Holding the key, I hesitated for a long time, and finally decided to open the door, inserted the key into the keyhole, turned the back door with my hand, made a "pop" sound, and opened.

The room was not as dirty as expected. The ground inside is very clean, it seems that someone often wipes it, and the shoe rack next to it is also neatly placed with some shoes that may be Cheng Luoyi.

Inside there is a small living room with a table and a sofa in the middle. The sofa has been covered, and the things on the table seem to have not touched since the owner left here.

Dr. Li followed, looked at the furnishings inside, and said, "We haven't touched these things, but my wife sometimes comes over to help clean them."

Fu Qiming didn't listen to the doctor much, and walked straight to the bedroom door, which had no key. He reached out and opened it with his hand, and saw that there were some messy medicine bottles on a desk in the room, as well as some cardboard boxes of medicine and some checklists.

In addition to these, there are also some quilts and some messy books, among which there is a small cabinet next to the bed, where five diaries are placed, and the cabinet has no cabinet door, so everything inside can be seen.

Fu Qi meditated on Wang Shi's words, walked over and stretched out his hand to take out a copy, opened it and read some of it, it was indeed a diary.

He forgot that there was still Dr. Li outside, and sat on the edge of Cheng Luoyi's bed with a diary and looked at it, looking a little distracted.

At this time, Dr. Li suddenly came in and asked, "You are Fu Qiming!"

When Fu Qiming heard this, he hurriedly put things away. Looking up at him, wanting to ask something, the doctor smiled: "Are you curious about how I know, in the past, Cheng Luoyi and another person named Wang Shi, the two of them often mentioned you, and in the last time, he also said that he wanted to see you, which shows that you have a lot of weight in his heart, but it's a pity - ah!" Hey, the people are still gone, you take your time first, I have to go downstairs to buy some food. ”

As he spoke, Dr. Li sighed and turned around and left here, Fu Qiming heard Dr. Li's words and wanted to know what had happened to Cheng Luoyi for so many years, so he began to look at Cheng Luoyi's diary, hoping to find out something.

From the first diary, until he saw the last page, Fu Qiming completely collapsed, he couldn't imagine that the things that he once thought were Cheng Luoyi did, in fact, were all done by the person he loved the most, Fu Disheng, and Fu Disheng was only for his money, so what is he? ?

He couldn't believe that he was holding his head in his hands in despair, and he grabbed his hair fiercely, not knowing what to do. When he calmed down, he thought of something and rushed out of Cheng Luoyi's room, wanting to find a doctor Li to ask something, but he found that it was already dark outside, and he wandered downstairs in confusion.

When he saw someone coming towards the building, he went up and asked. After asking several people, he asked for Dr. Li's home address, and he followed another neighbor to take the elevator up again.

Rang Dr. Li's doorbell, Dr. Li saw that it was Fu Qiming, nodded and motioned for him to come in, Fu Qiming didn't go in, and asked directly at the door: "Where is Cheng Luoyi's tombstone, where is he buried, you should know, please tell me where he was buried."

"—well, you know, you're going to ask this. Wang Shi didn't tell you?? ”

Fu Qiming shook his head, and the doctor looked at him and said, "You wait a minute, I'll write it down for you."

After speaking, he turned around and went to the room to get a piece of paper, then wrote down the address, took it and handed it to Fu Qiming and said, "Here you go, if you want to go, go!"

Five years ago, when he learned the address of Cheng Luoyi's tomb, Fu Qiming rushed to the staircase with a paper like crazy, sat down on the stairs, and went straight to his car.

Sitting in the car, he opened the address written on the note and entered the mobile phone navigation to go directly in that direction.

When Fu Qiming left, the doctor called Wang Shi. Wang Shi hung up after answering the phone, and directly turned the car around and drove in the other direction.

Fu Qiming rushed to the cemetery, and suddenly saw a familiar figure, now near the cemetery. When he walked over, he realized that this person was none other than Wang Shi.

"I'd love to say it! You don't deserve to come and see him, please go back. Wang Shi was wearing a beige windbreaker, leaning against the tree next to him, and turned to look at Fu Qiming.

Fu Qiming didn't want to pay attention to this person, and directly ignored and thought about it. Wang Shi grabbed him directly and pushed him back several steps.

"I- read the diaries, and I knew I wasn't worthy, but I wanted to go in and make it clear to him." Fu Qiming had no impulse, because he understood that there was no point in fighting the king at this time.

"Now that you have come here to repent and ask for forgiveness, do you still have a face? Can a dead man hear what you say, or can he crawl out of the tomb and tell you that he forgives you? Don't you think it's funny? ”

Wang Shi looked at Fu Qiming, couldn't help laughing, and laughed self-mockingly: "Do you know why he chose euthanasia?" Because he is afraid of pain, he is afraid that he will be tortured by the disease into an ugly appearance, he wants to leave in the best condition, he is still thinking about you in the end, but what about you? You—but you're married to someone else, you go, remember never to come here, you're not worthy, he said as he went, where he got there, he would forget you, forget all the sins he had suffered in this world, so don't let him remember the pain you brought him in that world. ”

When Fu Qiming heard this, his legs were a little weak and he couldn't stand and took a few steps back. His face turned pale and left the place.

