"It's boundless darkness, you seem to have a body, you seem to be able to walk, but there is never an end, there, you can't make a sound, you can't see anything, you can't feel the temperature, you can only hear the sound outside. Lonely, lonely, and helpless, even a person like him, who has always been calm and calm, can't help but lose control of his emotions sometimes. ”

Xu Ziruo looked at the drizzle outside the car and muttered.

"How can I leave him alone at such a time? What's more, I really don't want to be in your circle anymore. ”

Xiao Jiangyuan was silent for a few seconds, looked at her focused and persistent expression, and slowly spoke: "If he doesn't wake up for the rest of his life, do you want to accompany him like this for the rest of his life?" ”

"Perhaps, who knows what will happen next?" Xu Ziruo said with a faint smile.

"But have you thought about it? Does he want you to do that? Xiao Jiangyuan asked seriously again.

"He wants me to be with you, but...... I don't want to. Xu Ziruo said frankly.

"Why?"

"I'm not his toy, I can do whatever he wants!" Xu Ziruo frowned lightly and said.

"We didn't mean that, I'm serious, I've never been so serious when I'm so old!" Xiao Jiangyuan swore an oath, but Xu Ziruo seemed to be a little funny, like a child swearing a curse.

"Okay, it's late, my parents are still waiting for me!" Xu Ziruo said with a chuckle.

Xiao Jiangyuan unwillingly unlocked the car, he knew that this matter could not be done in a day, but this time he had enough patience, because Xu Ziruo was indeed different from the other girls he had seen.

"Thank you for sending me back." Her parents' education made her politely say this to Xiao Jiangyuan, and then walked home without looking back.

Xiao Jiangyuan didn't get out of the car, but sat in the car and silently watched her back, the lonely and lonely back, like when he saw Cang Yu leaving in this body today.

The drizzle wet her hair, Xu Ziruo opened the door and walked in, the lights in the house were dark, she thought that maybe it was too late for her parents to fall asleep, so she walked in lightly.

When he arrived in the living room, the lights suddenly turned on, Xu Ziruo turned around and saw his mother sitting on the sofa, his father standing in front of the floor-to-ceiling window, and there was still a table of untouched meals in the living room.

"Mom, Dad, why haven't you eaten?" Xu Ziruo asked.

"Ziruo, didn't you say I'd cook for you?" Father said, looking out of the courtyard.

Following his line of sight, Xu Ziruo saw that the bright yellow sports car was still parked in place, and he couldn't see what the people in the car were doing in the drizzle.

"I forgot for a while, I'm sorry, I'm going to have a hot meal, you guys hurry up and eat and sleep." Xu Ziruo turned around and walked towards the restaurant.

"Ziruo, who is that person?" Father Xu asked slowly, his eyes were always on the car in the courtyard.

"It's a friend." Xu Ziruo replied while putting the dishes in the microwave.

Mother Xu stood up, walked to the dining table and stood still, and asked with a gloomy face, "Friend?" Will your friend send you back and never leave? If we hadn't been here, I'm afraid he would have come in! ”

Xu Ziruo looked up at his mother suddenly, and said in a panic: "Mom, why do you think so, in your eyes, I am that kind of person?" ”

Mother Xu's face was even more gloomy, "We didn't think you would be willing to be someone else's mistress before, you have already changed, this is just entering the hospital, you will find a home immediately, let's say!" What kind of big shot is this time? ”

"I said, it's just friends!" Xu Ziruo replied stubbornly.

For a while, the mother and daughter were tense, and the air was full of tension.

Father Xu didn't say a word, silently turned around and walked back to the bedroom, only the sound of the door slamming shut expressed his dissatisfaction.

Xu Ziruo's heart rang with the sound of the door closing, and an unprecedented sense of loneliness struck, Cang Yu was not there, Nie An was not there, and her parents' conjecture made her feel like she was on an island, and only a sense of powerlessness surrounded her.

After so long, the pent-up emotions exploded at this moment, and Xu Ziruo cried: "I only love him alone, he just lies there and can't move, and I won't leave him!" ”

After all, her mother loved her, and with her crying, Mother Xu also shed tears, she walked over and hugged her daughter, sobbing and said: "Ziruo, my parents are afraid that you will learn badly, you know, we have always regarded you as a treasure in the palm of our hands, we don't want you to marry into a rich family, we just hope that you find someone who loves you, and hold you in the palm of your hand......"

Xu Ziruo hugged her mother tightly, she could no longer suppress the sadness in her heart, for so many days, she pretended to be strong and pretended to be calm, but only her own heart knew how much she hoped that all this was a nightmare, and when she woke up in the morning, that person was still beside her pillow.

