"Ning Ning, how about this height? Is it appropriate? ”

Shaking the hospital bed to a certain height, Li Shuning's mother raised her head and asked.

"yes, that's fine." Li Shuning nodded lightly, although she felt that her body was so uncomfortable that she felt that life was worse than death, but she endured this unimaginable pain and pretended to be no different from usual.

"Ning Ning, are you hungry? Do you want me to buy you something to eat? Li Shuning's mother looked at her daughter on the hospital bed, endured the grief in her heart, and tried not to let her tears fall.

"No, Mom, I'm not hungry." Li Shuning shook her head, and then suddenly remembered something.

"By the way, Mom, what about the things I put in the original ward?"

"Here, all here." Li Shuning's mother lifted a handbag in the place, and all the things in it were in the original ward.

"Are notebooks and pens in there?" Li Shuning asked.

"Well, it's all there." Li Shuning's mother nodded, took out a notebook and a pen from her handbag, and gently put these two things in Li Shuning's hands.

Flipping through the notebook, Li Shuning looked at the half-written tune, pulled out the cap of the pen, and endured the dizziness in his head, intending to finish the tune.

Seeing this, Li Shuning's mother hurriedly dissuaded her, and said with worry: "Ningning, your current situation has only stabilized temporarily, and the doctor told you to rest more." ”

Li Shuning smiled palely: "It's okay, Mom, I'm almost rested, you just let me be willful again, I want to finish writing this song." ”

Li Shuning's mother didn't say anything more, she knew that her daughter insisted on finishing this song because she wanted to leave no regrets.

Thinking of this, Li Shuning's mother was overwhelmed with grief and left tears of sadness.

Hurriedly wiped away her tears, Li Shuning's mother sat quietly next to her and did not speak, so as not to disturb her daughter's creation.

However, perhaps because she felt that her body was too painful, or perhaps because of her complicated feelings, Li Shuning was uninspired and scribbled in her notebook for a while, but she couldn't write anything.

In this case, Li Shuning's mood became more and more irritable, so she simply stopped writing and stopped writing.

Seeing that her daughter had stopped writing, Li Shuning's mother immediately said, "How is the writing?" You can definitely write the best song, and when you get well, your mother and father will go with you to the provincial finals of the piano competition, and you have to get better quickly......"

Li Shuning turned her head and looked at her mother, I don't know why, she felt that her mother seemed to be much older, the wrinkles on her face had become more, and she even saw her mother's white hair.

Without thinking about it, Li Shuning knew that her mother would become like this because of herself.

Li Shuning smiled, but there was a little desolation in her pale smile.

Even if you write a song, what is the use if you can't play it on stage? I can't continue to trouble my parents, so let's forget it......

With this in mind, Li Shuning closed the notebook, and then put the pen and notebook on the bedside table.

"Ning Ning?" Li Shuning's mother looked at this scene with some surprise.

"Mom, thank you...... Already, though

That's enough...... I gave up ......"

Hearing her daughter's answer, Li Shuning's mother suddenly widened her eyes in shock, her pupils contracted suddenly, and she shook her head desperately, with some horror in her eyes.

"Ning Ning, isn't your wish to play your own music in the final? You can't just give up...... You need to get better quickly...... Wait until you're all right...... I...... We went to the finals as a family......"

As she spoke, Li Shuning's mother couldn't cry anymore, tears rained down, and she cried very sadly.

Li Shuning turned her head and looked at her mother silently, struggling in her heart.

I've caused too much trouble for my mom and dad...... So, that's it...... Rest in peace for the rest of the day......

But is it really good to just give up? I'm really unwilling, I've come this far, I'm almost there, I'm almost there......

I am so unwilling...... Really unwilling...... Can anyone help me? No matter who it is...... I want to fulfill my last wish......

At the same time, in the corridors.

Looking at Li Shuning's name written on the door of the ward, listening to the sobbing sound of a woman coming from the ward, Duan Zilian's pupils shrank, and he stood silent for a while before raising his hand and knocking on the door.

Knock knock knock......

"I'll go open the door." Hearing the knock on the door, Li Shuning's mother hurriedly wiped away the tears on her face, adjusted her emotions, and got up to open the door.

When she opened the door and saw Duan Zilian standing outside the door, Li Shuning's mother was surprised.

"Auntie, can I go in and have a look?" Duan Zilian asked.

