There are some things that always have to be endured by one person, for example, the helplessness and sadness that are buried deep in the past.

He stood in this bustling and noisy world, but he looked indifferently like an outsider, without any sense of substitution, but he was in this place all the time.

It's a strange feeling, and it's lonely, and the loneliness makes people feel that there is nothing left in this world to be nostalgic for.

Gu Qingyan closed his eyes and didn't say the chilling words, just nodded: "Hmm." ”

"Qingyan, sometimes don't dwell too much on the past, and don't take those things too seriously, if you care more about it, the more they will pester you, and when the time is right, you must choose to give up."

What to give up? Give up the so-called, the imposed responsibilities, the vows that others forced to make, give up the hatreds, don't get trapped in the past, don't stay away from the world.

You know, being in the world, no matter what you think, you are in the world!

There is nothing transcendent, unless, wrecked!

Obviously, the path Gu Qingyan wants to take is not related to transcendent things, or even a little above board, then, this is obvious, looking at those things, won't you be sad?

Maybe Gu Qingyan really doesn't have a heart, and he doesn't know what it means to be sad, but those who care about him will be sad!

Seeing that he doesn't understand people's emotions and love and hatred, and seeing that he doesn't understand those helplessness and sentimentality, that kind of loneliness is like a wall, wide and boundless.

How can I get him out? There seems to be no way and no way out of it.

All of them watched, and fate was like an invisible hand that pushed everyone to the position of a pawn and began to play its part.

That kind of powerlessness is the most maddening.

"Give up ......, you can't ......."

"Can't give up !!" Then a sharp, somewhat crazy sound exploded in my ears, piercing my ears and my heart like a needle.

"Qingyan! Have you forgotten? Why did I become like this? Yes? You promised me, you promised me, you must guard this secret, you promised? ”

Her sharp and piercing voice was like thunder, and even though he knew that the person was stubborn and already a little crazy, he still couldn't help but feel distressed and wanted to agree to her request.

"Good ......." He was defeated in those crazy eyes, and he agreed, and made a vow that he would spend his life fulfilling such a promise.

"Okay, I promise you." If he could go back in time, the first thing he would do was to sew up the cowardly child's mouth, how could he ......, like this!

Gu Qingyan's breathing became slightly heavier, and his heart began to beat violently.

"Qingyan, Qingyan, you are really a good boy of your mother, so be it,......, hahaha, I was killed like this, you, them, can't live so well!!!!"

The terrible voice seemed to swing out in the darkness, and for a moment the hair was countdown, and he knelt before the mad woman, and lowered his eyebrows.

"Hahahaha...... Qingyan, you are my last hope, my last ......."

Her voice slowly lowered, as if she couldn't hold on anymore.

After going crazy, she slowly came to her senses.

The young Gu Qingyan knelt down, his knee felt a little painful, and the man helped him up with gentle movements. "Qingyan, Qingyan."

When she came to her senses, she would always call other people's names one by one, as if she was very insecure.

In his memory, there is always darkness and madness many times, and he is either beaten or scolded.

When she was sick, she would always beat and scold people, Gu Qingyan would be beaten and her head would bleed, at that time, her father didn't care about these things, and he turned a blind eye many times.

If it's too serious, it's a little bit of a treat.

Gu Qingyan was curled up in the corner trembling many times, and then watched that person smash things, sometimes hitting him, and when she saw blood all of a sudden, she would be even more crazy.

When he was a child, his memories were full of hoarse viciousness, and later spurs, death and determination made him remember almost a lifetime.

Until now, that kind of memory has made him remember it deeply, and he is not in a hurry.

Later, the mad woman died, and his oath was laid down with death, and he stood at a distance and watched indifferently, but there was a hole in his heart, like an aimless heart's work, flowing sideways in his heart, and the pain was about to make people faint.

Later, he was taken away by the master, and he grew up and grew up, killing people, and walked into those deep pasts, and he seemed so indifferent, so silent.

So much so that the master felt that he was too cold-blooded, and then had a big fight, but in the end it ended in failure, and since then, he has been trapped in the memory of his death, but his body is wandering like a walking corpse, with no end!

He knows what kind of person he is, and he knows how terrible he really is, but he is not exempt from the world, and everything in this world is not exempt from the world.

In the past, he wanted that person to die, but she really died in front of him, and in such a decisive way, he suddenly felt too sad, and a hole was pierced in his heart, until now, the wound has scabbed, but it has not been better, and it has been hurting.

Now, he also consciously put on the shackles, and then trapped himself in place.

Even Shangguan Yue, who has protected himself for so long, can become a victim!

Shen Chenzhou suddenly stretched out his hand and patted him, Gu Qingyan convulsed for a while, and coughed violently: "Ahem, cough, cough!" ”

"Qingyan, Qingyan! Are you alright? ”

Gu Qingyan coughed for a long time, slowly stopped, and waved his hand: "It's okay." ”

Shen Chenzhou saw that he had stopped, so he sighed: "It's okay." ”

Gu Qingyan said: "Okay, that's it, I'll talk to you about something." ”

"Well, that's probably it, in a few days, I'll go meet and recognize, that person ......."

Gu Qingyan closed his eyes and sighed, his long eyelashes were long attached to the tail of his eyes, with a strange sense of weakness.

"Qingyan, you ......."

"What's wrong?"

"Are you ...... and regretted it?"

Gu Qingyan paused: "Well, I regret it, but ......, I can't turn back, you know?" ”

Can't, still won't! Reluctance or ......, others!

Half a salary, Shen Shenzhou nodded lowly: "Okay, I understand." ”

Gu Qingyan got up and left, his figure drowning in the darkness, drowning.