Chapter 35: Jiajia's Explanation
What's wrong with Ozer today?
Ye Jiajia faintly felt that because of these inadvertent encounters with Li Ruike, Haoze's confidence was affected, and there was no reason to worry, so she had to worry about it. When she needed to be embraced, he gave her the thickest and firmest support, and spoke words full of confidence, but when she temporarily stepped out of her heart knot, Haozer became a victim of gains and losses.
In the past two years of acquaintance, they have hardly quarreled, no one has ever made trouble with anyone, and in the eyes of outsiders, the relationship between these two people can be said to be so sweet that they lose their teeth, and they are so happy that they want to fall in love. However, as the days passed, the contact became deeper and deeper, and they intervened more and more in each other's lives, after all, they still couldn't avoid some problems, some problems that they didn't want to have but seemed to inevitably appear.
"I always feel that I can't untie the knot in your heart."
Hao Ze couldn't fully understand the willingness and meaning of the existence of that knot, he just knew that it was a heart knot related to Li Ruike, which had plagued Ye Jiajia's heart for many years, so that she had never been able to let go, and sometimes she might have ignored it herself, but it didn't mean that it didn't exist.
Having said that, Ye Jiajia is a big-hearted, straightforward character, and she has a good relationship with many boys, but those people have never caused Hao Ze to be so strongly uneasy.
He didn't worry about her friends who called her brother in the game, because he knew that the process of her relationship with them was really just the righteousness of the children of the rivers and lakes;
He didn't worry about the chatty classmates in her life, because she had told him very clearly that if there was someone who could make her heart move, she would have acted back then, and since she didn't like it back then, she wouldn't like it now;
He wasn't even worried about the various blind dates that Mother Ye introduced to her, because he knew how much she resisted blind dates, no matter how good the other party was, her impression of that person would be greatly discounted because of this kind of too direct and even a bit transactional meeting.
is such a person who understands her, but he is extremely worried about Li Ruike's existence, obviously he has heard her talk about their past, but the more he seems to understand it, the more he can't see it.
It was originally a puzzle that belonged to the young Ye Jiajia, and it seemed that Hao Ze was trapped in it after many years.
"Alas......" Ye Jiajia was really helpless, she didn't know what to say to make Haoze stop worrying about everything about Li Ruike, "You really think too much, why does he have such a great ability......
She thought about it for a while, and suddenly felt that this question, she had given Hao Ze a clear answer straightforwardly from the beginning, and it might be better.
"I admit that I did invest a lot in my first relationship, and I put in all the energy I put into my studies and probably distracted some of the energy I spent on my studies, and I also invested most of my financial resources when I didn't have much living expenses at the time. But don't forget, no matter how much I put into it, that so-called relationship was nothing more than wishful thinking, and I never got any response......"
"One-sided giving, it's really tiring, intentional or unintentional damage will only be more, the shadow brought to me will always linger, no matter how hard I try to say goodbye to that fruitless relationship, no matter how much effort I try to escape, want to get rid of ...... I really can't do it. ”
She once again uncovered the scars that had been rubbed over and over again, just so that there would not be more inexplicable people between the two of them. She regretted that she shouldn't have let him know about her past in the first place.
It's good to be open, but it's counterproductive to know too much.
"Because the shadow is always there, I mind, especially if it's just a name, but I can tell you with absolute certainty that I won't have any chance of him."
Loved, hurt, when the depth of painful memories has long surpassed the heat and intensity of love, the fire ignited by love will only turn that love into ashes.
Ye Jiajia said sincerely, seriously, so serious that when she said every word, she was looking into Haoze's eyes. There is no flame of love in her eyes, no ripples of sorrow, but there are traces of indelible sorrow.
"Really?" Ozer's heart began to try to resettle.
"Really." Ye Jiajia really didn't want to explain anything more.
"But just now when I saw you walking out side by side, I felt that you were much more suitable for him than me and you......
Maybe it's because the difference in height is not so big, maybe it's because the temperament of the two people is somewhat similar, maybe it's because there is a bit of depression in the eyes of the two people, so when he saw it at first glance, he only felt that the two people had one aura, and the picture was very harmonious and right.
Is it appropriate? Why Ye Jiajia never felt it.
"You're saying he's a lot shorter than you, so it's easier for me to stand with him? Don't you have to tilt your neck like you do now? She deliberately began to break the eerie atmosphere of being with a third person, "Or does his figure make me slimmer?" ”
"Hmm...... This one...... That ......" Hao Ze really wanted to answer one, two, three, stupidly, "just temperament, aura ......"
"Temperament? Does he have it? Aura? Is he worthy? How come I never saw these two things in him? The four consecutive questions completely showed Ye Jiajia's disgust, and these words can guarantee that they are her true words.
"Then why did you ...... back in the first place?"
"Because I'm blind."
Before Haozer's question could be spoken, Ye Jiajia's answer blurted out.
After all, she can't remember how many people have asked her the same question, and at first she would look for all kinds of reasons, but after reflection, she finally came up with the best answer.
"How do you feel like he's in your eyes...... Good for nothing? Hao Ze was stunned by her answer, "Does that mean that if we break up one day in the future, I will be reduced to this in your eyes?" ”
"Ahh Hearing the words that they would break up in case they would break up, Ye Jiajia's reaction was quite big, and her face was dull and melancholy just now, and now she was almost anxious, "Can you be the same as him?" Can you be like me and him? I'm a completely different thing with you and between me and him, okay? You're so angry that you compare yourself to him again! You said you were fat four today! Where do so many strange ideas pop up, always thinking about things that are not there! ”
Ye Jiajia is splitting his head and covering his face, and he has "taught" Haoze!
She probably forgot that the two of them were still on campus!
It's still class time!
Damn, where did this sassy girlfriend come from?