Inside the Jiaofang Palace.

Empress Pei sat silently in front of the window, the bright candle flame reflected on her increasingly ruddy face.

Luo Guiren was "promoted" by Queen Pei, and was overturned by Emperor Xuanhe tonight. Empress Pei found a way to "deal with" Emperor Xuanhe, but she didn't have much joy in her heart, and even a little dazed.

Cheng Jinrong looked at Queen Pei with a stunned expression, and sighed in his heart.

Empress Pei has been suffering for so many years and is becoming more and more depressed. But her nature is still kind and innocent. That's why I feel at a loss because of such things that benefit others and benefit myself.

Cheng Jinrong glanced at Xiang Lan.

Xiang Lan led all the palace maids to retreat.

There are only two people left in the bedroom, Cheng Jinrong and Queen Pei.

Cheng Jinrong walked up to Queen Pei and shouted softly: "Mother." ”

Empress Pei's body trembled, and she came back to her senses in an instant.

In addition to the day they met, Cheng Jinrong also called her the queen mother in private. This is the first time she has been called mother.

"Jinrong," Empress Pei's eyes were complicated, almost indescribable: "I...... I really hate myself sometimes. I'm such a cowardly and useless person. Just such a small thing, I will also feel uncomfortable. ”

"I know that doing this is beneficial to me, the queen, can solve my predicament, and can also suppress the limelight of Emperor Zheng's concubine. can also collect harem concubines. For Luo Guiren, it is also a good thing that is beneficial and harmless. ”

"However, there is always a little heavy and uncomfortable in my heart."

Queen Pei was in a chaotic mood and couldn't say anything.

Cheng Jinrong stared at Queen Pei and said softly: "Mother, I know how you feel. You are gentle and kind, and you treat people with sincerity. You don't have the scheming of the city, you don't calculate, you don't take advantage of others. ”

"But now you're slowly changing, so you're worried about your own change. You are afraid that you will lose your heart in power and become a different person. ”

……

The last sentence was direct and sharp, like a sharp arrow stabbing Queen Pei in the chest.

Empress Pei's body trembled again, and her eyes flashed with water. After a while, he choked up and whispered: "Yes, I'm afraid." ”

"Over the years, I have been recuperating in a closed palace, and I am also closing myself."

"I know that as a queen, you can hold power. Because the Pei family became a queen, they became the upstart of the capital. But from the bottom of my heart, I hated this court and didn't want to interact with anyone. I also deeply hate these four words of Queen of the Middle Palace. ”

But now, her daughter entered the palace, came to her side, and pulled her out of the dark and closed world.

She can no longer run away from hiding and has to face her identity as queen.

She can't back down anymore, she wants to use the power of the queen to protect the safety of her daughter, protect the six princes, and protect herself.

She wants to learn to be a real queen of the middle palace, with the means, the city and the scheming.

Is she still Pei Wanru like this?

Is such Pei Wanru still the kind woman that Cheng Wang loves?

Empress Pei suddenly stretched out her hand to hug Cheng Jinrong and cried silently.

Cheng Jinrong's eyes were also hot, and he hugged Queen Pei's body tightly, and gently comforted his mother: "Mother, don't be sad." You are yourself at all times. I believe that no matter what time comes, you will be able to keep your heart and not lose yourself because of power. ”

"If you want to break free, you have to change yourself. I can understand your struggle. ”

"No matter what you become, you will always be my mother."

"Someday...... My dad won't blame you either. ”

Queen Pei's shoulders kept swaying, and her tears fell more quickly and violently.

Cheng Wang is the deepest pain and scar in Queen Pei's heart.

The mother and daughter have reunited and recognized each other for so long, and Queen Pei has never mentioned the process. Cheng Jinrong also thoughtfully never asked. At this time, when Cheng Wang was mentioned, Queen Pei burst into tears, sad and sad.

"Jinrong, what should I do."

Queen Pei couldn't cry, her voice was intermittent: "Jinrong, I miss your father so much...... However, I'm afraid I won't be able to leave the court in this life, and I won't be able to see your father...... Even if I had the chance, I wouldn't have the face to see him...... Jinrong, what the hell should I do. When I think of your father, my heart aches like a knife......"

The words are sad and bloody.

Cheng Jinrong's eyes were also red, but she didn't cry, and said softly and firmly: "Mother, the fault of what happened back then was not yours." You don't have to blame yourself for it. ”

"I think that even if my father knows everything, he will only feel sorry for you, and he won't blame you."

"Don't think about this to torture yourself, let go of everything, let yourself go!"

Queen Pei didn't know how long she cried, and after crying, she fell asleep in Cheng Jinrong's arms.

Cheng Jinrong quietly hugged Queen Pei for a long time, and then picked up Queen Pei.

Empress Pei is not short, she is considered medium among women, but she is as light as an eleven or twelve-year-old child. Cheng Jinrong used a little force to hug Queen Pei.

Holding Queen Pei, I knew what thinness was.

Cheng Jinrong's nose was slightly sour, and he held Queen Pei steadily, and gently put it on the phoenix. took off the hairpin for Queen Pei, took off her shoes and socks, and covered the futon for Queen Pei.

Queen Pei cried so hard that she fell asleep.

Crying is not a bad thing, and the pain that is trapped in the heart will dissipate along with tears and crying. Queen Pei's heart knots were untied one by one, and the day of healing was getting closer and closer.

Cheng Jinrong lowered his head and gave a light kiss on Queen Pei's forehead.

Mother, get a good night's sleep and throw all the nightmares behind.

I will always be there for you.

……

Queen Pei slept very sweetly this night. On the second day, I woke up at three poles.

People sleep well and are in good spirits.

After a night, the crying red eyes also returned to clarity.

Cheng Jinrong saw it in his eyes, was very pleased, and said with a smile: "The medicine has been boiled, and Weichen is waiting for the mother to take the decoction." ”

Empress Pei smiled and hummed.

Empress Pei drank medicine all year round and hated the bitter decoction. In the past, I often drank one or two sips, but I refused to drink again, and it was useless to persuade anyone.

Now that she has fighting spirit and hope, no matter how bitter the decoction is, Queen Pei feels sweet when she drinks it.

Cheng Jinrong fed it spoonful by spoonful, and Queen Pei drank it one by one. In less than a moment, a bowl of decoction was drunk cleanly. After drinking the decoction, Cheng Jinrong took the candied fruit and said with a smile: "The decoction is bitter, and the mother eats some candied fruit." ”

Queen Pei picked up a piece of candied fruit, put it in her mouth, and then smiled at Cheng Jinrong: "It's very sweet." ”

Cheng Jinrong pursed his lips and smiled, took another cup of honey water, and sent it into the hands of Queen Pei.

The honey water is mixed with honey, and it is very sweet in the mouth. Soon, the bitterness brought by the decoction was washed away.

At this moment, Qing Dai came in to report: "Queen Qi, Luo Guiren came to say goodbye." Zhao Guiren and Xu Meiren also waited outside the palace together, wanting to say hello to the queen. ”