In the café.

Xu Ying sat in front of the TV and quietly watched the performance of Duan Zilian, and then gradually came back to her senses and couldn't help wiping the tears from the corners of her eyes.

Although she is not a professional and just a layman, she still can't help but feel sad when she listens to the sad melody that touches her heartstrings, as if she has seen the psychological changes of a seriously ill person as he walks towards the end of his life step by step, from sadness to anger and despair, and finally calmness and relief.

The story in the song is very simple, but under the performance of Duan Zilian, it is rejuvenated and becomes so touching.

Wiping away the tears from the corners of her eyes, Xu Ying adjusted her emotions.

However, she saw that some of the female guests of the café were also secretly wiping their tears, and when she watched Duan Zilian through the TV, there was also a different meaning in her eyes.

Seeing this, Xu Ying turned her head to look at the joke on the TV, and let out a depressed sigh.

Really, how many rivals does he have to provoke for himself?

……

in the hospital.

Watching Duan Zilian's performance through TV, Li Shuning was very satisfied, because Duan Zilian played very well and completely exceeded her expectations.

And after the performance, hearing the judges praise her tune, Li Shuning couldn't help but smile, her eyes flashed, and there were tears in the corners of her eyes.

After all, this piece was created by her based on her own experience, so listening to this piece, she can be said to be the most touched, as if she saw her previous self.

Anyway, the last wish was fulfilled, and at this moment, she felt as if her whole body was relaxed, as if she was about to be freed, and even had a feeling of dying without regrets.

Although the final is not over yet, and she has not yet seen the final result, however, she no longer cares.

Duan Zilian took her tunes to the stage and was recognized by the judges, which was enough for her.

Looking at the ceiling quietly, all of a sudden, Li Shuning felt that her eyelids became heavy, and her consciousness began to blur.

She knew that she might be ready to fall asleep again, but she still had one last thing to do, so she turned to look at her parents and asked weakly, "Dad, Mom, where's my phone?" ”

"Here, what's wrong?" Li Shuning's mother immediately took out her daughter's mobile phone.

really didn't have the strength to pick up the phone, and she didn't even have the strength to lift her arm, so Li Shuning could only ask her mother to help.

"Mom, you help me find Duan Zilian in my friends list, I'm going to send him a voice message."

"Okay." Li Shuning's mother answered, found Duan Zilian in the friend list of Li Shuning's mobile phone, clicked on the chat interface with Duan Zilian, clicked on the language input, and then put the phone on Li Shuning's mouth.

"Thank you." Li Shuning moved her lips and said softly.

"Mom, it's okay." She then asked her mother to send the voice message.

Li Shuning's mother nodded.

The last thing was also completed, Li Shuning looked at her mother and father, and a layer of water gradually appeared in her eyes: "Dad, Mom, I suddenly want to sleep again." ”

Hearing this, Li Shuning's mother was stunned for a moment, realized something, and gently stroked her daughter's cheek: "Well, Ning Ning, sleep if you want to......"

Before she could finish speaking, she couldn't help but cover her mouth with her hands, leaving tears uncontrollably, trying not to let herself cry.

"Ning Ning, sleep well, Mom and Dad will always be by your side." Li Shuning's father also said softly, but his eyes were already wet.

"Mom, Dad, thank you." Glancing at his parents affectionately, Li Shuning turned to look at the ceiling, his vision gradually blurred, and his consciousness was slowly fading away.

When her consciousness gradually dissipated, her mind couldn't help but recall her past.

……

That was when I was just in high school.

"Hello everyone, my name is Li Shuning, I am good at playing the piano, and my dream is to become a great pianist."

I stood on the podium and happily introduced myself to the new students in the audience.

Within a few days, I had made new friends.

But then, during a physical examination, I was diagnosed with leukemia, and it was a very serious kind.

So, I was hospitalized.

This was my first time in the hospital, and the smell of medicine and disinfectant water was mixed in the air, and I felt very uncomfortable and bored, and I wanted to be discharged from the hospital quickly, go to play the piano, and go to school to play with my classmates.

A few days later, as my condition was not very serious, I was discharged from the hospital and returned to school.

At this time, the news that I was seriously ill had spread in the class, and I don't know why, but my classmates all looked at me with disgust, and I greeted them, and they immediately hid away, as if I was a contagious plague.

That day, everyone's disgusted eyes made me feel very uncomfortable, and my chest was stuffy.

Why? Why are you all avoiding me? Aren't we friends?

Then, because of the homework, I was called into the office by the teacher.

"Li Shuning, where's your homework? Why didn't it be written? Didn't I ask my classmates to bring it to you? Did they take my words as a deaf ear? ”

"Teacher, I'm sorry, they brought me the homework, but I didn't write it."

"Obviously, you owe three days of class, and you don't write your homework yet, haven't you fallen behind in the past few days?"

"I'm sorry, I'll try to make it up when I get back."

After a few days, I felt very unwell, and when I went to the hospital to take a look, I found that my condition had relapsed and I had to be hospitalized and observed.

"Ning Ning, you are going to be hospitalized in the next few days, what do you want to eat, my mother will buy it for you."

"Chocolate Pie."

"Okay, Mom, I'll buy it for you."

Although I am going to be hospitalized, I am still a little happy because I have eaten the chocolate pie I have always wanted to eat today, and when I am discharged from the hospital and go back to school, I must show off to them.

However, as the days passed, I could not be discharged from the hospital.

Why can't I be discharged from the hospital yet? I feel like I've gotten better, why haven't I been discharged yet!