Thinking of this, my mind was suddenly pulled back. He looked at the photo of the person on the tombstone, couldn't help but feel sad in his heart, and muttered to himself. He didn't stay in China for so many years, and because of this, he was afraid, he went to see Cheng Luoyi, and made the person who was already in that world suffer, so he hid abroad, and he hid for five years.

For five years, he didn't know how he was doing. Suddenly, the night sky remembered a series of fireworks, Fu Qiming's thoughts were pulled back, he touched Cheng Luoyi's tombstone with his hand, and muttered to himself: "I'm sorry, little fool, I know you don't want to see me, and you don't want to hear those words, you don't have to forgive me, never, I just hope that where you can forget me, and be happy."

As soon as he finished speaking, he heard footsteps coming this way behind him. Turning around, he saw a person coming over with a bouquet of flowers, he stopped three meters away from Fu Qiming, looked at Fu Qiming and said, "You really came over."

As he spoke, he walked over, put the flowers next to Cheng Luoyi's tombstone, looked at Fu Qiming and said, "Time flies so fast, five years have passed in a blink of an eye."

"Yes! It's been so long, you've always had an opinion about me for so many years, don't worry, I won't stay in the country for too long, I'll be gone in a few days, and I won't be back in the future, and I don't want to upset him. ”

Fu Qiming said and looked at the person next to him, paused and didn't know what to say. Wang Shi looked at him with a mocking look and said, "There are some things, let him pass in the past!" To be honest, I still don't want to see you here again. ”

Fu Qiming nodded, understanding what he meant.

"Why come here at night?" Fu Qiming asked rhetorically.

"This one! I come over every year on Chinese New Year's Eve, he likes the lively atmosphere on Chinese New Year's Eve and prefers to watch fireworks. I think you know this better than I do, so I come every year. ”

After speaking, Wang Shi touched Cheng Luoyi's tombstone, took out the wine he brought, poured a glass for the deceased and put it there, got up and looked at the people around him, turned around with an indifferent smile.

Fu Qiming looked at Wang Shi and wanted to leave, so he chased after him. Wang Shi looked at him, as if he wanted to ask, Fu Qiming hurriedly explained: "I think I should have a good talk with you now, and solve those misunderstandings in the past!"

"What do I have to talk to you about?"

"What is in the diary, I want to ......"

Wang Shi understood that he wanted to know more, so he motioned to look at the car next to Fu Qiming and said, "Drive along!" Actually, the diaries you read are incomplete. ”

Fu Qiming was a little puzzled, but after thinking about it, he finally nodded and agreed, and the two of them drove one after the other. About half an hour later, Fu Qiming followed Wang Shi's car to Cheng Luoyi's residence.

As soon as he got out of the car, Fu Qiming wanted to ask something, but Wang Shi didn't say anything but motioned for him to go up.

When he arrived at the place where Cheng Luoyi once lived, Fu Qiming found that it was still the same as five years ago, it was not too dirty, and it seemed that Wang Shi had asked people to come and disturb him.

Wang Shi took Fu Qiming to the room, looked at the diaries that were messed up by Fu Qiming, and said: "Actually, the five diaries here are specially selected by me to show you, and what you see is also the situation of his last year in your house, and the others are here, I didn't want you to see them back then, so I hid them."

As he spoke, he pointed under the bed. Then he bent down and took out all the things that were placed underneath, a whole carton of Cheng Luoyi's diary.

"He has had the habit of writing a diary for a long time, but you don't know it, this is what he wrote when he met you, you can take a look, and you can ask me if you don't understand anything else."

Fu Qiming nodded, and took the diary from his hand, this diary looked very shabby, at least the kind of very old book from more than ten years ago.

When Fu Qiming saw the words in the diary that sprinkled Cheng Luoyi, the past episodes in the diary seemed to bring him back to his high school life, like when he first met Cheng Luoyi.

At that time, Fu Qiming was going to school in the city, and because he didn't care about another rich child, he bullied two other classmates. With a few people he knew, he bravely helped others to be heroes, but he was seriously injured, and the rich boy wanted to take revenge on Fu Qiming, and refused to let Fu Qiming go

Fu Qiming was not afraid of this kind of thing, but Fu Qiming's father was a little worried, because at that time, although the Fu family was also rich, the foundation was not good. At that time, his father was still afraid of accidents, so in order to avoid risks, his father temporarily arranged Fu Qiming in a small town school.

Fu Qiming was reluctant at first, and quarreled with his father, but later he couldn't be forcibly sent over. In his eyes, there is nothing to do in the town, in his eyes, this place is a place where birds don't, and his thoughts are different from his father's.

That day, his driver's uncle wanted to send him to school, but Fu Qiming refused, so he went down halfway through the car. The driver was afraid of going back to be reprimanded by Mr. Fu, so he didn't dare to go back and followed him to the school, and when Fu Qiming entered the classroom, he took the initiative to go to the office and make it clear to the teachers and principals when they should be clear, so that the teachers and the principal could take care of them more.

When everything was arranged, he turned and went back. In the freshman class of Rainforest High School, the head teacher was introducing Fu Qiming to everyone in the class.

Fu Qiming didn't have a good impression of this place, he didn't bother to pay attention to these people with his hands in his trouser pockets, glanced at these people in the class angrily, listened to the teacher chattering endlessly, and muttered in a low voice: "Sure enough, it's a place where birds don't, a group of stupid melons!"