Bi Lin knew that his situation was already very bad, but what made him feel even worse was that his mother didn't understand his situation at all.

He said he was going to take the civil service exam.

He vaguely felt that maybe reading would give him a temporary escape, because at least he had something to do and a goal to find.

But what I didn't expect was that the mother mistakenly thought that her son had figured it out and wanted to get back on his feet, and he was still a good son of his, a son worthy of pride and pride.

So she did not hesitate to spread the news, and almost all relatives and friends in her hometown already knew that Bi Lin was studying hard to prepare for the civil service examination, and he would definitely follow in his father's footsteps in the future, and he might also be an excellent judicial officer.

Meng Yue was also very proud in front of her mother's family and Bi Yuchen's husband's family, talking about how good Bi Lin was, how good he was.

Obviously, she put all her expectations for life on Bi Lin. Back then, when she married Bi Yuchen, her hope was in him, but now all her thoughts have turned to her son.

She almost quickly forgot that her son had just returned from grief in the Mordium, that he had just lost a job there, that he had just ended a rough relationship there.

She soon forgot all this, thinking that her son said that he wanted to take the civil service exam because he was ambitious.

I don't know that Bi Lin just uses reading as an excuse, a high-sounding excuse, that he can run to the library every day, and then stay quietly until the afternoon alone. Actually, he didn't do anything.

However, every day when I come home and see my mother's extremely cherished and distressed eyes, I warm my voice to myself, and from time to time I ask myself if I am tired of reading? Hungry or not? If you want to eat something, just tell your mother, and she will do it immediately.

And once he saw that he was holding the book, he became very cautious again, and he almost didn't dare to breathe for a while, which made Bi Lin invisibly fall into a new panic and annoyance.

Lies always have a day to be debunked. As the exam approached, Bi Lin fidgeted again. He knew that he would definitely not be able to pass, what would his mother have to react at that time?

He barely dared to even think about it.

In order to avoid his mother's special affection, he spent more and more time in the library every day, until the door closed.

And the result of his doing this was that Meng Yue thought that the exam was about to take place, and he needed to redouble his efforts, so she would quietly bring food to the library to find him, and when it was cold, she would also bring a piece of clothes, and sometimes even a cup of hot coffee, in a completely unexpected way, suddenly appeared when Bi Lin was dazed and sleepy.

When he saw his mother standing in front of him with a smile and handed him a cup of fragrant coffee, he felt his whole heart be turned upside down.

He lost his voice and asked her: Mom, why are you here?

Meng Yue happily gave him the coffee and said softly: It's cold, my mother is afraid that you will study alone for a long time and forget to drink water, you are always like this, if I don't remind you, you won't drink water. You see, mom brought you your favorite coffee. Okay, Mom won't bother you, you can drink it while it's hot, Mommy will go home and prepare dinner for you.

Bi Lin opened his mouth and said: Mom-

Meng Yue looked at him with a smile, and he didn't know how to express his love in his heart, and a thousand words turned into a soft word: Okay, mom went back, remember, there is heavy snow tonight, you better come back early, don't read so late every day, you can read it when you go home, mom promises, it will definitely not affect you. Gone—good—

Bi Lin is also speechless for his mother's magical maternal love. However, the cup of coffee was exactly what he wanted, because he hadn't slept well the night before, and he was already feeling a little drowsy by this time.

He opened the coffee and drank it slowly, simply took out his mobile phone, and began to read novels on the Internet.

Not only did he not sleep well the night before, but now he has insomnia.

The causes of insomnia are complex, and one of the most important factors is that the exam is coming soon, and his lies are about to be exposed.

Like a criminal who has not yet been caught, he waits anxiously for him to be arrested and the truth to be revealed. This kind of waiting and self-fear is actually even more maddening.

Many criminals actually feel that their lives have been suddenly released at the moment they are caught. Although the prison imprisoned his body, his heart, which had been tormented and hidden all day, was released.

Bi Lin now lives every day like a year.

He ran to the library every morning, and spent the whole day meditating in the library, thinking about how he could get out of the current situation, how to close the lie he had told.

But what he didn't expect was that he magically got out of this love, but he fell into a new mud pit again.

The sorrow that lingers in his heart every day has made him unable to make room for his heart, to reflect on the intoxicating old dreams with Chongju, to grieve the loneliness after losing him, and to cherish his unfinished feelings.

He didn't understand how he had ended up in this situation. He has been a good boy since he was a child, he never talks loudly to his mother, he does not talk back to the teacher, and he does not make everyone angry, he is a good child who is loved by everyone, and he is also the spiritual pillar that his mother has always been.

Now he was trapped in a lie he had taught, and he was getting tighter and tighter.

He regretted that he shouldn't have returned to the north with his mother in the first place, it was better to stay in the magic capital, and continue to find another job, maybe it would be better than now.

Nowadays, the civil service examination has become a stormy thing in the city, and every time he meets the neighbors and neighbors who see him, they will report it with a kind of awe smile that is enough to make him embarrassed, because in their opinion, the civil service examination is a natural thing, because his father is a justice. Everyone said, "The son of a judge is a judge."

This spit can literally poison people.

Bi Lin wanted to avoid everyone, he didn't want to see anyone, Mom, Dad, all relatives......

He can't talk to his mother about his so-called love, as soon as he says this, he will make his mother jump up, in the eyes of his mother, what kind of love is it, it's just stinky shit.

She even thinks that Chong Jue is a deceitter, and she has deceived one of her sons who is so good. All of this is not Bi Lin's fault, but the dead ghost Chongju, it's all his problem, and it's cheaper for him to die.

That's what Mom intended. She still doesn't want to admit that Bi Lin's feelings are actually real.

In her eyes, Bi Lin is just a child who has not entered the world, where does he know what ** love is? Not suing him is already a great forgiveness.

She always reminds Bi Lin: Child, mother understands you, let's forget him, it's okay, you are so young, you will definitely get your true love in the future. Mom believes that you will be able to overcome this hurdle.

Mother's comfort is sometimes the biggest pressure, so that Bi Lin's tears can only flow into his stomach.

If he is still more willing to speak, it may be a butterfly.

In his eyes, Butterfly is different from this kind of person after all, she is not so snobbish and not so worldly, and her speech and demeanor give people a certain feeling of being born. In short, she is not too unconventional, and seems to be relatively indifferent to the fame and fortune that the people around him regard as more important than life.

Of course, because he has nothing to do with her.

It's been a while since he left the magic capital, and he really wants to make a phone call with Butterfly, but he doesn't dare, for fear that a call will make her feel unnatural. But he was indeed very depressed in his heart, and those unfinished feelings were accumulated in his heart like an overnight meal.

Suddenly, one day, a thought popped up: why didn't he go back to the magic capital, return to that colorful city, and continue to live there, it would have been a mistake to come back, he should have stayed in the magic capital-