"Why? Why him? Why is he lying there alone now, and yet he wants me to endure all this? ”

Xu Ziruo cried and shouted without a trace of concealment.

"He was the first person I fell in love with, I gave him everything, but why wasn't it me who was with him, even such a motionless person, someone wanted to fight for it!"

The crying alarmed Xu's father, watching his daughter collapse, the old father could only silently wipe his tears on the side, he thought that there would be such a day, but he didn't expect it to be this kind of ending.

Xiao Jiangyuan sat in the car, in the dark night, the living room with the lights on was like a movie screen, and the people in the room were playing heartbroken mimes.

The girl was heartbroken, but not because of him, but it was her persistence that made him feel that she was different from others.

His emotions wanted him to go down and knock on the door now, and then take the girl into his arms, but his sanity knew that she would not accept him at all now.

Her calmness along the way turned out to be all disguise, it turned out that she would also break down and cry like this, and it turned out that she also had unbearable pain......

After venting enough, Xu Ziruo wiped his tears and turned around to get hot dishes in the microwave, but he was suddenly scalded.

"Wear gloves when you come out of the microwave!" Cangyu's previous advice suddenly rang in his ears.

Xu Ziruo raised his hand to wipe his tears, simply stopped eating, and walked to the bedroom with his head down.

"I'm tired, go to sleep first." Her voice was hoarse and sounded exhausted.

The big bed was full of the fragrance of laundry detergent, and Xu Ziruo couldn't smell him at all.

She got up and went to the bathroom, took out his favorite tea-scented cologne, and sprayed it on the quilt, at first the smell condensed together, pungent, and then faded away, just like the scent on his body in the past.

Xu Ziruo was lying on the bed, as if the whole person had fallen into his arms, she bent her arms to hug herself, pretending to be in his arms.

Tears flowed quietly, just like every lovelorn girl, Xu Ziruo lay quietly on the bed and drank tears.

Ah Yu, it's all a dream, right? Tomorrow when you wake up, you will open your eyes and tell me that everything is just a dream, tell me that you only love me, and this time I will tell you without hesitation that I love you and never joke with you again......

This time, I will believe whatever you say, I believe that you are the only one who loves me, even if you have to marry her, I will not cry, I will obediently wait for you to come back......

The tea was fragrant, Xu Ziruo hugged herself and gradually fell asleep, but in the dream, she frowned, as if she was muttering something uneasily......

The people in the bright yellow sports car watched as the lights of the whole room were turned off, and fell silent in the dark night, before starting the car and driving away.

In the second half of the night, the city is still brightly lit, and every bright lamp is waiting for the person who returns late, how many people are crying, how many people are laughing, and how many people know that the person who once lived in the admiration of everyone is now lying in a darkness, and even moving his fingers is a luxury.

In a city where every inch of land is valuable, he doesn't know how many luxurious resting places, whole floors, all of them, are worth the amount that ordinary people can't earn in a lifetime.

But now, his belonging is only in the hospital bed that is more than one meter wide and two meters long, and in the long night, those women who have tried to get close to him do not know who they sleep next to, but there is only darkness with him.

In life, happiness and sorrow are born, and sorrow is joyful, he has been secretly distressed by his hidden illness, but one day, he found that he was not sick, but only emotionally attached to such a person.

She had tried to run away from him, but in the end she fell under his gentleness, and he thought that when he returned, he could try to convince Ma You, convince his mother, and even if he couldn't, at least they could still be together.

However, without waiting for a chance to convince, he fell into a deep darkness, so powerless that he could only see the world through the eyes of the girl he loved so much, and could not even give her a hug.

Even when she was provoked by Mrs. Ma, he and his people could not appear, and they could not reveal their identities, which was the helplessness he had never felt in the first half of his life, even more so than when he broke up with Vivien.

All the work that can't be let go, someone will eventually do it instead of him, and all the people who can't let go, someone will eventually take care of him instead, but Xu Ziruo, he can't let go, can't let go, looking forward to her appearance, but he is afraid of taking her into this deep darkness together.

For Cang Yu, the night is a terrible existence, there is no movement, only the ticking of the instrument, let him know that this body trapped him is still alive.

But this kind of life may not be better than dying, at least you can cross the Nai He Bridge when you die, drink Meng Po soup, forget the mortal dust, regain your life, and have a body again, and you can see the singing of birds and flowers. But...... Many domestic and international experts have concluded that his body does not respond to external stimuli at all, and his body is no different from death except for electric shocks, which can speed up his heartbeat.

Even unlike some vegetative people, when people say something emotionally touching, an ECG can draw curves.

There are many kinds of languages, and it is not good at this time, because he can understand the language of all experts, even if he does not understand the technical terms, but he can hear the phrase "there is no hope" clearly.