Staying in the hospital all the time, I was getting more and more irritable.

However, my classmates and former friends still take time to visit me from time to time, which makes me feel less bad.

"Ning Ning, when are you coming back to class? It's been a week. ”

"I don't know, maybe soon."

……

"Ning Ning, it's almost two weeks, aren't you okay?"

"I don't know."

……

"Hi Ningning, this is the homework that the teacher asked me to bring you."

"Well, just put it here. By the way, I'll be discharged from the hospital in a few days, and don't forget to come to my house on the weekends to listen to me play the piano. ”

"I'm ready to be discharged from the hospital, congratulations. But I'm sorry, I have an appointment with other classmates on the weekend, and I can't go to your house to listen to you play the piano. ”

“…… Well, it's okay, just wait for next time. ”

"Well, let's do it first, I still have something to do, so I'll go back first, bye-bye."

“…… Bye. ”

I don't know why, but there were fewer and fewer classmates and friends who came to see me, and even if they did, they only stayed for a few minutes, and I felt their alienation from me.

Why are you alienating me? Can't you talk more with me?

After I don't know how long, I was finally able to be discharged from the hospital and go back to the school of my dreams.

"Hey!" I happily greeted my classmates.

However......

"Who is she?"

"It seems to be a classmate in our class, but I don't remember it clearly, and I don't know her very well."

"It's the one who has been sick and hospitalized, I remember that her name seems to be Li Shuning."

……

Seeing that my classmates were distancing themselves from me, I retracted the hand that I had just raised to raise.

Because of the repeated hospitalization, I realized that I had long been forgotten by everyone, and no matter what they talked about, I couldn't fit in.

This feeling of loneliness, as if I was the only one left in the world, was depressed and very uncomfortable.

As time went by, the recurrence became more frequent, and my time in school became shorter and shorter, but again, the time spent in the hospital increased.

"Mom, when can I be discharged from the hospital?"

"Soon, a few more days."

It's this sentence again, it's this sentence every time, and that's what I hate to hear the most!

Now, no one comes to see me, not my classmates or my former friends, who have completely distanced themselves from me.

Didn't you say you were going to come and see me? Why didn't you come?

It's all liars!

In a fit of rage, I removed them all from my friends list.

"Hello, my name is Hu Kite, what is your name, sister?"

"Me? My name is Li Shuning. ”

Later, an older sister was admitted to my hospital room, she was very gentle, very beautiful, and willing to be friends with me.

I'm so happy to have made new friends.

But a few days later, the doctor and my mom told me that I could be discharged.

"Ning Ning, you can go home today."

"Huh? Can you go home? ”

"yes, haven't you always wanted to go home?"

"Hmmm......"

Actually, I didn't want to be discharged from the hospital at all, because I had just been friends with my big sister for a few days, and I wanted to talk to my big sister more.

"Sister, can I come and see you?"

"You can do it at any time, and I'm very welcome."

……

"Hey, Ning Ning, didn't you just go back a few days ago? Why did you come in again? ”

"The doctor wants to do a follow-up, so I'm going to stay in the hospital for a few more days, but that's okay, I have a lot to say to my sister."

"Well, I'm sorry, I'm going to be discharged from the hospital in a few days."

"That's ......"

"It's okay, don't be sad, I'll come to see you."

……

I was very sad the day my sister was discharged from the hospital, but the thought that she would come back to see me made me look forward to the rest of the day.

However, for a few days, my sister didn't come to see me, and when I sent her messages, she was always looking for all kinds of explanations.

Swindler!

Why deceive me!

In a fit of rage, I removed my sister from my friends list.

Later, I was discharged from the hospital again and was able to go back to school.

However, I don't want to go back to school at all, whether it is the teacher or the classmates, they are very unfamiliar with me, and even deliberately avoid me and look at me with disgust.

For me, such a school is hell.

So, I simply took a long vacation from school, came home, and practiced the piano silently by myself.

"Ning Ning, you are so powerful, such a difficult tune, you learned it so quickly."

"Hmm."

I couldn't be happy at all in the face of my mother's compliment, because I didn't have any friends.

Later, I participated in a provincial piano competition.

At the same time, my illness became more and more serious, and I became more and more miserable, so in order not to worry my parents, I learned to disguise, to close my heart in the boundless darkness, and to pretend to be cheerful and optimistic on the surface, but in fact, I was already suffering from the disease to the point that life was worse than death.

Days like this make me feel like I'm living in hell.

I know that my life is coming to an end day by day, I really don't want to accept such a fate, I still have one last wish that has not been fulfilled.

Is there really no way to do it?

Why? Why should I live in such a hell!

The darkness of the world hung over me, and I felt that nothing could be more desperate.

But just then, the light broke through the darkness.

This is a very warm light, as if it washed my heart, made me feel the hope and beauty of life, and also made me feel that it is not a very difficult thing to face my destiny calmly.

At the same time, a figure appeared in front of me, and he helped me fulfill my last wish.

My music was recognized, and this song became a proof of my existence in this world.

What's more, at the end of life, there are no regrets about being able to make a real friend.

Enough, that's enough.

Thank you for coming to me at my curtain call and warming me like a light.

Finally, let me be willful a little longer, I still have a small wish.

If I could, I'd like to be like you...... I want to be a light ...... too

……

With this last thought, Li Shuning slowly closed her eyes, smiled, and tears slipped from the corners of her eyes.

At the same time, the ECG suddenly calmed down.