Chapter 76: The so-called 'fear'
Unlucky.
Before pushing Torimaru out of the way, he was caught by Zi Ning and lost consciousness, and Tenma only had this thought in his head.
Sure enough, he shouldn't have formed a team with Torimaru, that guy can't even protect himself at all, and he still participates in this kind of battle.
Weak people should hide on the side of the road, and they can't protect themselves and rush up, which is why he can't get used to seeing Shimen.
The nobleman and the Suzaku may never get along.
One of them is as indifferent as ice, and they don't care about anything. One is as hot as fire, and he is very serious in what he does.
In the middle of the night, the boy in the forest clenched the hilt of his sword.
Cormorant Tenma knew that this was an illusion, and he snorted lightly, ready to break the illusion and go out.
At this time, the person who appeared in front of him made the young man's eyes slightly enlarged.
"Izumi-sato..... Sister"
Izumi Kuramiya chuckled as she walked over to Pegasus, her slick blood-stained hand stroking Pegasus' cheek.
The warm touch was exactly the same as it had been seven years ago, and from this all-too-real illusion world, you could feel the obvious malice towards Tenma.
"It's really a low-level hobby.,Peeking into other people's hearts or something....."
"That's right. I am Sister Quanli in your heart. But the fear you feel seems real, right? ”
"That's it, fear....?"
"That's right. In your heart, there is a deeply imprinted, lingering fear, and that is the fear called 'loneliness'."
"Loneliness is fear? Don't be stupid."
Cormorant Tenma snorted softly.
So far, he shouldn't have felt fear of being alone, and it's his personality that he will fight alone, and he is doing his duty as an onmyoji while thinking so.
The others will only get in the way, and there are only weak guys around, so they can only fight alone. He sees this as his calling.
If you want to talk about the reason, because you are the successor of the "nobleman", the strongest general.
However, Izumi Miya smiled lightly and shook his head in denial, "That's a lie." ”
"The reason why you keep your distance from other people is not because you like solitude, but because you are afraid of loneliness"
"You say, scared?"
"You're afraid of being betrayed by people you trust, so you're ..... set up a line of defense! How timid are you? Mr. 'The Strongest'"
"Don't just talk about it....!"
"Isn't it just talking?"
Izumi's blood-stained face contorted with pleasure, and she wiped the corners of Pema's eyes with her fingertips.
"Because, didn't you cry at that time, that night, when you knew that you were betrayed by everyone, didn't you tremble?"
“.....!”
Beside Pegasus, a small, hunched boy appeared.
It's myself when I was ten years old.
That day, the night of the Gu Poison Ritual..... As the ceremony began, all the staff came at them.
And in the end, my sister, who was killed by her own hands, only saw herself as a monster, and she was forced to sobble and sobble after these shocks.
Ahh I was such a weak person.
"Lonely because you're the strongest? No, no. The spring smiled slightly.
"You didn't become lonely because you inherited the 'noble', before that, you were lonely from the beginning!"
There is no way to refute it.
Even brothers and sisters do not think of themselves as human beings, and they will always be alone, whether in the past or in the future.
There will be no one who understands themselves.
"You seem to be able to say, 'You don't need anyone'—"
Looking directly at Pegasus' face, Izumi continued to speak.
"But is there anyone in this world who needs you? It's not the 'noble' or the strongest heavenly general who looks like this. It's you, as the Cormorant Tenma, is there really someone who needs you like this? ”
"The people around you also think of you as a monster in their hearts, and they are afraid of you. In this way, it is not strange to be betrayed whenever you are, right? ”
Betrayed - the word that my sister said made the cormorant palace Tenma shocked.
It's as if even my heart has returned to that night.
I have an extreme fear of who will betray me.
"You're a sinner, everyone on the island knows it. On the surface, they praise you as the 'strongest', but behind their backs, they all say that you are a 'murderer'. ”
Looking down at Pegasus, Izumisi continues to speak curse-like words.
"What's the point of your 'strongest'? After inheriting the 'nobles'..... Has anything ever happened to be happy? No, right....? ”
“⋯⋯”
Tenma still can't answer Izumi's question.
Speaking of which, there is no need to answer.
The words in the spring were all generated from her own deep consciousness, and the questions she threw out were the same as the questions she had cherished for many years.
"So, just stay here."
"..... stay here?"
"Even if you wake up, you're only scorned by the people around you, saying you're a monster or something, a monster or something, and you're completely afraid. What is praised is only the "strongest", which is thin ~~~ to the point of not being good and insignificant. ”
"Even if you go back, all that awaits you is a lonely world that doesn't need you as a person. In that case, it's better to abandon your life, mana, and Onmyoji's mission and just disappear. ”
"That's it, gone..... ?
"In this way, you will be liberated from all loneliness, and you will not be betrayed by someone you trust, and you will not be hurt."
Cormorant Tenma couldn't deny Izumi's words. Perhaps somewhere in his heart, he was ready to accept it.
But.....
"Are you such an easily talker?"
"Ah..... Really," there was an indescribable irony in the low laughter, and the abdomen of the cormorant spring in front of him was pierced by a dark red blade.
"As for me, I really lost to that girl," the different-colored eyes flickered slightly, and the cormorant palace Tenma evoked a flamboyant and frivolous smile.
"I won't comment on what others do, but ah, I don't want to be laughed at when the girl who went to the local area comes back~"
Perhaps, as said in the spring of the cormorant, many people carried him behind his back, saying that he was a monster.
But, so what?
He doesn't need everyone to understand him.
He just needs that person to understand him.
That's enough.
Just like thousands of years ago, just do what you believe in morality.
Regardless of what he says in posterity.