Girls are very sensitive, especially when it comes to this kind of topic, they always want to think the worst, so I smiled first, and then said to her, "Yadan, who is asking you about the guilt of Xingshi?" I'm just concerned about you. First of all, I think you are studying in Beijing alone, for your own ideals and future, how many students wait until graduation to have such an opportunity, you only study for half a semester, you can enter the film crew, although you are not the female number one, but Jin Zhiyong told me that even if it is the current scene, except for your true colors, you can't control it at all. ”

Fang Yadan nodded quite modestly: "I know this, the next time someone else is filming, I won't leave casually." ”

"That's good!" I continued: "As for the relationship between you and Jin Zhiyong, whether it is Lu Yuxin or me, the reason why you are so concerned is that everything is caring, especially me, only when I see that you meet the man you really like, I can rest assured, if it is really like Lu Yuxin said, you and Jin Zhiyong are not even acting on the spot, this is not only a harm to him, but also makes me feel extremely guilty, if it were not for me, I am afraid you would not wear this mask, and I also know very well that if a person lives in this world with a mask, Not just tired, but also more lonely, fearful, and restless. ”

"You mean, you don't have to take Jin Zhiyong to see my parents, or even let me sleep in his bed, that you will feel at ease, right?"

I smiled bitterly: "Yadan, you misunderstood what I meant, I mean, if you really fall in love with him, cherish it, if you don't like him, you don't need to compromise for me, in that case, not only will my heart ache, but also delay Jin Zhiyong." ”

Fang Yadan looked at me quietly for a while, and suddenly turned his face to the side, ignoring me.

From her expression, I can see that she has no feeling for Jin Zhiyong at all, just fooling me, or Lu Yuxin, in her heart, I still firmly occupy the most important position.

I waited for a while, and saw that she had not said a word, so I got up and sat down next to her, and reached out to hold her hand, which felt cold and slightly trembling, which made my heart feel extremely uneasy.

I said again: "Yadan, tell me the truth, what do you think of Jin Zhiyong?" ”

Fang Yadan suddenly turned her face, the distance between our faces was less than five centimeters, and she said expressionlessly: "I just gave you the most precious thing in my life, do you think I will be able to fall in love with another man when I turn around?" Who are you and I, a girl with watery poplars, or the master who came out of the fireworks willow alley? ”

Her words hurt my heart and made me panic, so I hurriedly said, "In that case, why don't you just maintain a teacher-student relationship with Jin Zhiyong, so that he has to have a delusion?" ”

"I know it's hard for you, because you can't face Lu Yuxin, and if Song Nina knows about our relationship, she will definitely be entangled with you, and besides, if I don't have a boyfriend by my side, you will also have trouble sleeping because of the guilt of me, I had to pretend to be in love with him, but I never let him touch me, let alone hug and kiss, and I didn't even let him hold my hand. It's just that when he's out there and says I'm his girlfriend, I don't have a defense. ”

There is no doubt that Fang Yadan is such a girl, with strong self-esteem, but also empathetic, in order not to worry me, she can sacrifice everything and bear the loneliness, pain and great pressure in her heart silently alone.

And I once believed that this was the truth, and it seemed that I still did not know enough about her, although I was aware and suspicious, but I always deceived myself into believing that she was really empathetic.

Think about it, if she really fell in love with Jin Zhiyong at first sight, it would be impossible to give me the most precious first time in her life, since she was so dedicated to me without hesitation, how could she accept Jin Zhiyong?

If it weren't for her sitting on the sidelines, I would have really wanted to slap myself in the face.

Having said that, I can neither persuade her to forget me, nor persuade her to love Jin Zhiyong, so I had to sigh: "Yadan, you also know my actual situation, between me and Lu Yuxin, it is not like the kind of sister and brother love that ordinary people play around, she gave birth to a son for me, do you think I can marry another girl without marrying her in this life?" If I can bear her, I will reply to other women as well. ”

"I didn't let you bear her, if you hadn't asked me today, I would never have told the secret in my heart."