"Well, you can have a good chat with Ning Ning, I just went out to buy lunch for Ning Ning." Li Shuning's mother nodded and walked out, wanting to go outside to adjust her emotions, and by the way, see if Duan Zilian could comfort Li Shuning.

Entering the ward, Duan Zilian looked at Li Shuning who was lying on the hospital bed.

"How did you know I was here?" Seeing Duan Zilian, Li Shuning was also a little surprised.

"I came to the hospital to see my mother, and when I saw that you were no longer in the original ward, I asked the nurse and knew that you were here."

Answering Li Shuning's question simply, Duan Zi paused for a moment and asked in a low voice, "Didn't you say that your illness is not serious?" So what's going on now? ”

Li Shuning was stunned for a moment, and replied in a little panic: "This, it's really not serious, it's okay, I will stay in this intensive care unit for a few days, and then I can be transferred back to the ordinary ward." ”

Duan Zilian looked at Li Shuning: "Do you still want to lie to me?" I've heard it all, and when I came up, I heard the conversation between your father and the doctor. ”

Hearing this, Li Shuning was stunned again, and then smiled awkwardly: "You know everything?" I'm sorry I didn't tell you the truth, I didn't want you to worry. ”

With a sigh, Duan Zilian sat down on the edge of Li Shuning's bed: "How are you feeling now?" ”

"It feels the same as usual." Li Shuning pretended to smile lightly.

"Tell the truth." Duan Zilian looked directly into Li Shuning's eyes.

Slowly putting away the smile on her face, Li Shuning gradually showed a painful expression: "Okay, I'm very uncomfortable now, dizzy, extremely weak, and I can't even raise my hand, even."

I felt a dull pain in the bones all over my body. It was so painful that I wanted to die now. ”

"It's hard to endure this pain and force a smile, right?" Looking at Li Shuning's painful appearance, Duan Zilian's heart was very uncomfortable.

"Ah, it's very hard, but I can't help it, so as not to worry my parents and people who come to see me in the hospital...... So, my smile on weekdays is just an illusion I made, and I'm not as optimistic and strong as you think......"

"......" Duan Zilian didn't know how to comfort Li Shuning, and couldn't help but feel sympathy and pity.

Li Shuning looked at Duan Zilian and smiled self-deprecatingly: "Yes, it's the kind of look you have now, when my classmates and friends came to see me in the hospital before, it was this kind of look, to be honest, I hate this kind of look very much, I know I'm pitiful, but I really don't need the sympathy of others, this sympathetic look will only make me more sad." ”

"I'm sorry......" Duan Zilian hurriedly lowered his head.

Ignoring Duan Zilian's apology, Li Shuning continued: "Anyway...... That's it, I don't have much time left, so, I give up. ”

"Give up?" Duan Zi was stunned for a moment.

Li Shuning said lightly: "My last wish is to play my own music in the finals, and I want to leave something that can prove that I once existed in this world." However, we are only halfway through the song...... Besides, even if I finish writing the song, what can I do? I don't think I'll even be able to get out of this hospital, let alone make it to the finals, so I gave up and decided to die quietly. ”

After a pause, Li Shuning looked at Duan Zilian again, and her eyes became complicated: "To be honest, Duan Zilian, I really envy you, even jealous of you." You have an even better piano talent than me because you have an alien sleeping in your body, do you know how much effort I have put into getting to where I am now? ”

"......" Duan Zilian was silent, not knowing what to say.

Raising her head and looking at the ceiling, Li Shuning muttered to herself in pain: "Sometimes, I wonder why God is so unfair and makes me sick?" My classmates and friends, they can all live happily, but why should I lie in a hospital bed and endure the pain like I am now? ”

"I'm really scared, every day I wake up and I know that I'm missing another day, and every day I'm counting how many days I have left, and you know what it's like to die step by step?"

"Superb piano talent, can run freely in the sun, Duan Zilian, you have everything I want, so, I hate you, really, I hate you, sometimes, I even want to switch the identities of the two of us, so that you can also know my pain and feelings now."

"I'm not joking, I'm not talking nonsense, these are the truest thoughts in my heart."

Speaking of the last sentence, Li Shuning stared at Duan Zilian very seriously, a layer of water appeared in her eyes, and then, tears slid down her cheeks.

"......" Duan Zi bowed his head silently.

It is estimated that no one would have thought that although Li Shuning usually behaves lively and optimistic, in her heart, she will also complain about the injustice of fate, and she will also be jealous of other people, and even have such dark thoughts.