and he has taken good care of him for more than 20 years." I didn't dare to give too much money to my cousin for fear that my father would find out. I know his temper, and if he knew that he had spent my money, he would probably have to die in one fell swoop. He hates me, and he hates himself even more. He told my cousin that he didn't see me because he hated me and felt sorry for me.

He was in very poor health last winter, but because he had survived the winter solstice, I thought he would be fine. In previous years, he was very sick around the winter solstice, and he got better as soon as he arrived in the beginning of spring.

Who would have thought that as soon as you went out this morning, my cousin brought a letter, saying that he didn't come up last night and left. He had a feeling a few days ago, and told his cousin in advance that if he was gone, he must send him back to his hometown in Chuzhou. It is better to return to the roots than to bury your bones elsewhere. ”

Although Aunt Yin'er didn't cry, Su Haoyi felt extremely sad.

It is said that people cry when they are sad, but there is a kind of sadness that has no tears to flow.

For so many years, Aunt Yin'er swallowed the bitterness and pain alone, and always had a smiling face in front of people.

Su Haoyi gently hugged Aunt Yin'er and said, "You want to take Grandpa's coffin back to Chuzhou?" And to give him a wake? ”

"Yes, I haven't been filial to him for so many years. Now that I'm taking care of his funeral, he can't interfere. It took three or four months of hard work before and after, and I haven't left the Chu Waist Pavilion for so many years, and this time I can count myself as going out to relax for a while," Aunt Yin'er blinked lightly, patted Su Kindly's shoulder and said, "Don't worry about me, I have long looked down on those things." He's also dead, and I have nothing to be sad about. Before I entered the Peach Blossom Pavilion, Mother Xue told me not to do it if I regret it, and don't regret it if I do it.

In life, there are always all kinds of last resorts, but all decisions are made by yourself in the end. If you really don't want to, someone will force you, and it's a big deal to die. On the other hand, if you choose which path you choose, once you set foot on it, even if it is a mountain of swords and a sea of fire, you should finish it with a smile. Heaven is a human being, and the body can't help itself, so you can only enjoy yourself in suffering. ”