"Although we are all very young, there will always be a day when we talk about marriage, and at that time, if all our classmates have their own families, and you are still adrift in society alone, what do you want me to do, how can I bear it? And at that time, I was also dragging my family, and I am afraid that it will hurt not only you and me, but also more people, because our fruitless relationship has turned into a lifetime of pain. ”

Fang Yadan smiled: "Don't worry, at any time, I will not destroy your family in any role, you just live a good life at home, love your wife and children well, just because I don't exist at all." Like you just said, maybe at some point I'll meet the man I like, and then."

I didn't wait for her to finish, I couldn't help it, I leaned over and kissed her lightly, I didn't mean anything else, I just wanted to tell her that I actually loved her, and now I can't help myself, and it is impossible to abandon my wife and children for her, so I can only use my own long kiss to comfort her lonely heart.

I know that comforting her in this way is likely to backfire and rekindle her hope in me, but I can't fool myself, even if I don't touch it today, she will stick to herself for me for the rest of her life.

Every word of my persuasion is likely to be like a knife, constantly poking her in the heart.

So I changed my normal behavior, no longer trying to persuade her what to do, but using a long kiss to adjust my attitude, I can't let her punish herself with masochistic methods until she meets the man she likes.

My kisses, my hugs, will definitely make her feel warm in the lonely situation, as long as the heart does not die, love does not die, her inner world will have sunshine, with a sunny mentality in the world, maybe she can really meet the prince charming in her heart.

If her heart is like ashes, in front of an excellent man in front of her, I am afraid she will not be able to ignite her passion.

Although I know it's risky, I think of the method of fighting poison with poison, and maybe this last battle can have an unexpected effect.

Sure enough, under my long kiss, her whole body was crispy, and she completely collapsed in my arms, and I hugged tightly and kept kissing

I don't know how long it took, but she shyly pushed me away and whispered to me with a flushed face, "Hurry up and let the waiter serve the food, I'm hungry." ”

Just this sentence, I feel that her mood has completely changed, it seems that sometimes for extraordinary people, extraordinary means must be used to achieve unexpected results.

She was born in a single-parent family, and her self-esteem is so strong that she has extremely low self-esteem, and it is precisely because of this that sometimes she does not know how to win her dignity. To put it bluntly, it is a combination full of contradictions, unless she understands and experiences something herself, it is difficult for any external voice and power to change her heart.

I had already thought about it, and I took possession of her as a lover, until she woke up to her own consciousness and realized that it was impossible for me to live with her, and even began to hate me completely unconsciously, that she would start a new life for her.

I immediately turned around and called the waiter, asked him to bring up the food we ordered, and then reached out and pinched Fang Yadan's thigh, and said to her: "Yadan, don't talk about other things, during this time, you have to go all out to play your role well, and at the same time work hard to learn more acting skills on the set." If you want to gain a foothold in the entertainment industry, you must have real skills, don't let others feel that you are just a vase, in that case, it is the biggest tragedy of your life! ”

Fang Yadan glanced at me: "Why did you go out of the country and become more and more proficient in talking, almost catching up with our teacher?" Don't worry, from today onwards, I will try to cherish every day on the set! ”

"By the way, there's good news for you."

When she heard this, she completely changed the restrained attitude she had in front of me in the past, tilted her head, winked her eyes cutely, and asked me, "What good news?" ”

"I'm going to study in the capital on September 1st, and when the time comes, we can be together for a long time."

Fang Yadan stared at his already big eyes all of a sudden: "Really? ”

"Of course it's true." I leaned in front of her and whispered, "I studied at the police academy, and I can't usually go out, but I can still come out once a week, which means that in the future, I may ask you to open a room once a week, can't you refuse?" ”

Fang Yadan glanced at me, obviously feeling very sweet in his heart, but he deliberately said coldly: "I hate it, I just want that kind of thing, like a little rascal, and I still study in the police academy!" ”